Remember Me

Chapter One

Dark, cold, grimmey. Everything one would expect to feel with their back being pressed against a brick wall. Every ridge and bump digging into her back harshly. Seras was no exception to feeling these things that humans would feel, but she could hardly marvel in this certain thought as a biting chill of fear coursed through her being. She could compare this feeling to drowning in an ice bath, shivering violently from the ice sensation wrapping around. Her hands couldn't stop fidgeting against the wall. Her blue eyes were focused on glowing red eyes that glared into her own. Burning into her soul, even she even have one. Seras didn't think she would be faced with this expression. The expression he would wear when he overestimated his opponents in the heat of battle. One of disgust and disappointment. Seras believed she wouldn't see that expression her way while she was here, but how arrogant and naïve could she really be? Alucard didn't play favorites, whether friend or foe.

Seras was transfixed on his terrifying eyes, she had vaguely forgotten about his gloved hand wrapped around her throat. It took him tightening his grip and jerking her to slam further into the stone well, the brick cracking with the force underneath became her violent reminder. She didn't expect her situation to turn out like this when entering his room tonight.

"Master…" Her whimpering trailed, sounding so small that seem to anger him more. Alucard could tell she wanted to say more to him, but whatever she had to say died on her tongue the longer their gaze at each other's eyes. He leaned forward bringing his face close to hers, a low hiss being heard by him. She shivered because of it.

In any other situation, being this close to Alucard would have made her fluster mess. She could imagine stuttering out while trying to come up with something to say to distract herself. Seras would have liked having the opportunity to be this close with her master. And she would probably reminisce on it for the rest of the night and dream about it in the morning. But she didn't want it like this. Not when he was angry with her. It frighten her more so than dying. "So disappointing, police girl." Alucard hissed out, his low tone chilling more than the room itself. Growing mist surrounding them like fog in the room. Leaving it to be doom and gloom to feel. Seras had turned away from him as he spoke those words. Her courage no longer there to help keep eye contact to him. Brows knitting together with saddening fear.

"To think I saw any potential in you." That stung badly. Her vision began blurring with tears forming in her eyes.

"I'm sorry, Master." She cried to him. He drew closer, his nose slightly brushing over her cheek making her skin tingle from the contact. Breathing hitched, but she couldn't dwell on it.

"You've grown weak police girl." He stated cruelly at her, leaving her to whimper more. "You're not sleeping in your coffin, and refusing to drink blood." Each word she could feel his breath hitting her stained cheek. Seras closed her eyes tightly causing more tears to fall out of her eyes. Seras wished deeply for this to end. She wanted to go back in her room. Hide away to cry out until she fell asleep for the morning to come.

"I'm sorry." Alucard growled at this same response. She knew he was getting tried of hearing this. "I'll start sleeping in the coffin again. I…I'll start drink a little blood. I promise." Seras had winced at feeling his grip squeezing tighter. He was beyond tired at her all her empty promises. Even though she was willing to try if he had given her encouragement or even some kind of understanding since she was changed into a vampire and she was still adjusting to the drastic change of her life. Not like she except that from him.

"We are far pass making excuses, are we, my dear?" His mocking tone echoed in the stone covered room. That endearing name he called her when they first met now sounded cold. With confusion, Seras met with his gaze once more. Flames burning under his crimson eyes that still held onto the disgust and disappointment at her.

A knot formed in her throat, and she certainly knew it wasn't from his tight hold. She started to feel highly nervous. Her skin prickling as she felt something was wrong. Seras couldn't tell why or how she felt like this. "Master?" Wide doe eyes staring up to him, pink lips gaped open gradually panting with fear as the seconds passed. What was going on? Why was she feeling this fight or flight response in her body? There was no response from him, just silence that unnerved her. It only seem to grow this nervousness in her. Alucard had pulled away, still keeping her down with his hold. He stood straight, tall. His height intimating. His entire demeanor seem to change as well. He was still angry, but he seemed rather too calm. As if he was determine about something.

Everything inside her began to set alarms. Blaring loud, flashing lights, making her panting heavily. She grew tense under him, shoulders tensing up, both hands fidgeting even more, nails gripping into the wall, and legs shaking so much. She knew that the only thing holding her up was her master's tight grip. Why was this happening? She felt her brows furrowed with more confusion and concern. Alucard seemed to move slowly, or maybe he was moving normally it was just her panic that may have slowed what happened next. He had brought his free arm up, his wrist up to his mouth. She watched him sink his teeth in his pale skin. It took him sucking in his own blood did the realization set in.

Seras started to freak out. Her hands came up from her sides to start clawing at his arm to make him let go. Her nails dug into his skin easily. His blood seeped out from this, dripping down both their arms and dripped down to the floor. She caught a small scent of his blood, her eyes soon turning red from it as it smelt sweet. The young vampire struggled to escape, but in her weaken state, she was no better than a ghoul fighting him off. It was laughable to watch if he wasn't so angry.

"No please." She began pleading with him. "I don't want to go."

"Silence!" He hissed through their connection, as he dropped his arm. His mouth full of his blood. She saw a trickle slide down his chin as he took in too much. Seras struggled more against as he stared her down with sharp eyes. She couldn't determine what his eyes told. They seem unfeeling the closer he got. And she was afraid of it.

It was like time around them slowed further, Alucard hovering over her closely. She smelt more of his ancient blood, causing more conflicting thoughts coming in her mind. Part of her instincts wanted to taste it, needing it to survive. But another part of her body knew what he planned and it refused to be apart from her master in anyway it came. She spaced out for a moment as she had a hard time controlling each part of these feelings. Closer and closer. He was right there, ready to make her drink his blood. She was quick to turn her head away from him, shut both her mouth and eyes.

He growled with frustration at her, grabbing her face with his free hand. Forcing her to face him. "No, no, no, no." She chanted while pulling away. Soon, he managed to keep her still, acting quick to press his lips against hers. Seras felt Alucard's tongue separating her pink lips open just so his blood could slide in. The first taste of his blood was sweet. It reminded her of aged wine that she tired when she was young. A flash of her sneaking in the priest's stash in the orphanage with a few other misfits kids. Though, she found that this was much sweeter than the wine.

But she hated it. Every drop he made her drink caused more of their bond to shatter like glass. Seras had started to sob against his lips, tears streaming down her cheeks. Feet stomping on the ground, with both of her arms pinned to the wall somehow. She couldn't remember how that happened or when it took place. But all she knew that he still had his mouth on hers long after drinking all the blood. Hot and heavy.

He pulled away with much force, catching himself in the act. He threw Seras to the ground, turning away from her. She was hunched over on the ground, sobbing uncontrollably. That bond she once felt with her master now disappeared. She felt cold and numb by it. She was alone once again.

"Why?" She questioned with shaky voice, her sobs continuing after she asked. Alucard hadn't move since he faced away from her. Listening to her familiar cries. His hands clutched tightly at his side. He couldn't understand why he felt more angry now than he did before.

"Leave." He order menacingly. There wasn't any room to argue or protest. Seras started pushing herself up from the ground, eyes on him. Lips trembled as she half hoped he would change his mind as he wasn't forcing her to leave just yet. With that small hope, she stood to her feet and rushed over to her master. Her hand managed to reach for the sleeve of his coat, clinging onto it as if her life depended on it.

"But Master..-" She was cut off by him jerking away from her grasp. He had pushed her away, causing her to land on her bottom. Seras grunted with pain, elbows scuffed as well. Her troubled expression as this was the first time he ever done this to her. He had growled loudly, facing her with his shadows swarming the room.

"I am no longer your master." He shouted with rage. A shudder ran down her spine. "Now leave this place. Your presence is no longer needed." He told her. That broke her more.

Shaking her head in denial, Seras continued to beg to him. She wanted to stay here. She wanted to be by his side. "No, I don't want to go. Please don't make me go." Seras began crawling to him still having tears sliding down her face. Alucard hated the begging, never liked it when his enemies did either. It was pathetic and down right worthless. But his hand twitched with an unfamiliar need to listen to her. To keep her put. But he had made his decision and nothing was going to stop him.

"If you will not leave on your own. Then I guess I will have to make you, my dear." His mocking tone came once again. Colder than the last time. Shadows spread further out, heading her way to where she kneeled. She gasped at feeling how cold they felt.

"Please, Master." She whimpered one last time to him. He turned away from her once again. She couldn't look away from him as his shadows wrapped themselves around her body. His figure slowly began disappearing. Darkness came next. She couldn't tell what was happening. It was like wind was hitting her face at the same time she felt still. But she found that it was not important she knew she was abandon once again. Not even a vampire wanted to keep her. How pathetic can she get?

She was faced with a starry night sky stranded in the middle of no where. Trees and bushes was everywhere so she knew she wasn't near any civilization. And certainly she was far away from the Hellsing manor which means she was far from Alucard. "Damnit." She bowed her head down, whispering under her voice. She shook her head violently. Her blonde locks swaying with each movement. "Damnit." She cried more, screaming in grief.

Hours has pass by, she was still crouched over on the ground crying. Too absorb in her grief she wasn't aware of her surroundings. There was a ruffle from a bush, then a snapping twig that caused her to raise her head up. Her red eyes going wide at the sight.

"You did what?!" Sire Integra shouted at her idiot servant. The woman was leaning over her desk by slamming her hands onto the desk. Everything on it was shaking from the sudden disturbance. Alucard stood before her while Walter had stood over to the side. His wrinkled face holding a irritating look. Alucard didn't say anything to his master. He felt numb at the moment which he didn't think he feel ever again. "What authority do you have for making this decision?"

A rhetorical question they all knew. He didn't have any. Alucard gave her a glance sternly. His decision was in the heat of the moment. And now that a lot of time has pass and his head cool, he realized exactly what he did. He started wondering if he made the right decision on this.

A few more raging shouts and throwing things at him she had finally had gesture Walter to follow her out. "Come on, Walter. Let's go." She ordered still very angry.

"You're going to search for her?" He asked calmly, but not moving. Integra paused at the door, glaring at him.

"What do you think." She paused for a moment. "Don't think I'm done with you, vampire." Integra said firmly then went out to leave him alone. Walter followed after the young woman. Both knew that Alucard was starting to rethink what he did. "Bloody vampires." She spoke softly, but her butler hummed in agreement.