A/N: ;_; Okay. I give, you guys. I guess there's just no point in asking people NOT to send me grief over my decision to post sexual chapters elsewhere. No, I am NOT going to start posting them here on FF. I'll just stop wasting my time with the A/N's because apparently they go unread by the majority of you all.
Darn...Right when I thought I had nailed this into people's heads. I just wish people would stop speaking to me as though this is my first day on FF. Newsflash, you guys. I've been here over EIGHT YEARS! I KNOW how this site works. I KNOW people get away with posting sexual content here. That does NOT mean EVERYBODY gets away with it. It only takes ONE report to have a story removed from the site. And I know of plenty of people out there who would be more than happy to report this story if given the chance.
I'm certain this won't stop people from contacting me about it because this literally happens several times a month. But perhaps I'll just stop responding to those sorts of comments from now on. -_-; I am tired to repeating myself. I really am. And I am tired of people treating me like I'm some sort of idiot. I'm twenty fucking three years old, you guys. I've graduated from college. Apparently that doesn't stop people from assuming I'm some 12-year-old noob with no knowledge of the internet. I don't follow this site's rules just to annoy you guys. I follow them because they are there for a reason. Please don't give me the run around about trying to get around those rules. I'm perfectly happy to just follow them and post the chapters elsewhere. If other people want to break them, that's their choice to make. Please don't ask me to do things your way just because you and 20 million other people do it differently.
That said, I hope you guys otherwise enjoy this quick update. =3 Hopefully more will be soon to come. I just have to get myself in more of a writing mood first. Been trying to work on DIS for ages but just haven't had the motivation for it. DX I guess DoomCon might fix that, but we'll see. I need to get my IZ drive back. The fandom just scares me nowadays though. :/ Too many Girtards and fangirls throwing around fan characters that they pair up with Zim or Dib. (Has an extreme hatred for FCXCanon pairings and people who only like the show for Gir).
ZADR Orange Chapter 66
Warnings: Extreme OOCness
Rating: M for later chapters
Disclaimer: We do not own Invader Zim, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Zim: Notgonnadie
Dib: Me
Regretting his earlier actions, Zim had by now gotten lost thinking about things and didn't hear Dib entering the upper floor.
Antennae falling as low as physically possible, Dib dropped his gaze back down to the ground. "...Maybe he's mad at me..." he looked back up at all the food, not feeling hungry at all. Convinced that Zim just didn't want to see him anymore, he pressed his back to the elevator door and sank down to sit on the floor with his knees to his chest.
Starting to feel hungry himself however, Zim sighed, figuring Dib wouldn't be coming up anytime soon. So, going into the kitchen to get something to eat other than Dib's buffet, he stopped, deadpanning at the sight of Dib curled up in front of the elevator door. "D-Dib?" the hybrid's name slipped past his lips.
So horribly embarrassed at the way he had reacted down in Zim's lab, Dib flinched back at hearing the other say his name then curled in on himself even more, wanting to hide himself away from Zim forever. He didn't even want to look up as he just sobbed into his arms.
Zim's eyes grew wide. "Wh-Why are you crying? Dib? Dib, what's wrong?" he asked, forgetting everything he was doing and going to Dib's side, wrapping an arm around him delicately.
Jolting slightly at the arm being wrapped around him, Dib otherwise didn't look up, his body shaking slightly as he sobbed into his arms more, wanting to pull away but finding himself unable to.
Worried something seriously wrong had happened with either Dib or the unborn smeets, Zim tried again to get Dib to talk to him. "Dib? Dib, tell me what's wrong." he pleaded with the other to tell him.
But Dib could only shrink down even more in his spot, shaking his head, not wanting to talk about what had happened down in Zim's bedroom, not even registering that Zim could be freaking out about something other than that at the moment.
Thinking that something was very wrong now, more than likely with the smeets, Zim started to panic. "Dib? DIB! PLEASE! Tell me what happened!" he held the hybrid closer. "A-Are the smeets okay? Please tell me, Dib! D-Don't do this! Please!" he nuzzled into him, shaking now.
His antennae perking and eyes blinking wide open at the Zim's words, Dib lifted his head from his arms to look up at Zim for the first time since he had come up there. "The smeets? But they're fine..." he said, antennae drooping again after saying that.
Zim's own antennae drooped as well. "Oh..." he stopped freaking out, feeling bad now. "Then what's wrong, Dib?" he placed his hand under Dib's chin, tilting his head up to force him to look him straight in the eyes. "Please...Tell me." he pleaded with the other not to keep what was bothering him a secret any longer.
Staring up at Zim for a few long moments, Dib then dropped his gaze back down to the ground and blushed, falling silent once more as his antennae fell back again uncomfortably, not wanting to answer Zim's question.
Zim looked sad. "Dib...Please tell me what's wrong. Don't you trust-" he cut himself off before he could finish, flinching at his own words. "Oh..." he let go of the boy quickly, realizing why Dib was so upset. "I-I'm sorry..." he apologized, pulling away to stand at the other end of the room now. "I-I made you breakfast..." he gestured to the buffet of food sitting there on the table untouched.
Wincing at the way Zim pulled away from him, feeling 10 times more hurt by the Irken's sudden distance, Dib felt the tears coming again as he brought up a hand to try and wipe them away, new tears replacing them just as quickly. "I-I'm not hungry..." he said in a strained voice, close to breaking down completely again.
Antennas twitching at the sound of Dib's voice, Zim winced, turning back around to see Dib crying again. Not knowing what to do, he rubbed his arm uncomfortably before giving in and rushing back over to him, wrapping his arms around Dib tightly. "Please don't cry...I know it's just hormones...But please...I know I shouldn't have done that...B-But I was just..." he sighed, trying to find the right words. "I don't know what I was doing, okay...?" he admitted, trying to soothe the other nonetheless.
Body shaking in his grip, Dib could only bury his face deeper into Zim's shirt.
Running his hands through Dib's hair, rubbing at his antennae gently, Zim kissed his head repeatedly. "Please forgive me..." he didn't want Dib to be upset with him.
His antennae twitching back at the feel of Zim rubbing them, Dib sank down against the other before sobbing out into the Irken's shirt. "But it's not fair to you! It's not fair that I keep reacting that way! It's not fair that I just can't bring myself to go any farther with you when you obviously want to..." his voice petered out.
"No, no. It's okay, Dib...I-I just...I'm sorry...I have to stop doing things like this...They just cause trouble..." Zim hugged Dib close, kissing him more.
"But it's my fault this keeps on happening! You do everything for me, but I can't even manage to do something so simple for you! And it's not fair that I can't bring myself to do what you want most from me!"
Nuzzling Dib, Zim sighed. "Let's just drop it, okay...? Come on. Let's just eat, okay...?" he tried to change the subject, not wanting Dib to be feeling that way.
His antennae drooping even more, Dib looked up at Zim with teary eyes then the food set out for him. "I knew it..." he said in nearly a whisper.
Zim stopped in his tracks. "Kn-Knew what?" he asked, not understanding Dib's words.
"You're angry! You're angry because of how I reacted down there! Because of how I react every time something like this happens!"
"What? NO! I'm not angry!"
"Yes, you are! You tell me you're not, but I can tell you feel cheated because I refuse to have sex with you!" Dib brought up a second hand to wipe more tears out of his eyes.
"NO, I'M NOT! I'M NOT MAD! I WAS JUST WORRIED ABOUT YOU, OKAY? I'M SORRY! I DIDN'T MEAN WHAT HAPPENED DOWN THERE! I-I was just trying to get you to trust me..."
"But I already DO trust you!" Dib sobbed, using his wrists now to wipe at his eyes. "What made you think I didn't...? he asked between sobs, hiding his face away in Zim's shirt again.
"Because I keep screwing up like this, okay?"
Flinching at the way the other yelled at him just then, Dib lifted his head to send Zim a slightly frightened look before pulling away, body shaking. "B-But I wouldn't be here if I didn't trust you..." his words came out shaky.
Zim looked away. "I-I know...I just..." he grabbed his own antennae, pulling on them roughly, hurting himself in the process as he tried to think of what to say next. He couldn't think of anything though and only ended up whimpering out softly. "I-I don't know, okay?" he tried to get that across to Dib.
No longer wiping at his eyes as he just let the tears come in a flood now, Dib dropped his hands back down to his lap. "D-Do you want me to leave...?" he asked, not sure whether Zim was mad at him or not any longer.
Zim's eyes snapped open. "NO!" he exclaimed in all seriousness.
Dib whimpered out in a strained voice. "I don't like hurting you...But it keeps on happening..." he said, just wanting to do what he thought was best for Zim.
Zim tugged painfully on his own antennae again. "You haven't done anything wrong, Dib..." he tried to keep his voice even and calm.
"Then stop doing that!" Dib screamed, reaching out to grab Zim's hands so he would stop tugging on his antennae like that. Then, blinking wide, tearful eyes up at the other, he moved his own hands down to gently run his fingers along the length of the sensitive appendages, massaging his thumbs around the very tips of them. "If I'm not hurting you, then stop hurting yourself every time I say something..." he said between light sobs and sniffles.
Purring lightly at having his antennas being treated so well after all the abuse he had just put them through, Zim melted in Dib's grasp. "...I'm sorry..." he apologized, suddenly very calm again.
Slumping up against Zim again while his fingers continued their work on the Irken's antennae, Dib breathed in shakily, his wide eyes falling half lidded before slipping all the way closed. "Then no more hurting yourself...Please...No more..." he begged with the other to stop before it became a habit for him.
Eyes half lidded, Zim nodded. "Okay...But...You have to tell me what's wrong from now on, okay...?" he didn't want there to be secrets between the two of them, especially after everything that had just happened a few weeks prior.
His antennae drooping, Dib squeezed his eyes tightly shut before nodding his head reluctantly. "...Okay..." he agreed in a quiet whisper.
Kissing him gently, Zim smiled. "Now, tell me what's wrong." he said, wanting to know what was wrong so he could make things right again.
A/N: And there you have it for Chapter 66 =3 Sorry for the long, ranting A/N at the beginning of this chapter, you guys. I'll just get to answering reviews now.
To Guest (Kayla): Well, hello again. =3 So nice of you to leave another review. ^^ I'm glad my conversion techniques didn't ruin the story for you too much, though I guess reading it over on DA might have something to do with that. XD Honestly enough though, I hated how I pieced together the PG-13 version of Chapter 65. But, what can one do when working with an RP? It's hard to stick to the script while trying to edit out the adult parts at the same time. But oh well. Moving on. I'm always happy when I can tug at people's emotions with my writing. =3 It's something I strive for. To make people FEEL something. You know, other than the annoyance of me taking forever to update. XD So I always appreciate hearing from you guys about that. And you're very welcome for the review response. =3 I'm happy to give them to anybody who takes the time to respond to this story. ^^
To Guest (Anonymous): Glad you think so. ^^
To TrU-iNSaNiTY (Who signed in as Guest on her first review): Well, not sure if you're caught up yet, but I'll throw you a review response anyways for when you DO make it to Chapter 66. Don't feel awkward about reviewing only a few chapters into the story. I do love to hear from you guys and I don't much mind which chapters you respond to. ^^ As for the fanart you saw on DA before reading the story, never judge a book by its cover, or, in this case, by its fanart. There's much more to this story than just the DA fanart, as I'm certain you realized by now. But anyways, moving on, you can find the DA version at Dib-The-Hybrid. I don't post in my main gallery because the last time I did that, I got bawwed at about it by my ex co-writer. So yeah. It gets its own account now. And as for Chapter 39, like I explained to you in the PM I sent you, I only told you not to look up FANART before that point. I never said you'd understand what I meant in my livestream. I just didn't want the fanart giving away the pregnancy spoiler. And trust me, pregnancy is NOT a crutch in this story. As large of a plot point it was to reach in the fic, there's much more to the fic than just that. If we had planned on using pregnancy to run this story, we would have introduced it MUCH earlier in the story. But all things considered, this story actually could stand on its own two feet even without the pregnancy aspect. We just threw that in there for our own amusement when writing it. So don't let it throw you off too much. Just keep on reading and you'll see where we end up taking it from here~
To Guest (Kuro): Hello there. =3 Ah, yes. The only other site it's posted on. Hopefully I'll catch up soon enough so you can continue reading, though obviously that site isn't being updated any longer. So yeah. Just hang tight here on FF and it should be caught up soon enough. =3 Thanks for reading. Hope I don't keep you waiting too horribly long. ^^
To MonochromeFox (Who also signed in as Guest on her first review; What the hell is up with you guys and signing in as all anonymous Guests this week? XD): As I promised in the PM I sent your way, here's your shoutout on the chapter. =3 A big, big, BIG thank you for the super kind review you sent. As I already mentioned, it was the longest review I've ever gotten from somebody on this story. So I very much appreciate it. Of course, I remember you from WAY back when the story first started, so I was happy to hear back from you again after all this time. ^^ I'm very happy you approve of the characterization of all the characters and I hope you continue to enjoy the ways in which they develop over time. Don't be sorry for reviewing all in one go though. For a single review to the entire story up to this point, it was rather detailed. And I'm pleased to hear when my reviewers are actually taking the time to read my A/N's and such. As mentioned above, the majority of my readers DON'T pay any mind to them. So yeah. Thanks once again. Even though there are people out there who try to come up with shit comments to send me about this story, the positive comments still outweigh the negative. So I'm happy. =3 I look forward to hearing more from you in the future. And don't worry. My ex-partner and I were heading that way for a long while. I kind of expected it to happen after a point, so it didn't really come to me as much of a surprise. All in all, we live, learn, and move on with our lives. So hopefully you'll continue to enjoy this fic as it moves on with its life. Until next time, however~ (P.S. The ZADROrange group on DA is for the most part dead. XD You don't have to watch that group if you don't want to. Nothing gets updated there any longer because of the falling out I had with NGD. Dib-The-Hybrid is where you'll find most of the story's updates nowadays).
To Mrs Inuyasha Kagome: Hello again. =3 Yet another familiar face I haven't seen in some time. I hope you're doing well. Yes, it's true. This story really HASN'T been updated in a long while. But I'm glad you're still keeping up even though it took me a while to get things going again. I'm happy to hear you're still enjoying the story, and I do hope you'll continue to enjoy it as even more updates come in the future. =3
To Invader Zeyin: Hello and welcome to the review section of ZO. XD I realize you left a review on Chapter 2 of the story, but if/when you catch up, I do hope this response back doesn't go unnoticed. As for the story itself, it is indeed long. But please don't feel rushed to read it. It's not going anywhere so you can feel free to take as much time as you need on it. All in all, I hope you enjoy. =3
To Gues (Anonymous): Eh...I didn't name Jack back when he was created. My ex co-writer did. But I can assure you, the name was meant to be totally random. So it's not that it was a popular name. It's total coincidence that Jack was named "Jack" and that his last name just happened to be "Williams." Thanks for reading anyways.
To Invader-ZimXDib-membrane: Thank you for reading the story, but please see the PM I sent you in response to your review. I've kind of explained this in my A/N's a dozen times by now. I'd appreciate not being told what I already know on here. Thank you. ^^
And that just about raps it up for this week's reviews you guys. As I've already said, I'll see if I can get in a few more updates, but don't hold me to that. I need to build up my motivation for updating first. Not the easiest thing to do when there are so many other things going on around you. But oh well. The upcoming con should fix that soon enough. Until next time though~