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Staring at the door in front of her for what seemed like an eternity Stephanie finally raised her hand and gave a gentle knock. The anxiety rising in her chest with every passing second that she waited but honestly she had been filled with anxiety all night because she was afraid that Paul might have heard her conversation with Shane earlier outside the dressing room. Although he shouldn't have heard too much really because she had dragged Shane to her dressing room to finish arguing about the reasons why Aiden should not be at the arena. That had been frustrating enough and then when she went back to talk to Paul he was acting even stranger than he had been before she left.
"If you're looking for your boyfriend he's already gone" Stephanie rolled her eyes and looked down the hallway to see Joanie heading towards her.
"He's not my boyfriend" Stephanie replied shaking her head and turning to leave the building. There was no way she was dealing with Joanie right now. She had too many other things to deal with and probably getting her ass kicked was one she would rather avoid. It was hard to try and bite her tongue when it came to Joanie when she was calm so there was no telling what she might say since she was already pretty worked up.
"You're going to get him fired you know" Joanie called behind her but Stephanie kept walking avoiding saying anything and headed outside to her car.
Once she arrived at her car and unlocked the doors she got inside quickly. She laid her head against the headrest closing her eyes and taking a deep breath. Then she broke down and started crying, finally letting everything she had been feeling all night out. It was the only relief she was probably going to get tonight considering she couldn't talk to Paul because he had already left and she didn't have his phone number. She did know where he lived but she couldn't just show up at his apartment, that would be too weird. It probably would look like she was trying to stalk him or something and she had to hurry and pick Aiden up from Shane and Marissa's house.
Stephanie wiped the tears from her eyes and took another breath before starting the car and driving out of the parking lot. If Shane thought their argument from earlier was over well, he was dead wrong. He better be prepared for round two when she got there.
When Stephanie arrived at Shane and Marissa's house she made her way to their door quickly and rang the doorbell. She could feel her hands shaking from her nerves still but right now the emotion she was solely focused on was anger. The whole way over all she could think about was how she could trust anyone to watch Aiden now without bringing him to the arena.
"Hey" Marissa greeted her opening the door for Stephanie to come inside. She didn't say anything as she stepped inside and immediately headed off to find Shane. It didn't take her long because she spotted him on the couch in the living room watching a movie with Aiden.
"Shane what the hell is wrong with you?" Stephanie asked stepping in front of the tv.
"Oh mommy said a bad word" Aiden said in a sing song voice.
"Yes she did and we do not repeat that word okay?" Shane asked and Aiden nodded his head.
"Kitchen. Now" Stephanie demanded and headed towards the kitchen away from Aiden. He didn't need to hear any other bad language that might come out of her mouth and he didn't need to hear them fighting.
"What was that about?" Shane asked as Stephanie leaned against the kitchen counter and crossed her arms.
"Why would you bring him to the arena?"
"I thought we were done fighting about that? I thought it was resolved and we were moving on from it. I don't get what the big deal is" Shane replied with a shrug.
"I don't want him at the arena. Ever. He's too young and I don't need him picking up language from the wrestlers in the back or learning these wrestling moves that could potentially get him hurt"
"I didn't let him watch any of the wrestling Steph and the only wrestler he met was Paul. He didn't use any bad language around him so I think one visit isn't going to hurt" At that moment she felt the blood drain from her face and she suddenly felt like she couldn't breathe, like she was suffocating. Her heart racing against her chest so hard that it began to hurt. "Steph. Steph. Are you okay?"
"I... I…I'm fine" Stephanie replied breathlessly clutching her chest as tears pricked her eyes. Her legs beginning to feel like they were going to give out on her at any moment and she begin to wonder if she actually was okay.
"Here. Here. Sit down" Shane instructed pulling a kitchen chair out and placing it beside of her. She felt Shane's hands on her shoulder's as she sat down on the chair and stared at the ground. He knew. That was the only thing running through her mind at the moment and now she had her answer. It was exactly the reason he had been acting distant and quiet towards her all night. Why hadn't he told her he knew about Aiden? "Steph you don't look so good"
"Just give me a minute" Stephanie replied trying to slow her breathing down and try to focus on something other than her thoughts.
"Is there anything I can get you?"
"A water please" Stephanie replied as she closed her eyes and concentrated on her breathing.
"Here" Shane said as she opened her eyes and took the bottle of water from him. She opened it and started taking small sips. Her stomach was in knots and she felt nauseous. It was probably worse now than it was when she had her hangover.
"Thank you" Stephanie replied feeling a little better than she had been. Her heart felt like it was still beating fast but not nearly as fast as it had been and the pain in her chest was subsiding.
"How are you feeling?"
"A little better"
"I was so worried. You were so pale and the way you were holding your chest…. Do you need to go to the emergency room?"
"I'm fine Shane, really. I'm just feeling a lot of stress and tonight just didn't help" It was partly the truth at least. She really couldn't come out and tell him she was freaking out because Paul knew about Aiden.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have put more stress on you. I had no idea you were stressing out this bad" Shane said with an apologetic face. "Listen maybe you should ask dad for some time off. Just the next couple of days"
"Maybe" Stephanie agreed with a shrug. Honestly it sounded like a good idea because at the moment she was scared shitless to face Paul again but then again she felt like it was running away from her problems and she certainly couldn't run away from this one.
"I really am sorry" She knew he meant it and even though she was still mad at him she knew it was best to let it go for the moment. She definitely didn't want to feel the way she had earlier all over again.
"So what…. happened when Aiden and Paul met?" Stephanie asked curiously before taking another sip of her water and tried to remain as calm as she could. She needed to know his reaction because maybe there was a chance he hadn't put two and two together.
"Nothing much really" Shane replied with a shrug "They introduced themselves to each other and bonded a little over the fact they had the same middle name. I can't believe you didn't tell him about Aiden"
"It's my personal business. Nobody needs to know about my life"
"Yeah but you two seemed to be getting a little closer lately"
"Did anything else happen?"
"Not really. Paul seemed shocked when he found out that Aiden was your son and then he said he had to go. It was kind of weird" Shane said as Stephanie took another drink of her water. So it sounded as if maybe Paul had put two and two together or maybe he was just shocked that she did have a child and he was upset that she never mentioned it to him. She knew the latter wasn't true as soon as she thought it though.
"I think he was just shocked that I didn't tell him I had a son" Stephanie replied trying to make sure Shane didn't start wondering why Paul had acted weird.
"So is everything okay in here?" Marissa asked stepping into the kitchen.
"Yeah everything is fine. I'm sorry I stormed in without saying anything I was still pissed off at Shane" Stephanie replied giving her a small smile.
"It's fine. Once you stepped inside I could tell you were pissed so I backed off" Marissa said with a laugh.
"Thanks for coming to my aide" Shane replied and Marissa stuck out her tongue at him. After that Stephanie tuned them out as she started thinking about doing what Shane had said and asking her dad for a couple of days off. It probably wasn't the best decision but she wasn't ready to face her consequences.
Paul jumped when he heard a loud honking noise behind him and realized he had been sitting at a stop sign for a good three minutes at least. He shook his head trying to clear his thoughts as he started driving again. Everything from tonight seemed like a blur and he was surprised he was even able to remember his lines and get through Raw. He had barely said two words to Stephanie that wasn't related storyline wise. She had tried talking to him but he hadn't paid attention to anything she had said because he was still in shock. He felt disconnected from reality, like he was in some kind of dream he couldn't wake up from. If only it were a dream because he wasn't ready for this and he had no idea what he was even supposed to do.
Pulling into the parking lot of his apartment building he shut the car off and just sat there staring out of the car at nothing in particular. He was just trying to think of what his next move should be because there wasn't any way he was just going to pretend the kid didn't exist. After a few minutes Paul got out of the car and pulled out his cellphone on the way inside his apartment building. There was one person who could maybe give him some advice.
"Hello" Shawn answered.
"Were you asleep?" Paul asked getting into the elevator and pushing the button to his floor.
"No not yet. What's up?"
"I'm a dad- "
"Woah I thought Joanie said she wasn't pregnant"
"Do you always have to interrupt?" Paul asked chuckling softly "She's not pregnant. I'm a father to a child with Stephanie"
"Okay well if Stephanie is pregnant there is no way the kid could be yours considering you two haven't had sex in forever. You do realize that, right?" Shawn asked with a laugh.
"No Stephanie isn't pregnant. I mean she was a couple of years ago obviously but I met the kid tonight. He looks like me and she gave him the same middle name as mine. Shane said she got pregnant in college- "
"Woah. Woah. Are you absolutely sure? It could be some other guys that she met in college"
"I'm like ninety-five percent sure" Paul replied opening the door to his apartment and heading over to the couch to sit down. Shawn could be right but he had feeling that the kid was his considering how much Stephanie hated him in the beginning of their storyline. Also how hurt she still was over the fact that he had left her without ever saying anything.
"Did you ask her?" Shawn asked in a confused tone.
"No. I've been in shock pretty much since I found out. I've been completely lost in my own thoughts and as soon as Raw ended I…ran"
"Smooth" Shawn replied with a sigh.
"Hey I'm terrified here. It's the only emotion I have at the moment even though I should be really pissed off" Paul said running a hand through his hair.
"What you actually should be doing right now is talking to Stephanie" Just the thought of looking at her right now made him feel sick, at least it was something other than terrified. How could she keep something like this from him for so long? The longer he thought about it he started to feel the anger start to finally kick in.
"I don't think I can right now"
"You're going to have to at some point. She's the only one with the answers and if the kid is yours then don't you want to try and be a father to him?"
"If I can" Paul said leaning his head against the back of the couch and closing his eyes. He was really feeling stressed out and Shawn couldn't really help him as much as he hoped considering he knew just as much as he did. "What if she won't let me be a part of his life? I don't know anything about kids. What if I'm a horrible father and I can't do it?"
"The first question Stephanie can only answer and for your second question well that is something you are going to have to figure out for yourself. Don't try and be a part of his life if you are going to just walk out when things get too hard because trust me it will get hard"
"I wouldn't walk out on him" That he was one hundred percent sure on.
"Listen you need to get off the phone with me and talk to her"
"I don't know her number Shawn"
"No but you took her home after she was hungover and you know where she lives"
"It's late. She's probably already in bed"
"Stop making excuses Paul. I know you're scared but you also have questions that are going to sit and bug you all night until you get the answers. All you have to do is go drive by her place and if there are no lights on then just drive back home but you need to do something" Paul let out a sigh knowing Shawn was right. He could just drive by her place but if she was up how would he even start the conversation and how was he supposed to stay calm?
"I guess I could drive by her house" Paul said getting up off the couch and started heading back out of his apartment.
"Call and fill me in on the details tomorrow"
"I will" Paul replied before ending the call. As he entered the elevator he started feeling nervous once again but Shawn was right. If he didn't do something tonight, then it would eat at him all night and he wouldn't get any sleep. He just hoped that if Stephanie was still awake she would open the door for him.
After passing by her house for the fifth time, he turned the car back around and decided it was time to actually pull into the driveway. The lights in her house were on so he was pretty sure she was awake which was surprising for how late it was. He was trying to calm his nerves but just passing by her house wasn't really doing anything to help. Making his way back to her house he actually pulled into her driveway this time and shut the car off. After a few seconds he stepped out of the car and made his way to the front door and gently knocked. His heart was pounding away at his chest as he waited impatiently for the door to be answered. It only took a minute or two until he heard the door being unlocked and then the door opened. She looked scared as soon as she seen him.
"Are you going to invite me in?" Paul asked staring at her. He wanted to start off with something that wouldn't immediately piss her off and once he was inside well, she couldn't slam the door in his face when she did get pissed off.
"Come in" Stephanie replied almost breathlessly stepping aside. When he was inside she shut the door behind him as he stood beside of her kitchen table trying to think of how to start this conversation.
"I guess you're wondering why I'm here" Paul said after clearing his throat and trying to remain as calm as he could.
"I think I know why" Stephanie confessed looking down at the floor.
"So is the ki- is he mine?" Paul asked staring at her but she kept her eyes on the floor and kept silent. The longer she remained quiet the more he started to feel angry. "Stephanie is he mine?"
"Yes" Stephanie admitted choking on a sob. She looked up at him with red rimmed eyes, tears spilling down her cheeks. He shook his head and crossed his arms looking away from her.
"Why? Why didn't you tell me?" Paul asked looking back over at her and she shook her head at him "Really? You don't want to give me an explanation?"
"I tried" Stephanie replied wiping the tears from her face but it did no good as more continued to fall.
"Really? When?" Paul asked raising his voice slightly.
"When I found out I was pregnant but you didn't answer me. I left a voicemail begging you to call me but you never did"
"I never got that voicemail and you knew where I worked. You could of came and told me in person"
"Why? So I could watch you walk away?" Stephanie asked with her voice now raising slightly.
"I wouldn't have walked away. You had every opportunity to tell me, hell you could have even told me when this fucking storyline started" He was getting angrier by the second it was as if she were trying to piss him off but he was trying to keep his temper under control.
"The moment I found out I was pregnant and you wouldn't call me back I just started trying to figure out how exactly I was going to take care of a baby and get through college. I couldn't worry about you anymore when I had someone way more important to worry about" Stephanie replied going over to the kitchen table and pulling out a chair to sit down.
"But I could have been there to help you. What is your excuse for not telling me here recently huh?"
"Maybe because of the fact that you aren't ready to be a father. You even said yourself that you aren't and if anyone finds out about this I'm in deep shit. As for you, you will probably be fired"
"I- "
"Mommy?" came a voice behind Paul. He turned around to see the little boy holding a blanket to his chest tightly with a frightened expression. Shit they must have got too loud and woke him up.
"What's wrong sweetie?" Stephanie asked getting up from her chair and kneeling down in front of Aiden.
"I had a bad dream" Aiden replied as Stephanie pulled him into a hug.
"It's okay" Stephanie soothed him "How about we go back into your room and I'll stay with you while you fall back asleep?"
"Okay"
"I'll be right back" Stephanie said turning to Paul for a second before taking off with Aiden.
It didn't take long before Aiden was back out but Stephanie just sat in his room a little longer trying to calm down. She was dreading going back and facing Paul if she were being honest with herself. He was pretty angry and well she was pretty angry herself. It didn't help that it was bringing up everything she felt back when he left her. When she felt like she was ready to go back to deal with Paul she got up and headed out of Aiden's bedroom. Once she made it to the living room she stopped when she noticed Paul standing and staring at a picture in his hand. Stepping closer to him she noticed it was a baby picture of Aiden.
"I feel like I've missed out on so much" Paul said putting the picture back down in its place. She couldn't help but feel a little guilty. "I missed his birth, his first words and his first steps and I'm sure the list goes on and on"
"He weighed 7 pounds when he was born and his first word was da- "
"Being told isn't the same as experiencing it for myself" Paul replied cutting her off. His voice was more calm now but she could tell he was still pissed off. "Did you really hate me that much?"
"I really just thought you wouldn't care" Stephanie said avoiding his question. She had really hated him, a lot.
"Wow" Paul replied shaking his head. "You didn't even give me a chance"
"Where are you going?" Stephanie asked watching him walk out of the living room and followed him.
"I'm going home. I just need to calm down because everything you say just pisses me off more" Paul replied opening the front door. "I'll be back tomorrow to see my son and then we'll talk more"
He didn't give her chance to respond as she watched him walk out and shut the door. They hadn't even really discussed anything and she had no idea what would happen from here. She was left feeling unsatisfied and part of her wondered if he would even be back.
