Severus' choices

by Acop

AU. How one choice changed history's course, or the life of Severus Snape from Hogwarts to adulthood if characters were less caricatural, and Voldemort and the Death Eaters were more than bogeymen (this is an AU, events before and after may differ from the books).

76. Arc IV Death Eater - Lord Voldemort

AN-1: This is the last chapter of this story, though we still have four epilogues to go.
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Finally, there are no words to thank Miette, without whom we would still be lost somewhere in China while I got tangled with too many plot threads, and Dstone12, for correcting my English mistakes and asking questions that pushed Severus on a business path far more developed than originally planned.
AN-2: The epilogues will happen at various times in the future, to try to round up any interrogations left. Don't hesitate to tell me what you'd like to read in these epilogues. I don't promise I will include everything you propose but if it fits with what I have already planned, I will. It will also help me check I have not forgotten to answer anything big ;)
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The memorial was beautiful. Many came bearing gifts and words to honour the man who had believed in Slytherin's ideals and tried so hard to offer them to the Wizarding World. Death Eaters, but also Wizards from all Hogwarts' Houses as well as Wizards from the other English schools of magic. Foreigners who had been charmed by Lord Voldemort's oratory and ideas. A Werewolf delegation and a Giant representative.
One Merpeople Shoal as well as one Vampire Line had sent magical candles to be burnt during the ceremony as a show of their respect for the man, though Severus had not caught their names. No doubt it would be in the news tomorrow.
On this day, even the Daily Prophet did not dare imply that Lord Voldemort had been more than the charismatic leader of a political movement whose main goal was to protect the Wizarding World and its traditions, as well as all magical children.
Some would whisper. Only a few knew the truth. Lord Voldemort had not died from a magic experiment gone wrong. He had died from crossing magic boundaries. Because he had been afraid to die too soon. Or simply to die.
How different could this man have been if he had learnt from Goblins? Would he have listened to them? Would he have still tempted fate?
Lord Voldemort had not been himself in the end. How much was it from his magic twisting, and how much from the hidden depths of his own psyche?

Severus mourned him, despite what the man's arrogance had cost him. Jonathan was in Saint Mungo, physically sound but his mind lost inside himself thanks to Bellatrix's prolonged Cruciatus. Evan was under Auror Moody's custody. Lucius had mostly recovered from the Mark's disappearance though he still slept a lot during the day under Narcissa's watchful care, and spent many of his waking hours in pensive silence. Regulus was completely back to health, his recovery one of the fastest among the marked Death Eaters though Kreacher still shadowed him everytime he left Black Manor, but the young man was laying low as the Blacks mourned Bellatrix.

It could have been far worse. Both Augustus and Severus had suffered severe cases of core exhaustion and had been banned from using magic for three days after the fight. Narcissa's medical scans had shown the two House Heads had barely avoided magical comas. Their House members had been shaken too, feeling the drain on their Houses' Magic, but rest and core replenishing potions had quickly put everything back into order.
Frekka's special cakes had helped a lot too. She had gone to Caspian Manor when Kiveä had felt Dhaal take magic from their blood bond, and only gone back to Uusi when Severus had been back on his feet. He had no idea what she had told his House, but when he had come back from Nather Manor, unsteady and barely conscious from flow travelling on his severely depleted core, Dhaal no better than he was, they had clearly accepted her as an ally, if not family. Soon, there would be no more secrets.

Yes, he knew it could have been far worse. Still, Severus just couldn't shake the thought that he should have found a way to help Evan more. He should have tried harder to work on blocking the Mark's influence on its bearers. He should have gone to Marvolo earlier, before his Horcruxes made him paranoid and suspicious of Severus.
He had failed his friends, his family and his leader.

Dhaal whined softly. They had done their best.
And yet, Severus had troubles dealing with the last boxes behind his Occlumency trapdoor. They just did not want to disappear, no matter how many times he tried to face them.

He looked down at the box in his hand. So innocent. It might give him answers. Lord Voldemort, in his Last Will and Testament, had bequeathed Severus his Mémoires.
The other Death Eaters had seemed to find it fitting, each being happy with whatever their lost Lord had decided to gift them. He had left something to each of them, and even if it only was a small token, it still spoke of his care for them. Severus still could not believe Lord Voldemort had taken the time to write such a detailed will when he had believed himself invincible. Of course, as a true Slytherin, he may have anticipated being weak and barely kept alive by his Horcruxes if his main body was too damaged. Unless he had wanted to have the option of faking his death and disappearing without leaving his possessions to the Ministry. If Severus had not seen the man die with his own eyes, he might have held onto this hope. But he had been thorough when checking for other Horcruxes. The disappearance of the Marks and Nather Manor going into lockdown as soon as the Aurors had taken the unconscious Death Eaters in custody, only allowing them a shallow search of the devastated garden, were further confirmation that Marvolo was truly dead.

It didn't make the man any less puzzling. The thing was, Lord Voldemort had even gifted Jonathan a book on Russian politics linked to his family roots, when he seemed to have believed that he had betrayed him. Helhest, Marvolo had gifted Severus with his Mémoires even when he had set up a trap to test his loyalty. The man was so complicated to understand.

Severus looked around, watching the mourners speak in small groups. There was a lightness in the air, incongruous when you knew this was a memorial. The weight and corruption of the Mark had disappeared from all the Death Eaters' arms. Yet, all of them mourned their leader and the constant connection provided by the Marks which had bound them as family. Most of them were seeing each other for the first time since Lord Voldemort's death, and their relief at seeing many in good health was palpable.
Tomorrow, he would attend a group meeting, their first without Lord Voldemort's presence to hold them together. Would they remain united without him and his Marks? Only time would tell. They needed to assess the damage done by the capture and death of several of their members. The loss of the Mark had also shaken many of them, both physically and mentally. It would take time to rebuild from this.

At least, all was not lost. At first, Birkins had wanted to hold the election for Minister of Magic two weeks after Lord Voldemort's death. However, the Merlin statute giving him emergency decision making powers had been revoked following the apparent demise of the Death Eaters as a political force after Lord Voldemort's death and the death and arrests of some of his followers, so the motion had to be presented to the Wizengamot.
Considering the content of his lengthy meeting with Moody a few days ago, Severus was not surprised that with Dumbledore still "gone on his secret mission", the Wizengamot had proven reasonable and refused to approve the motion, stating that a minimum of one month was needed for the candidates to apply, and then at least another four months campaigning were required. It gave them time to organise themselves, though many Death Eaters were being cautious after Lord Voldemort's unusual demise. Who could they choose to have a chance to win?

But that was a worry for tomorrow.
Severus cast another look around, noticing his grandparents speaking with Maverick and an unknown man who had to be the Prince heir while Andromeda and Pandora were making what seemed to be a stilted conversation with Cygnus Black and his wife. Would Bellatrix's death allow Andromeda to build back some ties with her family? Selfishly, Severus hoped not. He had no desire to have Blacks in his home unless they were named Regulus.

Severus was grateful for his House's presence today. He had yet to give them all the sordid details, what with all the damage control to be done as the Ministry had tried to understand what had happened, Aurors milling everywhere and interrogating everyone while Minister Birkins had clung to his Merlin powers, but all his House members stood behind him firmly.
With Jonathan's coma, Evan only being allowed to be present for the ceremony and the reading of the will under Moody's watchful eyes, and Lucius still being too weak to linger after the ceremony, he would have felt very much alone without them. Augustus and Madeline were here, but they were also surrounded by their son's family. Severus had no desire for their first meeting to happen here.

Still, he seemed to be the only one brooding, standing on his own and unable to quiet his mind, pondering about what-if with Dhaal on his shoulder for sole comfort.
He looked back at the box. It might hold the answers to his questions, but would he feel better or worse afterwards? Would he discover he had been played and that Marvolo had never existed? Or worse, that he had been right all along about Marvolo?

"It would be worse not knowing," Sensed Dhaal softly.

Out of the mouths of Familiars came truth.

Nodding to himself, Severus spared one moment to catch Maverick's eye and gesture that he was leaving, then flow-travelled to his home. He shrugged out of his robes, putting on a comfortable shirt and pair of trousers from his time in China. Then he went to his office, set the box on his desk and spelled it back to its normal size.

There were numerous hardback notebooks inside it, carefully labelled and numbered. Curses research. Legilimency research. Governing organisations. Giants and Vampires. Various. Diary.
Severus' hands did not shake when he opened the first diary tome.

The entries were sporadic. Some were only one day apart when others could be weeks.
Severus skimmed through the pages, stopping on the entries that caught his eyes.

05/07/1937
Magic is real. I knew it.

05/07/1937
I think I made a mistake today.
I had a visitor this morning. Professor Albus Dumbledore. He offered for me to go to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I can leave the orphanage and come back only for summer holidays. I can be with people who possess Magic like me. He put my cupboard on fire to prove he could do Magic. The fire remained contained to the cupboard, it was neato.
Professor Dumbledore was nice until I told him I could create fire too, but with less control than him. I explained how I set fire to John and his cronies when they tried to take Phil's ball. I explained I had warned them last time when they took his dessert. But it did not matter. It never does. He gave me a headache then barely said goodbye. I don't regret what I did. It is peaceful now that they are gone.
Someone else will take me to get my school materials by the end of the month. I cannot wait.
I am a Wizard. I am a Wizard. I am a Wizard.

25/07/1937
Today, I went to Diagon Alley with my future Herbology teacher, Professor Beery. It was (amazing perfect) magical. Professor Beery was great. He explained the basics of the Wizarding World and got me books to work on during summer, so I won't be too lost at Hogwarts.
He explained that as a muggle orphan, my school fees are paid by the ministry fund for Muggleborns. My school robes and uniforms are second-hand and coming from this fund too. They are quite nice.
I need to know as much as I can before going there. I must be the best, so they have no excuse to send me back.

11/08/1937
I have to be well liked at Hogwarts. They will be less likely to expel me if they are happy to have me here.
I have to be like Richard. I don't understand why but the adults like it when he smiles all the time and talks with them about boring things.

20/08/1937
Phil is sulking. He fears remaining alone without my protection.

05/09/1937
Slytherin is the best.

06/09/1937
Magic is amazing. I don't need to go outside and use a pump to get cold water to wash. I just need to turn the tap. Some taps even give warm or hot water depending on how long you let them run.

05/10/1937
It's tiring to smile often and find subjects to make small talk with the professors once in a while, but it works. They like me. Except Dumbledore. I hope he will forget I wasn't always so… sunny.

20/10/1937
Gryffindors are loud. Hufflepuffs are weird. Ravenclaws are obsessed. Hogwarts is fun. Even if Dumbledore keeps watching me.

08/11/1937
Despite its proximity to the Great lake, Slytherin's common room is never damp nor cold. I cannot wait to learn all the charms to ensure I will never feel like an icicle again.

05/12/1937
Rule three is clever. Despite all the books I've read, I clearly did not know enough about the proper behaviour expected from a true Wizard. I was ignorant of the rules that govern the Wizarding World.
It was hard to ask for help, but Highmoore and Bright were gracious about it. I would say we are tentative friends.

28/12/1937
Few students remain at Hogwarts during the Yule holidays. It's the perfect time to explore. I've discovered the kitchen and its House Elves. They are all so helpful, it's not natural. Could they be playing a role like I am? I need to learn more about them.

02/01/1938
Being sunny works as well on the professors as the students, as long as you know how to show some bite as well in the common room. There's a hard balance to find here. It's tiring but it's worth it.

02/04/1938
I spoke to a snake today, one of the sculptures in the common room. I was trying to call for the Baron, to ask him about Hogwarts' history and Slytherin's part in its building. I must have focused too much on the three coiled snakes in the wall, because they came alive and answered me.
They were thrilled to meet a Speaker. The last time they met one was at least a century ago, although I am unsure snakes view time the same as Wizards do.
I really need to research my family. I thought Riddle was a muggle name, but Slytherin may be my ancestor. I may have family left who does not know about me. Magical family.

06/05/1938
Highmoore and Bright don't agree about House Elves. It seems that depending on your family, the tales of how they came to be Wizards' servants differ. But the consensus is that they are very powerful.

12/06/1938
I managed the Genealogy spell today. My mother was Merope Gaunt. My father was Tom Riddle Senior. He was a Muggle. She was a Witch. She descended from Slytherin. I cannot believe she died in childbirth. No heir of Slytherin could be killed by something so trivial.

10/07/1938
Phil does not want to spend time with me. He is jealous I got away while he remained behind with the others. The others want to spend time with me now that I reminded them of who I am. They thought my "special" school would make me weak. Idiots.

02/09/1938
Dumbledore is still watching me.

15/11/1938
I am officially friends with (Highmoore and Bright) Flennon and Marcus.

05/03/1939
I cannot find the Chamber of Secrets. It is frustrating. According to the Baron, Slytherin built a secret lair full of experiments and books in the castle. I need to find it, to prove I am his heir.
I hope to be King of Slytherin in three years. Knowledge is power.

06/06/1939
I'm not the only one Dumbledore doesn't like. He doesn't seem to like any Slytherins. I noticed that at the end of a lesson, he always manages to give less points to Slytherin than to Ravenclaw. Gryffindors also seem far too happy when they have detention with him.

05/09/1939
The Muggles are at War. I had heard things this summer about Czechoslovakia being attacked by Germany, but I was not worried. I heard Britain has officially declared war against Germany two days ago. The Muggleborns are afraid for their families. Flennon is right. It would have been easier if they had been taken from their families at birth like Slytherin recommended.

26/12/1939
Yule at Hogwarts is so much better than Christmas at the orphanage. Marcus got me a book about Yule traditions. I hope he's not disappointed by the temporary snake tattoo I created and gifted him.

18/01/1940
My tattoo has begun a new trend. Magic and creativity are the only limits to our style.
Slughorn has invited me to his next Slug Club evening.

26/07/1940
I can't believe it. The orphanage is being bombarded by German Muggles but Dippet still refuses to let me go back to Hogwarts for the rest of the summer because there would be no-one to supervise me! As if Hogwarts needed any professor to watch over me.

03/09/1940
I am so glad to be back at Hogwarts. The wards' warm welcome made me relax for the first time in weeks.

08/09/1940
Bombs are falling like rain over London. They call it the Blitz. The German Muggles are trying hard to conquer Britain. I heard Headmaster Dippet was called with other specialists to put wards on the royal family.
I really need to check which wards are efficient against muggle weapons. I hope they destroy the orphanage. I've been back at Hogwarts for a week but the constant tension from a summer of waiting for something is not completely gone – not that anyone would know. It's actually fascinating how my mind knows I'm safe, yet my body is still tensing at unusual noises now and then. I am reluctantly impressed by how little actual random destruction the Germans needed to make a whole population afraid. A useful lesson to keep in mind.

20/10/1940
I found out disturbing information. The Gaunt Line is cursed.
According to Ancient Houses: from the Middle Ages to the Civilised Centuries, the House of Gaunt was prideful, they made no allowance for the weak of mind and body. Fights – physical, magical and intellectual – were organised monthly among the family, between all members above eleven. Only the strongest survived, per the House motto Fort et Fier, which means Strong and Proud.
But one day, the newly sworn Head of House lost his teenage son during his monthly magical duel. Crazy with grief, the Head of House used a variation of the blood protection spell to prevent in-House fighting. Sadly, it went against the House Oath and only brought madness to the Line.
I am the last Gaunt alive.
The number of suicides and murders among my ancestors frightens me.

26/12/1940
I think Dumbledore remains at Hogwarts each Yule because I do. Too bad he could not do the same for summer.

27/12/1940
I wonder if keeping me at the orphanage was Dumbledore's way of trying to eliminate me without incriminating himself. Or if he wanted to remind me how precarious my situation is as a Half-blood orphan.
We all know that Dippet listens to Dumbledore first and foremost. It's a manoeuvre worthy of Slytherin and one I must remember. Quite surprising when you think about how much Dumbledore seems to despise us.

28/12/1940
I found the Chamber. It is proof I am Slytherin's heir. I never doubted I was, but it is still nice to have concrete evidence, in addition to my family tree.
Salazar's Familiar is still here. Baskos was very happy to see me. He has many things to teach me though he's a bit arrogant. But who wouldn't be if they were a Basilisk?

03/05/1941
For the first time, I have been invited to spend the summer at Flennon's House. I am never putting a foot in the orphanage again, except to destroy it. (Phil hasn't talked to me since my second year.) I must find ways to prevent others like me from suffering through this. It is only fitting for Slytherin's heir.

28/06/1941
I said goodbye to Baskos and promised to come back in September with treats and other snakes to keep him company. I did not dare to let him free to roam the grounds in my absence.

03/07/1941
The German Muggles are still bombarding England. I am so relieved to spend the summer at Flennon's.
Muggles' technology is evolving fast. Faster than Magic. Most of my yearmates don't seem aware of it. I don't see in them a desire to learn beyond what we are taught, be it from Hogwarts or their families.

25/07/1941
I hadn't realised there were so many parties to attend during summer when you are truly integrated in the Wizarding World! I cannot wait for a break, it's getting difficult not to call out some of the pompous idiots on their idiocy, but they are too well placed for me to afford it right now.
Thank Merlin that most of the Wizards I have met are interesting if not the most brilliant. Flennon's father has a lot of anecdotes about his work as an ambassador in the USA when he was younger, and his mother knows a lot of fun facts about Herbology. Almost as much as Lady Prince.
Lord Prince is severe but was genuinely interested in speaking with me and guiding me towards the right resources to learn about our world and about magic the two times we met. He introduced me to Lord Rowles, who is very confusing. The man keeps putting down non-Purebloods yet he is always praising me and telling me I am an exception. He almost got into an argument with Lord Prince about it: Lord Prince told him I was the living proof that non-Purebloods could excel as much as Purebloods, but Lord Rowles keeps saying I am an exception.
I know some Slytherins insist on the importance of blood, but I thought it was more about learning to belong to the Wizarding World. Isn't magic the only criteria we should be judged by? Muggleborns are not always the worst at Hogwarts even when they have many things to learn in addition to the school work. When I said so, Lord Rowles appeared surprised by my interjection but thoughtful.
Mister Beltram seems to be one of his best friends, which is a bit weird as Lord Rowles once was his Master. He seems to know so much about magic and doesn't mind teaching me spells.
I'm less impressed with Yaxley and Crabb, both of them are Pureblood but they barely know as much as I do about Magic and they are at least thirty! The others are not even worth mentioning.

28/07/1941
I received my prefect badge. Take that, Dumbledore. I'm going to be the perfect prefect.

10/09/1941
I cannot believe that there isn't a course about the importance of Houses and Oaths in Hogwarts. I cannot believe that Flennon and Marcus did not insist more on the subject. When I confronted them about it, they said that it's so natural to them that they forget that non-Purebloods don't know this. And that I'm so much the picture of the perfect Pureblood these days that they forget where I come from.

15/09/1941
We're finally working on interesting Magic. I don't understand how some of my peers have been able to cast Magic without being able to feel it.
I wonder if the ability to feel Magic is linked to the ability to use Legilimency.

15/10/1941
One of the Chamber entrances is in the Girls lavatory. One Ravenclaw saw me going in. I had never taken notice of her. She is two years younger than I am and a Muggleborn. She is everything I dislike about uncouth Muggleborns who don't care about our traditions.

17/10/1941
Swimming with Baskos in the Great Lake is so much fun! We may have frightened a few Merpeople. I'll go ask them if there is a potion they wish me to brew for them. No need to alienate them.

22/10/1941.
I received a letter from Lord Rowles today, asking me about my studies. I hope he's considering me as a potential apprentice.

15/11/1941
The girl is persistent. Myrtle Warren. She asked me to teach her about Wizards' customs.

10/04/1942
A Dark Lord has emerged in Russia. Grindelwald. He wants to conquer the World, to have Wizards rule benevolently over Muggles. As if that could ever work. No, to protect ourselves, we need to break all ties between Muggles and us. We need Muggleborns to believe they are Purebloods so they want to protect our world and tradition instead of erasing it with their muggle ways. And we must forbid mixed unions.

13/04/1942
I'm glad Slytherin left comprehensive materials about Legilimency and Occlumency in his Chamber. I want to be ready to test my mind reading among Muggles during summer before attempting more difficult subjects. I'm sure Dumbledore is proficient at both. I suspect he used Legilimency on me during our first meeting.

08/05/1942
I'm getting tired of comforting first and second years who get nightmares because they imagine that Grindelwald will come and enslave their family. But they all seemed better when I promised I would not let Grindelwald get to them. They are very trusting, no matter their House.

05/06/1942
Warren now behaves like a proper Pureblood, except she is far too emotive. I keep telling her she must control her feelings and not burst into tears at every slight. She must learn to answer in kind or get even without being caught. She will never survive the world otherwise.

25/06/1942
I overheard Dumbledore saying to Dippet that I reminded him of Grindelwald. Is this why he's always watching me? I would reassure him that I have no intention of ruling the muggle world if I thought he would believe me, but the fool would take this as proof I idolise Grindelwald and am following in his footsteps.

19/07/1942
I aced my OWLs, even in History of Magic and Wizarding traditions. Slytherin's books were a great help. So much more interesting and informative than Binns.

03/09/1942
I don't understand what happened. Ever since we've come back to Hogwarts, my yearmates have been obsessed with finding the right girl or boy to woo. I don't understand why they find it so interesting. Even Marcus and Flennon have not been spared.
Marcus asked me how my wooing of (Warren) Myrtle was going, when I only want her to be a proper Witch and to explore Magic.

18/09/1942
I would be so bored without the mysteries that Slytherin left in his chamber. There is just no pleasure in being on top of Slytherin's politics when my peers are so focused on their dalliances. At least, the seventh years accept me within their study group when Flennon and Marcus moon too much. Lord Rowles also recommended very interesting books to further my study of Legilimency.

24/12/1942
I suspect some Muggleborns had it worse than me before Hogwarts. Once I discovered how to wield Magic, I was safe. All children are not as strong as I was. They should not need to be.

26/12/1942
I almost got bitten by an Acromantula. I'm pretty sure Hagrid is keeping it as his pet. That guy is a menace. Acromantulas, no matter their size, are not cute, irresistible creatures.

02/01/1943
I am officially King of Slytherin. I have banned displays of affections between couples when the younger years are present. There is no need to scar them for life. It also gives me a reprieve from all their googly eyes and sugary cooing.
I also had to teach a lesson to Flint, to remind him that no, Purebloods are not better at Magic than a powerful and intelligent Half-Blood. I wonder what he would say if he knew that I'm managing him the same way I did muggle children who thought they were stronger than me back at the orphanage.

10/06/1943
Myrtle died today. It is my fault.
I allowed Baskos to go outside the Chamber for some fresh air and to kill Hagrid's pet, as Dumbledore is not taking care of the problem. I had not realised Baskos was a bit mad after remaining stuck inside the Chamber on his own for so many years. We never had any problem before when it was only the two of us.
Anyway, it seems he does not care about non-speakers and I had not realised someone was in the lavatory at the time. I am lucky only Myrtle was killed. The Acromantula is still here, but not for long if I have my way. Myrtle's death must not be allowed to destroy my plans.
I learnt my lesson today. Life is a fickle mistress. I must find a way to ensure I survive until Slytherin rules have become laws. Until I become Minister of Magic.
Dumbledore suspects it is my fault. For once, I cannot fault him. But for all his watching, he has no proof. One day, I will be the one with power over him and I will laugh as he bows before me.

12/06/1943
They expelled Hagrid and broke his wand. I don't understand how it could happen to a minor, and without a trial. Salazar would have crushed anyone who tried but Dumbledore only offered him a wood hut.
That man is such a hypocrite. He was his Head of House, but he did not confiscate Hagrid's dangerous pet despite my anonymous tip several months ago. It's always Dumbledore's fault. I should have made certain that one of the other prefects was near when they came to interrogate Hagrid. I only wanted the Acromantula gone and someone more closely watching Hagrid's clueless tendency to see monsters as harmless pets. Some would say I am guilty of the same but I am not keeping a dangerous "pet" in my dorm room trunk. Baskos would never have killed Myrtle if I had not needed him to hunt that Acromantula.

28/06/1943
I knew Slughorn was the right person to get the information I needed, though he was reluctant to share this powerful secret. Horcruxes. A way to cheat death. I need to make one. I am not sure I can pay the price.

25/08/1943
I found my father and grandparents this summer. The man spat in my face. Said I was a Monster like my mother. Apparently, she tricked him with a love potion. She stopped giving it to him just before my birth, thinking he really loved her after 14 months together under the potion's influence. The fool.
I lost my temper. They could have taken me in. Instead, the orphanage. The cold. The hunger. The loneliness. The questions when my powers first appeared. The bruises until I was able to control them. It is only more proof that Slytherin is right, Muggleborns and Half-bloods should be taken to the Wizarding World at birth.
I killed them. I needed people to practise the three Unforgivables on. I thought about using someone from the orphanage, since the German Muggles seem incapable of destroying at least one worthy target, but this was better. I was on my own to deal with the sacrifices and no one was here to creep up on me.
The practice was necessary, as unpleasant as it was. I must learn to choose the moment I allow the sacrifice to be made without using an external one. The temporary loss of my magic after putting my grandmother through the Imperio almost allowed my father to escape his doom. In the end, he made a fine sacrifice for my Horcrux.

26/08/1943
I'm Headboy. It will look good on my apprenticeship requests. I'm still hoping to get Lord Rowles as my master, but I must keep my options opened.

10/11/1943
I very much enjoy the seventh year debate group. It's an opportunity to test ideas and strategies.

22/06/1944
I graduated.
I already have several apprenticeship proposals. I have so much to learn. I won't be restricted by routines and lack of creativity like so many others.
No more Dumbledore.

23/06/1944
I said goodbye to Myrtle. She still does not know she died because of me and she never will. She wished me good luck and only wailed a little. She is improving. I gave her more ideas on how to torment students. Life as a ghost agrees with her.

23/06/1944
The chamber gifted me with a priceless parting gift: a wand with a core made from a Queen Cobra's scale. It's the perfect opposite to my Ollivanders wand with a Phoenix core.

10/08/1944
My new wand works like a charm.

10/10/1944
Master Rowles is a harsh taskmaster. I still think I impressed him, as he accepted me as an apprentice for both Potion and Defence against the Dark Arts.

08/03/1945
Dumbledore has defeated Grindelwald and imprisoned him in his own Russian tower. He is being hailed a hero. I admit he is powerful. I still have much to learn if I ever want to be able to beat him in a duel.
I wonder what Grindelwald's defeat will mean for us Slytherins. Even though Grindelwald went to Durmstrang for six years and only remained one year at Hogwarts, the newspapers only remember he was once a Slytherin. Because everyone knows only Slytherin ever fostered Dark Lords. Ignorant fools. Dumbledore hates Slytherins. He is rumoured to be Dippet's designated successor.
He won't prevent me from becoming Minister of Magic. I won't let him.

22/10/1949
At long last. I managed to swear my Oath to House Slytherin and gained access to several of his research vaults. I don't know if the Gaunt's Oath still applies to me now. If the madness will still come for me.

14/12/1949
I found two members from the Gaunt's house who were sworn into another House yet still became mad.

10/02/1951
I am now Potion Master grade II and Defence Master grade I. I have been accepted in several foreign countries for advanced research. With the muggle War over, it will be easier to travel and get answers. Knowledge is one of the three forms of power along with connections and money.
My account is looking better than ever. I must find investments. I must become rich enough to be considered important.

The following years had been busy for Lord Voldemort. The entries were sparse, referencing travels all over the world to visit other magical communities, studying their functioning and ideas on what could be applied in Britain. He also made numerous references to his bound research volumes, surprising Severus with the number of projects he was pursuing to understand and master Magic. Another one of the Lord's many endeavours was to look for famed objects rumoured to have belonged to one of Hogwarts' Founders in the hope of creating either a spell or a ritual to strengthen Slytherin's curse and definitely rid Hogwarts of Dumbledore. Yet, the Lord never made any mention of Khorlos.
He only came back to Britain seven years later, and only for a brief stay.

02/07/1959
After years spent reading Slytherin's personal writings, I have discovered his manor. Nather Manor. Unlocking its wards was fun. I still can only access a few rooms. I have no idea how big the unplottable grounds around us are. I don't even know if there are other buildings on the grounds besides the manor.
There was only one House-Elf left to take care of it. Dìleas. He welcomed me very politely, but I have the feeling that he is waiting to see if I am good enough to be Slytherin's heir. Still, he agreed to a minimal Oath between us.

04/07/1959
I am disappointed. Flennon and Marcus are not in London. Flennon is currently visiting his family in the United States while Marcus is in Austria for a conference. I should have warned them of my coming earlier. I know I'm not the best at writing and keeping in touch. Master Rowles is really grumpy about it. I'm not sure I'll be able to see him, I can't stay long. I've been accepted among a Giant clan to study their magic in exchange for providing them with potions adapted to their metabolism, and I'll need to work fast if I'm accepted as a Professor in Hogwarts.

05/07/1959
I applied for Hogwarts Defence against the Dark Arts position. I thought I could follow Dumbledore's strategy on how to impress young minds, and subtly lead them toward Slytherin's rules. Of course, Dumbledore refused my application. He was distrustful and disdainful, even worse than in my memory. I could feel his hate for Slytherin.
Sadly for him, I had planned for that eventuality. Salazar was quite worried about Hogwarts being tricked by a Headmaster who would only desire this title for prestige and power instead of caring for his students and their magical prowesses. He created a curse that would ensure the Headmaster's rejection by Hogwarts if he was not true to the Founders' ideal. In twelve months at most, Dumbledore will no longer be Hogwarts' Headmaster.

Obviously, the curse had not worked as intended, and Severus discovered why in one entry of the following year.

30/06/1960
I am reluctantly impressed.
Dumbledore has managed to transfer the curse onto the Defence against the Dark Arts position. This year's professor is in a coma after a fall in one of Hogwarts' staircases. But no fear, Magic is intent, and mine and Slytherin's was to protect Hogwarts from corrupt Headmasters who don't care for all their charges. Dumbledore will leave Hogwarts. It will only take longer than anticipated.

09/02/1961
Thank Merlin for apparition and portkeys. I am free to explore the world and its magical mysteries while regularly coming back to Nather Manor to work on its acceptance of myself. In addition to the garden entrance and the day-to-day rooms, I now have access to the entire grounds which are far bigger than I expected.
There is a wild forest called Clairmont Forest which seems to be even older than Salazar in the North. I cannot enter it yet, I feel it has not accepted me as its master. The South is mainly occupied by a huge stream fed lake while the West are paddocks and barns in various states of disrepair. The Manor itself is in the East of the Estate, surrounded by lawns and gardens carefully cared for by Dìleas. There are plants to make the oldest families green with jealousy.
Dìleas seems to appreciate it when I talk to him about some of my magical research. It's freeing to know I can talk to him without fearing that he will reveal my secrets. He's even giving me hints about places I could be interested in. I also suspect him of guiding me on the path that will help me become an heir worthy of Salazar. Lately, information and documents pertaining to my research or unknown subjects of interest seem to come to my notice effortlessly. It's not unlike what Master Rowles would sometimes do during my Apprenticeship, guiding without telling.
I still need to work on opening the many locked doors. How exciting.

22/12/1961
I almost died. Thank Merlin for my Horcrux. I was attacked by Faes, they used fire Magic on me and left me to burn in an Albanian forest. The pain and the loneliness would have beaten down a lesser Wizard. It took me weeks to heal. I don't know how, but I'm sure they were sent by Dumbledore. The allusions they made all point to him as being behind this operation.
I can't believe he is not dead yet. I have to admit he is a worthy foe.

13/08/1963
The lake is a very interesting place. I should have expected it from Salazar. It's inhabited by Shoal Primum. They are close cousins of the Hogwarts' Merpeople, but have no love for Dumbledore.
When I go for a swim, there are always a few of them to accompany me and try to improve my techniques.
I miss Baskos.

15/08/1963
Nather Estate is big enough to accommodate a Basilisk, even one as old as Baskos. He may even have lived here once. I could repurpose the West area as his home. Of course, I would need to provide him with a palace, subjects and prey befitting of the king he is. It will take time to do properly, especially since I have not mastered the library of the manor yet.

From time to time, notes on Lord Voldemort's quest to break the Gaunt curse also appeared in the entries. One especially made Severus grow cold, even though he knew the end of the story.

18/12/1965
I think I found a way to free myself of the Gaunt madness. The Gaunt ring that I found several years ago, useless as it is against Dumbledore, gave me an idea. It will require some adaptation, careful planning and more in depth research. If I manage to isolate the madness from my soul,... If I can put it into a Horcrux as part of my soul magic,... Then I will be free. I do not know yet if I should destroy it afterwards. I am afraid to create an imbalance in my core. Except if I replace my destroyed soul and magic with benign ones, maybe it would fill the void…

09/05/1966
Vakten Romanova is fascinating. Dark and harsh but so knowledgeable.
At first, I thought that Line Romanova would refuse to grant my request to consult their library. From what I understand, I am only one of a few Wizards admitted into their lair. The vakten hinted that the Vampires had received a Prophecy not long ago and that it had made them reconsider their relationship with the other magical species. He refused to give me the content of this Prophecy but said Wizards would have their own when the time came. I am so curious.

10/07/1966
When I asked Illitch how to increase my mastery of Magic, he told me that it was a strange question to ask when I had already used the way to do so. He had to be talking about my Horcruxes. It confirms that Horcruxes can help my magic grow. Maybe I should go back to Nather Manor to check if Slytherin left clues about this. I was so focused on travelling the world of Magic that I may have overlooked the best source of information at my disposal.

03/11/1967
I have finally unlocked the entirety of Nather Manor. It completely accepted me as its Master and Head of House Slytherin. It was quite a shock to discover myself in the mirror. My face is more angular, my hair darker, and more startling, my pupils are not completely round anymore. I look like a true aristocrat. Dìleas looked pleased.

25/06/1968
I heard from Lord Rowles that the Ministry is pushing more laws in favour of Muggleborns while being as disdainful as possible with Purebloods. They call this progress and "leaving the Middle Ages behind". Fools.
Since Dumbledore was made Headmaster of Hogwarts, our traditions are being ignored and downplayed and Slytherin's reputation is getting tarnished. Yes we need to learn from Muggles, but not become them!

22/11/1968
Lord Malfoy's proposal of sponsoring Muggleborns has been rejected by the Ministry. It would have been a good start. It also means Slytherins are beginning to move. Soon it will be time.

03/03/1969
Dìleas had welcomed me back with surprising warmth. I have not spent as much time as I'd like in the manor these past years, but he seems to have become quite fond of me. I am glad.

12/09/1969
Flennon and Marcus have definitely left Great Britain. Flennon had told me of his plan to leave for the US definitely, but I had not anticipated Marcus to follow him. They say that Muggles and Wizards each know their place over there. They wrote I was welcome to join them, but to just leave Britain to Dumbledore feels like losing.
Master Rowles is currently busy travelling with his new heiress, an orphaned Pureblood from an obscure line belonging to his House. I can't believe he's not here when I'm finally available to meet with him after so long.

13/09/1969
It might be better this way. It's harder to become the leader of a group when some of its members have known you during your inexperienced teenage years. Even Master Rowles might not recognise me after so long.

07/03/1970
Leaving clues and starting rumours is a tiring and repetitive job, but it will be worth it once I catch the right attention. I feel it in my Magic, Slytherin's time has come.
Nather Manor is ready to welcome meetings and plotting. It can be my trump cards proving I am the best one to lead the movement against those who idolise Muggles. Don't they remember the bombs?

15/04/1970
Dìleas keeps making tartes aux citrons meringuées when he feels I am frustrated with the slowness of my progress. I think he has noticed I have a weakness for them.

04/10/1970
Lord Prince reached out to me. He was surprised but happy when he recognised my name. He clearly would not have recognised me physically.
I'm glad I did not try to reach out to him or Master Rowles to establish my status. It gives me more credibility.

05/09/1971
I met with Lady Greengrass, Lord Prince and Lord Malfoy today. This group has ideas but are not purposeful enough to make it happen.
I let them use that Tom name that I despise so much. Such a muggle and common name. It was necessary to prove to them that I was not an extremist.

18/09/1971
Dìleas keeps muttering about the House Elves that sometimes bring me letters from my contacts who don't use owls. He doesn't like most other House Elves because according to him, they have lost their path. I'm curious but he won't tell me more. For now at least. I have earned his respect and his loyalty as proven by the new Oath between us, but I don't have his complete trust yet.

17/10/1971
The second meeting went well. They understand they need me. I am their catalyst.

22/11/1971
We have begun planning. I had forgotten how stimulating other clever minds can be.
They agree I am the logical choice for a Minister of Magic candidate, even though I am a Half-blood. I must make people think I am a Pureblood, although I must never lie about it. Presenting myself as Slytherin's heir should be enough. I need a snake pet.

02/01/1972
Dìleas likes the Malfoys' and Princes' House Elves. I have yet to meet any who belong to Elena. Rumours of their Faes' ancestry may not be so wrong after all

22/01/1972
I may have drunk too much. I agreed to Augustus' name for me.
The four of us agreed Tom Marvolo Riddle should disappear forever, leaving in his place a leader acting like a Pureblood. However we wish to avoid lies, if discovered, they are grounds for distrust. Eleanor reminded us of an old tradition. In Merlin's day, when one Wizard was banished from his House, he lost his House's name but he was allowed to take up an anagram of the House name as his new name.
We tried different possibilities. I forbade all which included Mario or Dario as first names. I have my dignity. Augustus remarked that my name would have even more power if the anagram had the form "I am whatever-name". Magic would accept it more easily. He did not get into details, but it is coherent with all I learnt on magic intent. Abraxas added that it would be even better if the form was like "I am Lord whatever-name" as my name allowed it.
I am Lord Vomerdolt. Abraxas refused vehemently. Vomer is a small bone of the nose, and quite close to the French word vomir which means to throw up. And dolt, well... I agree it is not auspicious.
I am Lord Lovertond. No way. I excluded all possibilities with 'lover' in them.
I am Lord Letvroomd. Not really there.
It was almost three in the morning when Augustus proposed my name. Abraxas first laughed, thinking it was a joke. But he insisted. I must admit it is the best name we came up with.
I am Lord Voldemort. In French, I am Lord Flight of death.
Let Dumbledore scratch his head on this.

14/04/1972
Dìleas told me about House Elves. I am stunned by my previous ignorance. Yet, this is not knowledge that can be written or passed down anywhere else than in a Módiǎn.
We swore each other a new Oath. I felt Nather Manor rejoice when it settled.

09/05/1972
We are ready to meet other Slytherins and convince them of our plan. We will first renew Abraxas' proposal with some minor changes. If they are refused, we will try and push for a vote of no-confidence. I did not think I would try for Minister of Magic so soon but the other Lords assured me discontent is sufficiently growing to hope for a win.
I hope Abraxas is right about no one recognising me. It could slow the process of uniting Slytherins.

06/06/1973
Lord Rowles recognised me. I dreaded it, but he was my Master for a long time.
He told me that I had changed a lot but still possessed a few expressions that can help recognise me. He warned me to be careful of the strictest families like the Blacks who will never accept the betrayal of being led by a Half-blood if they discover the truth. Good thing the Blacks are not part of the list of people I need.
I'll still need to keep a careful eye on him. He looked proud of me when I gave him the tour of Nather Manor, but advised me to wait for a few months before having meetings here. I will think about it.

12/06/1973
Lord Yaxley recognised me. I can't believe that weak stupid man was observant enough despite how much I have changed since the last time I met him.
At least, he waited to confront me alone. I can't believe he thought he could blackmail me and make me push for his stupid ideas that Purebloods should be given precedence over others.
He's so weak it was almost too easy to use Legilimency on him to alter his memories. I am glad I had prepared for that eventuality.

15/07/1973
I have finally met with all the Wizards interested in our plan who once knew me as Tom Riddle. There were only a handful, I had not realised that what had seemed like a crowd during my summers at Flennon's was only a small part of the wizarding upper society.
None besides Master Rowles and Lord Yaxley seem to have recognised me so far. Aside from the physical changes brought by my acceptance into Slytherin's line, it helps that none of my yearmates are invested directly in our movement. I am still surprised at how many of them are dead today, between duels, foolish accidents and suspected murders. Magic offers so many ways to protect yourself. It shows how careful I must be.

20/08/1973
We held our first meeting in Nather Manor. All were suitably impressed and envious. It gave them even more fervour to succeed.

06/06/1974
I lost.

07/06/1974
Dumbledore is a moron. He refused to check for irregularities in the vote. I guess he did not find Lord Voldemort funny.

20/06/1974
I must plan for the next election. Seven years is quite a short time. It did not work this time because too many did not understand why what we promised was better in the long run. And because the others cheated. We were so close.

22/06/1974
It's a shame the four Founders Houses are not allowed seats at the Wizengamot, ostensibly to maintain Hogwarts' appearance of neutrality. I wonder what it would take to change this. We need all the advantages we can get.

30/07/1974
We are implementing Abraxas' sponsorship. The ministry may go hang themselves.

05/08/1974
My Defenders must show to the public how ineffective the current Ministry is. We must show them how biassed our current administration is. Muggleborns must realise the muggle way is not necessarily our way and that our way is for the best.

30/08/1974
There is much potential in our young snakes. There is one like me. Maybe. I don't know if he talks to snakes. His mother is a weak witch. Like my mother except there was no Gaunt madness to make her die.
Both Augustus and Abraxas want him. They are arguing in private.

05/09/1974
Dumbledore has recognised me. His Hogwarts welcoming speech was anything but subtle.
Why he hasn't said anything about my true identity is a mystery. He must know it could harm our movement. Is he waiting for the best time to use this knowledge?

05/10/1974
The agreements between Wizards and the other magical species, when they exist, are very different and unequal. We must negotiate with all species, it can only benefit us as long as we have enough information to write the right treaty. And as long as they do not think we are weaker than them.
I know several of the old Houses already have alliances with Vampires and Faes. I was assured several Vampire Lines as well as one Fae Land were already interested in my proposal and would submit it to their rulers. I wonder if Line Romanova is among them. I could reach out to them.
The most complicated will be Werewolves and half-breeds as they are wizard citizens but different from the norm.
The norm. Who wants to be the norm? So similar to others nobody notices you. I must find the right boon to give them so they will support me.

15/11/1974
The first sponsor meeting was a success. All Mentors are pleased. The children of some of our members wrote that the mentorees were pleased too. I am glad.
Mr Snape was given to Abraxas in the end.
If all goes well with this first batch, we'll need to see how to expand it to the other Houses. I know it will be a good way to reach out to new supporters.

23/05/1975
I have finally met the renowned Mister Snape. He is even more interesting than I thought. A natural Occlumens and clever eyes which betray a sharp mind.

09/07/1975
The Blacks have decided to join our movement. They are powerful and brought the Lestranges and a few other minor Houses with them. I was very clear about my thoughts on blood extremism. I will be even more careful not to show any signs of being a Half-Blood.

14/07/1975
Operation defend Muggleborns is a success. My intuition during my school years was right: so many need help.
One Muggle died during the last intervention. It does not matter as long as none of us was hurt, but we must be careful not to alienate the public.

03/03/1976
One Defender was killed by Muggles during an extraction.

16/11/1976
The Mulciber-McDonald fiasco is a disgrace.
Incompetents and ignorants should never use the Dark Arts, even less Blood Magic. Knowledge and intelligence are the light which allow us to walk the Dark path without losing ourselves. Slytherins should know better than to blindly follow House traditions without understanding them first, especially on children.
Events like this one are the reason why the Ministry gradually banned all Dark Arts uses even when they can be a powerful means of healing. Idiots all of them.

20/03/1976
Never thought I would write this one day. I am having difficulties keeping the group together.
I cannot use the same means I did at the orphanage to keep them in line. I managed on a smaller scale before when I was the King of my House, but even then, there were some I only mastered with violence. I can do it again. I must walk a fine line between charisma and authority. I need a way to keep watch over the group.
My punishing Bellatrix for torturing Muggles was well received. I do not care about Muggles but it won't help the movement and must be quelled now. Some of the youngest were awed by my display of Magic.
I waited until I was alone to offer the sacrifice the Dark Arts requires. I felt her pain so intense, burning, burning but it did not stop. It felt like Crucio but with every nerve so sensitive they felt triple the pain. It would be a useful spell to know.
I also caught fleeting impressions of the day she felt that pain. Apparently, her grandfather asked her to practice that spell on her cousin Sirius. He said she needed to learn and that he was proud of her. I think it broke something in her.

25/03/1976
I used Legilimency on Bellatrix. It's always a gamble to use it on one of my allies, to know if it's worth the risk of being discovered and mistrusted versus the advantage it can give me. She opened her mind willingly.
I searched for the memory of the spell incantation but I did not find it, even when I went to her safe-place. It is Slytherin's common room. One secret passage did not open, she said it was full of treasure boxes sealed forever.
Occlumency madness.
It's been a while since I checked my own boxes. I will do it tonight.

07/05/1976
I found two Muggleborns descended from Hufflepuff, a line of healers. Their Magic could heal my own. Free me from the curse. I must be careful not to take all of it. I must not be noticed. I only hope they will have enough.

03/08/1976
Muggles almost killed me. I was weak from the ritual but still. The wards did not work on them. Was it because of the transfer of magic or because the wards I used were not the right ones?
I know Muggles can harm us, especially those with bombs. I thought I knew how to protect myself from them.
Abraxas is right. They are dangerous. Vicious.
The ritual went wrong. Instead of taking a part of the children's magic, I took all of it. I do not know why I could not stop the flow of magic.
Now I have a second Horcrux although it is filled with the Gaunt madness. I still do not know if I should destroy it. I came so close to dying... My first Horcrux alone may not be enough to give me the time I need for my task. Making seven is appealing in terms of magic strength but Slughorn seemed horrified by the idea.
I hope the pure children's magic from Hufflepuff's line will be enough to fill the void of my magic if I destroy the mad Horcrux.

Severus had to put the diary down his desk, his hands shaking too much to keep reading. He had all but forgotten about the gruesome murders that had pushed Petunia to come and ask for his help the summer before his apprenticeship. He had been so relieved when he had learnt that Voldemort had been the Defender present on the scene, convinced that the man would never kill children, that he had been there to help them. Yet he had killed them. Not willingly, but he had. Before making a second Horcrux. All to break a supposed curse. How ironic for the Lord to be so careful about Occlumency madness and true sacrifices, only to willingly break one of the most elementary rules of magic.

Severus closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. He had known he might not like the man he would discover. The fact that up to this point, despite his flaws, Marvolo had lived up to his expectations made this first disappointment hurt even more.
Strengthening his mind potion fumes until his hands were steady once more, Severus took the diary back up.

15/08/1976
I really need a way to keep watch over the group, there are even more dissensions between our different sides. I will propose to change our way of communication. To use a mark instead of coins. Then, when they are satisfied the mark has no secret, in a few months, I will add a surveillance spell to it. With training, I should manage to watch over the entire group, though how much will I understand of their intent….

17/09/1976
How frustrating. Severus is unmarked and unreachable except through letters for the time of his Apprenticeship.
It may be a good thing to have him away from his Mudblood's influence before Dumbledore realises his brilliance and orders her to be his friend again. All observers agree he is a loyal sort. I must find how to make him mine while only using letters. He reminds me of myself so much. He may not have my charisma, but his indifference to flattery and social graces carries its own appeal.

23/11/1976
I think the madness is gone. I am feeling more powerful than ever. Magic is answering my every call more quickly than ever.
The children's magic was enough to stabilise my magical core. A shame I killed them in the process but I needed untainted pure magic. Funny how you can extract pure magic from living beings. Grindelwald experiments are serving me well, as distasteful as they were... How many other children will be saved from Muggles thanks to their sacrifice...

10/12/1976
I do not know how Augustus got his information, but this inquiry against Hogwarts was a master coup. His handling of Dumbledore and the subsequent authorization of werewolf education at Hogwarts is a promising beginning in my quest to ally with those who are not common Wizards. If we could create this potion to make them tame... I think we won followers today.

02/02/1976
Orion makes interesting arguments about the weakness Muggleborns bring to our world, yet, he doesn't understand that it's not their blood but their mindset that is the true problem. He also fails to realise that he is not in control of the Dark. The Blacks seem to have long forgotten that to master the Dark means to respect its rules, especially its sacrifices.

07/05/1977
Lucius and Narcissa's wedding gave me the opportunity to talk with young Severus. I think I really hooked him into my project. With both our minds, we could do brilliant things. I am really curious about his mysterious Master.

08/07/1977
The ritual was not enough. I can feel the Gaunt madness lurking in my mind, waiting for weakness. I need more Magic from others. I cannot take the risk of killing again. Maybe last time did not work because of this.

05/09/1977
Some Muggleborns are against us. They refuse to integrate in our world. Worst, they cling to the muggle world but want all the advantages from the Wizarding World. Dumbledore supports them. At first, I forgave them because I thought they did not know better. I was wrong. Even when you explain Slytherin's ideas to them, they refuse and accuse us of wanting world domination like Grindelwald. We do not want to break the statute of secrecy, we want to protect it better.
These Muggleborns should be treated like Muggles.
But some of our group are not ready yet to support that stance. They are still naive and believe a compromise can be achieved. Mulciber Jr is doing a great job, saying out loud our most extreme convictions, testing the waters and reporting who agrees and who has reservations.
For now, I will officially reprimand him. I have no doubt some Muggleborns will soon give me the opportunity to explain that you are either with us or against us, against Magic. I should go even farther. Purebloods who support the Muggleborns' stance are traitors because they should know better as they lived their whole life in the wizarding world.

01/10/1977
I found a way to take magic from many without draining them to death. I will use my mark. The ritual will be beautiful. I will need to conceal the spell work. I know how to use the link between us to take magic from them. Only a trickle at all times. It must work. Carefully.

05/12/1977
Abraxas is dead. How dare they. These mere muggles. How... They are monsters. When he had only gone to protect a child. A trap. How dare they trap him. I really must make other Horcruxes. Life is so fragile.

06/12/1977
It is the moment to change the mark. When we will all be together. It will become dark. For grief. And revenge. They won't feel the change in the spells.
I still cannot believe it. Abraxas murdered by bloody Muggles. Always Muggles.

07/12/1977
It feels like the first day I entered Hogwarts. Like I just came home. I had not expected the new marks to bring me such a feeling of completion.

08/12/1977
I made my third Horcrux. I was surprised by the rush of power. Is it because I used one of the Founders' objects as the receptacle or because it's my third Horcrux? I feel like each new Horcrux increases my power.
I put the diadem inside Hogwarts with the help of Baskos, Myrtle and Mulciber Jr., though I had to obliviate him. At least, this Horcrux is well hidden and protected. Under Dumbledore's nose. It will strengthen my curse and hasten his departure. I cannot believe his trick has protected him from Salazar's curse for so long.

12/12/1977
We have avenged Abraxas. It was the perfect occasion for my novices to practise their Unforgivables. Rodolphus and Orion were a great help to teach all of them the proper motivation to cast those difficult spells.

04/02/1978
Our world is shifting. People are taking sides. Those horrified by Muggles versus those horrified by Defenders. It is time to lift the ambiguity. We must stop making excuses for those who do not support Wizards against Muggles.

02/09/1978
I made a fourth Horcrux. It hurt.
I will wait before making another one. I should already be well protected.

05/09/1978
The Daily Prophet dared insinuate I was not Slytherin's heir. Those bootlicking ministry lovers! They also implied I was the one ordering to torture Muggles during the Defenders raids. Bellatrix and her admirers do not need me to encourage them.
I will sue them for libel. It might even get us new supporters.
My followers reported the torture of muggle abusers did not displease everyone, especially as it is not a recurrent event. They are beginning to understand we want the best for Wizards.

09/09/1978
I lost control of a spell today. Too much power. I need to practice before increasing my power. It must be why Slughorn was afraid when I asked him about making seven Horcruxes. Fools who cannot handle power must have burnt themselves before, destroying others with them. I am not one of those. I am strong. I am Slytherin's heir.

25/09/1978
My Mark is working. I feel their Magic sustaining me, keeping the madness away.

10/10/1978
The Minister is afraid of the publicity my suit is giving me. I feel the public's support grow. The ministry is harassing those known to support my ideas. My Defenders are harassing those known to vocally oppose me. Especially if they follow Dumbledore. Fair is fair.

16/10/1978
We began breaking and entering muggleborn opponents' houses. To scare them. To show them they are inadequate Wizards. To stop them from pushing for even more changes in their favour.

22/10/1978
I invented a beautiful spell today. Morsmordre. The symbol who will warn all not to oppose me.

03/01/1979
I allowed Bellatrix to play with a muggleborn ministry employee. It is time to send strong messages.

29/01/1979
I won my libel suit today. I swear Dumbledore's twinkle disappeared for a second.
I think the Minister wants to ally with Dumbledore. The inquiry is long forgotten today. I must ask Augustus to look for other faux pas.

02/02/1979
The Daily Prophet called me a Dark Lord today. Orion and Oliver were suitably impressed. We must celebrate.

05/02/1979
During our celebration, my Defenders decided to take on a name more fitting to followers of their illustrious leader. They now are Death Eaters. Muggles and traitors, beware!

11/03/1979
Wilkes is dead. Our best link to the Ministry, killed by Aurors. It cannot be a coincidence. They are afraid of our victory.

10/07/1979
I taught Mortmordre to my followers so they can spread the word during their harassment raids. Most are keen on teaching our opponents to listen to us. I had to remind them that they are not to torture, only humiliate, maybe hurt, but never permanently damage.
Some of our older members are not as eager as they ought to be. Those who do not bear my mark. They could be a problem.

22/07/1979
My Horcruxes are driving me crazy. They keep wanting to reunite with me. I have told them time and time again I need them to keep me alive until my task is done, but they don't listen. The diary almost succeeded, ensnaring my mind while I was sleeping. I cannot keep them so close to me. I cannot risk taking back the Gaunt's curse inside myself. Distance should lessen their pull on me.
But they must be safe.

15/12/1979
Wilkes' death, same as Abraxas', united the group behind me even more. It forced people to take sides more strongly. It gave me the opportunity to proclaim that Purebloods who are against us are no better than Muggleborns or Muggles.
Killing the elder and less agreeable members of the group could bring even more to our side. If well planned and carried out….

25/12/1979
I will give my Horcruxes to the followers I trust the most. But first, I still need to increase the enchantment on the Horcruxes to hide what they are.

25/01/1980
A Prophecy about myself has been made. It was spoken to Dumbledore by a would-be seer most consider a fraud. I need to check this is not one of the old man's set-ups.

16/02/1980
The Prophecy appears to be legit. I found its record in the Hall of Prophecies. I'm glad I checked, Giulio Nott had misheard two important words.
I really am the subject of a Prophecy. This must be the sign I am proceeding in the right direction. I understand better Illitch's hints.
I must be careful not to rush into any interpretation. Self fulfilled prophecies are a pain.

04/03/1980
I have trouble finding prophecy interpreters who can be trusted. One Vampire dared imply I was not the Dark Lord from this Prophecy. He was still laughing when my Fiendfyre incinerated him. I was a fool not to listen to Illitch: Line Sæther is not as trustworthy as Line Romanova.

05/05/1980
I've had a few of our eldest and most contrary members killed. The subtle way, as if they were accidental. I seem to have given old Dumbledore ideas though I will never have proof as he must have found lackeys eager to please him. He really is a hypocrite, branding me a threat when we are so much alike. Except I have Slytherin's justice behind me.
I must be careful, the last death on our side was not as subtle as I would have liked. Some may suspect. I need the next one to be the Aurors' fault.
The group is coming along nicely.

Severus took a shaky breath. Had it been his thirst for power or the corruption of his core after making four Horcruxes that had allowed Marvolo to disregard the value of his followers' lives? The following entries made him lean toward the second option, but he was well aware that it was also what he would rather believe.

25/06/1980
I must renew my efforts to find non-Wizard allies if I want support to keep increasing. I don't understand why none have reached out yet.

10/07/1980
I gave my diary to Lucius. My first Horcrux. He has always been so loyal. Even more so since Abraxas' death. In the end, it was for the best.

15/07/1980
My sacrifices feel less intense than they used to. I think I am getting close to truly mastering the Dark. Horcruxes truly were the key. I understand better why it scared Slughorn. That fat lazy leech. He could never grasp the brilliance of the path. I only need three more to reach perfection. I must proceed carefully. I can feel the power under my skin. Now is not the time to lose control. Who knows when one of my followers' ambitions will grow wild.

23/07/1980
I hesitate to give the ring to Bellatrix. My madness Horcrux. Would it imbalance her even more? It could be an interesting experiment.

15/08/1980
I finally decided not to entrust Bellatrix with any Horcrux. I'm not sure she'll be able to resist the allure of the Horcrux when she's already so imbalanced, and I really have no wish to face the fusion between my Horcrux and her soul.
It was the opportunity to use my mastery of magic to create a beautiful hideout for my Locket. A pity the House Elf had to feel such pain, but the Dark needs its sacrifice. I doubt that he will survive the intensity of the required sacrifice, but it was truly a mercy, for this one was already lost. I could never have done the same to Dìleas.
Now I need to decide what to do with the ring. I really don't see who else I could trust as much as Lucius. Any member of the young guard is too weak to resist the Horcrux's allure despite my protective spells. The older ones are too cautious or too lost in the Dark. Maybe Severus when he's back from his apprenticeship. The few letters we exchanged during these past four years have made me more and more curious about what he is capable of. From the beginning, I felt he could be almost as special as I am.

10/10/1980
Severus is now a Master. He has changed. Impassive. Majestic. Powerful. I can feel it in my bones.
He has a Familiar who prevented me from marking him.
He felt the tracking spell on the coin I gave him. I am certain he is not the only one, but he is the first to openly ask me about it. Without fear. I would say he trusted the answer I would give. I must tread carefully with him. I think he understands and accepts the Slytherin way, not to lie as Gryffindor peasants and Hufflepuff whiners accused us of, but to present facts so others will make erroneous assumptions. But he will not accept outright lies. The more honest I am with him, the more he will trust me. I must find the right balance with him. This is exciting.

11/10/1980
Severus' Familiar is a Thestral. If I could put my Mark on Severus… I think it would also drain Magic from his Familiar. A Creature of Death. Coupled to my Mark and Horcruxes, it could be the key to my power and immortality.

13/10/1980
Mulciber's blood fiancée has reached out to him. She seems disillusioned with Dumbledore. Right after Severus' return. The timing is suspicious.

25/10/1980
I may have made a mistake with Severus. I should have written more often, to openly show support and remind him how much I counted on him. It's hard to know what he's thinking and his Occlumency shields are strong enough I am unsure I could slip in unnoticed. He never speaks against our actions, he only offers remarks to caution and show possible alternatives, and yet…
I need to reinforce his loyalty to me.

27/10/1980
Severus reminded me I once wanted a Familiar. His Dhaal made me realise I needed one, if only to try and win over Severus' companion. Severus is mine if I gain his Familiar's trust. I need all the assets I can to win against this Prophecy. It could be the power no one knows of.
I still haven't found the way to free Baskos. Hogwarts must let him go, but it will never happen as long as Dumbledore is the Headmaster. I miss our night swims.

08/11/1980
I don't know if I should be appalled by Beltram's ignorance of how to control flows despite being a Master Defence Grade I or impressed and worried by Severus' Mastery of it when he's only a Master Defence Grade II. Beltram's father certainly was more skilled than his son. A pity he lost his last duel.
I was right about Severus from the beginning. He might be as brilliant as I am. I need to put my mark on him to be able to fully trust him.
For a few seconds, I could imagine giving up on becoming Minister to spend my days researching spells with Severus instead. To explore Magic and its endless possibilities.

15/11/1980
I have set up several trust tests for McDonald. For now, she has passed all of them, though she stumbled a little on some.

03/12/1980
Finally. My experts are converging on one interpretation of the Prophecy. I will announce it to my followers soon. We must prepare to defeat this threat to Slytherin's victory.

05/12/1980
I am stunned. And impressed.

06/12/1980
Severus founded his own House without any sponsoring and became Lord Caspian. His motto is beautiful. I wish it were mine.
He also did what no one else could. He went even further than anyone ever thought to try. A potion that allows Werewolves to control themselves during the full moon and render the transformation painless.
I have always believed in his genius, and yet, I may have underestimated him. He will be dangerous if he's not on my side.

06/12/1980
Could I find a way to have one of our young snakes open the chamber to free Baskos? But how do I ensure that Baskos will come to me directly without killing any of the children?
I cannot trust him to obey an emissary even if I managed to send a message with them. There is more to parselmouth than mere spoken words, and they don't translate into recorded messages. I also cannot take the risk of anyone taking the control of Baskos.

08/12/1980
Severus attended one of my conferences. The polls have shown an increase of vote intentions for me. He's definitely the ace in my sleeve. As long as I control the game.

09/12/1980
I finally found a pack leader willing to formally ally with us. He's shady but all the others have refused my offer. I don't want to ask Severus for his help and be beholden. And I don't want him to recommend a Pack who would be more loyal to him than to me.

11/12/1980
The Ritual is too dangerous to attempt. But I think I've found a way to merge it with the Horcrux ritual.

12/12/1980
Severus proves once more that he is a key member of our movement. He killed the Werewolf pack leader ruthlessly because he was a danger to our cause. Yet, I feel he's sceptical about the Prophecy that consecrates me as The Dark Lord. I really need to find the time to speak with him in private and ensure that he remains loyal to me.

15/12/1980
Great minds think alike. Severus asked for a visit unexpectedly. I think I managed well. It was not hard, we are so much alike. With proper grooming, he could be my heir. I know he has founded his own House, but I may be able to link him to Slytherin House. I never had the desire to procreate or care for children, but he would be worthy of being my successor.
Severus is right, many won't dare contradict me. His independence makes him so precious and so dangerous. He is everything I asked of him all those years ago and more. Can I find the right balance?
Bellatrix believes he's trying to rise up until he can overthrow me. I have trouble believing this. Severus always gave me the feeling that he did not suffer fools and would rather bury himself in Magic rather than be around people. He created his own House to be independent. He already possesses much power as a renowned expert.
He won't gain anything from taking my place, except if he does not believe in me anymore, but I did not get this impression. He does not know how to lie, he's too direct for this, yet the true slytherin beauty is to lie while telling the truth. Other Houses envy us for they are far cruder at this game. And Severus certainly is a true Slytherin.
A more likely danger is that others could try to use Severus to overthrow me.
I must keep reinforcing his loyalty to me. I think I did well this afternoon. I only needed to tell him the truth, albeit with a few omissions. It was refreshing.
Severus seems as uninterested as myself in finding someone and starting a traditional wizard family. He is only spurred by Magic. He really could be a fitting heir.

Severus felt his throat tighten. Marvolo had not lied on that fateful day. Their privileged relationship had not been a lie. The gift of his Mémoires was yet another proof if Severus needed one.
His sight suddenly blurry, he struggled to read the next entry.

18/12/1980
The difference of behaviour between Severus and the other competitors for my attention and favours is impressive. He's the only one who is not vying for my time. Is it suspicious like Bella and Oliver Jr. keep telling me? Or is it proof of his loyalty? The only thing I'm sure of is that he's the best Wizard of all of them.

27/12/1980
My Death Eaters have surpassed themselves with their gifts this year. I must say it's hard to choose a favourite between Bella's and Severus'.

13/01/1981
Severus' book clearly is the best to date on the Ritual even if there is no description in it.
It supports my idea that it's possible to mix a Horcrux and a Familiar as both are part of my soul.
I wonder if Dumbledore already thought of this and applied it to his Phoenix. It would explain why the bird is never seen outside the old man's office. It's criminal to keep such a magnificent creature cooped up in a room.
There were warnings in the book about keeping a Horcrux for too long, yet I have lived with several for many years and I'm fine. Clearly, the author must be as fearful as Slughorn. However, I think seven is the maximum number of Horcruxes which can be created, one for each kind of Magic. Seven is the magical number after all.

28/01/1981
The polls are stalling. If the elections were held today, Birkins and I would be elected co-Minister. I need to find a way to gain the upper hand.

08/02/1981
McDonald is proving useful to understand how Gryffindors and their allies think. I am not trusting her blindly, but she can be used even if she is a double agent.

11/02/1981
Nagini. My beautiful Familiar. I can feel her absolute faith in me as well as her desire to please me. I don't understand how I lived so long without her by my side.

11/02/1981
Dìleas is dead. I think I fell into a coma after the ritual, and the foolish House Elf tried to save me. He was completely empty of Magic when I woke up. It was completely unnecessary, my Horcruxes are keeping me alive. He had no right to sacrifice himself and (leave me) deprive me of his service. He was too precious to waste himself like this.
It might be better in the long term. I was getting too attached to him. It's better to have one weakness less.
I will ask for the House Elf of one of my Death Eaters, one that Dìleas didn't like. One that doesn't really matter.

13/02/1981
How dare they! To postpone the election until further notice because of one dead! Dumbledore is so afraid of my victory he is grasping at straws to stop me.

13/02/1981
I underestimated Birkins' wiliness and his willingness to listen to Dumbledore.
I expected a change in Birkins' politics following the death of his Councillor. Councillor Baxter was the one who made sure that Birkins remained inside the law. He was Birkins' conscience. With him dead, I thought Birkins would increase Aurors' powers as well as put more pressure on the population and restrict fundamental rights and freedom, which would have given me arguments to complain about him and his incompetence. People would have reminded me of the Death Eaters' actions in my name, I would have answered that it would not have happened if the Wizengamot had agreed to the inquiry after the past elections, that the Death Eaters only exist because the current ministry is incapable of protecting the citizens.
I can still use this, the adjournment of the elections is another sign that Minister Birkins does not care for our democracy, except to mould us into the Muggles image.

14/02/1981
We truly have no choice, the babies must die. The earlier the better for the parents. Kidnapping them to have them adopted will never work, the Potter and the Longbottom Houses are too old and powerful. It is a sad day. Children are the future. But Bellatrix is right, we must sacrifice two children to save many. I already did this with the Hufflepuff children to save me from madness so I could lead Slytherin.

14/02/1981
I cannot let Elena and Augustus live. When before they were subtly advising and putting out options, they are now adroitly trying to sabotage me. It won't be long before they reveal to the others that I am not a Pureblood, and I will lose the support of the Mulcibers, the Lestranges and the Blacks. I cannot afford it now.
Master Rowles' steady support is a relief.

14/02/1981
The library is not opening. I don't understand, my Oath to Slytherin's House is still strong. I am determined to bring his rules to the rest of the Wizarding World.

16/02/1981
I felt something weird today. It came from my Mark. I think something interfered with the magical link between me and one of my Death Eaters. I don't know which one, it happened too fast. It might be a glitch. Or someone might be trying to interfere with our bond.
Nagini worries it is a sign that my core is failing. She keeps saying that I'm losing Magic, yet she can't seem to explain what it means in a way that makes sense. She's so young.

18/02/1981
Breaking the wards from House Longbottom and House Potter will require ingenuity and power. They are very old. Pure magic might be the only way to go. It means creating Elementals or Golems. I have books on the theory and I remember Illitch's lessons well, but I've never attempted it. It can't be much harder than Inferi. I'm so excited.

22/02/1981
I miss tartes au citron meringuées. Those from the Procope just don't taste right.

25/02/1981
Nagini is training Baskos' future subjects. She's looking forward to meeting with her big brother.
One day, Baskos will be free.

03/03/1981
I felt a Mark being blocked again. I think it was Wilkes' though I'm not completely certain. Whoever it is, next evening's test is truly needed to check that nothing is amiss among our group.

03/03/1981
I think I may be able to create a double elemental. One hidden inside the other. I will never tire of Magic's wonders.
Though Magic is sometimes frustrating. I don't understand why Nather manor's library is not open to me all the time. I noticed that it usually remains closed if I try to enter immediately after a meeting. Does it mean that one of the Death Eaters is trying to hurt me and the wards can feel it? I cast several detection spells on myself and did not find anything amiss, but the manor's wards are old and powerful.

05/03/1981
Moody's escape is unfortunate. It's disappointing that four of my best were not able to spot a portkey, they should have known Moody would have one well hidden on his person. But I did not have much hope of him giving away any useful information, his reputation is not undeserved. Torture is far from being the most useful way to gain information, deceit usually yields better results. But torture can be used as a distraction from deceit. It is most useful to right a wrong, when killing is sometimes too much or not enough. It also is a good way to test the loyalty of my followers.
Plus, the opportunity to observe Severus' fighting skills was too good to pass up. He did not disappoint. Cutting Moody's legs was a very good idea to destabilise the Aurors. Wizards are so used to Magic healing every injury that losing his leg could render Moody useless, and then, the entire department will run like a chicken without its head. He's the only one allowed to criticise Scrimgeour after all.
I am pleased Severus obeyed. He may disagree with our plans sometimes, but so far, he has always come through when I needed him, no matter what Bellatrix says.
I can't believe that Amyctus dared propose for us to attack the Hogwarts' Express. I must keep a close eye on him, he is trying to make us deviate from our path to satisfy his lust for blood.

07/03/1981
Lord Potter's poisoning is certainly a surprise.
Rumours are that the elder Potter is less enamoured with Dumbledore than his son. But would Potter Jr kill his own father to satisfy the old fool? It's said that Lord Potter has been favouring his daughter-in-law lately. Is Potter Jr. trying to prevent her from becoming Head of the House at his father's death? But only the House itself can accept or refuse the proposed Head and their oath based on the original House oath accepted by Magic.
It smells of the old man's manipulations. Unless one of the group got caught by sudden craziness… I doubt so, but I will check.

10/03/1981
What is Dumbledore playing at? Did he truly think I would fall for his crude trap? I can't believe he would use Baskos like this. He's really not worthy to be Hogwarts' Headmaster.
What will he do now? What other scheme has he planned?
I need to get to those children soon.

11/03/1981
I'm losing control of my spells. I don't understand what is happening.
Nagini suggested that I use my first wand to help me control my Magic. She said that it is what Dumbledore does. She's right.
I'm touched that she would suggest it without jealousy. I even had to reassure her she had not failed me and that she was more than up to the task of helping me. Any loss of control is my own fault, not hers. It can only be temporary.

13/03/1981
I have suspicions. Wilkes. Augustus. He was one of the first. So careful. So cautious. I failed to get him as I did Eleanor. A shame she is only sick. They cannot live when they know my name. Why couldn't they be more like Master Rowles?

13/03/1981
I wonder if sending Nagini to Baskos could be enough to free him without endangering Hogwarts. She's young, but if we use our bond wisely, it might be enough to open the chamber and guide Baskos while preventing him from going on a rampage. The only question is: will it be enough to convince Hogwarts to let Baskos go?

14/03/1981
Severus never seemed convinced by my interpretation of the Prophecy, and now I wonder… Could he be the one who will try to kill me? He seems so loyal, yet he disagrees with me on several topics. A duel against him would be interesting. My Horcruxes ensure I cannot lose completely.
I keep feeling weird things in my mark. I'm almost certain now that it's linked to Wilkes and, more surprisingly, to the Black heir. Bellatrix is adamant it's not possible. But the Blacks are loyal to themselves first.

15/03/1981
McDonald just gave us the information that the Potters have chosen to use the Fidelius, and that either Pettigrew or Black was the secret keeper. I'm not entirely convinced that she's trustworthy. Still, if we capture them, we can find out more information about the Potters' defences even if there is no secret keeper. It will certainly be a great test for Severus.
Keeping one of my elementals with me should be enough, in addition to the manor's defences, to protect me from any unpleasant surprise. And I'll send Wilkes on Bellatrix's team to attack the Longbottoms. Time to test their loyalty. I should send Amyctus with them too. If he cannot obey my orders not to unnecessarily harm the Longbottoms, I will have to take more drastic actions against him. His enjoyment at torture and humiliation is quite distasteful. They are only tools that must not make us lose sight of our true goal.

It was the last entry of the diary. Three days before his death.
Severus felt tears of rage grow behind his eyes. It was such a waste.