Thank you for your patience and for your kind concern I appreciate it. The boys are well and so am I. I wasn't for about two days though. I think it was a combination of worrying over the boys and being overworked. I'm still tired, still working 6-7 days a week and sometimes split, but I am grateful.
On the other hand, I hope you and your families are well and keeping safe. Much love to you.
I do not own Glee or the characters, neither do I own The Billionaire's Embrace.
MERCEDES
Sam was late...
Fifteen minutes late, in fact.
I poked at my phone, trying to seem busy and important, when in fact I just felt awkward and out of place in the fancy restaurant.
Sam had coaxed me into having dinner with him here, despite my reservations of it being too expensive and too classy. And now he couldn't even be bothered to show up on time.
To be fair, he hadn't simply abandoned me...
When I first arrived, the maitre d' took my name and then said,
"Miss Jones, I'm afraid that Mr. Evans is running late. He sends his apologies."
"Oh," I'd said, startled. "Did he say how long he'll be?"
"I'm afraid not," the man had said, with a warm and insincere smile that was so familiar to me. I used it myself on an almost daily basis.
So I waited...
I wondered why Sam hadn't called me, or at least sent a text message. Why rely on the maitre d'?
Maybe that was just how rich people did things.
The waiter brought me a glass of wine while I waited. It was good wine, probably, but I didn't know anything about wine.
I bought a $10 bottle a few times a year to take to dinner at someone's house, and beyond that, I had never given the subject much thought.
But if I kept spending time with Sam, I had the feeling I would get a thorough education.
I texted Joss, my best friend, but she didn't reply... Then I checked my email, but my inbox was empty. After that I couldn't think of anything else to do, so I drank my wine and looked around the restaurant...
It was packed at this time of the evening...almost 8:00...and I felt conspicuous sitting alone, a single person taking up a whole table.
The other customers were well-dressed in a way I had learned to identify as a subtle indication of wealth... Nothing flashy, but expensive materials, and well-tailored.
I was glad I had ignored Sam's assurances that I could wear whatever I wanted, and had instead worn a silk dress and pearls.
Well, the pearls were fake, but I didn't think anyone would be able to tell.
Sam didn't know what he was talking about; he wore the same thing all the time, and he was so rich that even if he was under-dressed, nobody would give him the side-eye.
When rich people wore the wrong thing, it was because they were charmingly eccentric. But if you were poor, it was because you had no class and were morally deficient.
I really hoped my pearls looked real...
I was hungry I realized... I wasn't used to eating dinner so late. I usually had a quick meal when I first arrive at the club, before it got too busy.
And even before I started working there, I'd never been able to keep New York dinner hours. I was always starving by 5:30 pm.
My phone buzzed...
It was a text message from Sam, finally...
SAM: Almost there. Five minutes. Please forgive me!
And just like that, my irritation evaporated. I couldn't ever seem to stay mad at him.
Everything he did charmed me, and I knew it was just chemicals going wild in my brain, dopamine and oxytocin and the like, but my heart fluttered in my chest anyway.
I was even delighted by the way he always used proper capitalization and punctuation in his text messages.
The sad truth... I was smitten.
It had been a little more than a month since I first met Sam at the upscale gentlemen's club where I worked as a cocktail waitress.
And this would be our third official date since the evening he showed up at the club and asked me to give him a chance.
In the couple of weeks since then, we had exchanged countless text messages, video chatted on nights he was stuck late at the office, and had a couple of make-out sessions in a back room when he came to visit me at work.
It was going well...
It was going really well... Better than I had dared to hope.
He was busy, of course, running a multinational corporation took, as I was learning, a considerable amount of time and effort, but he made time for me, carving out a few minutes to email me an article he thought I would like or a video of corgis running through the snow.
I felt like I was walking on clouds all the time, and my tips at work had increased noticeably.
Natalie said I kept smiling at the customers like I really meant it. But I couldn't help myself; I was happy, and I wanted to share it with everyone around me.
I felt a prickling sensation at the back of my neck, and turned around in my chair...
Sam was walking towards me. He looked tired, but he broke into a smile when he saw me looking at him, and I felt myself smiling in response, even though I wanted to make him grovel a little for leaving me alone.
He came to a stop beside my chair...
"I'm so sorry I'm late," he said, and bent to kiss me, tipping my head back with one hand cupping my chin.
I closed my eyes and breathed in the scent of his cologne, feeling his five o'clock shadow scratching deliciously against my skin.
Then he drew away and sat opposite me at the round table.
"Are you hideously angry that I kept you waiting for so long?"
"Yes, hideously," I said. "You'll have to buy me something really expensive to make up for it. Like..."
I racked my brain, trying to think of something appropriately decadent...
He let me flounder for a few moments, and then said,
"How about a Maserati?"
"Isn't that a car?" I asked, and then felt stupid as soon as the words left my mouth. Of course it was a car. I really needed to learn to think before I spoke.
But Sam just grinned at me and said,
"A car manufacturer, yes. You can drive it to work, and to buy groceries."
I shook my head.
"Where would I park it? On the street outside my apartment?"
"It would get stolen in about five minutes," he said. "We'll have to think of something else." He picked up my wine glass and took a sip. "Nice wine. Did you order this?"
"The waiter just brought it to me," I admitted. He would never believe that I had mastered the art of ordering wine. "I haven't even seen the menu yet."
He chuckled...
"There isn't one. It's prix fixe. Did the maitre d' tell you I would be late?"
I nodded.
"You could've just called me, you know."
"Well, I thought you would be more impressed if the maitre d' gave you the message, and maybe you wouldn't yell at me too much." He took one of my hands. "There was a crisis at the office. I really am very sorry. I don't plan to make a habit of leaving you stranded."
Someone, at some point, had taught this man how to apologize and mean it.
"I forgive you," I said, and squeezed his hand. "What kind of crisis?"
I was trying to learn a little about his work. I would never understand all the ins and outs of international business, but I wanted to show him that I was interested in his life.
I knew his business mattered to him a lot.
Sam sighed...
"Oh, the Japanese stock market opened low, and the guys in the Tokyo office started panicking. It took me half an hour on a conference call to calm them down. I need to send someone out there to get a handle on things. They've been acting like headless chickens since the chief finance guy got poached by Mizuho." He shook his head. "Let's not talk about this. It's very boring. Are you hungry?"
"I could eat," I said, unwilling to admit that my stomach had been gurgling almost continuously for the past half an hour.
"Starving, I take it," he said. He released my hand and signaled to the waiter, who instantly materialized at our table...
Sam ordered another bottle of wine and requested our food, and I sat there like polite furniture.
This was his world, not mine...
That part of it was still hard. But I was determined to be honest with myself about our developing relationship. We hadn't made each other any promises, and I was trying to keep my eyes open and stay realistic about the situation.
If things weren't working out, I needed to be able to walk away with my heart and dignity intact. I didn't want to completely lose myself in him, because then there would be nothing left of me.
Dinner came, in tiny, elaborately arranged portions that didn't look much like food.
I poked at the first course with my fork, not totally sure what it was...
"Scallops," Sam said. "And..." He peeled off a long green strip and dangled it from the tines of his fork. "Well. I don't know what this is."
And just like that, effortlessly, he made it a joke between us, a shared experience, both of us laughing about our mysterious food.
I had to take a gulp of wine to hide my gratitude.
He could so easily have started pontificating about varieties of caviar or something and left me feeling completely out of my depth. Instead, he was making fun of himself, and inviting me to join in.
I wondered if someone had taught him to be so careful of other people's feelings, or if it was just an innate part of his personality...
"Next time we'll go to an Olive Garden," I said. "I guess you probably haven't ever been to Olive Garden."
"I can't say that I have," he said.
"It's the food of my people," I said. "Bland, mass-produced, and... full of carbohydrates, I guess. It's wonderful. You'll be horrified."
He grinned...
"You're funny. Did I know that about you? You usually seem so shy."
"I just don't like to talk all the time," I said. "Unlike some people."
He pressed his closed fist to his chest and slumped in his chair, pretending I had stabbed him in the heart.
"Ouch! I deserved that."
"I'll try to talk more," I said. I shoved some food around on my plate. "I just, you know... I don't always have much to say."
"Oh, Mercedes... You should talk exactly as much as you want to, and no more," he said. "I shouldn't tease you. I know this is a sore spot."
I would've responded, but just then the waiter brought us our next course...
I stared helplessly at the pillar of food on my plate, leaning to one side, with a spray of some sort of herb draped over the top.
Sam started laughing, and when I gave him a questioning look, he said,
"The look on your face! We'll just have to eat it and find out."
As peculiar as everything looked, it tasted incredible. I wasn't used to this sort of fine cuisine, and I was awed by the careful melding of flavors, and the way one dish laid the groundwork for the next.
I realized that Sam had gone easy on me the first time he took me out to dinner... We'd gone to a sushi place, fancy, but nothing out of the ordinary.
I grew up in California; I'd had sushi plenty of times. This food, though, was something else entirely. There was probably someone in the kitchen wearing a tall white hat and speaking French.
We made light conversation throughout dinner, talking about the food and the wine and what we had done since we'd last seen each other.
I found that Sam was easy to talk to. He asked enough questions to seem interested without prying, which I appreciated, because I was still a little wary of sharing everything about myself with him.
There were things about me that I didn't think he would understand, and I didn't want to pour my heart out and have him reject me in some way.
I was determined to play it safe... Maybe it was a bad idea, because Sam seemed like the kind of man who was ready to jump in with both feet, but I was cautious by nature, and I wanted to take it slow and see what happened.
Our final course arrived at last... Crème Brulee, perfectly golden on top.
The waiter asked me if I wanted some coffee, and I shook my head. Whenever I had coffee in the evening, I had trouble sleeping. I was like an old person.
Sam, however, requested a cup though, and I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Planning a late night?"
I only meant that he was going to stay up late and work, but he looked at me in that slow, dark way that was so familiar, and my heart rate kicked into high gear...
"I suppose that depends on you," he said.
"I just meant," I said, flustered. "You know, if you have to work more..."
"I don't need to do any more work tonight," he said. He folded his arms on the table and leaned towards me. "I cleared my calendar. And if you want it, you can have my absolute, undivided attention."
Oh, I wanted it... We hadn't had sex since that night at his penthouse, when he took my virginity. It was mainly due to lack of opportunity, but I had also sidestepped the issue.
After our first date, he had taken me back to my apartment and lingered in the doorway, obviously waiting for me to invite him up, but I had only kissed him and said goodnight.
I didn't quite understand why... Maybe it was that I wanted a clean slate. We had turned a new page, and were writing the beginning of a new story. And I didn't want to screw it up by rewriting the old story.
But it had been a long and frustrating two weeks of steamy kissing, flirtatious text messages, and lonely nights spent touching myself in bed.
I missed the feeling of him touching me...
I missed the way he could make me feel. And I was ready to have that again, his hands on my body, making me crumble into pieces.
So I said,
"I want it. Your attention, I mean."
He leaned back in his chair, looking as pleased as the cat with the proverbial canary.
"I'll ask for the check," he said. "And none of that business about how you're a grown woman who can pay for her own dinner. I picked the restaurant; this is my treat."
"Okay," I said meekly. He'd headed off all of my arguments at the pass, so there was nothing left to do but agree with him.
We went outside and waited for Sam's car to pick us up, standing on the sidewalk while pedestrians steered around us.
It was a cold night, but I was so warm with wine and his excellent company that I barely noticed.
I didn't usually drink much, so even the couple of glasses of wine I'd had with dinner were enough to leave me feeling pleasantly light-headed and giddy.
"We'll go right past Rockefeller Center," he said. "We can look at the lights."
I smiled at him, but I didn't care about the Christmas lights. I'd seen them before. I only cared about the broad expanse of the back seat of his car, and the twenty minutes we would have before we arrived at his apartment.
And after that, whatever came next... A whole evening with nothing to do but enjoy each other's company.
His car pulled up to the curb, and he guided me towards it with one hand on my lower back, lightly steering.
He opened the door and helped me inside...
The interior was warm, so I unbuttoned my coat and shrugged it off my shoulders.
Sam climbed in after me...
He slid the privacy panel open and spoke briefly with the driver, and then slid it shut again and turned to me...
He placed one hand on my bare shoulder and trailed it down my arm, leaving my skin prickling in his wake.
"You look beautiful tonight," he said.
I flushed and looked away... His open admiration made me uncomfortable.
"Joss made me buy the dress," I said. "She said I needed something expensive if I was going to start dating a billionaire."
The car started moving, and I leaned back against the seat. I hoped he would kiss me soon.
"I think Joss and I will get along very well," Sam said. "I agree with her. You should indulge yourself more."
"I'm indulging my savings account," I said. "It's pretty happy with me."
"So frugal," he murmured, touching one of my earrings, his thumb brushing the sensitive skin behind my ear.
Our eyes met, and I could feel the change in atmosphere like the barometer had just dropped... We weren't going to be talking about my spending habits for much longer...
Sam moved his hand to curl around the back of my skull, cradling my head with his palm, and leaned in to kiss me.
I closed my eyes at the first touch of his lips. I didn't want to think... I didn't want to worry about the future and what might happen...
I just wanted to be with him and fully experience every sensation.
The kiss went from gentle to hungry and demanding in the space of about fifteen seconds. I clung to the thick fabric of Sam's overcoat, then slid my hands inside, trying to push it off his shoulders.
I wanted to feel him, the heat of his skin.
He drew back long enough to shuck off his coat, and then pulled me against him again, his hands curling around my hips.
I didn't think I would ever get tired of kissing him...
Each time seemed new, like I was learning him all over again. The way his tongue teased at my lower lip and the low sound he made in his throat when I responded to him.
He slid one hand up to cup my breast, his thumb skimming over the nipple, and I gasped without intending to. It was a small sound, but it was loud in the close confines of the car.
He chuckled and pulled away from me...
"If we don't stop, I'm going to fuck you right here in the back seat of this car, and we don't have enough time for that."
"You could just tell Harry to drive around in circles for a while," I said, breathless.
"I try not to traumatize him into retiring," Sam said. "And besides, I want to see you spread out in my bed. I intend to take my time with you tonight, Mercedes."
It was both a promise and a threat, and I wanted it, whatever he was planning to do to me...
We slid apart on the seat and I straightened my dress and smoothed back my hair, while Sam fixed his tie.
I didn't want to stop, but he was right; we should wait... I would die of embarrassment if the driver opened the privacy panel and caught us mid-coitus.
Harry was so grandfatherly and dignified that my skin crawled just thinking about it.
But my blood pounded in my ears...
I looked out the window, giving myself the time and space to calm down a little. Sam seemed to have the same idea, because he was quiet on his side of the car, and for several minutes we rode in comfortable silence, just existing together.
Finally he said,
"We're coming up on Rockefeller Center."
It was the second time he'd mentioned it, so he must have really wanted me to look at the Christmas lights. And I was happy to indulge him.
I slid over to his side of the car and leaned against him as I peered out the window. And he slid one arm around my waist and held me close.
"I thought we were waiting," I said.
"I'll be good," he said.
I didn't really believe him, since I wouldn't have been able to behave myself, in his position, but I wasn't exactly opposed to any potential misbehavior.
True to his word, Sam just held me as we passed Rockefeller Center... I watched the lights glide by, the very tip of the big tree and the excited tourists posing on the sidewalk.
I didn't see tourists much, they rarely came to Brooklyn, and I was only in Manhattan for work or to see Sam, but they all seemed so happy and excited that I felt my own heart lifting in response.
Everyone always talked about how magical New York was at Christmastime, but I had never really understood it. It was cold, and it didn't snow as much as I would've liked, and I had no family to celebrate with.
I spent every Christmas pretty much alone on my couch, eating Chinese takeout. But now, here with Sam, I thought I finally understood what all the fuss was about.
"It's really beautiful," I said, and he squeezed his arm around me and said,
"I know."
Rockefeller Center receded into the distance, and I sat back, leaning my head against Sam's chest.
"How did your family celebrate Christmas, when you were a kid?" I asked.
"Well," he said. "Let's see... Presents on Christmas morning, of course, and then we usually went to my grandparents' place in the afternoon for more presents and dinner. We had a dog...a cocker spaniel...and my mother always put a pair of reindeer antlers on his head."
It sounded nice... Normal... Like a perfect, Rockwellian family.
When I was a kid, there was never enough money for presents, and my father usually spent the whole day too drunk to stand up.
"What about you?" Sam asked. "Or should I not ask?"
I had told him that my dad was an alcoholic, and he wasn't an idiot; he knew how to read between the lines.
"My family never did much," I said, and left it at that. He didn't need to hear all about my dysfunctional childhood.
We rode the rest of the way to his building in silence, my head pillowed on his sturdy chest, his hand resting on my hip.
I was warm and content... My arousal had banked to a pleasant glow in my abdomen that I knew would flare to life again as soon as we were in his bedroom.
Sam had that effect on me...
A single look, a touch, and I was ready to go belly-up for him and beg for more.
The car slowed and came to a stop. And I heard the driver open his door and get out of the car.
"We're here," Sam said. "Are you ready?"
"Ready for what?" I asked. I wanted to see what he would say.
"Whatever I want to do to you," he said. And I was... I was so ready...
"Let's go inside," I said.
Stay safe!