Me: Hello I am back with another chapter, I tried making it a little longer, you you enjoy!

"Kouga?" kagome said, looking up at her friend, who was gently rubbing her back, she bit her lip, not wanting to be too invasive

"Yea?" he replied sounding distracted, his gaze focused on a spot in the ceiling shit, does she want me to let go? He stopped rubbing her back

"I uh..I just wanted to ask you something...and if it sounds too personal, well you don't have to answer it, actually nevermind, forget I said anything." she cringed, good going kagome, you've made yourself look stupid

"What is it?" he finally looked at her, his gaze softening, gods you have no clue how much I have missed you , he let go of her, his arms dropping to his side

"The thing is, earlier, actually first can you promise that the person that told me this, you won't do anything to them," she hoped the demoness would be ok, "please."

"Okay, I promise,"

"well , she told me that your room was next to mine, and so was ayame's.." crap, how do I ask him without sounding like a creep

"Yes and..?" he was confused, where could she possibly be going with this

"well, why don't you and ayame share a room you guys are mated, and well I just..i'm sorry, I made this award didn't I? I didn't mean to pry, i'm sorry." her cheeks burned from embarrassment, if he kicks you out that's on being nosy her inner kagome hissed at her

He sighed, not quite sure how to explain his situation, "the thing is, we aren't mated." there

Her eyebrows knit together in confusion, "what-what does that mean? You guys are married"

"We are what humans called married, but mating is completely different," his hand running through his ponytail, "we married so we could unite our tribe's, but mating is, well once you mate someone, it's forever unlike marriages," before she could protest about how marriages always didn't end up in divorce he continued, "our hearts tell us who they want for a mate, we feel it, there's never been a mistake, regardless if the mate doesn't want them, they will wait forever, never mating anyone, some demons can die alone, although uncommon it can happen."that's why I never stopped pursuing you, "I don't love ayame, I care for her as a friend, which is why I could never bring myself to share a room with her, it would be unfair to her"

Ayame at first had been hurt, angry, there had been so many emotions when he had told her why he didn't want to mate her, she had screamed at him, asking him for an explanation, but he never wanted to bring up Kagome. In the end she had learned to accept the fact they could only remain friends, his guilt had always remained in his head, hating the fact that he had hurt her, but knowing it would have hurt her more to be mated but not connected.

Kagome's face looked perplexed, soaking up the information he had just told her, "that's..oh." unsure of what to say

"Come on let's go eat, you must be starving." he grabbed her arm, dragging her out of bed

Dinner was awkward to say the least, kagome had sat next to kouga and ayame, looking down at her plate of food, depressing thoughts overtaking her, no matter how hard she tried all she could think of was Inuyasha's betrayal. The wolves and demons felt her sadness seeping around the room, her spiritual powers were not helping, each demon silently prayed that they would not be purified with her power.

"Kagome? Are you ok?" ayame asked her

"Hmm? Yea, I'm ok, sorry I was uh just thinking." about how Inuyasha is a cheating asshole and I wasted three years in my life, she looked down at her bowl full of fruit the generous wolves had picked for her , they had even been kind enough to throw some vegetables onto the dining table.

"Oh, well I wanted to talk to you later if that's ok, if you don't I understand." her eyes hopeful, but there was guilt in it, I'm sorry kagome, but please let me be selfish a little longer

"Of course, i'd be glad to."

"What's on your mind?"

"nothing much." besides the fact that you and kouga aren't actually married in the demon world, nothing much

Ayame entered her room shortly after dinner, looking around the room as if searching for something

"Come sit,"kagome dragged a chair over to ayame, "so what did you want to talk about?"

"I, well me and kouga are...we want a baby. I want a baby." she grabbed her hands

For some reason kagome's heart felt like someone had thrown a knife at it, Why was she feeling like that, she should be happy for her friends. Oh mama, I miss home so much she wanted to cry, ignoring to burning sensation in the back of her throat

"you, really! I'm so happy for you," am I , "does kouga want a baby? Oh wait nevermind you already said he does, haha," she giggled nervously, trying to hide how her voice was cracking

"I don't actually know…"she admitted, "but he's always wanted kids, I Know that, he's always wanted to be a father, and now that he's older I think he would love to have a baby." she was lying through her teeth, sort of, he did want kids, but not with her.

"Oh well, i'm happy for you…"she said awkwardly, "when are you planning on telling him?"

"Tonight later when I go to his-er I mean our room."

Liar

"Absolutely not." the glare he gave her sent shivers up Ayame's spine

"Why not? You said you wanted children, why not with me?" she was frustrated, and hurt, "What's so wrong with me?!"she lunged at him wanting to hurt him physically, but he was too strong and had expected it,

"Nothing is wrong with you!"he grabbed her by her arms slightly shaking her, "but we will always remain friends you know that, you're not my-"

"Mate."she finished for him, "I know I'm not your mate, you've reminded me, everyone has reminded me," her tone turning sour, "your people barely talk to me,"

"Then learn to accept it,"he let her go, "don't bring this up again." he was done talking with her.

"All of a sudden she shows up and you don't want a baby?They start talking to her. Kagome this Kagome that. You don't want to be around me, it's because of her isn't it? ISN'T IT!" she screamed, not caring if kagome could hear her from the other room.

He turned around his eyes turning a deep red color, "IT'S BECAUSE I DON'T LOVE YOU," he yelled at her back, her shoulders slumping, "I never have and I never will, get out."

She sucked in her cheeks angrily, tears running down her face,leaving his room.

Kagome sighed, after dinner she had gone to take a nice bath in the hot spring then laid in bed, she was still sad about Inuyasha, the more she thought about him the more his flaws seemed apparent

"I'm so tired." she mumbled to herself, her eyes closing when she heard it, yelling, hmm I wonder what kind of couple is fighting

""All of a sudden she shows up and you don't want a baby? You don't want to be around me, it's because of her isn't it? ISN'T IT!""

"Ayame…oh, oh no…" she listened more, hearing kouga's rejection, I am so so sorry ayame, I'm so sorry...it's all my fault she considered getting up to go talk to them, but decided that this was not her fight, everywhere you go you just mess things up don't you, look at you Inuyasha left you for someone else, someone better, you go somewhere new and you destroy a relationship, you're a failure kagome, her inner self started speaking at her, if you had just stayed home everyone would have been so happy

"You're right," she said out loud, "I should have stayed home," her mind drifting to the well, I can still try...it wouldn't hurt anyone