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It was a couple weeks after my parents paid me a visit. It was Saturday morning and I had planned to meet Lucas at his Mom's cafe for lunch and then hang out with the girls tonight. Our usual Saturday night sleepover.

I ran down the stairs of my house. I decided to run and see if I had any mail. It was the beginning of April so I knew college letters will start to arrive soon. I was nervous, but yet excited to start my new adventure wherever that would be.

I had mail. I ran out to the mailbox and opened it to see a few big letters piled on each other. My heart hammered against my chest as I clutched them to my chest and ran back up my drive and into my house.

I look through my post and see stamps of all the colleges I applied too. They had all arrived together. I sat at the kitchen counter staring at each one and I laid the envelope out in front of me all four of them.

My hands suddenly became all sweaty and my hand began to shake. What I didn't get in at all, but then they wouldn't have sent big lettered envelope right? Oh god I don't know. I glanced up at the clock it was almost 12 and I had to meet Lucas in 10 minutes.

I text Lucas quickly.

Can we meet at half 12 instead something has come up? B xxx

And quick reply came.

College letters come? L xxx

He must have gotten his aswell.

Yeah. See you soon xxx

See you soon pretty girl xxx

I put my phone down and run my fingers over a big white letter. I turn it over and open it. Taking a deep breath I turn it over and scan over the letter. Oh my god I got in. Happy dancing with myself I open all the rest and was very excited that I got in to all four colleges.

My heart stopped beating fast and excitement took over. Now I had to decide where I wanted to go and that decision is going to be hard because what do I do now? Go to a college closer to Lucas or do I even want to continue cheer leading in college? I have no idea and I haven't got very long to decide.

I sigh to myself putting my letters in a pile on the kitchen counter. It was almost half 12 and I had to really go and meet Lucas now.

I got to the cafe and Lucas was sitting at our usual table. I take a deep breathe and make my way to him. His eyes light up when he sees me and a smile forms on his face.

"Hey pretty girl" he says when I get to him.

"Hey Luke" I reply taking a seat opposite him.

"Hungry?" I wasn't after having so much running through my head, but this was a lunch date so I wasn't sure if I had to eat or not. I give a small smile and nod "the usual?"

I shake my head knowing I won't be able to eat all of it having my stomach already in knots about college "I'll just have a bowl of fries and a coke"

His eyes narrowed together and I could tell he knew something was up, but instead of prying he just nods and stands to go order our food. I slump in the booth when he goes and let out a long sigh. I didn't even realise I was holding.

Lucas soon came back sliding back into the booth "so college letters are coming through now huh?" I nod knowing where this conversation was going to go, but scared to have it "did you get many this morning?"

I nod " I actually got them all. I have like 4 or 5 I can't remember scattered on my island at home"

Lucas just nods as our food was placed in front of us "Thanks Jess" she smiles at him and then his eyes turned to me "Brooke why don't you just tell me why you are freaking out in your head right now that you can't even eat"

I knew he knows me too well already.

"I got my letter from Florida"

I could see his face drop. He knew what I was about to say, but nothing has been decided yet. I had a little time to think before responding to the colleges.

"You got in?" I nodded "oh Brooke that's great" he smiles, but it wasn't a full smile "and the other letters?"

"I got into all my colleges Luke"

"That's really great Brooke"

'What about you?"

"I got into mine as well. So I'm heading to New York" I was happy for him I really was.

I mean I got into Florida and New York and even California, but I knew my decision was between New York and Florida. I had so much to think about it was insane.

I was always going to New York even before meeting Lucas to study fashion and start my own line, but then Florida came into the mix and now I don't know whether I want to continue cheerleading or not. Decisions decisions.

After lunch with Lucas I headed over to Rachel's. All three of the girls were already there. I let myself into her home and headed up to her room.

"So are you and Owen both going California?" Haley asks. They were talking about college.

"Yeah since we both got into Berkeley" Rachel nodded and I could see how happy she was to finally be with Owen after 2 years apart.

"I got into Florida" I say walking into the room. All eyes turned to me "and no I don't know what I'm going to do"

"Have you spoken to Lucas?" Haley asks.

I nod "we just had lunch. He's going to Columbia and I have no idea what to do"

"Well you don't have to go Florida Brooke nor do you have to go New York. Didn't you apply to others" I nod

"I did, but its always been New York before Lucas was in the picture, but then the opportunity from Florida came along and now I don't know what to do"

"Well haven't you got like a couple weeks to think about it and decide" I nod again "then think about it and I'm sure you'll make the right choice for yourself even if it is away from Lucas"

I knew the girls were right and I knew I had a lot to think about, but the fact that my decision decides mine and Lucas's future together scared me. He was okay because he only wanted New York and for a long time so did I. My parents are in New York and my plan was to be in New York close to them.

Then on the other hand I didn't want to make a decision that was going to be bad for me just to please everyone else. I was stuck and I knew it.

The rest of the night the girls talked about the colleges they got into and how excited they were to start the next chapter of their lives. The whole time my mind travelled somewhere else. I knew this time was coming, but I just hoped I had a little more time to spend with Lucas without the elephant in the room.

We finally got Julian and Nicki off our backs and now we have another hurdle to get through.

"Brooke your quiet over there" I hear Haley say. I look up and give a small smile knowing they could see right through it "still worrying about college"

I nod with a sigh "I knew it was coming. I just... I expected more time you know" they all nodded "I know no matter what I decide Lucas will support it because he is just that great, but I'm back to the long distance thing"

"But I thought you were going to give it a go" Rachel says.

"Yeah I know, but doesn't mean I'm going to be okay with it. I know you and Owen did it, but its not for everyone and that scares me"

"I get that Brooke, but you won't know what happens unless you try" Peyton adds "he loves you and we can all see how much you love him too. Don't let that go"

I run a hand over my face and nod " I know girls. I know. I just. I'm just having a moment I guess"

The rest of the night I decided to put my thoughts on hold and we just hung out and watched horror movies to make me feel better.

I honestly don't know what I'd do without my girls.

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