ZADR Orange Chapter 70

Warnings: Extreme OOCness

Rating: M for later chapters

Disclaimer: We do not own Invader Zim, nor any of the characters from it. We do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Zim: Notgonnadie

Dib: Me

"Wh-What happened?" Dib asked, blinking his eyes just barely open to look around before closing them again and sighing when Zim began running his fingers along the length of his antennae. "Mmm..." he sounded out in a content hum.

"You passed out..." Zim pet his antennas gently, trying to get him to feel as good as he could without going too far. "I-I'm sorry, Dib...I don't know how I can fix this..." his voice shook.

A small purr escaping him, Dib merely pushed more into the feeling. "Mmmmm...You promised to stay with me no matter what... Just don't leave me for even a second and maybe things will turn out alright..." he slurred a bit, his mind swimming as he became lost to Zim's ministrations.

Keeping up his rubbing, Zim smiled. "I won't leave you, Dib... I promise... This time I mean it more than ever." he said in a soft voice to the other.

"Good..." Dib nuzzled into Zim's chest, antennae perking when his stomach growled suddenly. He hadn't gotten the chance to eat upstairs because he had thrown his plate at Zim earlier. "Mmm... Now I'm really hungry..." he whined into the other's chest in a muffled voice.

Zim laughed a little. "Computer, bring some food down for Dib. I don't feel like going back up." he said, getting comfortable with his human hybrid.

Sighing, the computer delivered a plate of food down to them for Dib. "There... Are you happy NOW? Or do you plan on ordering me around for the remainder of the day?" it said in a rather irritated fashion.

Staring at the plate of food, Dib then looked back up at Zim. "A-Are you going to continue reading that book you were looking at? O-Or any of the other books upstairs? he asked.

"Maybe later... I-I don't think I can right now..."

"Hmm?" Dib blinked his eyes at the suddenly very pale looking Irken. "Hey...You're not going to faint or anything when I go into labor with the smeets, are you? Cause that would REALLY be a bad time for something like that to happen to either of us..." he said, looking rather concerned now.

Zim wrapped his arms tighter around Dib. "I refuse. Zim will not faint like a stupid worm-baby..." he kissed Dib, nuzzling into his neck. "I won't pass out..." he then whispered a second time to himself, as if for reassurance.

Dib sighed out in some relief. "Okay, good... Because so far as I see, you'll be the one delivering them... That is, unless you have some other alternative in mind..." he said, pulling the plate of food up to rest on his chest so he could begin nibbling on some of it.

"No... It'll have to be me...The only other ones who could help would be Gaz and Tak... And I doubt they'd want to see you naked..."

Staring down at the ground now in some embarrassment, Dib blushed a bit. "E-Even if they did offer to help, I-I wouldn't want them in the room while it's happening..." he said, having grown rather stiff at the other's words.

Giggling a little, Zim smiled. "What? Are you shy, Dibbers?" he poked a bit of fun at the boy.

Snapping his head up to stare at the Irken with wide eyes, Dib's face flared up an even brighter red at the other's words. "W-Well...I-I ummm...I-It's private, okay? Nobody else should have any reason to be in the room with us when it's happening!" he exclaimed before dropping his gaze back down to stare at the ground shyly, unable to look back up at Zim now.

Zim sighed. "Dib, you're painfully shy of everything about you... You won't even let me see you naked, and we live together... and you're pregnant..." he was starting to find the other's shyness to be just a little bit ridiculous.

"W-Well, what reason do you have for wanting to see me naked in the first place?" Dib sent Zim an all too serious look. "C-Can't you find some other way to get yourself off like most other people do?" he dropped his gaze back down to the ground, furrowing his eyebrows.

Looking away, Zim blushed. "I-I love you... I'm sorry... I just... Guess I can't help myself... I want you to myself. ALL of you..." he tried to find the right words to get that point across.

Bringing his gaze back up to look at Zim a bit curiously, Dib tilted his head to one side. "Well, what about me is it that you find so attractive anyways? Haven't you already taken from me everything you could take? I don't know what else you could possibly want from me at this point...Haven't I already given all of myself to you?" he honestly had no idea what more Zim could want.

Zim looked back over at him. "Don't talk like that, Dib! Everything about you is attractive! I love your hair!" he ruffled Dib's hair. "And your cute little antennas!" he smoothed them down. "The way you see things other people can't!" he stroked his cheek. "How you can be so strong in what you believe in no matter what anyone else says!" he kissed Dib's lips. "H-How...you can stand to be around me..." he sighed and looked away again. "We had sex, Dib...but...when you didn't remember it...it just wasn't the same...and now you are afraid of me..." his antennae drooped.

"So...You want to have sex with me again..." Dib blushed, fidgeting in his spot again. He wasn't afraid of Zim, just nervous about doing it again. His antennae drooped. "...I'm sorry...I really wish I could remember it..." he hugged himself tightly. "I don't want you to think that way though...I don't want you to think that I'm afraid of you because of that...Because I'm really NOT afraid of you..." he said, looking back up at Zim.

Hugging Dib tightly, Zim sighed. "And I don't want to force you to do anything, Dib...But you can't stop me from wanting it...You can get mad at me for it...But I can't help how I feel towards you..." he said, resting his chin against the top of Dib's head.

Nuzzling his face into the other's neck, Dib sighed out lightly to himself. "I know...I just wish I could bring myself to give you what you wanted..." he said, feeling pretty useless in that moment.

Rubbing his belly, Zim pet Dib gently before sighing. "I know..." he said in a whisper, avoiding eye contact.

Feeling horrible now, Dib's antennae drooped even more. "...Is there something wrong with me that I can't do this...? Why was I so easily able to do it with you that first time but can't anymore...? Wh-Why can't I just remember it...?" he asked himself, sighing when he couldn't come up with a reason.

Zim smiled a little. "You think too much about things...Last time we weren't thinking...We just did it." he shrugged.

"W-Weren't...thinking? Dib repeated, looking back up at Zim before dropping his gaze back down to the ground. "B-But the only time I'm not thinking is when I'm sick or hurting..." he didn't understand how he couldn't have been thinking about it at the time.

"Then that's probably why we ended up having sex...You were hurting...And technically, you were running a fever at the time."

"I-I...don't remember...B-But what good is it to us if we have to wait every time for me to be sick or in pain just to have sex...? Things shouldn't be that way!"

Zim's antennas drooped. "I'm sorry..." he apologized a second time, feeling as though this were his entire fault now.

The tears coming now, Dib hid his face away in Zim's shirt. "It isn't right to feel this way...I should want you every second of every day...B-But I don't feel that urge to have sex with you all the time like you do for me..." his voice came out strained. "It's not fair! I want to want you every moment I'm with you and not with you! B-But I've just felt content to be with you...To know that somebody actually wants to be with me no matter what my mood..." he sobbed, wiping his tear stained cheeks on the other's shirt.

"Dib. Dib, it's okay." Zim wrapped his arms around him, holding the younger one close. "You're still so young, Dib. Contentment is all I could really ask of you. It's okay." he tried to soothe the crying hybrid.

"But I love you so much! And you love me! It's not fair to feel only content! I want to feel something stronger than that! Contentment is an emotion that can be felt between any two people, even if they're just friends! I want our relationship to mean more than that though! I want it to be something special!" Dib exclaimed, an array of emotions exploding out of him all at once.

A/N: And there you have it for Chapter 70. =3 Until next time~