My Brother's Best Friend
A story by Government Patsy
Chapter 3
Dana POV
It's been over a week since Mulder and I stopped talking. I've been angry with him, so angry. But I've missed him. Even though we didn't see each other daily, or even every week, there would always be a few snapchats or messages throughout the day. Our snapchat streak is dead now. I'm left with the memories of his kisses and touches. That one night I finally felt what I've dreamed about for so many years. I've kissed a few other guys before Mulder… but I've never felt the kind of desire that I feel for him with anyone else. It hurts that he doesn't want me. It hurts that he rejected me. And when the night of the prom arrives I've given up… I don't want to feel hurt anymore, I just want to forget about him… Tyler will be picking me up tonight. He's gone all out and rented a limo with a few of his friends from the football team. I don't know any of them or their dates. I hardly know Tyler. I was surprised when he asked me to prom because he's quite popular around school and I don't really mingle with the popular kids. But I have to admit that he's very handsome. He's not quite as tall as Mulder but he's got broader shoulders. He has dusty blonde hair and deep, brown eyes. He's going to play college football next year, apparently he's a real talent. He seems confident in himself but still quite a gentleman. I've decided that I'm gonna sleep with Tyler tonight if he wants to. I just want to forget about Mulder and I want to feel something other than just angry and sad.
I walk downstairs to get some lunch and see Bill open up the front door and walk in.
"Oh, hey, Danes!" he smiles at me as he discards his jacket.
"Hey, Bill," I give him a little smile back. "What are you doing here?"
"I haven't been home in ages so I just wanted to stop by on my way to the airport," he sighs as we walk into the lounge to find my parents and sister having some tea.
"Airport?" my mom overhears our conversation. "Where are you going, dear?"
"I have a business brunch in Reno tomorrow so I'm flying in tonight to be there on time - the company has set me up at a nice hotel and everything!" he says happily.
"You're so dedicated," my mom smiles greatly at him while my dad just nods in his own form of approval.
We talk back and forth for a little bit before I go into the kitchen to finally get some lunch.
"Hey, Dana?" Bill follows me there.
"Yeah?" I ask him as I open the fridge and dig out some leftovers from last night.
"Mulder's been really down lately," he starts off and I immediately look up at the use of his name - my stomach tightening in a knot.
"Oh?" I say trying to sound nonchalant.
"Yeah, I haven't been home much and I feel kind of bad about just leaving him like this… maybe you could stop by? I know you two get along well!"
"Well, I have prom tonight," I say, my heart beating away in my chest. "But maybe tomorrow…"
"Oh, right," he shakes his head. "I totally forgot! Hey, have fun tonight… not too much fun though!"
Suddenly he looks very much like our dad, his face stern and serious.
"Bill!" I roll my eyes at him.
"Hey, I mean it!" he chuckles and pulls me in for a hug. "You're my baby sister, you know that!"
"I know," I sigh and smile into his chest - I love my brother and how much he cares for me.
After Bill has left and after I've finished my late lunch, Melissa wants to start on getting me ready for prom. It seems a bit early to me, but I go shower and we start on my hair. Before I know it a few hours have passed and my hair, makeup and dress all looks amazing as I take in my reflection in the full-length mirror in my room.
"You're so pretty," Melissa sighs as she fixes a few stray strands of hair.
My dress almost reaches the floor, except for a slit going up to slightly above my knee. It's a beautiful rose color and it fits me like a glove. The top part, above my breasts and the long sleeves are made of lace whereas the rest of the dress is made from a softer material. On the back it goes quite far down, to the middle of my back, meaning I can't wear a bra in this dress. My hair is tied up in a loose french braid with some strands of curled hair hanging loose. My makeup is not too heavy but compliments the color of my dress.
"I love it, Melissa!" I say excitedly. "Thank you so much!"
"You're welcome, kiddo," she smiles down at me. "Why do you look so grown up all of a sudden?"
"Well, I'm 18, Melissa," I chuckle.
We hear a car pull up and not long after there's a knock on the door. I suddenly feel a bit queasy as I know Tyler is here. I hear the door downstairs being opened and Melissa goes down, telling me to wait a few minutes before I walk down the stairs.
I sigh and pack a few things in my black handbag. I've told my parents that I'm sleeping at Ellen's place after prom - I still might do that… I pack some yoga pants, a t-shirt and some clean underwear. I also throw my toothbrush in there and I'm just about to put my phone into the bag before going down to meet Tyler, when I notice a message on my screen. I unlock my phone and my breath catches in my throat. Mulder's messaged me. I shouldn't… but I open the message right away.
I hope your prom is everything that you want it to be. Have an amazing time, I bet you look so beautiful right now. I wish I could be there with you, I wish things were different. In spite of everything that's happened between us, I'm always here for you if you need me.
Why? Why is he doing this to me?
I angrily shove the phone into my handbag and take a deep breath before forcing a smile and walking down the stairs, while my mom takes pictures of me with tears in her eyes. Melissa, Charlie and my dad are all smiling at me and Tyler looks very pleased as well. After getting our picture taken, Tyler and I get into the limo and drive to our senior prom.
We all have some champagne in the limo and the other girls and guys are nice to me, even though we don't know each other. The drive there is very festive but I can't help but think about Mulder. What would it be like going to prom with him? No, I can't go there. I look up at Tyler next to me. He has his arm loosely around my waist. He really is quite attractive. I give him a shy smile and look away from him again.
"You look beautiful," he whispers in my ear.
"Thank you," I tell him as I try not to think about Mulder.
As we get to the dance, we get our picture taken and I meet up with Ellen and her date. Ellen looks amazing in her dark blue dress and after we've caught up with each other, Tyler asks me to dance. I actually have a lot of fun and Tyler is laughing away too as we dance and joke with each other.
Between dancing with Tyler and catching up with Ellen now and again, the dance is over before I know it and soon we're arriving at the after party. Tyler gets me a drink and we go out to a balcony lit up with what looks like Christmas lights. It's very romantic and a knot starts to form in my stomach.
"I've had fun tonight," Tyler smiles down at me as I take a sip of my drink.
"Me too," I say shyly after swallowing the cold and strong vodka cranberry juice that burns my throat slightly.
He takes the cup from my hand and places both his and my drink on the balcony's railing. He takes my hands in his and pulls me closer towards him. His eyes close and our lips meet. He tastes sweet from whatever drink he's having. I close my eyes and kiss him back and he pulls me even closer towards him with his hands on my lower back. His tongue graces my lip but I pull back and touch my lips with my hand in surprise.
He smiles sweetly at me and hands me back my drink before taking my other hand in his and leading me back inside.
Everything inside of me feels wrong. I feel guilty. This feels wrong. Why can't I stop thinking about Mulder?
"I'll just use the ladies room," I tell him as I let go of his hand.
"I'll be over there," he tells me and nods towards his friends.
"Okay," I force a smile and walk off.
But I don't go to the bathroom. I walk out the front door of the hotel and go straight towards one of the cabs parked out front. I give the driver Mulder's address and pay with the last cash in my handbag.
As the cab drives away, I look up to Mulder's apartment on the second floor of the building and see that the lights are on in what I know is the living room.
I walk up the stairs and approach his door. I check my phone and see that it's almost midnight. I knock on his door even though it's late. My heart stops beating in my chest as I wait for him to open the door. I can hear him in there, moving towards me.
"Dana!" he says in surprise as he opens the door, his eyes wide as he looks me up and down.
I walk inside and he closes the door after me, still looking at me as he does so, his eyes scanning every curve of my body. He's only wearing some grey joggers and a white t-shirt - he still looks amazing though… he always does.
"What are you doing here?" he asks me.
"What the hell do you think?" I sigh, crossing my arms over my chest since he keeps staring at my body.
"What do you mean?" his eyes finally meet mine and he at least has the courtesy to look slightly embarrassed.
"What was that message about, Mulder? You don't say a word to me all week and then you send that right before I go to my prom… why?" I demand to know.
"I meant every word of it," he says sincerely.
"I'm sure you did," I sigh. "But why did you send it? You knew I was going to prom with a date… and you made me think about you!"
"You thought about me?" he sounds hopeful. "Did you not have fun?"
"I actually did," I sigh. "Until my date kissed me."
I notice his jaw clenching and his fists closing as I say this - he's angry… not with me but with himself…
"Oh?" he says through clenched teeth.
"I had it all planned out," I say and turn around to walk aimlessly into the room. "I was gonna sleep with him and forget all about you… and then you get in my head like that… why can't you just leave me be if you don't want me?"
"Dana!" his hand on my arm, makes me turn around and he's frowning down at me, suddenly very close to me. "Why would you sleep with him? Do you love him?"
"Of course not," I roll my eyes at him. "I don't even know him that well, but he's a good guy… and he actually wanted me!"
"Your first time should be more special than that, Dana!" he seems very upset about this. "How could you almost do that?!"
"I was gonna do it with you but you didn't want to…" I say and feel myself grow red. "I always wanted it to be you…"
"Oh, Dana," he sighs and takes a deep breath. "There's nothing I want more… but it shouldn't be me…"
"I've wanted it to be you since I was 14, Mulder," I tell him honestly. "I've always wanted you… even more so since you moved back here. That's why you can't play with my emotions like that… you can't send me messages like that when I'm trying to move on. Don't lead me on!"
"I've tried so hard not to contact you… I've tried not to think about you… but I can't!" he walks even closer to me, his hand caressing my cheek lovingly.
I lean into his touch and close my eyes. When I open them up again he's moving closer to me, his eyes narrowing in on my lips before looking into my own eyes, searching them for answers to unspoken questions.
"You look so beautiful tonight," he says as his hands find mine.
"Thank you, Mulder," I say and feel all warm inside. "Are you gonna kiss me now?"
"I am," he leans closer to me, a smile tugging on the corner of his mouth.
We close our eyes in sync as our lips meet. My arms move around his neck on their own accord as he groans into my mouth and puts his arms around me, pulling me as close to him as possible. Our tongues quickly come into play as we kiss passionately.
"Don't turn me away again," I beg him as we part for air.
"Never again," he promises me seriously before our lips meet once more.
x
Mulder POV
I can't believe we're doing this. I can't believe she actually came over. My whole body is on fire as we tumble onto the couch. I end up on top of her, her dress pushed up to her hips, my body nestled between her legs. Her hands move up under my t-shirt as we make out and the way she touches me and moans underneath me makes me impossibly hard.
"Dana…" I sigh as I look down at her, resting my weight on my elbows.
"Yeah?" she asks coyly.
"I want to talk before we take this any further," I tell her sincerely.
"Talk?" she sighs and closes her eyes. "Mulder, I really don't want to talk…"
"Mmmh," I can't help but find her eagerness attractive as my hips thrust against her on their own accord.
I sit up on the couch and pull her into my lap. She immediately straddles me and puts her arms around my neck. My hands move onto her thighs and I can't help but bite my lip as I slide my hands up her thighs and grab a hold of her perfect ass.
"Mulder," she moans in a deep sigh. "Talk now if you must, please…"
"Yeah…" I've lost my focus completely and I pull her closer, my hands on her ass, as I thrust upwards.
"Oh, God!" she exclaims, leaning her head back, her nails digging into my shoulders.
"You're so perfect," I sigh in awe. "I want to make this perfect for you, Dana."
"It already is," she smiles at me, giving my nose a cute little kiss. "Don't worry about that."
"I just want to be sure that… that you're sure of this," I tell her sincerely as I squeeze her ass again.
"I promise you, I'm sure of this," she smiles down at me, raking her fingers through my hair, before planting a sweet kiss on my lips.
"Before we go any further…" I say, trying to concentrate on what I have to say - she's so distracting. "I need to go down to the cornershop… I don't have any condoms…"
"Oh!" she says in surprise. "Well… are you… clean? Do you know?"
"Well, yeah, I am," I tell her - I got a test done after Phoebe cheated on me in New York and I haven't been active since. Also, I've always worn a condom during sex.
"We should be okay then," she says, making my eyes widen in surprise. "I'm on birth control."
"You are?" I didn't expect that. "Why?"
"Mulder…" she rolls her eyes at me - she knows me too well, I swear I was never the jealous type before this woman entered my life. "My doctor suggested it about a year ago because I got really bad cramps… okay?"
"Okay, sorry," I say sincerely. "I've never done it without a condom before…"
"Never?" she smiles happily - and I nod as I nuzzle her neck. "I guess it's a first for you too in a way then."
"In more ways than one, I've never been someone's first either," I tell her. "Is it wrong that it makes me proud to be your first?"
"I think it's cute," she chuckles. "Can we go to your bedroom now?"
I snuggle into her neck and sigh deeply. She's so fucking hot. Everything she says and does makes me want her even more.
"Let me go up first and clean up a little bit," I say as we get onto our feet again.
"Mmmh, okay," she says as she struggles to keep her eyes from the bulge in my grey joggers.
"Just give me five minutes," I say and pull her in for a last kiss before I walk up to my bedroom.
I take in the state of my bedroom and I'm really happy I changed the sheets earlier today - I got some all black sheets and duvet covers and it looks really nice on the tall, dark grey continental bed. I pick up the stray clothes around the room and put them in my hamper. Then I rummage through my chest of drawers and find some candles that I put on the nightstands and on my dresser and desk. When we first moved here we had problems with power cuts and we bought a ton of candles for when it happened - luckily I still have loads.
Dana walks into the room as I light the last few candles. I walk over to her and turn off the light in the room, leaving it bathing in the candlelight. She looks very pleased with my effort.
I pull my t-shirt over my head and throw it down behind me as I walk up to her. Her hands immediately go to my stomach and chest and so does her eyes. I wouldn't say I'm overly muscly but I do work out and go running quite regularly and it definitely shows.
"Can I see you?" I ask her shyly, suddenly my heart is pounding faster in my chest.
She looks up at me and gives me a shy little smile before taking a step back. She picks up the dress from the bottom and pulls it slowly over her head before dropping it to the floor. She stands before me in only her white lace panties. Her waist is quite small but she has some curves as well - her breasts look like a perfect handful, her nipples poking out at me as they were through her dress as well. She looks a little shy but I think it's evident to her how much I appreciate what I'm looking at.
"You're beautiful," I say hoarsely as I step into her personal space and pick her up, my hands cupping her ass as I walk us to the bed, where I gently lower her down.
I quickly discard my socks and joggers - my whole body feels way too warm. I join her on the bed and settle in between her legs as I interlace my hands with hers and pin her arms down above her head. I lower my mouth to her neck as I thrust slightly against her. She's soaking through her panties and my boxers, she's so warm. She begins to moan as I continue to kiss her neck and the sounds turn me on so much.
I groan against her skin as I move my mouth down to her breast, taking her nipple into my mouth and teasing it with my tongue.
"Ohhh, fuck!" she moans, her hips moving against me, her hands struggling to break free from my grasp on her.
I continue to tease her nipple before moving to her other breast, all while she moans and thrusts against me. My cock is throbbing in my boxers. I was gonna take my time with her. Go down on her and make her come over and over until finally entering her… but I don't know if I can wait that long, my whole body is screaming for me to be inside of her.
"Mulder, please," she moans. "I can't take it anymore… I need you now…"
I groan loudly against her and stumble out of bed to rid myself of my boxers. I grab a hold of her panties and pull them off of her - I quickly join her on the bed again, resuming the position we were just in but this time leaning on my elbows as I look down at her. I caress her cheek and give her a smile. She smiles back up at me, her hands caressing my back lovingly.
"Do you want it like this?" I ask her, giving her gentle kisses. "Me on top?"
"Mmmh, yeah," she moans into my mouth.
I kiss her more passionately and we begin moving against each other. She seems so eager and so turned on and it makes my heart swell along with my already hard cock.
I move my hand down to my erection and align myself with her. I guide my tip to her entrance and upon the contact she gasps at the feeling.
"Okay?" I look up at her and look for her confirmation.
"Mmmh," she moans. "Just be careful."
I nod and give her a gentle kiss as I slowly push inside of her. She's so tight but wet for me. I groan loudly even though I've only entered her with the tip of my cock. I look at her and see her biting her lip, trying to adjust to the new sensation. I pull back out slowly before pushing just the tip into her again. She pulls her legs up even further as I continue to very gently ease myself in and out of her. I have to restrain myself so much but I'm very aware that this has to feel nice for Dana and she's still adjusting.
Slowly I push a little more of my cock into her and every time I do it she gasps slightly. I can already feel sweat dripping down my back and my forehead as well.
"Muuuuldeeeer," she suddenly moans, her nails digging into my shoulder and back. "Faster…"
She doesn't have to tell me twice, so I pick up my pace a little bit and her moans become constant. My own hard breaths and sounds mix with hers and it's the most beautiful mix of sounds I've ever heard. She's finally adjusted somewhat to me and I can clearly tell that she's enjoying herself.
I move my mouth down to hers and give her a passionate kiss as I finally push all the way inside of her. I groan into her mouth as I do so - it feels beyond amazing. She moans into our kiss as well before biting down on my lower lip in surprise at the new feeling of me hitting home.
I slowly pick up my pace again as we continue to kiss for a little while.
"You feel amazing," I tell her as I pull out of our kiss while moving in and out of her - I sound slightly out of breath as I tell her this.
"God, you feel good," she moans. "Faster, Mulder!"
I groan as I pick up my pace again and her head tilts back in pleasure. I can tell that I'm hitting just the right spot now and I continue to move faster and faster, moving more surely and steady now as she's really enjoying it. I can feel my climax build but I want to make her come so badly. I close my eyes and lean my head back as I continue my pace of gentle but fast lovemaking. She's breathing and moaning more and more and I think she's close. I try so hard to hold back, I really want to make her come. She's so fucking tight, I've never felt anything like it. I've never felt this close to someone during sex before. It's a complete sensory overload.
"Mmmmmmh, God, Mulder!" she exclaims and I open my eyes as I continue to move inside of her. "Oh, God, yes!"
Her head tilts back as she moans continuously and I feel her inner muscles clamp around me. She's so fucking beautiful and she feels amazing. I can't hold back any longer. I groan as I thrust a few last times erratically, before emptying myself inside of her.
I throw myself down next to her on the bed after we've both climaxed. Our legs are slightly entangled and we're both breathing heavily, our bodies sweaty from our tryst.
"Fuck me!" I exclaim as I regain my breath.
"I think I just did…" she chuckles and I can't help but join her laugh.
"Come here," I say and pull her into my side - she goes willingly and cuddles up to me.
We share a few gentle kisses before she moves away from me.
"Hey!" I say in protest, trying to hold onto her so she doesn't move.
"I need to pee, Mulder!" she chuckles at my actions. "And I want to clean up a little bit… you've made me all… sticky!"
"Oh, I bet I have," I say confidently as I let her go.
"Oh, shut up," she rolls her eyes at me as she stumbles out of bed, I do notice her cute, little smile though.
I feel amazing. I don't think I've felt so happy before. I feel completely satisfied.
"Do you mind if I use the shower?" Dana calls from the bathroom and through the open bedroom door.
"Not at all," I yell back. "You can use my towel - it's the dark blue one on the rack!"
"Okay, thank you!"
I take a deep breath as I hear the shower turn on as she washes herself off for a few minutes. I'm so spent but I can see where Dana's coming from… I actually do feel a little sticky as well. As she walks back into the bedroom I can tell she's just washed off her body since her hair is still dry. She's completely naked but she looks slightly uncomfortable.
"Everything okay?" I ask her carefully as I sit up in bed.
"Yeah," she chuckles awkwardly. "I just feel very naked suddenly."
"Well," I smirk at her as I walk towards her. "You look amazing naked!"
"Mmmh, so do you," she says shyly but smiling as she pushes me away when I try to pull her into my arms. "Mulder, I just cleaned up!"
"Fair," I chuckle. "I'll have a quick wash too but I expect you to still be naked when I come back!"
"Alright," she chuckles, rolling her eyes at me.
I quickly wash up before rejoining Dana in the bedroom. I pick up her things downstairs and bring them up to the bedroom as I turn off the lights downstairs. She's climbed under the covers but I can tell that she's still naked. I put her handbag and shoes down by the armchair in the corner of my room before blowing out all the candles and joining her in bed. I spoon right up to her and sigh happily as we're entangled once again.
"Thank you for letting me be your first," I say and kiss her shoulder.
"Mmmh, thank you for making my first time perfect," she sighs content as she strokes my arm soothingly.
"I'm so happy I could make you come," I say proudly.
"Me too," she chuckles. "It was good for you too?"
I can't help but laugh. It seems unreal that she doesn't already know the answer to her question.
"Obviously!" I chuckle.
"Good," she joins my laugh.
It feels beyond amazing to be cuddled up to her in the dark bedroom under the soft covers. I love feeling her body against mine. I love touching her and breathing in her scent.
"Where do we go from here?" she wonders out loud.
"Let's just enjoy the moment and worry about it tomorrow," I sigh, not wanting to deal with the consequences of our actions just yet.
"I like that," she agrees.
"I like you," I tell her and nuzzle her neck.
"I noticed," she sighs and puts her arms over my arms that are enveloping her from behind.
"Goodnight, Dana," I say and give her neck one last kiss.
"Goodnight, Mulder," she says back sleepily.
Usually I have trouble going to sleep but tonight I simply close my eyes and breathe in Dana's scent. I sleep better than I have since I was kid. I feel incredibly lucky, happy, satisfied and sated.
x
Dana POV
My body feels used and spent in the best way possible as I wake up to Mulder placing kisses on my shoulder and neck, his hand moving up to cup my breast.
"Mmmh," I moan in pleasure - he feels way too good.
Last night had been so amazing. It had hurt a little bit at first and it took a little time to adjust to the new sensation. But it felt so good the whole way through, especially as I got more use to it. He'd been so sweet and gentle as well even though I could tell it was hard for him to keep the slow pace going. He'd looked so sexy, bathed in candlelight and moving on top of me, sweat soaking strands of his hair, falling onto his forehead. I hadn't expected to have an orgasm during my first time but of course Mulder had succeeded in getting me off, he'd been so proud of himself for that as well, so cute.
I turn around in his arms so I'm on my back and we share a smile and then a long and sensuous kiss. He moves his kisses down my body and I whimper in pleasure as he teases my nipples with his tongue and fingers. He surprises me by moving further down, placing kisses down my taut stomach and further down still. My heart beats fast in my chest, this is another first for me. It feels so intimate to look down and see his face between my thighs. He lowers his mouth down to my thigh and kisses me sloppily while his fingers begin to rub against my labia. I can't help a strangled moan from escaping me as I look down at him.
He moves his mouth from my thigh and presses his hands down on my thighs to open me up to him more. His mouth quickly finds my clit and I can't help but buck my hips upwards as I exclaim his name in a moan.
I can feel two of his fingers stimulating my entrance as he keeps tonguing my clit. His other hand is on my stomach, holding me down as I keep bucking into his face involuntarily. My right hand tangles into his hair while my left hand is grabbing onto the sheet. I can clearly feel my climax build. I'm aware that I'm moaning quite loudly but I can't stop myself, this feels too good.
It passes over me like a wave. I exclaim Mulder's name quite loudly as it overtakes me. I feel it in my whole body. He keeps stimulating me with his tongue, prolonging my climax. At last I ride off the wave and Mulder moves back up my body. I put my arms around his neck and give him a kiss but I instantly pull back when he tastes very differently… he tastes of me, I realise. He smirks down at me and kisses me again and I have to admit that it's pretty hot that my taste is on his lips…
He moves off of me and lies down next to me and I look at him confused… I thought we were going to have sex again…
"Move on top of me?" he asks me with a smile and I feel excitement bubble away in my stomach.
"Okay," I say as I move over him.
I sit on his thighs and look down at him. He's so handsome and sexy. His penis is already hard and I move my hand down to touch it. He sucks in a breath of air and moves his hands to the pillow under his head, fisting the material in his hands. I continue to give him a few gentle strokes, enjoying how he feels. I don't have anything to compare it to obviously - but he feels quite big. It took a good while getting used to his size last night. He feels so hard in my hand and he grows even harder. I move my hand down over his head and all the way down to his root before going back up again. I notice he's way more sensitive around the head of his penis so I stroke just his head now.
"Fuck, Dana!" he exclaims. "You have to stop!"
"Mmmh," I moan and move further up until I'm hovering above his erection.
He helps me guide him inside of me and I slowly sink down on him as much as I can. I move slowly up and down, getting used to this feeling and his size once more. He's biting his lower lip as his hands take a hold of my hips, his eyes following my breasts as they move when I ride him. Slowly I can pick up my pace slightly and take in more and more of his size. I feel Mulder begin to meet my thrusts as well and it feels amazing - I keep still and let him move beneath me. My hands are on his chest and I'm continuously moaning his name as he's thrusting into me.
"You're so sexy," he groans as he's still watching me and my body on top of him.
"Mmmmh," I moan as I can feel another climax build, he's hitting the exact right spot inside of me over and over again.
"You're gonna come for me, Dana?" he breathes out, fucking me a little bit harder and faster now.
"God, yes, Mulder!" I exclaim in ecstasy as I come for him once more.
His hands clasp my thigh and breast as he too comes along with me. I love that we come together again. We both breathe hard as we come down from our high. I run a hand through his hair and he moves both his hands to my breasts, cupping them, before tracing his fingers down my sides and back to my thighs which he gives a squeeze.
"Do you even know how hot you are?" he asks me.
I just chuckle at him and bend down to give him a few kisses before I get out of bed.
"Do you mind if I have a proper shower before I go home?" I ask him, picking up my things from around his room.
"Can I join you?" he asks with a big grin on his face.
I pick up my clean underwear from my handbag and move to the door before looking back at him over my shoulder. I give him a little smile and he immediately jumps out of bed to join me in the shower.
We wash each other's hair to begin with. It feels so intimate. I begin rubbing some soap into his skin but his hands keep distracting me. We end up having sex again, with him lifting me up and fucking me against the wall in the shower. For a third time we come together. After we properly clean our bodies we get out of the shower. He just dries his hair in the towel and very quickly runs it over his body. There's still droplets of water on his shoulders and chest but he doesn't seem to mind. He gives me a little kiss before going back to his bedroom. I dry off completely and dry my hair as much I can in the towel. I put on the white cotton underwear that I packed. I really wish I'd packed something nicer right now, but oh well. I go back to the bedroom but Mulder isn't there. I put on the yoga pants and white t-shirt from my bag and then I look at my phone. Oh fuck, it's already noon!
I have several messages from Ellen who I quickly reply to let her know that I'm okay.
There's a few messages from Tyler as well. Oh God, I just totally ditched him last night. It feels like a lifetime ago now.
Hey, I'm sorry if I pushed my luck. I hope you got home safely.
He sent me that message last night. I feel bad for treating him like I have… I should have told him that I was leaving.
Good morning, Dana. I hope you're feeling okay today - feel free to message me whenever you want, I'd like a second chance to take you out!
He messaged me that at 9 o'clock this morning. This would be easier if he wasn't so damn sweet… it sucks that I have to let him down!
I walk over to Mulder's dresser and pick out a pair of his socks. They're way too big for me but I'm so cold right now. I rub my arms, still feeling cold with the socks on. I pick out a dark blue hoodie that says Columbia on it, from his old uni. I put it on and instantly feel more at ease. I put my phone in the front pocket of the hoodie and walk down the stairs to find him in the kitchen in just his grey joggers, cooking something.
"Did you steal that?" he comments as he takes in my appearance, wearing his hoodie.
I do notice that he doesn't seem to mind though, a crooked smile on his lips.
"I was just really cold," I say shyly as I sit down on a stool by the kitchen island. "Do you mind?"
"Not one bit," he smirks at me. "You look great in my clothes."
"Thanks," I chuckle and feel all warm inside. "What are you making?"
"Just some eggs and toast," he shrugs as he stirs the eggs and milk together in a bowl. "I didn't have that much in the fridge."
"I'm so hungry, eggs and toast sounds nice," I tell him.
"Did you work up an appetite?" he smirks at me, his eyes glinting with mischief.
"Shut up," I roll my eyes at him but I feel my cheeks grow red.
As we continue to banter while he fries up the eggs, there's suddenly a sound by the front door. Mulder and I share a look that says: "Oh shit!" as we hear a key turn in the door.
"Hello!" my older brother Bill yells into the house.
I look over my shoulder to see him hang up his jacket by the entrance and step out of his shoes. As he looks up and sees me there he freezes in his steps but then he just breaks into a smile and walks over to us.
"Dana," he says and gives me a squeeze. "You came over!"
"Oh, yeah," I remember our conversation from yesterday and thank the heavens. "I just came here from Ellen's."
"How was prom?" Bill asks as he sits down next to me by the island.
"Yeah, it was fine," I shrug. "How was your business thing?"
"Well, I closed the deal," he says proudly before looking over to Mulder. "Dude, where's your clothes?"
"Oh," Mulder looks down to his bare chest. "I was just cooking when Dana came over… I didn't even realize…"
"Man," Bill shakes his head at him. "Not in front of my little sister…"
"Oh, calm down," Mulder rolls his eyes at him. "I don't think Dana cares."
"No, it's fine," I say, I don't want them to fight over this.
"I can watch the eggs for a bit, just go put a shirt on, man!" Bill begs him.
"Fine," Mulder sighs and moves to the stairs.
I notice scratch marks on Mulder's upper back and shoulders as he walks off and I quickly engage Bill in conversation about his business brunch as I resume Mulder's spot by the stove. We talk for a little bit before Bill notices the writing on the hoodie I'm wearing.
"Isn't that Mulder's?" he wonders.
"Yeah, I only brought a t-shrit to change into," I explain. "So Mulder gave me this."
"You must have been freezing coming over here!" he chuckles.
"Yeah, I didn't even bring a jacket," I tell him.
I see Mulder come down the stairs carrying my dress, heels and handbag - oh fuck, I left that in his room. I continue to hold Bill's attention as Mulder tiptoes over to the couch to put it down there before rejoining us in the kitchen.
Mulder and I have some very late breakfast while the three of us catch up. It's slightly awkward as Mulder and I pretty much avoid looking at each other.
"Well, I'm completely knackered, I didn't get much sleep last night at all," Bill sighs heavily. "Mulder, would you drive Dana home?"
"Oh," Mulder looks up from the dishwasher, where he's just put our dirty plates. "I'd love to but your dad doesn't really like it when I do that…"
"Oh, I remember," Bill chuckles. "I'll give them a call, it'll be fine, I'm sure."
"Yeah, okay," Mulder forces a smile and I feel a knot form in my stomach.
As much as I would love to spend a little alone time with Mulder, I really don't want to deal with my dad… he still hates Mulder with a passion.
Bill makes his phone call as I help Mulder clean up the kitchen.
"Alright, dad was… okay with it," Bill says, sounding a bit unsure of himself - oh God, I already dread meeting my dad at home.
"I don't even have any shoes," I sigh exhaustedly. "Just my heels from last night."
"You can borrow some slides from me," Bill offers and I accept his offer.
I pack up my things and say goodbye to Bill before following Mulder into his car. He still drives his light blue BMW and getting into it brings back memories.
"It's been a while," he chuckles as he pulls into the road.
"I can't believe you still drive this," I say and smile at him.
"Of course," he smiles back. "I love this car - I got it brand new when we moved here. I missed it a lot when I went to Columbia."
"I kinda missed it too," I let him know. "I've thought a lot about the moments I spend in this car the last few years."
"We had some good talks in here," he acknowledges. "I guess we're about to have another one."
"We never did have that talk about where we go from here," I sigh. "I wish we had a bit more than fifteen minutes though…"
"Yeah, me too," he exhales. "I obviously want to keep seeing you, Dana… but…"
"But?" I instantly feel my mood worsen. "Mulder, you promised me you wouldn't push me away again!"
"And I'm not," he quickly defends himself. "But you're going to move across the country in a few months… and you'll be gone for at least four years!"
"So you're asking me to choose between being with you or going to Harvard?" I ask - I worked so hard to get accepted into Harvard and my parents and everybody I know are so proud that I've actually managed.
"Obviously not!" he exclaims. "My point was just that… maybe we should take it easy… I don't want to tie you down or ruin your relationship to your family over me! I just don't want to complicate your life…"
"It would definitely be easier if we didn't do this," I sigh deeply and see the hurt expression on his face even though he's just said something quite similar. "But I don't want to stop seeing you, Mulder!"
"Yeah?" he asks hopefully.
"Of course," I reach over and give his thigh a squeeze. "But I'm not ready to tell anyone about this… if we tell people it just changes so much because of our history… with Bill, my dad… you know, all of that."
"Yeah, I feel the same," he agrees. "I wish I could just take you out and meet your family and all of that without all the history… but we can't really change that… maybe I'm not the right guy for you, Dana, honestly…"
"Let me choose who's right and wrong for me, Mulder," I smile at him. "I want to spend more time with you!"
"And when you move to Massachusetts?" he wonders.
"Honestly," I sigh. "I don't want a long distance relationship… you'll be free to do whatever you want when I move… I just want to spend as much time with you as I can before I leave."
"I would wait for you, Dana, you know that?" he asks seriously.
"I don't know," I look out the window - I don't feel like it's fair to ask that of him as much as every bone in my body wants to immediately say yes - my heart is begging me to say yes, but my brain is protesting. "I don't think I could ask that of you, Mulder."
"But you do want to keep seeing me?" he asks me, pulling up on a curb.
"This isn't my house, Mulder," I chuckle.
"I know," he smiles back at me. "I don't think your dad would like what I'm about to do though."
"Oh?" I smile coyly up at him as his face closes in on mine.
His hand cups my cheek as our lips meet. I love his lips and I love the way that he kisses me. He's always so passionate, as if he needs to kiss me as much as he needs his next breath.
"So?" he asks me as he pulls away from me, giving my hand a few kisses.
"Yeah?" I've completely forgotten what we were talking about.
"You want to keep seeing each other?" he chuckles at me, smirking slightly at the reaction I have to his kiss.
"Definitely," I tell him.
We share a few more kisses before he drives the last distance to my house and drops me off. I get all of my things from the backseat and head into the house.
So much has happened since I left this house. It somehow feels different coming home now.