A/N: And so it begins. People, I am about to epically spam you all with updates. I'll add another chapter ever few hours for you guys to read right up until I leave for Alaska tomorrow morning. =3 SO PREPARE YOURSELVES FOR TEH AWESOMENESS! Much love to those who have faved or added the story to their story alert lists. And, as always, feedback be much appreciated. =3 Hope you all enjoy Chapter 47 of ZADR Orange. ^^
Warnings: Extreme OOCness
Rating: M
Disclaimer: We do not own Invader Zim, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Zim/Tak: Notgonnadie
Dib: Me
Beta: Notgonnadie
As horrible as Dib was doing, back at his base, Zim didn't seem to be doing all that much better than the hybrid either. He had taken to curling up on the couch once more, unwilling to go back downstairs to the bedroom alone. He already knew Dib had probably gone to stay with Gaz and Tak, being the only place he could have gone, but he just couldn't take much more of this leaving and coming back. It had only been a little over a month since he actually admitted how he really felt towards Dib. But ever since then, it had just been one tragedy after another. At this point, he was ready to just end it now while he still could.
Meanwhile, back at Tak's base, Tak stretched, crawling out of bed early, as usual, to make herself and Gaz some breakfast.
Jolting and stiffening when he heard Tak approaching, Dib quickly returning to his back and pretended to be asleep still, wanting to have the least amount of contact with Tak as physically possible while staying there.
Humming an idle tune to herself, Tak set to work cooking a delicious smelling breakfast.
Dib, however, could only shudder, something in the air not sitting right with him as he felt his stomach churning in a sickening fashion, not quite ready for the smell of breakfast foods so early in the morning.
Thinking nothing of the smells as she thought Dib was still asleep, Tak then went about setting the table for breakfast.
Pulling the blanket lying on the couch by his feet over his head and shifting slightly in an attempt to escape the smell, Dib let out a small whine. "Mmmmm..." he panted out quietly to himself, trying to keep himself from getting sick and having to make a dash for the bathroom.
Antennae perking, Tak caught the bit of shuffling about and groaning coming from the living room and rolled her eyes. "You better not throw up in there, Dib." she warned from her spot in the kitchen.
Swallowing down his sickness for the time being, Dib gave up on trying to hide the fact that he was awake from her and closed his eyes in an attempt to will himself back to sleep. "Trust me, I'm trying not to..." he said before letting out another small whimper, just wanting to slip back into sleep until the pain in his stomach had passed.
Rolling her eyes again at those words, Tak walked from the kitchen into the living room. "Whether you're trying to or not, it's going to happen. So just go to the bathroom and do it already." she said, quickly growing annoyed with his attempts to keep from getting sick.
His antennae drooping, Dib lifted his head up from under the covers to look at her before dropping his gaze back down to the ground, knowing he should but not wanting to mainly because he knew that there wouldn't be anything or anyone to comfort him afterwords like there was back at Zim's base. "I'll be fine..." he said in a whisper, looking away before pulling the covers over his head again to hide under, just wishing Tak would leave him alone.
Dropping the subject for the time being when it seemed Dib wouldn't listen to her, Tak rather took a different approach to the situation, trying to drop a hint or two while she could about getting him to go back to Zim. "You know, I bet Zim misses you..." she said, thinking maybe she could convince him to go back without all three of them having to sit down and have a talk about it later.
Eyes growing wide at those words, Dib quickly calmed himself back down, letting his eyelids slip halfway closed as his eyes filled to the brim with un-shed tears. "I don't want to see him...It hurts too much to be around him right now..." he began shaking slightly with emotion, letting out a few small whimpers from his spot underneath the blanket.
Rolling her eyes yet again at his reaction, Tak brought up a hand to pinch right between them. "FINE! Just don't throw up in there!" she turned to storm back into the kitchen, not knowing how much more of this she could take.
Lifting his head again to peek out from underneath the blanket at her, Dib blinked the tears out of his eyes before wilting again against the couch. "Okay..." he just didn't want to get into another fight with her while staying there.
Continuing her work inside the kitchen, Tak nodded in acknowledgment of him before addressing him yet again, also trying to keep her cool. "So, what do you want for breakfast?" she asked, knowing he needed to eat at least something while he was staying there.
Closing his eyes and shaking his head, Dib buried his face into his arms. "You don't have to make me anything...I'm not very hungry right now...A-And I know you don't want me here..." he said, not wanting to become a burden if it meant him having to have contact with Tak.
Shaking her head at that and putting down the plate she was holding, Tak turned back to face the living room again. "Whether I want you here or not doesn't matter. I still have to make sure you eat and stay healthy. You're carrying for crying out loud!" she threw her arms up in the air as though it were obvious she had to make him something.
"And would you act any differently towards me if I weren't?" Dib suddenly snapped, pushing himself up from underneath the blanket.
"Of course I would." Tak stated calmly, closing her eyes and crossing her arms.
"Yeah...That's what I thought...You and everybody else..." Dib sighed, antennae drooping even more.
"Except for Zim." Tak pointed out.
"Zim probably hates me now...You didn't see the look he had on his face when I left...But I couldn't stay there...I couldn't..." Dib gripped the blanket tightly.
"He was probably just in shock. I'm going to guess you made some lame promise about not being mad at him if he told you or something." Tak made a small gesture in the air with one of her hands.
"No, I didn't!" Dib barked at her before bowing his head, eyes squeezed tightly shut. "I couldn't...I told him I couldn't make any promises about how I would react! The only thing I promised him was that I wouldn't hate him, no matter what!...And I don't...But that doesn't mean I've forgiven him for this yet! I don't know how I could after what he did to me! And that's why it's so hard to even think about him right now!" he shook his head, just wanting to drop the subject altogether now.
"Did you ever think that maybe he didn't MEAN to do this? I'm pretty sure he was too stupid to even think it was possible." Tak rolled her eyes yet again.
"You just don't get it! I'm not talking about him getting me pregnant! I can accept that! What I'm talking about is the fact that he's taken everything from me! He's taken my heart, my trust, and above all else, MY VIRGINITY! And what's next? My soul, perhaps? It's like I don't even belong to myself anymore because he's taken everything I had...He's taken everything and left me with nothing...I don't even have his trust enough for him to tell me these things..." Dib blinked a few stray tears from his eyes.
Furious now despite how much she hated Zim, Tak couldn't help but stick up for him here, exploding on Dib now. "DID YOU EVER STOP TO CONSIDER THAT YOU GAVE HIM ALL THAT? I HATE THE GUY AND EVEN I CAN TELL HE'S NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO WOULD JUST TAKE ALL THOSE THINGS! I KNOW HE WAS TELLING THE TRUTH WHEN HE SAID YOU ASKED HIM TO! HE EVEN SAID HE OFFERED TO STOP AND YOU TOLD HIM NOT TO! EVER THINK OF THAT? HUH? HUH!" she just couldn't take his whining any longer.
Also becoming upset at her own words, Dib yelled right back at her. "HOW COULD I WHEN I WAS SO DRUGGED UP THAT I COULDN'T EVEN REMEMBER ANY OF IT? LISTEN! I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU WANT ME TO GO BACK TO ZIM'S JUST SO YOU CAN GET RID OF ME, BUT IF YOU REALLY CAN'T STAND HAVING ME AROUND THEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST TELL ME TO LEAVE ALREADY? ON SECOND THOUGHT, DON'T! I DON'T WANT TO STAY HERE ANY LONGER!" he screamed back at her, standing up abruptly to storm out of the base.
"Dammit." Tak cursed, flicking the stove off and then running after Dib. "GET BACK HERE, DIB!" she yelled after him, knowing she couldn't just let him wander the streets the remainder of his pregnancy.
"NO! WHY SHOULD I? IT'S NOT WORTH IT TO STAY WITH YOU WHEN ALL YOU DO IS VERBALLY ABUSE ME EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY! I'VE ALREADY HAD TO PUT UP WITH THAT FOR NEARLY MY ENTIRE LIFE, AND I'M SICK OF IT!" Dib refused to turn back around as he continued down the street.
Continuing to follow after him, Tak growled out lowly at that. "What is WRONG WITH YOU? Why are you such a cry baby? WHY can't you just go back to Zim and be happy? He's probably doing something right now to kill himself because of this! WHO KNOWS? And all you can do is whine and complain because YOU can't remember something!" she screamed back at him.
"SHUT UP!" Dib stopped in his tracks and turned to glare daggers back at her. "SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! I DON'T NEED EVERYBODY YELLING AT ME ABOUT THIS AND BLAMING THE ENTIRE THING ON ME! LIKE I HAD ANY CONTROL OVER THE SITUATION!" he narrowed his eyes on her even more.
"YOU HAVE CONTROL NOW, DON'T YOU? YOU SHOULDN'T BE OUT MAKING THINGS WORSE! JUST GO BACK TO HIM ALREADY! KILL THE DAMN THINGS IF THEY CAUSE YOU SO MUCH TROUBLE!" Tak knew she shouldn't have suggested that as it was too rare to allow him to get rid of them, but she couldn't control her anger in that moment.
"IT'S NONE OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS WHAT I DO WITH THEM! SO JUST BUTT OUT ALREADY! GOING BACK WON'T MAKE THINGS ANY BETTER BECAUSE HE CAN NEVER TAKE BACK WHAT HE DID, AND I DON'T KNOW THAT I CAN TRUST HIM ANY LONGER!" Dib refused to listen, just wanting everybody to leave him alone long enough for him to clear out his head.
A/N: And there you have it. Your weekly update of ZADR Orange. =3 But oh teh noes! D8 Teh caps lock! It be raping your guys' computer screens! D888. Lol. XD Or perhaps that's just me. Anyways, let me just quickly respond to the one person who reviewed last chapter. =3 Then I'll post another chapter in just a few more hours. XD
To lillybean queen of the i ocean: Gladtohearit! 8DDD