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I sat on his bed looking at him. So much was going through my mind and I was slightly scared to hear about his past. I didn't know what was coming and I did not know what to expect. My palms were sweating and my heart hammered against my chest. And then he began.

I heard him sigh and his voice went shaky "it all began freshman year. I met Nicki after I had joined the basketball team. She was the little sister of my cousin's girlfriend and has just become a bear cub for the cheerleaders. We met, we chilled and became really good friends, well close friends and then spent the whole of freshman year basically always together and then the beginning of sophomore year we started dating and then things started to change"

"Change? Change how?"

"Well at first everything was going good and we spent all our time together and then Nicki started to drift from me. She would cancel plans and start mixing with people we would never have done before. She started mixing with drugs and drinking a lot more at parties and she would call me boring when I tried to stop her, but I was so in love with her. She became my whole world and I didn't want to lose her so..."

I could see it was getting hard for him to say. I slowly climb off the bed and bend down in front of him and take his hands in mine "Lucas you can stop if you want too... I didn't realise it was this painful to talk about. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have pushed you"

He slowly shook his head and stroked the side of my face sending a shiver down my spine.

"I didn't want to lose her so one Friday night at this party she dragged me too after I finally gave in we were drinking quite heavy and this one guy came over and handed her this little baggie of white powder and at first I wasn't sure if I was seeing things because I was hammered out of my head or if she was really going to do that. So she pulled me to the side and took a book from a shelve or something and literally right there in front of me she took cocaine. She literally sniffed it right up and then asked me if I would join her on the high" he stopped and looked to the ground "at first I said no and she shrugged walking away and went over to that guy and sat on his lap looking at me the whole time like she was testing me or something" he ran a hand through his hair "but I still didn't want to lose her. I loved her so much so I went over dragged her away and took the line she set out for me and that was the start of my downward spiral"

He put his head down in his lap and I felt so bad making him tell me this. I shouldn't have let Julian get to me. God damn it. I'm an asshole. A complete asshole.

"Okay Luke you really don't have to say anymore"

"No Brooke I want to tell you everything. I realise that I should have already. Please just let me tell you everything"

"Okay okay sure. I'll continue to listen" I stood to my feet and sat back on the bed with my legs crossed.

"So three months had passed and Nicki and I were hooked on the drinking and drugs. We were out every weekend Friday to Monday. We would skip school and I would lie to my mum and to Lily and both Nicki and I would spend so much money. The summer before senior year and at this point we had been together two years and Nicki persuaded me to go with her and her crooked friends to Europe and we would party and do so many different drugs and one night we were in London and we were partying and that dude I can't remember his name, he had brought us this drug and I had a really bad reaction to it and I ended up having a seizure in the street out side one of the clubs and I ended up being taken to hospital and my mum was called and she had no idea what I had been doing until that night when the doctor told her that her sixteen year old son had so many different drugs and alcohol in his system which is why the drug had that affect on me" I watched as a single tear slowly fell down his cheek.

"I finally woke up after three days of being in some sort of a coma and my mom and Lily were both sat beside my bed and that's when I realised I fucked up pretty bad so I told Mom everything. I was sixteen and I broke at that moment. Nicki was nowhere to be seen. The nurse told me that she left as soon as I was put on the stretcher and that broke me so bad. I thought she and I were a ride together die together type of thing. She was my best friend, my girlfriend and my rock all in one and she just left me in a foreign country alone. So I'm a drug addict and an alcoholic and all because I didn't want to lose the girl I thought that meant everything to me. So Ma told me that I had to spend the rest of the summer before senior year in rehab and so I did exactly that. I flew back to America with Ma and Lily and then Ma shipped me off to rehab and I stayed there the other two months of the summer and two weeks before senior year was starting Ma told me that we were moving to tree hill for a fresh start. At first I wasn't for that, but then Lily made it clear that I needed to be away from Nicki and all the bad energy she brought to my life, so I sucked it up and here I am"

"And that is my erm... that is everything from my past" Lucas says looking from the floor to me. His eyes were red from the tears I saw sliding down his cheeks "I get it if you don't want to be with me anymore Brooke. I mean my history with Nicki is way more than what you had with Julian and I'm sorry I didn't tell you before asking you to be my girlfriend"

"Lucas its fine. We all have a past" I try to assure him "just because yours is more than mine doesn't mean I'm going to leave"

He looked up at me "your not going to leave?" he asked surprised.

I shake my head putting a smile on my face "of course I'm not Luke. I just didn't want Julian or even Nicki to come to me and tell me something and me being blind sighted. I want them to know that they can't scare me off of you"

"I have just one other thing to add to my story" he says "just before I left for rehab word got around town that Nicki was pregnant with my baby, so od course I freak out and go and ask her. She didn't even care that she left me alone in London where I almost died. So I asked her about the rumours and she bluntly told me starlight to my face that she was pregnant, but she got an abortion as soon as she got back to the States"

"Wait what..." that shocked me. How does someone do that to you? This Nicki bitch obviously has no heart at all and then when she does see him she acts like everything is okay between them. Like what. Is she insane? "That's crazy" I state and Lucas nodded agreeing with me.

He sat on his desk chair staring at the floor. I could see that reliving this story was hard for him and I feel like such a bad person forcing him to tell me. I just didn't want Julian or Nicki to bombard me with facts about his past first. I stood to my feet and walked over to him. I take his hand in my and lead him to his bed. We both sit down.

"I'm sorry I made you relive the hardest time in your life Luke" I whisper to him kissing his cheek.

Being this close to him sending butterflies through my body. We haven't fully gone all the way yet. I was holding off because I didn't want to just give myself to him completely for him to ditch me, but I see now that he wouldn't do that. I had to trust him with that and I do.

"Its okay Brooke. I'm glad you pushed me to tell you. I feel so much better now" he says smiling at me.

His smile made me hot and I knew in that moment I wanted him.

"Are Lily and your Ma home?" He saved his head "good" I lean up on my knees and kiss his lips softly. We start making out and then Lucas flips us over so he was hovering over me.

And that night Lucas and I became one.

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