AN- Thank you again for all the reviews!

I literally wrote this yesterday in the sun and proofread it today again in the sun. If there are errors, we can blame that on the alcohol I was drinking in the sun.

Chapter 11 – The Heart-to-heart

DPOV

I woke a few hours later, instantly thinking about Rose. Had she come back yet? If so, why didn't she wake me. Had I ruined everything by telling her the truth. Would she ever forgive me for what I did? For lying to her.

As I went to sit up to look around the room, I noticed a weight on my chest and froze. I was wide awake now and the scent hit me. The scent I'd spent days after the charm consuming. The scent I prayed I'd get a waft of during our training sessions together. Her scent. The scent I had missed so much. I noticed then, that the reason for her scent was Rose herself. She was the weight I had noticed. She was lying, practically on top of me, in bed. I breathed in heavily, wrapping her back into my arms. How it took me so long to realise she was here was beyond me, she should have been the first thing I noticed as soon as I woke up.

I was happy, happy to have her back in my arms again, but I couldn't help myself from wondering. What did it mean? What did her being here with me mean? Did it mean she still felt the same way? But then why would she run off? Or was it because she decided she didn't want to sleep on the sofa anymore? I wanted to wake her and ask her these questions, but she needed her sleep. And I would let her. After the past 24 hours, neither of us had had much sleep. With that in mind, I tried to calm my racing thoughts. Focusing on her scent, I fell back asleep with the love of my life in my arms. Finally.

RPOV

I woke and I was hot. Too hot. Blistering hot. What the hell? Why is it so hot? It's snowing outside for crying out loud! I sighed frustrated and tried to push the comforter of myself. It was then I remembered what I did last night, it wasn't a comforter and I wasn't on the sofa. I was in bed, with Dimitri and he was wrapped around me, smothering me. It was too hot.

I needed to get him to move. I twisted slightly trying to escape his arms, but they just tightened around me and he sighed heavily. I sagged a little. I was too hot. Uncomfortably hot. I'd managed to turn around, so I was now facing away from him. I looked back over my shoulder and saw him still peacefully asleep, his chest now to my back. I wondered briefly how long I'd been asleep for but then shook the idea from my head. I felt rested so I guess it was enough. Now I just needed to get out of his vice like hold so I could cool down.

As I squirmed in the bed, I stilled quickly when I felt something hard poking my bottom. I moaned softly as the arousing feeling sent shock waves straight to my core and then giggled. Which of course woke Dimitri.

''Hmm.'' He murmured, still sleepy. He snuggled closer to me, nuzzling my hair. In a split second I decided on something that was either going to lighten the mood or make him mad. Very mad.

''Dimitri. WHAT THE FUCK?!'' I shouted. Pushing away from him, once he loosened his grip I scrabbled to the side of the bed. Turning to face him faking a look of outrage. Who said I couldn't cause him some panic before I responded to what he had said last night, or this morning. He kind of deserved it.

''Rose?'' Dimitri said, sitting up and looking at me, worry clear in his voice and face.

''What the heck? How did I end up in the bed?'' I shouted again, letting a slight joking tone seep into my voice. Dimitri just looked even more confused.

''I woke up earlier and you were hear.'' He muttered, even more confused now. ''What's going on?''

''You tell me, I went to sleep on that sofa and woke up in this bed with you wrapped all around me.'' Pointing at each piece of furniture to make my point clear. I was really struggling to keep a straight face now. He actually believed me. Dear lord how could he believe me.

''I'm sorry.'' He said. ''When I woke up, I thought- well a few different things – but I never thought you didn't know you were here. I don't even know how you ended up here. Like I said I woke up earlier and you were here.'' He mumbled, slowly starting to get out of bed. He looked really scared now. Yeah this was mean. Probably too mean all things considered.

Even if I wanted too, I wouldn't have been able to keep a straight face anymore. He looked terrified. I broke out in a fit of laughter, which only confused him more. ''Rose?'' He asked.

''Oh, you should see your face. Did you really think I didn't know how I ended up here? You idiot. Of course, I got into bed with you, that sofa was the most uncomfortable thing in the world. I hope you don't mind.'' I muttered the last part, slightly embarrassed now while grabbing his arm to stop him from getting up. He stayed seated on the edge of the bed, I kneeled, moving closer to him.

Dimitri gave me an incredulous look, like he couldn't believe what I'd just done. And truthfully, neither could I. ''Rose. Do you think that's funny?'' He asked, which just made me laugh even harder.

''Aww come on. You know you love it!'' I said in a cheeky voice, causing a head shake from Dimitri. ''I'm sorry... It was cruel of me to do that to you.''

''Yes, it was. With everything that's happened. Why did you think that was a good idea?'' He muttered sternly. Oh shit, was he pissed off? He sounded pissed off. I gulped, my eyes widening in fear. ''HA! Got ya!'' He said teasingly.

''Comrade! Seriously! No fair!'' I realised after I'd said it what I'd just said. I smiled sheepishly up at him. It was only the second time I'd called him comrade since it all went to shit. My eyes met his and my breath caught in my throat. I glanced down slightly at his lips, licking mine in the process. I wanted to kiss him, but I was scared of being rejected again.

Bringing my eyes up to look him in the eyes I could seeing longing clear on his face. We starred at each other for what felt like hours when in fact it was probably only a couple of minutes. There felt to be a lot of uncertainty in the room. Neither of us really sure of the other. I knew we needed to talk, but honestly that could wait. Deciding in a split second to do what I should have done earlier. What I should have done instead of running from this room. I leaned forward and pressed my lips to his.

I'd caught him off guard and after a moment's hesitation I felt Dimitri respond to my kiss. He was kissing me back. I smiled against his lips at that as we continued kissing. I kneeled up higher, so we were at a better angel just as Dimitri pushed slightly, causing me to lean backwards. Before I realised, I was lying down on the bed and Dimitri was hovering over me, my hands made their way into his hair and I moaned into his mouth. Oh, how I missed this. This was even better than the lush charm. There was an urgency in the kiss, but it was different from the urgency I felt with the lust charm. The charm felt forced like we were in a race to the finish, this, well we could take it at our own speed, treasure each other's body. Oh god, I wanted him.

Dimitri traced the shape of my body with his fingertips, coming to rest at my knee, curling his hand around and pulling upwards, I wrapped my legs around his waist, forcing his groan closer to my waiting core. I moaned again as I felt the pleasure shock through my body. I never knew making out could feel so good, we were both still fully clothed and he'd barely touched me, and I could already feel my own arousal soaking my panties.

We finally broke the kiss to breath, well I breathed. Dimitri continued kissing me, across my jaw to my neck. Suckling on the sweet spot below my ear causing another moan to come from my lips. I shivered as his hand wandered upwards beneath my t-shirt, pulling it upwards. He'd just grazed the underside of my breast when we heard a knock on the door. Dimitri looked up, towards the door then dashed off me. Looking at me apologetically. Yeah that look better be because we got interrupted, I thought.

Giving me a small smile, he rearranged his PJ bottoms and headed for the door. I quickly straighten the bed and stood to the side. When Dimitri opened the door, I saw Art on the other side who was smiling brightly when he saw the two of us. ''Alright you two. Want to get some food.'' He said in a cheerful voice. I gave him a questioning look, how was he so cheerful?

Dimitri turned to me; the question clear in his eyes. ''Sure.'' I responded. ''We will meet you at the diner in say 10 minutes?''

''Suree.'' Art replied, glancing at the sofa then at the bed. ''See you in 10 minutes.'' He mumbled, chuckling as he muttered something under his breath that I didn't catch. I looked at Dimitri questioningly and his face was turning red. I'm guessing I knew what he'd muttered then. I gave Art a look, but he'd already turned and was walking away.

''Best get changed then.'' I mumbled, looking longingly at the bed. Wishing we could go back to what we'd just been doing. I headed into the bathroom and quickly changed. I was famished. I didn't eat much last night because I was so nervous about sharing a room with Dimitri. I didn't really know if I should have been relieved to be sharing a room with him after what came out of it or not. I was still confused. We really needed to talk about this. I kept coming back to the same question over and over. Did he really mean it? Did he mean what he said? It felt like he had meant it when he was kissing me but what if that was just him wanting another fix. What if everything he had said was because he thought us sharing a room gave him a prime opportunity to have his way with me again. No, I shook my head he's not like that, you know he isn't like that. I sighed as I stared at myself in the mirror, confused. My lips were swollen from our kiss, and what a kiss it was. Surely, he meant it if he was able to kiss me like that.

Heading back out into the room, I looked back up at Dimitri who was eyeing me carefully. ''Uh, after breakfast we should talk. About, well you know.'' I said apprehensively.

''Yeah, we should.'' He mumbled anxiously. He started heading towards the bathroom but stopped. Turning to look at me. Walking over he rested he both hands against my cheek, tilting my head up so I could meet his eyes. ''I meant what I said last night. Every word. I love you. I'm done lying and after breakfast I'll tell you everything.'' He exclaimed, leaning down and pressing a chaste kiss to my lips. He turned abruptly and strode over to the bathroom and closed the door.

I stood there shocked. He meant it. He actually meant it. Hell, he'd just expressed his love for me again. A large smile spread across my face, I felt like jumping up and down for joy like I was a kid, but I refrained encase he came out of the bathroom sooner than expected.

After we had eaten in the diner, Dimitri excused himself to use the restroom. As soon as he walked away from the table, I knew Art would start on the questions. Seriously he was like a girl with this stuff. And what I found funny is he was Dimitri's friend first. So why was he asking me? Surely, he should be going to Dimitri with these questions.

Within a second Art had turned his gaze to me, a small smile flicking across his face. ''So?'' he asked.

''So what?'' I replied, forging innocence.

''Oh, don't play dumb. How did the talk go?''

''Uh…'' I hesitated. ''Shouldn't you ask Dimitri this instead of me?''

''He wouldn't tell me. Or he would but I'd have to drag it out of him'' He shrugged. ''Please tell me you talked.'' The question clear in his voice.

''Well no we didn't. We are going to after this. When I got back last night, he'd fallen asleep. His book was still on his chest when I got in and I didn't dare wake him.''

''You better talk after this. You know the deal.'' He mumbled.

''Yeah, I don't think even if I didn't uphold my side of the deal, you'd give up your side. You want this, you wouldn't be pushing for us to talk if you didn't.'' I chuckled. He shot me a look.

''Just talk to him. Deal or no deal, you need to talk.'' Art was all serious now. ''And anyway, something must have happened because that sofa didn't look slept on at all.'' He chuckled again.

''It wasn't.'' I said shrugging just as Dimitri got back to the table and gave Art a wink. He looked at me wide eyed. Yeah that's going to torture him!

Honestly, I'd known him less than 24 hours. Why did I feel so comfortable talking to him about this? Was it because he openly knows and he's the only person other than Dimitri I can talk to? I didn't know, but I presumed it was.

After we'd settled the bill and Art and Dimitri had decided it still wasn't safe to drive, we headed back to the B&B. Art leaving us to head to the gym. I didn't know if them choosing to stay was completely because of the weather or if Dimitri mainly wanted to stay so then we could have our talk and Art probably wanted us to stay for that same reason. I sighed. Dimitri looked down at me with a raised eyebrow. I shrugged.

When we entered the room again the tension returned. I knew we had to talk now. I started to head towards the bed but thought better of that idea and diverted over to the sofa and sat down. Dimitri followed and sat on the other side of the sofa. Not as far as last night but still space between us. I wanted to close that space. I wanted to be in his arms as we had this talk but refrained from that.

After sitting in silence for a few minutes, neither of us saying anything I finally broke first. ''So…'' I said nervously. ''…Where do we start?'' I asked.

Dimitri chuckled nervously as well. ''I don't know.'' He mumbled, turning to face me, I did the same.

Looking at him I could see how nervous he was, his hands twisting in his lap. He'd laid his emotions bare and I'd ran, and I felt awful for that. Then I reminded myself that he'd rejected me first, which helped ease the guilt a little. ''I'm sorry.'' I muttered. He raised his eyebrow in a silent question. ''For running.'' I explained. ''I shouldn't of ran like that. It just came as a surprise, after what you'd said before, in the gym. I just never expected you to say something like that to me. I ran because I was confused.''

''It's ok. I get why you ran; you don't need to apologise. I shouldn't have just come out and said it the way I did. That was never my plan. I wanted to do it calmly. Sit you down and come clean completely all at the same time.'' I gasped in shock. He was already planning on telling me anyway. I thought it was just something he had said in the heat of the moment.

''You were going to tell me? When?'' I asked.

''On the drive home after your qualifier, I wanted to do it before but needed your soul focus to be on the qualifier. I knew we'd be alone so it would have given us plenty of time to discuss it. But obviously events happened. Then I was going to talk to you while we were sat here. I needed to know about Mason first though, as I wouldn't have told you if you'd had feelings for him. I couldn't do that to you, not after everything I'd done.'' He replied softly.

''And let me guess, my reaction to the Mason part forced you into telling me the truth quicker than you wanted to?''

''Well, yes, kind of. I would have told you anyway. Just not in that way. I think we were both a little frustrated and tired, I guess. You were mad at my presumptions and I was frustrated because I wanted to tell you so badly.''

''You said if I'd had feelings for Mason, you wouldn't have told me, why?'' I asked.

''Because it wouldn't be fair on you. If you'd moved on, I wasn't going to get in the way of that. I'd been stupid enough to push you away. Why wouldn't a beautiful woman like you move on and find someone new when I'd rejected you so harshly.'' He replied sadly. I blushed at the compliment. He thought I was beautiful. I was always referred to as hot, it made me feel like a piece of meat, but Dimitri thought I was beautiful.

''Honestly. I knew I needed to move on. I believed you, when you said what you said. I knew it was a long shot that you would ever reciprocate my feelings in the first place, why would you. I tried convincing myself I needed to move on. I think that's why what happened with Mason happened. I was trying to convince myself I could move on.'' I explained. ''You said you'd lied. About what exactly?'' I asked apprehensively, I wasn't sure I wanted to know the answer to this.

''Everything. Everything I said in that gym.'' I gasped in shock. Did he really mean he lied about everything? ''I'll tell you everything, but you have to promise to let me finish. Ok?'' he asked, and I nodded. He took a deep breath and reached for my hand, squeezing it softly, he was actually shaking with nervous. ''That day I lied about so many things. Firstly, the charm, it didn't create the feelings. For the charm to work we both already had to feel something for the other.'' I gasped again, I remembered in the cells, Victor had told me this, but I didn't believe him because of what Dimitri had already said. Why would I believe Victor over Dimitri?

''Victor was telling the truth?'' I interrupted automatically; Dimitri gave me a look. ''Shit sorry.'' I said, shutting up, pressing my lips into a firm line.

''If you mean he told you how the charm worked then yes. When I heard you'd gone down to see him I was scared. Scared he would have told you the truth and you'd confront me. I didn't know what I would have done if that had happened, I wasn't ready for you to know the truth back then.'' He answered. ''Obviously that means I lied when you asked about my feelings for you, which I'm guessing you already figured out with what I said earlier.'' He chuckled softly; a nervous note evident. Thankfully his hands had stopped shaking now. ''I don't regret what happened, I couldn't, I regret the way it happened. I regret that you were forced into something against your will.'' He held up his hand as he could see I was about to argue with him. ''Let me finish. I wanted you and I knew it was wrong to want that. You're my student, I should not be feeling this way about you. Which is one of the reasons I pushed you away. I couldn't see past the guilt either, it was eating me up inside. It still is.'' He sighed and I squeezed his hand encouraging him to continue. ''I still feel guilty to this day and I don't think that will ever go away...'' I started to say something, but he cut me off. ''I know. I know what you're going to say. That it wasn't my fault and that it was the charm. My mama has said the same thing.'' That shocked me, he'd told his mother?! ''I took me a while, I realise that you both were right but by the time I had, I'd already pushed you so far away. I didn't really make up my mind to tell you until just before our last training session.'' I guess that explained the change in him. Why didn't he just tell me then. As if he heard what I was thinking, he answered my unspoken question ''I wanted to tell you that morning, but I needed time to come up with a way to tell you. To explain everything which I'm not doing brilliantly right now.'' he shrugged. ''Neither of us were in control that night, I see that now. we were both forced into it against our wills. It was still wrong, and it shouldn't have happened, and Victor should pay for what he has done. For using you -us- like that. I've come to terms that I couldn't have done anything to stop it now. At first, I kept asking myself why I didn't realise at the time what was happening, if I'd just took that necklace off, none of it would have happened but my emotions got in the way. I just couldn't believe I had you in my arms like that.'' He sagged a little after he stopped talking. Taking a minute.

I wanted to respond but I didn't know if he was finished yet. He'd asked me to wait until he was finished. Now I knew how bad this was for him I felt awful for the way I'd treated him earlier as well as back in the gym. I'd let my own emotions take control of me and I wasn't hearing what he was telling me. How deeply this had hurt and affected him. I was so desperate to hear he felt the same for me I couldn't understand what, what had happened must have felt like for him. For a man like him to do something like that, even if he wasn't in control of his own body, he'd still blame himself. He was just that kind of man. He was a good man. Any other lesser man would have taken the easy way out and blamed the charm completely, which just made Dimitri stand out all the more. He took the full weight of that guilt and has carried it with him for over a month. Even after I'd told him it wasn't his fault, he still believed it was. He tortured himself with those thoughts for weeks before he believed it himself. I could see a part of him was still torturing himself over it, he'd just said as much and I was desperate to remove that last remaining guilt from his conscious if I could.

Eventually he took another deep breath. ''And the very worst lie of them all was when I told you yes…'' I knew immediately what he was referring to. The moment that hurt me the most. The moment that replayed in my head on a constant loop. When he'd basically told me, I was just another women he fucked to get his fix. ''You were never just another women Rose. You could never be. I've never felt this way about anyone before. I meant it when I said you consume my every thought. I couldn't get you out of my head, even before the charm but afterwards, well it was worse. I tried everything to get the images out of my head, but I had to sleep in that bed every night. Remembering what happened there, the memories haunted me, torturing me.'' He squeezed our entwined hands and then let go. Lifting both of his hands to rest on either side of my face, moving to sit closer next to me he continued, staring into my eyes. ''Lying about that. Well it was one of the worst lies I've ever told. It physically pained me to say it, but I had to make you believe what I was saying. When I saw the hurt in your eyes, I wanted to take it all back immediately. It was never the spell. The spell just removed my inhibitions. I love you.'' He said, and I could hear the truth in his voice as he pressed his lips softly to my own in a quick kiss. Wow, that was quite a speech. It was probably the most I'd ever heard him talk in one go.

''So, it wasn't you just wanting another quick fix?'' I mumbled, embarrassed to even be asking this question, but I had to be sure. Even though he just said all of that. This is the one bit that -and he was correct- hurt me the most. Thinking I was just another notch on his bedpost. Another conquest.

Dimitri sighed. ''No, you could never be.'' Resting his forehead against mine ''I love you, Roza. I'm so sorry.'' He whispered like a pray. I suddenly had flashbacks to when I'd heard something similar a day ago. When he'd caught me at the party. In my room he'd said a similar thing. He'd told me then he was going to tell me the truth and that he was sorry. It wasn't a dream I realised. He'd actually said it.

''You told me that the other night, didn't you? In my room? After you got me back after the party?'' Dimitri looked shocked but nodded his head. ''And you just called me Roza.'' I said with a smile on my face.

''I thought you was asleep'' he mumbled as he nodded again. ''I've had to fight calling you that for so long. It was nearly impossible after the lust charm, I nearly slipped up a few times. You were right, it's your name in Russian.''

''I thought I'd dreamt it. I must have just been falling asleep, I was pretty wasted.'' I chuckled. ''I like it. The name'' I said smiling.

''You were.'' He murmured before pressing his lips against mine again.

It felt like fireworks exploded when his lips met mine. After everything he'd just said, everything he'd owned up to. This felt like our first proper kiss, nothing standing in our way. We both knew how the other felt. I hadn't exactly told Dimitri how I felt now but surely, he had to know right? It hadn't changed.

The kiss deepened and I move to straddle his lap. His hands moved down to my waist, pulling me closer to him as his lips travelled down my neck. I leaned my head backwards giving him better access, causing a groan to come from his lips.

Colliding our lips together again I opened my mouth and our tongues entwined. The feel of his tongue against mine again caused me to moan and grind downwards on his lap. Mine and his own arousal evident to the both of us.

''Rose...'' He groaned as I bit his lip softly tugging on it. ''...we can't.'' He said, with what sounded like regret in his voice.

''Why not?'' I mumbled, moving my lips to his neck and sucking. Hard.

''Because. The reasons why I couldn't tell you in the first place still all stand.'' I groaned. Knowing he was right I leaned back and looked at him. The longing and arousal clear in his eyes. I knew this was as painful for him as it was for me.

''Ugh, I hate this. I want you.'' I exclaimed. ''Damn it.'' I said in frustration, hitting my hands against his chest softly. ''I want you again.'' I whined.

''I know, I want you too. But we can't.'' Yeah definite regret in his voice.

''I was never like this. I was never frustrated like this before. Now all I think about is you and that night and I ache.'' I whispered. His eyes darkened slightly then guilt passed through his eyes again and I realised what I'd said. Shit, I shouldn't have said that.

''I'm sorry.'' He whispered back.

''Stop apologising. It's not your fault. I've lived with it for a month. I can live a little longer.'' I mumbled. ''Wait, how long am I going to have to wait?'' I asked, eyeing him curiously.

''Until your graduation.'' I groaned in response. Seriously? He was seriously going to make me wait that long. I'd combust before then. ''you think it's not hard for me as well. Especially now when you're this close to me.'' I went to move. ''No no. Stay. I've been without you in my arms for so long, I want to hold you for as long as I can.''

I huffed, settling back onto his lap. ''I was hoping you'd say until my birthday. That I could have managed but graduation. Comrade seriously? You really think we can hold out that long.'' Just to make my point I squirmed on his lap again causing him the harden even more beneath me. I saw the shock in his eyes as he realised what I was doing. Grabbing onto my waist roughly, he used his strength to stop my movements. I smiled gleefully in response at the reactions I was causing him.

''Not if you keep doing that, no.'' he muttered. I tried squirming again, but his hold was too tight. ''That didn't mean do it again, Roza.'' He said exasperated. ''It wasn't just because you're my student and your underage either. We are also both sanctioned to be the princess's guardian's when you graduate. That's going to complete things.''

''I know. What are we going to do?'' I asked. ''You can call her Lissa you know. She won't mind.'' I continued as a add on.

''I'll request a reallocation.'' He said, matter-of-factly.

''Comrade, you can't do that.'' I said.

''What's the alternative? You are the best person to protect her with the bond. I couldn't ask you to give that up.'' He replied.

''We'll figure something out.'' I sighed.

''Roza, we can't both be her guardians. It wouldn't work.''

''Why? I don't want to be apart from you.'' I whined. ''I just got you back.''

''Because, I wouldn't throw myself in front of her. I'd throw myself in front of you. I know I shouldn't, but I would. You are my life.'' He said, in a strong unwavering voice. Now something like that could get us into serious trouble. Now I saw the real problem. And it was a problem. It was basically treason for a guardian to say that, to say something or someone came before the life of his charge. Well not quite that bad but it was close.

Even though this shouldn't make me happy, I couldn't help it. I beamed up at him and crushed my lips against his again. Pulling away still smiling. ''that's so sweet. I get it. I'm just being selfish. I want to guard her, but I don't want to be away from you. I'll miss you when you're gone, we'll hardly see each other.'' I said sadly.

''We'll make it work.'' He said, rubbing my arms. I hugged him, resting my head against his shoulder, still straddling his legs. We stayed like that for ages, in silence just taking in the feel of one another, until we heard a knock on the door which pulled us apart. Knowing it was probably Art, I got up and headed to the door.

''Hey.'' Art said once I'd opened the door, a question clear in his eye. I gave a slight smile and nod in response to his unspoken question. ''You guys want to watch a movie or something? And none of that Western crap Dimitri.'' He said looking over at Dimitri sat on the sofa.

''Sure.'' We both said together. ''You can pick Art'' I said as we headed back over to the sofa. Art sat down in the spot I was previously in before I'd climbed on Dimitri's lap. There was room between them, but I didn't know if I should sit that close to Dimitri. I knew Art knew, but still, it's one thing knowing and a completely different thing seeing it.

Art had already picked up the remote and was flicking through the channels searching for something to watch when he looked up at me. ''Oh, sit down already. You can sit on him if you want.'' He exclaimed. I looked at Dimitri who just laughed, shrugging slightly I sat down and curled myself into Dimitri's side. ''See that wasn't too hard was it.'' Art continued. And I laughed at the innuendo, oh if only he knew. I could still feel Dimitri's arousal pressing against my leg. Dimitri shock me a look which immediately sobered me up.

After 5 minutes of searching he finally found a movie to watch. Deadpool. I'd always wanted to see this when it first came out but Lissa never did, plus it had Ryan Reynold's in and who didn't want to look at him for a few hours.

As it turned out, I didn't want to look at him at all. Sometime early in the movie I moved slightly so I could star up at Dimitri, completely ignoring the movie that was playing and I just stared at him. Taking in his every feature. How could someone like him care and love someone like me? He was a catch. He could literally have any women he wanted, and he picked me. Someone who causes him no end of trouble and complications. Someone who could completely ruin his well-built reputation and his whole entire life if we were found out. He looked up at me, a question clear in his eye as he raised an eyebrow. I shook my head. Not wanting to tell him what was bothering me, instead I pressed a kiss to his lips.

''Aww you guys are so cute. But please stop, I'm trying to watch a film.'' Art said, making fake gagging noises. Honestly, he was acting more of a teenager than a grown man. I couldn't believe this guy used to be the head of guardians! I turned slightly and punched him in his arm. He laughed in response and pushed me back causing me to move closer to Dimitri. I didn't know how but me and Art had grown close since we had that chat in the gym, we were definitely friends now. Dimitri was looking at us both with a smile on his face.

We all turned back to the movie, well I pretended to watch it. I kept stealing glances at Dimitri throughout. Each time I did, his arms would tighten around me and I would sigh quietly at the feel. Sometimes I would steal a quick kiss when I thought Art was too engrossed in the movie. He didn't make any more comments, so it seemed to work.

After the movie finished, we'd headed back to the diner to have something to eat again. We all made our way back to our rooms. Dimitri stopped in front of our room and turned to Art. ''I think we should be able to get on the road again in the morning. Say leave at 10am, that should give us plenty of time in daylight to get back to the Academy safely.''

''If you are sure.'' Art replied. Dimitri shrugged while looking down at me.

''I think we'd both like to stay longer but we can't.'' He mumbled, pulling me closer. I smiled sadly up at him as I wrapped my arms around his waist. It was true, out here we could act like a normal couple, but once we headed back to the academy, we would have to pretend we were mentor and student again and I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to go back. Everything was different now. But at the same time the fears from earlier came creeping back in. Why did this god-like man want me when all I brought him was complications?

We said our goodnights quickly after that, agreeing to meet at 9am to have breakfast and check out. Once back in our room, I stood awkwardly in the middle. Not sure where to go. I really didn't want to sleep on the sofa, but I didn't know if we should tempt fate by sleeping in the same bed. I heard Dimitri lock the door behind me and turned just as he enveloped me into his arms.

Standing in his arms for what felt like hours but in actual fact it was a matter of seconds I finally felt completely whole for the first time since the night of the lust charm. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that Dimitri was who I was meant to find in my life. Who I'd spend the rest of my life with, but did it have to be so complicated right now. All I wanted to do was curl up next to him for one more night. Before everything would change again.

''So, I know you've said no sex, but can we at least sleep in the same bed? That sofa is seriously not comfortable.'' I said apprehensively. What if he didn't want to share a bed with me again? He was silent for a while, so I pulled myself away and looked up at him. He was looking at me like I was insane. Huh, guess that answers that question then. I turned, attempting to head over to the sofa when I was pulled back towards him and his lips joined mine in a passionate kiss.

He walked us over to the bed, his lips never leaving mine and when I felt my knee hit the edge as he pushed us down, landing on top of me. He was really giving me mixed signals here. He was the one who said no to the sex but with every kiss he was making it ever harder on me not to start begging him.

Our lips moving in sync, neither of us wanting to break the kiss to breathe. The kiss picked up even more and Dimitri starting kissing down my neck, along my collarbone.

''Please...'' I let out as a breathy moan, like I said, I was soon going to beg.

He rolled of me then. ''Rose...'' he said a warning clear in his voice.

''Ugh, I know.'' I said, rolling onto my side facing him. Moving my hands to trace his facial features.

''I want to. Don't think I don't, but we can't.'' He mumbled, looking down at me.

''You really think we can keep our hands off each other until graduation?'' I asked jokingly. ''Because at the rate we are going I don't think we'll make the end of the year.'' I laughed. That was being lenient, at this rate we wouldn't be making it back to the academy before we gave in to our animalistic need for one another.

''We have too.'' He said softly. ''It will be easier once we are back at the academy.'' I snorted. ''It will. We've done it for the past month.''

''Yeah, that was easier for me because I didn't know how you felt. Knowing you feel the same, well it's going to be a lot harder to keep my hands off you now. Especially in training.'' I explained as a slow smile spread across his face. ''Plus, it doesn't help that Art told me to jump your bones last night.'' I looked at him in shock and slapped my hand across my mouth to stop myself saying anymore.

''What?!'' he exclaimed, the smile that was there moments ago disappeared and the look of outrage replaced it.

''Uh, when you sent Art after me last night after I ran out of here. We talked everything through. It was nice. Being able to talk to someone who knew about us. Not everything'' I reassured after I saw the panicked look on his face. ''I told him if he wanted to know the whole story, he had to ask you for that information. We just talked it through, you telling me about your feeling and why it was confusing me, it helped me sort through my racing thoughts. He told me that you'd meant it and basically forced me to come back to the room and talk to you. You were already asleep but he's advice, in a way gave me the courage to get into bed with you.'' I wanted to tell Dimitri about Art. How he was in a similar situation, but I respected Art's privacy. If he wanted to tell Dimitri he would.

''Well I guess I have Art to thank then for how I woke up this morning.'' He mumbled leaning closer and kissing me softly. Parting quickly so we didn't get to distracted again. ''I still can't believe he told you to jump me. I mean you're a student.''

''That's exactly what I said!'' I laughed. ''See why it's going to be hard to keep my hands off you.'' I said cheekily.

''That's alright. I've had plenty of time to learn how to control you.'' He said smiling at me. I looked at him in outrage.

''OH. You think you can control me?'' I asked. ''We'll see about that when we are back.'' I muttered. A plan forming in my mind. He actually looked a little scared which made me laugh.

''Come on, let's get some sleep. We have to be up soon.'' He replied. It was a little after 2am according to the clock in the room. I rolled closer to him and cuddled into his side. Resting my head on his chest. He reached over and turned the lights off and we were surrounded by darkness.

''I missed you.'' I whispered into the safety of the darkness. ''I'm glad you finally told me the truth. I get why you lied. You were trying to protect me, right? Well both of us?''

He hugged me closer to his chest. ''Yes. Well more wanting to protect you. I don't care what happens to me. Your all I care about.'' I felt his lips brush over my hair as he said this. I sighed in response.

''Well I care about you. I'll protect you if you won't. We need to be careful. I know that. But we'll still be able to have little moments like this, together right. I don't want us to just go back to mentor and student, I want us to have moments like this, well not exactly like this but you know what I mean?'' I said nervously.

''If we can, we will. We will make it work.'' He replied soothingly, rubbing circles on my arm. I sighed heavily and snuggled down into his chest.

''Goodnight Comrade.'' I mumbled into his chest.

''I've actually missed you calling me that.'' He muttered. ''Goodnight Roza.'' He sighed. I smiled against his chest.

As I laid there my mind drifted to my earlier thoughts. Why would he choose to be with me when I could ruin his life so completely? He had to have many women's attention. He could have any women he wanted yet he wanted me. Complications and all. I sighed softy. Choosing to ignore my own self-doubt for tonight, as to not ruin this perfect day, I relaxed into my lovers' arms. Turning my head slightly and pressing a kiss to his chest as I drifted off into a peaceful sleep.

AN – Ah finally. They are back where they belong. Together. What do we think is going to happen next?

I'm back to work now so not sure when the next update will be. I've wrote probably 500 words of the next chapter so I'm aiming to get it finished tomorrow then I'll proofread and edit probably Thursday if I'm not too tired. Starting tomorrow. In the next 7 days I'm working 5. And they are a mixture of days and nights (12-13 hours shifts). Send help?