A/N: I don't own Harry Potter or any related characters
Word Count: 718
Warning: rape, abuse, cheating.
You're the reason I'm afraid of the dark.
You're the reason I can't close my eyes.
You've done so much, taken so much from me.
After I said 'no', after I pushed you away,
nothing I did, nothing I said, mattered to you.
You made me take your name, brainwashed me,
gaslighted me, all because of an obsession I
should have seen.
I wasn't alone in my misery.
I wasn't alone when I slipped into the night.
I wasn't alone when I prayed it would end.
No, his face kept me sane, his face, his promise,
that he would save me if, no when, I needed saving.
He saw you for who you were.
He saw the madness in your eyes.
He was always there, even when you
left me a broken shell of a woman.
Once upon a time, we were all friends.
We all shared the pain, shared the joy.
We fought side by side, knowing we had to win
this battle, the world was upon our shoulders.
We won, we won, but at what cost.
A shared kiss in the heat of passion, in the heat of battle.
A kiss that changed my life, that set us on this path.
After the dust settled, after the bodies were counted,
that's when you found me.
That's when you promised me we were meant for
one another.
I believed you, how I believed you.
I wanted someone to hold me.
I wanted someone to chase the nightmares away.
You were there, you were promising me all these things,
promising me forever.
I should have seen the signs:
the late nights
the strange scents
the lies
I should have seen, but you had an explanation
for everything.
Little lies, little lies I believed because I
didn't want to admit the truth.
I didn't want to admit to myself that you
were a monster.
Broken and bruised when I couldn't give you want you wanted
you took it, stole it.
I wasn't ready for that yet.
I wanted, it didn't matter what I wanted,
all that mattered was what you wanted.
You broke me, leaving me crying,
the entire time telling me you loved me,
that only you could love me like that.
I still stayed, I believed you.
I was naive in how the world worked.
I thought you were right, that no one would want me
after what you'd stolen from me.
I should have seen it, should have realized...
but I didn't.
I blamed myself as you bound me to you.
I blamed myself when I failed to give you what you wanted.
I failed and failed and failed.
I thought it was my fault when you sought comfort in someone else's
arms.
I thought I was the problem.
Once upon a time, I was brilliant.
Then I was nothing special. I was too smart.
I was too bossy.
Knowing everything became a flaw,
not an asset.
Then he was there.
Back from where ever he'd gone.
He'd gone to find out who he was without
the world on his shoulders.
He took one look at me and swept me away.
His lips were the ones I kissed gingerly,
terrified of finding love to be hurt again.
He never touched me without permission.
He never raised a hand to me when I said
'no' in a trembling voice.
He was my savior, the savior of the world.
He was kind, holding me when I screamed at night,
when I saw your face in my nightmares.
You're the reason I'm afraid of the dark.
He's the reason I can face that fear slowly
step by step.
He's the reason I will survive what you've done to me.
He's the reason I can feel, I can love, again.
And he will never become you.
He will never become a monster.
With him, I will be safe.
With him, I shall never have to
listen to your lies again, never have to
believe them.
White dress, sparkling jewels,
all more than I ever dreamed.
You're not there, once we were best friends.
But now, him and I are the only ones in the world
as I finally promise myself to him, knowing
there's a whole new future for me.
A whole new future for me without you.