-Day 1-
-Santana pov-
"Ok so it is a simple plan" I look at Brittany and see her smiling "You just go over and apologize to her"
"Yeah cause that will not get her to kill you" I glare at Puck and he smirks "You are worrying to much"
"I think she is worrying the right amount" I give a thankful look to Quinn "I mean who in their right mind would date Santana?"
"Very funny" Everyone is laughing and I shake my head with a small smile "You guys are the worst! Fine I am going to go over and apologize!"
"Do not forget this!" Brittany hands me the stuffed bear "I think she will like it! It is winter too so it is a Polar bear with a Santa hat!"
"Thanks britt" I take a deep breath and turn "Here goes nothing"
I make my way over to her quickly "And that is the last of my books!" The locker closes and my target jumps with a scream seeing me "Dear god! I was not Uh expecting you...is that a Santa polar bear? I did not know you own cute things like that...sorry I am rambling and I should go"
"No Uhh I wanted to give this to you" I hold out the bear to her and look at the ground "I really want you to have it...as the start to my apology"
"You can just say sorry" I look up and see her smiling her beautiful smile "I am happy to know you want to be friends though"
"Uh yeah friends!" I hide the heart break and keep the bear out "Do you still want the bear?"
"I would" She takes it and put its in her locker "Now have a Christmas decoration! Thank you Santana!"
Before I can speak she is walking away "Smooth" I turn and glare at my laughing friends "That was the worst you could have done"
"You were put in the friendzone badly" I pout and let my shoulders fall "You can still get her San"
"I hope" I look at the girl walking away from me "I really want nothing more in my life right now"
-Time skip-
I have not seen her all day. I was going to ask her to eat lunch with us earlier. It would have been a easy way to integrate her into our group. But she did not even show up to lunch.
We all want searching but could not find her. Puck has been asking the football team. We found it odd Azimo and Rick the stick came in late. I am pulled from my thoughts by crying.
I turn around and see a small trash can. I slowly make my way over to it. There was a very unfortunate soul that hit put into there. I stop walking to it when I hear singing start coming from it.
-Trash can girl singing-
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
From the mountains of faith
To a river so deep
I must be looking for something
Something sacred I lost
But the river is wide
And it's too hard to cross
And even though I know the river is wide
I walk down every evening and I stand on the shore
And try to cross to the opposite side
So I can finally find out what I've been looking for
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the valley of fear
To a river so deep
And I've been searching for something
Taken out of my soul
Something I would never lose
Something somebody stole
I don't know why I go walking at night
But now I'm tired and I don't want to walk anymore
I hope it doesn't take the rest of my life
Until I find what it is that I've been looking for
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the jungle of doubt
To a river so deep
I know I'm searching for something
Something so undefined
That it can only be seen
By the eyes of the blind
In the middle of the night
I'm not sure about a life after this
God knows I've never been a spiritual man
Baptized by the fire, I wade into the river
That runs to the promised land
In the middle of the night
I go walking in my sleep
Through the desert of truth
To the river so deep
We all end in the ocean
We all start in the streams
We're all carried along
By the river of dreams
In the middle of the night
"Oh god" I lift off the lid and see who is covered in trash along with slush in the can "Rachel?"
"Come to laugh at me?" She sits up and looks at me "Everyone else you all sent already did"
"Rach I never sent anyone after you" She scoffs and gets out of the trash can "You have to believe me!"
"Why should I?!" She turns toward me angrily as tears fall down her face "You are the worst human being ever! You all are! You want to know why I act like I do?! Because I am not beautiful like Quinn, I am not strong like you, not confident like Mercedes, I have no style like Kurt does, and I do not measure up to a lot of the club! So I try to stand out! My dream is to be on Broadway! But I know how stupid it is thinking that...but it is all I have left"
"You are str~"
"Do not try to build me up after tearing me down" Rachel shakes her head and walks away "Tell the club I will be missing the meeting today"
I watch her go in silence "Hey San" I look over at Quinn who raises a confused eyebrow "You are showing emotion there sis...you ok?"
"They slushied her and threw her in the trash" I look down on the can and pull something out "I guess I am still at square one"
"No you are not!" Quinn turns me toward her nod slaps me "You are Santana Lopez! You are going to chase her down and get her to accept your apology! I will deal with the assholes! NOW GO!"
"Never quit being a bitch" She smirks and I step back "Go kick their asses"
I sprint away and try to find Rachel. I find slush puddles and they lead me to her. I open the bathroom door and see her leaning against the sink. She is shaking and the tears are falling.
"Rachel" Her grip tightens on the sink "Please I...I honestly did not know about the attack..I heard you crying and then recognized your singing voice"
"I moved schools" I look at her confused and she sighs before going on "I moved schools before middle because of bullying..I never had friends and my bullies forced me to pretend everything was fine...my dads did not know till I came home with a bobcut..they quickly sent me here for middle school"
"So they do not know about the bullying?" I watch as she shakes her head "Rachel you have to tell them!"
"Why?!" She turns toward me and I see the sadness mixed with anger "Why are you in here?! Why do you ca...is that the bear?"
"I wanted you to have it" I look at the now rainbow bear "I wanted to..I need you to know that I am honestly trying to get better for you"
"Why?" She let's go of the sink and frowns "Why me? Why is this such a big deal to you huh?"
"Cause I want to prove I can be your friend and" I take a deep breath and look her in the eyes "I have a crush on you"
"Does Brittany know?" I nod and she raises a eyebrow "You two are a open couple?"
"I am single" I place the bear on the sink next to me and give her a small smile "I am going to prove to you that I am your ride or die ok? Just do not give up on me"
She does not respond but I can see the look in her eyes. I have a small chance to make things right. I can possibly have a future with her. I just have to make sure everything is right.
I will not ruin this opportunity!