A/N: Ok guys I've been gone for a while. The reason for that is I write what I want when I want because let's be honest no I don't, my life doesn't let me do that. So, the real reasons are listed below if you take interest:

Short version: I have two weird as hell mental conditions that drive me insane, and a bunch of people died. I'll probably be gone for a while again after this post

Long version: I have two conditions: fantasy prone personality which just means I have an abnormally hard time separating fantasy from reality (pausing moment where I question my decision to spend time on a platform that literally runs on fiction) the other is called Synesthesia which just means I can blend all my five senses together e.g. I can hear colors and see sounds, taste words, letters and numbers have colors, people have colors, personalities have color, days of the week and months have color, and inanimate objects have gender. I can also feel other people's glasses on my nose but whatever. The scariest thing goes back to people. I can see sickness in colors. So if it's something advanced and dangerous like cancer and you don't know about it but I know (because I see it), well you're screwed. Because telling you would be of no use. You wouldn't believe me and that's weird anyway. You don't just walk up to someone and go "hey you have cancer". Plus if it's that advanced you can't fix anything anyway. So I've been seeing people die that I knew were going to die soon anyway. (it's actually way more complex this is a very very very simplified explanation which says a lot considering how long this is) That's hard because of guilt and all. So I just wrote when one of my three stages of grief wasn't bothering me (Yes I have three: sadness, anger and drinking) and when I wasn't hallucinating. Soooooo yeah I might be gone after this for another couple months depending on when the next person dies. As to why I'm pouring a very microscopic piece of my heart out to probably the wackiest part of the internet I don't know I'm just insane. Just enjoy the next chapter.

Chapter 11

"Seth," she whispered.

"Yes Jessica."

She hesitated for a moment.

"Kiss me."

Seth closed the short distance between them and kissed her lips.

They both slightly shuddered. Their hearts were beating faster than they understood could be possible. It wasn't necessarily a long kiss but it made them build with emotions boiling to the forefront of their minds. It had been a while since they had each kissed someone. The soft taste of her lips only left him yearning for more.

After their eyes were far enough apart to look at each other again they gazed, dragging the other in with their eyes.

He pulled her back to him slowly to kiss her again. Her hand moved to his neck. The very touch of her hand had the ability to make him shiver in delight. He gently ran his fingertips over her shoulder and up to her jaw line where they just reached her curls.

His lips welcomed hers as they limited the space between them. Their minds were a multitude of intense emotions as they sat there. Jessica's lips gave him space and Seth hesitantly and softly moved his tongue and traced her mouth. She responded to this action by moving her tongue to taste his. This made him almost stop out of shock. He pulled his tongue back a little bit however upon understanding that she was alright with it he allowed himself to place it back with hers. They broke for a second to breathe, their foreheads almost touching as they took in air for a few seconds and joined their lips once again. The passion built within them but it was still slow and gentle. It was romantic. Seth supported her back with his strong hand. He leaned himself forward and slowly leaned her back against his couch. His hands traced all of her curves as his lips moved to her neck. She was breathing heavily and looking up at the ceiling, her eyes wide with surprise. Seth was her best friend, however, she got the feeling that he was about to become much more than that to her. He broke his lips from her neck and moved over her to look at her.

"Jessica?" He softly asked her. The way his tender voice reached her ears just right she closed her eyes momentarily just to hear it in her mind. With anyone else he was brash and sarcastic, but the way he said her name to her always made her melt inside.

"Yes?" She quietly responded. He was very hesitant about his question towards her. He locked his hazel eyes with her blue eyes and asked her with all the respect, admiration, and love he felt for her,

"Would you like to go upstairs?"

The question made her heart skip a beat. She smiled slightly and nodded towards him. He carefully arose from her and once on his feet he reached his hand out for her to take. Any other time they had held hands before this was when they went dancing together or they needed comforting. This time however was different. It required from Jessica a great deal of strength to reach up and place her hand in his due to her nervousness. She stood up facing him and Seth clasped her hands between his. One step at a time they slowly made it up the stairs. Seth turned to her at the beginning of the hallway. Under the gleam of the moonlight, her eyes looked as though glass that was so delicate to be shattered at any moment. Everything about her was delicate and beautiful to him and so incredibly strong, withstanding everything thrown at her. When he kissed her lips she felt him start to shiver. She felt her own quivering heart preparing herself. She felt his tongue softly tasting her own. Seth started to very slowly walk backwards with her pressed close to him towards the bedroom. As though dancing a slow dance, their swaying walk got them into the threshold of the room. They broke the kiss and gazed into each other's eyes. "The eyes are the windows to the soul" was a cliché because it was true. You can understand so much about a person and how they think just by looking into their eyes. Seth's hazelnut colored eyes drew in Jessica's sapphire eyes. Seth hesitantly but smoothly reached for her blouse. Jessica just gazed into his eyes as he did so. He slid the blouse over her head and dropped it on the chair behind him. Seth's jacket came off and his shirt was unbuttoned all the way as Jessica's trousers fell at her feet. She reached at Seth's shirt and slid it off his arms. He unbuckled his belt and he tossed it over by the door where it landed on top of both pairs of their socks and shoes. Stepping out of his pants, he put his arms around Jessica and his hands found the clasp of her bra and undid it with ease. Jessica took a deep breath as she took it off and let it fall.

Seth wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her with a vigorous passion. He brought her back to him and she was fully willing to kiss him back. He backed her up against the wall suddenly. One of his hands pressed into the wall next to her head for balance as he found himself tasting her at a pace he couldn't control. He only wanted to go deeper every time he heard a soft moan or gasp from her as they kissed.

Hands pressed against each other into the mattress. Every kiss they shared pulled them closer to each other. Jessica felt a slight tug at her lips as Seth moved his lips across her face and down to her neck. She had both hands grasping onto his back. They both thought to themselves how exhilarating it was to be doing this again and how many years it had been. His lips gently kissed her clavicle.

"Jess, you are such a beautiful woman."

She smiled up at him and pulled his face back to hers. Seth ran his hand down her bare side and pulled her thigh up to his hip. He slowly kissed and lightly dragged his tongue as he did so down her chest and her lower stomach. He looked up at her for a moment. Her eyes met his when he stopped. She nodded at him

I never thought Seth would be the type of man to do this. He dragged my panties down my legs agonizingly slowly with his teeth. I've never seen him like this before. He tossed them on the floor with his hands. I slowly reached my hands towards him and he made his way back up my body with my hands resting on his face. He looked up at me. His eyes were dark and he closed them in bliss for a few seconds. I leaned forward and kissed him again. He responded by bringing his hand up to my face. I shivered at the touch.

"Are you cold?" He asked.

"Slightly." I answered. We pulled the comforters over us. He was still on all fours hovering over me kissing me with passion and love that I could feel. In a split second he slowed the kiss and stopped with his forehead resting on mine. He gave me one more small kiss before telling me.

"Jessica….I want to know what you feel like. I want to love you. Only if you'll let me but-"

I kissed him again. I had to. Pulling back I nodded.

"Please Seth." He smiled at me. I let his face go as he traveled down my body again. It had been years. He was so gentlemanly as he asked me for approval one more time. I couldn't help but smile as I nodded.

From the moment I felt it my brain was light. His motions made me feel like I was on cloud nine. He took my hand in his. It was all too much. I tossed my head back on the pillows, almost gasping for air. He pulled my leg back up to his side as he moved. The moonlight flowed through the window, filling the room. I couldn't help but arch my back. Small moans escaped my mouth as I tried to get control of my body. However hearing Seth grunt only sent me more towards the edge. Although we were taking it slow, the passion was strong. We were almost there. I couldn't help but cry out his name.

I felt like I was falling. Hot air spread through my face. It shook through my body and my heart beat faster than I thought was possible. The pressure released itself and it all plunged over the brink.

"Jessica!" I heard him call as I could feel that he too had fallen.

I wasn't expecting this to say the least. After I tossed her undergarments on the floor she touched her hands to my face and guided me back up her body. She was beautiful and downright sexy. Even before all this. I'd thought of her this way. She's classy. The true kind of sexy. Not trashy like most. My tongue touched hers again. I yearned for her. I had to close my eyes and gain control of myself right then and there. I felt her kiss me again. I brought my hand up to hold her head.

I felt her shiver and remembered we were on top of the covers.

"Are you cold?" I asked. After her reply of

"Slightly," I pulled the comforter over us. She was lying underneath me with her arms wrapped on my neck as we kissed. At that very moment I felt the overwhelming urge of needing her. Our kiss broke and her forehead was against mine. Her hands carressed my arms. I was always taught to be a gentleman and especially in this case you always double and even triple check. I've learned that women are very emotional and change their minds randomly just because they can.

"Jessica….I want to know what you feel like. I want to love you. Only if you'll let me but-"

She cut me off. Before I new it I found myself deepening another passionate kiss. She pulled back and nodded.

I smiled at her and felt my heart rate increase. I slowly traveled back down her body. I looked up at her one last time and she nodded at me.

"Just tell me if you want me to stop."

I drew in a deep breath and made the motion. She let a small gasp escape her mouth. A kind I'd never heard before from her. I took her hand in mine as she gripped the sheets with the other. I slightly quickened the motions almost unknowingly as I heard her moaning the way she was. Her head thrashed against the pillows. I felt almost undone in a way. She arched her back in the night as I pulled her leg back up to my hip. I couldn't concentrate because of how addictively lightheaded I felt.

"Seth!" I heard her say. It almost sounded faded. I was over the edge and I knew she was too. I didn't know how much I was gasping or moaning. I didn't care. I managed to call out her name before losing all control of my body.

Seth collapsed on top of her with his head in the pillows next to hers and his elbows pressing the mattress to be sure not to land directly on top of her. Their breathing was ragged and heavy. Seth lifted his head up and kissed her lips slowly. He rolled off of her and Jessica rested her head on his shoulder and her hand lazily placed on his chest. Tired and staring at the ceiling, Seth closed his eyes for a moment.

"Jessica." He started

"Yes?"

"This isn't one of those regular everyday-don't-really-mean-it-things that I'm about to say. This is true. Jessica I love you."

"I love you so much Seth."

A comfortable silence reigned for a few seconds before Seth continued,

"Gosh. You got a great body."

"Thanks," Jessica chuckled. "You too. You are a great lover."

"Well thank you." Seth said jokingly as if he received that compliment often which warranted a few laughs from the couple.

They both closed their eyes for a few seconds, falling asleep in the process. Quiet reigned throughout the room with only a cricket outside.