Hey guys! I do apologize for the long wait again. Chapter 6 is half way finished already and I´m so close to finish the 3.1 as well. I promise, you get to read those as soon as possible.

Big thanks to MrShurukan for helping me with the correction once again!

Hope you enjoy!

Beastars – Into the spotlight

Chapter 5 – Just a distraction

POV Legoshi

"Legoshi" she greeted me coldly, as I joined her besides one of her many flower beds, "What are you doing here?"

I hadn´t even greeted her yet and already set about helping her as usual, but that didn´t change anything, apparently.

"I…" I began lowly, gently putting the heavy watering can onto the ground besides her, "I just wanted to talk with you…you know...after what happened two nights ago…"

"What is there to talk about?" she wanted to know.

While thinking about an actual answer to that question, I just remained kneeling besides her, not knowing what to do with my hands.

"I…I know you´ve been at the party with Jack" I confessed then, "He´s my dorm-mate and my best friend. Of course he would tell me about it…"

Although she clearly listened, she didn´t respond for now and just continued picking weeds out of the flower-bed. She was straight up ignoring me, even though I really waited a long time for her answer. This was the first time in two days I found her here, and she barely talked to me. It was even worse than I thought it would be.

"…I…I think you would talk to me if you didn´t know about what I did on stage. But I was pretty sure you would find out about that eventu-"

"Just accept it already!" she snapped at me suddenly, "The whole school sees you two as the perfect grey wolf-couple now! Why don't you just leave this place for good and just accept the convenience that´s being handed to you?"

"Just how could she still believe that?"

I just shook my head with a deep sigh once again. "I´m not in love with Juno" I told her once more, "I never was in love with her. I only love you, and you know t…"

"You´re not in love with her?" she asked dogmatically, "Is that why you´ve had sex with her after the party?"

"She knew about that as well already? Who told her about that?! Has the word spread that far already? Oh no!"

That left me dumbfounded for a moment.

"I…I…" I stuttered, "I made a giant mistake with…"

"I don't think it was a mistake" she interrupted me, "Why do you keep lying to yourself? Is it still because you feel guilty for almost devouring me? I have forgiven you for that a long time ago!"

"No! I really don't love her!" I almost yelled at her now, "I just don't know what´s gotten into me that night!"

"You finally became the wolf you´re supposed to be. And she´s a pretty Wolf girl."

"I don't even remember what happened! I´m not even sure if it´s true, I just know I woke up next to her in the morning. I had a total blackout!"

"Sure."

"N-No! Believe me! I was like totally drugged that night, I would never have done this if I was-"

"Just accept it, Legoshi" she sighed.

This was just the worst thing ever. I never before had the problem that somebody wouldn't believe me.

Although she seemed to be dead-serious about me having done the right thing, I still refused to believe it. It was just not true. Everything about her was just intoxicating to me. Everything about her made me feel happy. Even now when we were in this complicated mess of feelings.

"No! This wasn´t supposed to happen! There was this…this smell to her…it reminded me of you I realized later. And then there was the pressure from everybody around us, and…and…"
"Stop coming up with cheap excuses!" she said, becoming louder now, "I don't want to hear it, Legoshi. Please leave me alone!"

I just remained staring at the floor at this point. She really was serious about this.

"Was this the end of us?"

I just couldn´t just accept it.

"No! She couldn't just do that to me! After all I´ve done! After all I´ve risked? I had to save this somehow. She just didn´t know what she was talking about!"

Not thinking about it twice, I did the same thing I did to Jack a few days ago. I just reached out for her and gently pulled her into a tight hug.

"Legoshi!" she yelled in surprise, "Let go of me!"

I didn´t want to let go of her. Although she tried freeing herself from my grip, I wouldn´t release the little rabbit. I needed this, and I had the feeling she needed it too.

"Legoshi!" she yelled again, "Give up! I´m not in love with you anymore! It´s the best thing for both of us if we just move on!"

That hurt a lot more than anything else she ever said to me before. I looked her right in the eyes, and I could tell that she really meant it like that. She didn´t stare back at me, she tried to look away.

I slowly released my grip on her, and as soon as she had the chance to, she pushed me away and got a few steps back. "I don't love you, Legoshi! This will never work between us!"

I just stared into nothingness at this point. My whole –at least stable- world had completely collapsed right now.

"How…how can you say that?" I asked in bitter disappointment.

"Well, isn´t it just like that in the end?" she asked, "You´ve even had sex with her. And you didn´t want to do it with me when I offered it to you."

"That was something different!" I yelled, "And you know that!"

"Yeah? So how was that different?"

"I…I was scared! Y…you know what happened! I…I…"

"What were you scared of?" she asked, "Hurting me? You just saved me from being eaten alive by a clan of Lions! You had every right to do whatever you wanted with me that night! But you didn´t do it because you´ve felt for yourself that it wouldn´t work out between us!"

"That is not true!" I yelled, feeling really helpless at this point, "Why don't you believe me? I risked my life to get you back!"

This left her thinking for at least a moment. I looked her in the eyes and when our gazes met, she quickly looked into another direction again.

"Well…" she said bitterly, and among all the other things, I was expecting this one the less, "…then you maybe shouldn't have done that then!"

"I have really messed this up. She hated me now. And it seemed like there was nothing I could do about it."

I couldn´t take any more of that. There was no point in arguing against that either. She just wanted me to be gone out of her life. Never see me again as it seemed.

She was right: I should leave this place now.

Without saying another word, I just turned around and headed for the exit. If I would say another word to her right now, I couldn´t be sure that it would be an appropriate one. I couldn´t mess this up even more.

I didn´t look back and just left the gardening-club altogether, closing the door behind me not as smoothly as I usually did. Not knowing where I wanted to go right now, I went down the stairs and into the hallway. I didn´t really look where I was heading, I just went along slowly.

"What was the purpose of my life now? Has all this been a giant waste of time. Did anything make any sense anymore?"

"Legoshi!" Jack ripped me out of my gaze, who was just coming towards me, heading in the opposite direction of the hallway, "…didn´t you… …help… …math-test…?"

"W-what?" I asked.

"The math-test…that´s coming up…" he repeated, "…didn't you say you need help for that?"

I had totally forgotten about that. But I didn´t care about that right now either. I wasn´t in the mood for anything. It all was totally pointless now. What did that math-test matter anyway?

"Yeah…don't know" I sighed, trying not to sound too mean to him, "Maybe later…gotta go to the rehearsals soon…"

"Oh…okay" he said, apparently still noticing that something wasn´t quite right, "Is everything alright?"

"Yeah" I lied, not wanting to talk about that right now, "Gotta go, see you later, Jack."

"Okay…" he chuckled, "…see ya later!"

And with that I left him right where he was headed straight for the drama-club. Maybe being on my own for a little while would help a little.

POV Juno

I didn´t know what to do with that half hour after class until the rehearsals started, so I went there early once again and trained my choreography on my own.

The second I started moving, I heard a door to this room opening and then falling into its lock again. It was quite unusual that anybody would come here this early.

"Hey Juno" a dark but quite calm voice greeted me out of the shadows, before he came closer slowly but surely.

"L-legoshi!" I greeted him in surprise, "What are you doing here so early?"

"I was hoping to be alone here for a little while…" he sighed, "…but…but since you´re here…what do you say we talk about a few things that happened?"

I knew this would happen eventually, but I never believed it would be him who made the first step.

"Uhm…yeah, sure" I agreed nervously. I wasn´t prepared for this at all though.

It didn't seem like he was in a rush right now, because he first got onto his knees and then sat down onto the floor in a comfortable pose. I did the same a moment later and just remained looking at him silently.

"First of all" he sighed, looking directly into my eyes for a moment, "I´m sorry I just left like that on the morning after the party. Your entire dorm kept staring at me and I felt really sick in my stomach as well…"

"N-no!" I said, trying to sound comforting about that, "Don´t be sorry! I didn´t have a good day either…I think we both made a big mistake on that night…"

At first he nodded silently, but then he didn´t seem totally convinced about something.

"What mistake did you make?" he asked quite plainly.

That brought me into quite a tough spot right now. I didn´t think that one though before I said it. He knew I always liked him. And it seemed like he had no intentions to hide that anymore.

"Damn, he still looked so handsome! Even with this droopy expression, I could stare at him all day long."

It really made it hard for me to concentrate.

"I…I…" I stuttered, "…I should have respected your feelings a little more…you know…we both were quite drunk later that night…"

"No" he said, shaking his head while looking at the floor, "…I can´t just blame you for what happened either..."

He was sort of right about that, but considering that this never would have happened without the rabbit-blood in my fur, he also really could blame all that on me after all.

"It´s just…" I told him, "I just feel so bad for you, because now the entire school thinks we´re…you know…"

"Let them think what they want" he waved it off with a little sigh, "I don't care anymore."

That I really didn´t expect from him.

"W-what?!"

"I want our performance to be good" he stated, "Nothing else is important right now."

"…no!" I said, "I mean the whole school thinks we´re a couple!" I clarified what I meant, "And that we had sex that night…"

He just shrugged his shoulders about that as well. It really seemed like he didn´t care about it anymore. I was so confused right now.

"Just what happened to the shy, tame and ever so classy gentleman I´ve gotten to know that day he saved me from those bullies? He´s completely transformed all over sudden!"

"So…you really don't mind about that?" I asked.

He just shook his head a little, still looking at the floor.

"You know…" he began after a short pause, lifting his gaze a little now, "I´ve never been one for the spotlight. I´ve never been very popular and I´ve never had any experiences with girls before. I believe you knew about that already…"

I just nodded to that question.

"…two nights ago, at that Halloween party, all that changed all over sudden. I enjoyed being on that stage, although I wasn´t prepared for it. And I noticed that people were enjoying it as well for the first time…"

I nodded once more. "They did enjoy it" I agreed, "And you did better than any of us has expected."

He nodded.

"I never expected that of myself to be honest" he confessed, "…but it just felt…right..."

He left another short pause with that.

"…everything felt right that night somehow."

"What?"

My heart did a little jump when he said that.

"Did I hear that right? Was he serious about this? Is there a chance he has feelings for me after all?"

I took a deep breath right now. The silence that followed was unbearable.

"…I need to ask you something though" he confessed, "Did we really have sex that night? I can´t remember anything after we left that stage. It was just like I had a total blackout at that point…"

"What?" I asked in shock, "You don't remember?"

"N-no" he said nervously, "I´m sorry! I just heard it from your roommates, but I didn´t believe them initially. I really don't remember!"

"Oh" I sighed, truly being a little disappointed right now. I really had thought he at least remembered it.

"I-I´m sorry!" he said again, "I feel so bad for that myself! I really can´t tell! I´m sorry if I hurt you or been rough to you something like th-"

"You didn´t hurt me" I interrupted him, "…I…I mean…It was a little rough at first, but honestly, it was the best thing ever! The sex was just fantastic!"

"What, really?" he asked in shock, putting his hands in front of his face. It seemed like he really couldn´t believe it.

I nodded with a little smile.

"You´re not making this up?"

POV Legoshi

Now she just shook her head, still with that mysterious little smile on her face. It seemed like she was not joking.

"I can´t believe you really lost your virginity that night…" she whispered, "…it seemed like you´ve done this before."

I couldn't believe that either. I couldn´t believe that ever since I´ve heard of it.

"…why…why would you not believe it?" I asked her just out of curiosity, "I…I mean that I was a virgin. What did I do?"

"You were…" she began hesitantly, checking all the corners of the room quickly, "…you were such a beast all over sudden! I never expected you to be so…wild and…well…horny…you were a real wolf that night!" she grinned.

"What, really?!" I asked, really being a little ashamed about hearing it.

"I…I had the feeling that you really needed it too" she said lowly, now being more serious again, "That´s why I didn´t stop you…but I was in the mood for it to…so…I can´t say I didn´t want it either…"

I just kept staring at her while shaking my head a little bit. Hearing all this made me realize what I really did to Haru that night.

"Maybe she was right. I could understand why she was thinking like that now. Maybe somebody heard us and the word really had spread that far?"

"…I´m really sorry" she told me once again, "…I maybe should have stopped it."

I shook my head once more. "I can´t blame just you for this. It´s not like I wasn´t physically able to stop this myself."

She nodded understandingly, and with that our conversation took a little pause. I took a look at the time on my phone. Still fifteen more minutes until the rehearsals would begin.

"…my dorm-mates really seemed to like you" Juno told me with a little chuckle suddenly, "…and I don't think they were just talking about your personality…"

I couldn't help but smile about this for a short moment. I pulled myself together pretty quickly, but she surely noticed. That made her giggle a little more, and it honestly was a little contagious right now. Those little good vibes just felt nice after this otherwise really chaotic and unpleasant afternoon. They just did.

"Well…I guess being a lead actor really does make you quite popular…" I chuckled.

"I find it so great that us carnivores are not just seen as scary monsters anymore" she told me with gleaming eyes, "We finally get treated and respected like all the other students!"

I couldn't deny she had a point with that. Showing the other students that we were just animals as well, being able to love and be gentle too, was the best thing that could ever happen to the carnivores. Weird that it took me this long to notice that.

"You´re right" I agreed with her, "That really is a good thing."

She slowly and carefully reached out for my paws now, and I let her take them without hesitation. Even though there was nobody there and we were not acting for anybody, I just wanted to hold hands with her right now. It just felt as right as it felt wrong, and I believed that was at least justifiable right now. And what more did I have to lose?

POV Haru

I didn´t expect anybody to come visit the gardening club today after I sent Legoshi away like that, but just twenty minutes later, I really got surprised on that matter. I was so distracted by my thoughts that I haven´t even noticed him coming into the garden. I was just about to carry one more heavy watering can towards the flower beds when he greeted me with his soft but playful voice.

"Hello, Haru" he said lowly, "Is this a bad time?"

"Huh?" I asked in surprise, "Jack? What…what are you doing here?"

"I…uh…" he began nervously, picking up the second watering can I just had filled up and following me to the flower beds, "I´ve not seen you ever since I met Legoshi here…I thought you might want to talk about it?"

I wasn´t really in the mood to talk about that right now, but he was just too cute and innocent to just send away also. And he was right, we really should finally talk about that. The sooner I got all of this over with, the better.

"Did you come here to talk to Legoshi alone?" I asked just out of curiosity.

He shook his head about that question.

"No" he said, "I wanted to talk to you, originally. It was just by chance really, but since he didn´t meet you here, we thought this would be a good place to talk…"

"I´m sorry I listened through the door" I told him with a little sigh, "I really didn´t want to see him that day, so I didn´t answer when he asked if I was there. And then I had no other way."

He nodded understandingly, although his ears were still droopy and his gaze was pretty low down as well.

"You have told him about that later, haven´t you?"

Against all my expectations, he immediately really shook his head about that question. "Everything I´ve told him you´ve heard yourself."

Now that really shocked me.

"Why was he doing this? Why wouldn't he tell his best friend about something like that? Or wasn´t he his best friend. Did he just want to get into my pants instead of helping Legoshi?"

It was an awfully long moment of silence, before I just plainly asked him that: "Why? Why would you do that? Why don't you just ask if you want to have sex with me? I already offered it to you, so what´s the big fuzz about?"

That on the other hand left him speechless for a couple of moments.

"I…I…" he stuttered, "I wanted Legoshi to figure this out himself. And I believe he has, judging by his face when I met him in the hallway just a minute ago!" he said, putting the watering can onto the floor besides the flower bed rather firmly.

Interesting, so he was not just a naive little puppy.

"…I told you I would keep my mouth shut and I did. I want my word to be worth something to the people I give it to."

I just didn´t know what to say right now. It seemed like I was misreading his intentions really badly, and there was no coming back after that.

"Do I really look that desperate to you?" he wanted to know then, really sounding a little pissed off right now, "And I told you before: I wouldn´t do that to my best friend."

It seemed like he wasn´t lying about that either. His expression was dead serious when I looked at him again.

"Damn! I really began to like this guy!"

Since there was nothing more to be said about this, I figured it was just the best thing to tell him the truth straight away: "I just broke up with him for good. It just wouldn´t work out between us."

"What?!" he asked in shock, "Are you serious? You´re just breaking his heart like that?"

"Oh, so now it´s just me who´s the bad guy all over sudden? I don't think so, Mr. Labrador!"

"Well…wasn´t he the one who had sex with somebody else…"

"Y-yeah…but…but…"
"But?"

He just sighed deeply about this. There wasn´t really anything he could say after this, but I certainly knew what he meant. I´ve never been all that innocent myself. There were rumours about me at this school, and most of them were just true, sadly. He probably knew I was with a lot of guys before. And he witnessed just for himself that I tried to sleep with him that night as well. In fact: I just offered it to him again.

"…I…I know he´s sort of pushed into it by the drama club" I told him with a little sigh, "…he didn´t really have a choice on stage… …but they really do make a nice couple…so I don't see any reason why they shouldn´t…"

"Legoshi risked his life to save you from the Shishigumi…" he reminded me, "…he made a mistake that night, he probably got really drunken… …I know that´s not an excuse for anything…but…but Legoshi really loves you! He was talking about nothing else ever since!"

I just shook my head with a little sigh and concentrated on watering my flowers again. I didn´t want to hear any more of it at this point. Not today.

"You´re a good guy, Jack" I told him, intending to end this conversation now, "And I admire everything you did…but I really think you should leave right now."

He hesitated about it for a moment, then he nodded. "Okay" he sighed, slowly getting off his knees with that, "See you later, Haru."

POV Bill

When I thought I was surprised by Legoshi´s mood during the photo shooting we did a few days ago, that was nothing compared to what mood he was in now. It seemed like nothing mattered to him anymore. It almost seemed like a heavy burden had fallen off his shoulders.

It was like somebody had lit a fire under his tail, because now finally he pumped out the energy on stage I always knew he had inside him. It even went as far as him giving directions to the lighting crew.

"Kai" he told him, still being out of breath from the dance-performance he just practised with Juno and the dance crew, "Could you focus the spot a little tighter for the kiss-scene after the dance? I think that would increase the tension even a little more."

"Dude" the mongoose sighed, really sounding a little annoyed in the meanwhile, "It´s almost on maximum focus already! And it´s hard to track you when you´re dancing at that pace!"

"Come on" he told him with an encouraging wink, "I know you can do this! We´re not really moving anymore during the kiss anyways…"

"So Legoshi is motivating the crew as well now? Very interesting. And I have been right about Legoshi and Juno after all…haven´t I?"

"Legoshi is right" Sanu agreed, "It would really elevate the moment! Let´s keep that energy! We´re making fantastic progress right now!"

I couldn´t disagree with him on that point either. We were making fantastic progress, finally. And since Romeo finally became this energetic, all the other actors were hyped about this as well once again.

"Holy shit" Aoba told me with an exhausted but happy expression, as he just came back from the stage after practising his second scene with Legoshi, "Where does that come from all over sudden?"

"Didn´t I tell you?" I grinned back at him.

"You really think he and Juno…?" he asked lowly, not even being that sceptical about it anymore.

Just in the moment he asked that, Legoshi and Juno practised their kissing scene once more. It really looked convincing in the meanwhile, and judging by how some of the other male actors looked at Legoshi in pure jealousy, they had already given up their chances at Juno at this point. I couldn´t say I wasn't a tiny little bit jealous either, I would have traded roles with him if I would have had the chance to.

"Come on" I grinned at him, "Does that look faked to you?"

He just shook his head with a little smirk.

"Bill, Aoba!" Sanu reminded us suddenly, "Get ready for your entrance!"

He was right, I almost would have forgotten our cue, the lights on the whole stage were already getting brighter again.

"Juliet" Romeo panted now, already sensing something bad was about to happen soon, "I can´t stay here, I´m a Montague, I´ll get into trouble when they find me here!"

"I hope I can see you again soon my love!" she said, already moving off the stage hesitantly.

"I will find you when this is over! Quickly, Juliet!" Legoshi told her, as she almost was out of sight for the audience.

Now followed the scene in which Tybalt killed Romeo´s best friend Mercutio. Aoba and I liked that scene for several aspects: we could really go nuts with the fake blood, we were allowed to use a few swear-words and Aoba´s ironical death scene was just funny as hell:

"Arghhhh!" he yelled in an over-dramatic way, after I had ´attacted´ him with the plastic bottle of fake-blood, "The Pain! The suffering! The ever-lasting agony! The…hell…what is this shit?" he then asked ironically, lifting up the plastic bottle with the faked blood, trying to make it very visible for the audience, "This is what I get killed by? This is how a god dies? This fuckin piece of trash plastic bottle? NO! I can´t accept that! You know what? I give you a real death scene! And you´re going to watch me die for 3 whole minutes now, if you like it or not!"

And with that he began emptying the whole bottle of the red liquid onto himself and everywhere on the stage floor during his very over-dramatic dying-performance. I had no idea how long this took him to get out of his white feathers afterwards, but it seemed like it was worth it every time. I knew Aoba loved to play scenes like that.

This really was one of the highlights of our performance, and this was exactly the sort of stuff the bald eagle was known for.

Not even Legoshi could hide a little grin watching it, although he really had to keep a straight face in the real performance. He was supposed to rather stare in shock as his best friend was dying right before him. But it wouldn´t be so bad since Aoba had all the attention in this scene anyway.

When he finally was done with his over-dramatic death scene, laying on the floor pretending not to be breathing anymore, he pulled off his last highlight: He rested his upper body on one of his wings for another short moment, lifted his head just a little and said, "Fuck Donald Trump!" before he collapsed for a second time and died for real this time.

I loved that savage sort of humour, and I was so glad we were able to convince Sanu of letting him do this. It was not like he didn´t enjoy this for himself though.

We expected this to be the main topic the students would talk about after the performance. And that was exactly what we wanted.

The next scene was pretty much Romeo sitting on the floor in silent rage and sadness about his loss, surrounded by the fake blood, waiting for the dance-crew, who all were equipped with mops, to semi-clean up the whole mess around him. They couldn´t swipe away the red stains entirely in that short amount of time, but at least the floor of the stage was not completely wet and slippery anymore.

With that, Aoba was done with his part of the performance because his character died, but since we usually practised this scene almost at the end of our rehearsals anyway, he stayed with us until the end. He simply stood up from the floor after his death scene, did a short, ironic little bow in front of the audience and then simply walked off the stage.

Now it was just the fighting scene between Romeo and Tybalt left to practise once more.

This was my favourite thing about the whole play. The fighting scene with Legoshi. One of the very few students here who almost matched the body size and strength of a Tiger.

And although I expected him to be a little worn out after this already very energetic and intense practise session, he stepped up his game here as well today.

We used the whole stage as our playground for this fighting performance. We were rolling around on the floor after each other´s punches, wrestled, jumped and also kicked each other, but we barely had any real body contact this time. It just had to look real for the audience, and I believed we really got this down in the meanwhile. It was quite athletic what we were doing, and it was so much fun in my opinion.

"Yes!" Sanu commented while our fight went on, "Very good!" he commented contentedly, "Now, Legoshi!" he told him, as I was in the right position for the final stunt, "Kick him off the edge! There are enough matrasses for him to land on! It has to look like you´re killing him!"

This was the part where Legoshi was holding pack the most in earlier rehearsals, but this time I honestly was a little scared of him. Without hesitation, he planted his right foot into my stomach and then smoothly but still with a lot of momentum kicked me of the edge of the platform we were standing on. I safely landed on the matrasses that nobody could see behind the elevated platform, but it felt a lot scarier this time.

"Yes!" Sanu commented with real excitement in his voice, "That´s just what we need! Great Job Guys! Now keep that pace up Legoshi!"

He just nodded about that, trying to control his breathing after all that action. Then he immediately carried on with his performance.

I don't know what was driving that kid today, but he really was a beast on stage right now. I was pretty sure even Louis would be impressed by that.

"Oh no!" he panted, "What have I done! Tybalt!" he yelled, "Why did we have to fight to death about this! How far did I have to go for this love?! Can´t this war between our families' end finally? …"

Aoba reached me his hand and helped me up as the others went on with the next scene. I simply nodded towards him with a little wink. He was right, something definitely had changed in that wolf´s mind.

"Just look at him" he chuckled, "Gonna become the next Louis if he continues like that."

"Yeah…" I sighed with a nod, apparently not being able to hide a bit of resignation about that.

"Come on" he chuckled, "He´s finally not hiding behind his lights anymore…"

"Yeah" I sighed again, "I guess you´re right. He´s finally delivering the spirit of a real carnivore…"
"This performance will blow everybody away!" he said enthusiastically, "Finally some real theatre we´re doing here. I love this so much to be honest. We don't need Louis to fill that hall!"

That really was the main thing that kept my going right now. We delivered a great show all on our own.

Just a few more days and we would show the entire school what we were able to do. And in the next production of the drama-club, I would be the lead actor for sure, there was no doubt about that.

POV Jack

"Legoshi" Durham chuckled as he came back into the dorm, "There is more and more fake blood on your clothing every time you come back from the rehearsals…"

"Yeah" he agreed with a little smile, "Quite a mess this one death scene. But I think it´s worth it."

"Did I see that right?"

Legoshi wasn't actually that badly tempered right now. I thought he would be in even worse of a mood since Haru broke up with him this afternoon.

"Can´t wait to see that performance" Miguno commented from his bed.

"Well, you won´t see it unless you finally get yourself some glasses you blind mole" Collot told him with a big grin.

"As if you see any better with all that hair in your face, you exploded mob!" he snickered back in return.

Legoshi even flashed a little smile about their bickering, before he undid his white and red drama-club clothing, threw it onto his bed for now and headed for the bathroom right away. I noticed that he even had the fake-blood on his upper body, and then I remembered that he also had a shirtless scene in the performance.

"Just look at lover-boy over there" Collot commented, after Legoshi had closed the door behind him.

"Got a lot of self-confidence all over sudden…doesn´t he?"

"It´s about time" Durham chuckled, "But it suits him well I think…"

"Yeah…he really is…"

I couldn´t believe that Legoshi just threw away everything he´s got with Haru just like that. It seemed like he was playing over it pretty well right now. But I knew him just too well. He hadn´t really given up on this yet, he was just ignoring it, distracting himself.

"I need to talk to him, Alone. Today. I just needed to know what´s going on. And he probably needs to know as well."

When he came back from his shower a few minutes later, I immediately asked him if he still needed help with the math-tasks we had to be able to solve for the upcoming test. Even before he was able to close the curtain of his bed behind him.

"We could also get something to eat" I added, "We should still get something in the cafeteria if we hurry."

He hesitated for a second, but when he noticed the look on my face I sent him, he agreed with my suggestion.

"Alright, not a bad idea" he agreed, "I´m starving right now."

He quickly got himself his freshly cleaned and dried school uniform and then left the dorm with me.

I waited until we were out of earshot and then immediately dived into it. I couldn´t pretend any longer.

"She knew everything" I began our conversation.

"Huh?" he asked, being a little confused at first.

"Haru knew everything."

"What do you mean everything?" he asked curiously, now slowing down a little.

"When we met in the gardening club the day after that party" I sighed, "She didn´t forget to lock the door, she was in the shed the whole time."

"What?!" he asked, completely stopping in his tracks now.

"Yup" I sighed, looking right at him, "She listened to every word."

"Wh…where do you know that from?"

"I…" I sighed, "I had seen her through the column just before we left."

"And you didn´t say anything?!" he asked in total disbelief.

"I…I…" I stuttered, "I didn´t know what to do…I was so confused!"

"Confused?" he asked, now calmer but still with that reproachful tone.

"I…Legoshi, look…" I began, struggling to find the right words, "There are more things I should have told you sooner…"

He just stared at me in a way that told me to better start talking already.

"…I didn´t go straight back to the dorm after we left the party" I told him low and carefully, "…she brought me to the gardening club and…and…"

"And?" he wanted to know, sounding really suspicious in the meanwhile.

"Shit, I really wasn´t bringing this across very well."

"…and…and then out of the blue she offered me to have sex with her if I wanted to…"

Now I could literally sense how the rage was boiling up inside of him. His whole body seemed to be tense right now.

"Shit, that's even worse!"

A slight panic rose inside me. I almost was too nervous to continue.

"…I didn´t do it! Don't worry, I didn´t do it! I would never do that to you!"

He relaxed a little right away now, luckily. I believed he knew I would never do that to him, and now that I said it myself it seemed like he believed me.
"…so you weren´t searching for me the next day when we met at the gardening club?" he asked.

"No…" I confessed, "…I wanted to talk to her again, originally. I…I was just too afraid to tell you that day…"

He nodded understandingly.

Now he seemed to understand a few other things as well.

"But I swear on my mum´s life, I didn´t do anything with her!"

He still nodded, now with an at least comforting little smirk, "I know you would never do that. I believe you."

"Thank you, Legoshi!"

We remained just standing there for a little while. It seemed like quite a few things made more sense to him all over sudden.

"…so that´s where she knew that from…" he said, "…she listened the whole time."

"Yeah…"

"…I already wondered who told her about that…turns out I told her that myself without even knowing it."

I nodded.

"Goddamn, Jack" he sighed, shaking his head a little, "I messed this up so badly."

"You were dealing with it surprisingly well in my opinion…"

"I just ignored it since I left the gardening club this afternoon" he sighed, "…I can´t just let that ruin everything else right now. I´m really focussed on my role in the drama-club right now you know. I think that´s a good distraction…"

"Just as I thought. He even says it himself. He´s just distracting himself."

"Distraction?" I chuckled, "The premiere is in less than a week from now!"

"I know…" he sighed.

This seemed to be working out surprisingly well for him for now.

"Are you nervous for that?" I wanted to know, "…the performance I mean."

"A little, yeah…"

"I think that´s a good thing. You know you´re going to give it your all when you´re nervous, trust me."

He nodded with a little smirk. But he still seemed more concerned about that other topic though.

"You think she´ll ever forgive me?" he asked lowly.

I really didn´t know a good answer to that question. It was not that easy to figure her out.

"I mean…she´s not that innocent herself" I reminded him, "I was not joking when I said she offered me to have sex with her. And that just over you kissing Juno on stage as part of your acting…"

"Yeah…" he sighed, "I guess you´re right…but maybe that was just a knee-jerk reaction…"

It really shocked me a little that he still had hopes this high for this relationship. I really struggled with this right now.

"Should I hide the truth from him and not lower his spirits even further? Or should I do which is probably the right thing and…"

"She offered it to me today again" I sighed, no considering it once again. Now he knew the truth.

It really was an uncomfortably long moment of silence after I said that.

"W-what?" he asked, sounding really defeated now, "Are you serious?"

That hit him just as hard as I expected it to. I felt so sorry for him right now. But what good was it to hide the truth.

"I didn´t want to do it today either" I cleared up right from the start, "…but she said it unmistakably. I think she´s quite serious about this…"

He just nodded a little.

"…I…I´m not entirely sure if she meant it as a reward because I kept my mouth shut for so long or because she just wants to punish you…or if she just likes me…but…"

"You want to go get something to eat?" he interrupted me lowly, but with the clear intention to end this topic in his tone, "…cafeteria is closing soon."

He looked me right in the eyes for a moment, then he went on his way slowly.

"…yeah" I said, nodding understandingly before following him, "You´re right... ...let´s go get something to eat."

Gonna get hairy soon...

Do you enjoy this journey so far? I certainly do. Hope you´re sticking around!

Have a good one, see you soon! ;)

~furr