Hey all,

I'm really sorry for the lack of updates that the story has received these past couple months. I'll be honest, I've kinda lost the drive to continue on, leaving the next chapter unfinished for I don't know how long. It's gotten bad to the point that I've questioned the ending I've had planned and am, not only trying to continue the story, but trying to see if there's a better ending to it that I have in mind than what I was running with for the past year that I've been writing and planning the story. I guess, in my interest in trying to keep the story as within-canon as possible with the different character interactions I've run with and the different plot lines I tried to develop from other titles within SciADV, I forgot the actual storytelling part that comes from me as a writer. It's gotten kinda out of hand I guess, and there's only myself to blame for trying to juggle so many titles in what began primarily as a "What if?" Steins;Gate/Steins;Gate 0 fic. Truth be told, I never planned for it to revolve around people outside of Okabe and Kurisu, but here we are, 20-something chapters in and we got deaths of major characters like Luka and Leskinen, and plot lines that kinda take the spotlight away from "Hey, this Okabe isn't the same as the Okabe we've known for 26 years."

When I first started writing this in 2017, with only Steins;Gate, 0, and the Robotics;Notes anime under my belt, I never planned on shedding a light on what was going on with the rest of the universe, instead opting on just keeping them relegated to easter eggs I'd plant here and there. But then I got to reading the Chaos; series, as well as following different side material closely, and suddenly I wanted to throw in everyone who could still feasibly have a major role in the universe. What started out as a Steins;Gate ft. SciADV fic essentially became my version of a SciADV crossover with our Steins;God at the center of it. Then I started rationalizing it to myself. Okabe could play the same role as those who don't closely follow SciADV as they do Steins;Gate. With his memory essentially wiped of the events of SGWL, I could actually spend time explaining the rest of the SciADV cast without being too gratuitous. However, none of that happened - well - not until Luka's death where I actually went into detail about Sena and Rimi. Even then, I couldn't exactly count them because I explained what they did in my universe and not what they did in their own respective works.

What I'm trying to say is, I feel like I got too carried away with trying to write a SciADV fic that I forgot that the whole purpose of this fic was to explore the possible relationship between an Okabe who never got to experience Steins Gate, and Kurisu. Does that mean I'm just going to throw this fic in the backlog and not work on it ever again, because of my disappointment? Not really. I've slowly but surely begun updating the latest chapter, however I don't know how long it will take before I actually finish it. I guess the purpose of this was to vent the insecurities I've had about this fic ever since I've had it pivot to become more SciADV-centric. I'll still finish it, even though my drive to do so has been drastically lowered as time has gone on with these thoughts eating at me from Chapter 12 onwards. I still want to write as damn good story, so I'm not going to rush out trash just for the sake of being finished. For that, I apologize for having to make you, whoever has chosen to go this far in reading my story, wait so long for an update to the story. I swear it's coming, I just need a little more time.

Thank you for reading as long as you have. It's kept me going for as long as I have, and I really don't know what I'd do without at least an iota of support. To know that I've been able to entertain at least one person means a lot, and I do want to tie up all the plot threads in this story neatly. The end is coming. No matter what, I'm only a few chapters away from finishing this massive project. Afterwards, I am very likely going to rewrite and edit every chapter within the story to have more consistent writing, as well as finally putting Chapter 2 back out. 0verwritten:Rewritten will mostly be the same story in terms of being SciADV-centric, but I swear it'll be told much better considering I like to think that I've grown as a writer ever since the summer of 2017.

Here's to that. I hope you'll be there for the end.

~Quil