A/N Hello every one this is just a filler chapter to set up the first round of wishes for the next chapter. Hope you enjoy!

Quinn sighed tiredly as she dug through her locker. It had been a long weekend for her.

After Lucy had shown her not only what her life would be like if she kept her daughter.

She now has the image stuck in her head of what her daughter looks like, feels like to hold, and how she smells.. her laughter. It's there settled heavily on the blonde's heart and engraved in her mind.

Quinn had cried for god knows how long then asked Lucy to please bring her home because she just wanted to be alone.

She doesn't know what she was expecting when she got there since technically she had been gone an entire day and a half without so much as a call to Puck.

What she didn't expect was to walk into the house and find all three Puckerman's sat in front of the TV with their TV dinners watching some movie.

Mrs. Puckerman didn't even acknowledge her presence. All she did was cry into her tissue asking Puck why he couldn't just find than marry a nice Jewish girl.

Sarah, Pucks' 6-year-old little sister, the only person who seems to be happy that she was home safe and sound, smiled at her and waved discreetly where her mother couldn't see.

Puck himself just glanced at her then went back to eating and watching the movie.

That was it.

Under normal circumstances, Quinn wouldn't have cared either way because she never felt welcomed in their home anyway but at that particular moment with her feelings still as raw and vulnerable as they were.

It hurt.

It hurt so much to not even see an ounce of worry on Puck's face. It hurt because thanks to Lucy making the baby in her belly a real live human being in her eyes.

Quinn realized that she was more than just the head cheerleader that Puck got pregnant.

She was more than just Puck's girlfriend at the moment even if she had chosen to accept his request to be together strictly because she is pregnant and didn't want to look cheap like a floozy.

Now she understood that she is the mother of his child. An honor that is supposed to only be given to the wife of a husband.

That's what she had been raised to believe. She had been so consumed by her parents abandoning her, that she didn't really focus on how much of a huge deal it is that she was now someone's mother.

How this point in time in her life was so precious and important. She didn't realize it until she got to actually live out those important moments that Lucy bestowed upon her with her daughter.

She now understands how much it's causing irrevocable damage to her not only mentally but emotionally.

Quinn had a moment of clarity when it was all said and done and what she realized is before she got pregnant she used to have these fantasies of being a mother one day.

How amazing and beautiful it'd be. How much she loved children. How much being a mother meant to her.

Then the circus of hell happened to her and all the wishful thinking and love for children vanished.

She hated being out in public somewhere and seeing pregnant women smiling with their husband, family member or friend talking about all things baby.

She despised hearing the cries of a baby anywhere around her only to catch sight of a mother gently cradling the child and doing her best to console them until the baby would simply calm in her arms.

She absolutely loathes going to the park and seeing the smiles on children's faces and hearing their peals of laughter as they played together with one or both parents as they played with them.

She now understood that, that particular part of herself had been taken from her. The moment her parents kicked her out, realizing that their love was conditional.

The moment she met Mrs. Puckerman and the woman sneered that the baby may not even be her sons and even so it'd only be part Jewish.

How she had been kicked off the cheerios in front of all the members in glee and how all her so-called friends shunned her.

Quinn understands that she not only crushed under the weight of it all but she allowed that part of her to be taken away because she had secretly promised herself and her unborn baby that she'd never have another baby ever again. Especially, since she was practically throwing away the first one.

No one knew just how much all this was affecting her. How much sorrow she lived with every day and no one seemed to care anyway. Baby-gate news is no longer the hot topic but that doesn't mean the bullying has stopped.

She still gets slushied. She still gets treated like crap while Puck still gets to walk around like he's 'The Man'.

She's caught him several times flirting with the cheerios and she's chosen to turn a blind eye to it, blaming herself because she told him she wasn't keeping the baby and she damn sure was never having sex again.

How she deserves his treatment because she also told him she doesn't feel the same way about him the way he does her.

It makes her wonder what if she just stopped for a minute and actually gave him a chance?

A real chance not what she's doing now but a real shot at relationship with him.

Maybe things could be different. Maybe he could be different...

"Ex-Excuse Quinn?"

Quinn clenched her jaw at the sound of Rachel Berry's voice. She couldn't tell you why exactly she had these overwhelming feelings when the girl was near.

Why she always felt her stomach twist in a way that she couldn't describe. She really truly doesn't understand.

She doesn't want to be mean to the girl now that she has experience being a loser. Hence her trying not to have any form of contact with her but it seems Rachel is purposely trying to make her snap.

"I know I'm the last person you want to speak to considering everything I've done bu-"

"Leave me alone, Berry!"

Quinn growled as she slammed her locker shut and stormed away. Her heart grasped in a painful vice grip for snapping at the brunette immediately.

Quinn stormed through the abandoned cars on mission after careful thought about what she realized she needed to know.

She has to know if she gives her daughter up without knowing what could be. She knows she'll regret it for the rest of her life if she doesn't.

"LUCY?! LUCY WHERE ARE YOU?! LUC-"

"Geez could you be any more dramatic?" Lucy spoke up from behind the blonde startling her.

Quinn whipped around than rolled her eyes as she could see the lion lounging on top of a car.

"Whatever, listen I need to talk to you."

"I'm here aren't I?"

"Do you always have to be a smart ass? This isn't easy for me, okay?"

Lucy felt the blonde's insecurity fill her as well as hesitance with a hefty dose of embarrassment.

"I'm sorry. What can I do you for you?"

Quinn didn't reply at first as she felt conflicted now that she was standing in front of Lucy. She wanted to know more than anything but at the same time was too afraid to know.

Lucy watched on confused.

"I.." Quinn began only to swallow her nerves thickly. "I was wondering.."

"Yes?"

"The other day.. What you did for me-showing me, I mean..."

"What about it?"

"Is it possible for you to do it again? Only different?"

Lucy's eyes sparkled at the news. "Is that a question or desire?"

Quinn felt her stomach knot at the words. She felt uncomfortable almost like she was about to make a wicked deal that would be her demise.

But she had to know.

"It's a desire."

"And what is it that you would like?"

"I want to see what life would be like if I kept her and raised her together with Puck. If I chose to be with him completely."

"You know what you have to do Quinn."

Quinn nodded than shut her eyes and took a deep calming breath. "Lucy I desire to see my married life with Puck and our daughter."

Lucy's eyes shined as she said with a smile in her voice. "Your wish is my command."