AN: I own nothing but my characters and my pieces of the plot. This story is going to get sort of cannon divergent and it might crossover a little with Chicago PD but not enough to warrant crossover categorization! I hope you guys don't mind. Also There's a visual aide for the oldest 6 Grayne siblings on my profile! Younger 6 and Liv Parents are next! Thanks so much for all the reviews and alerts! Review if you liked it!-Meghan
Police sirens ring out signaling Erin is calling her. "Hey, what's up?" She turns in a slow circle trying to locate her pants.
"Eh nothing much there's a cartel dude chopping people's heads off. You?"
"Kelly you seen my pants? Wait what did you just say Erin?" She scowls.
"I said there's a cartel honcho beheading people it's not important did you let Severide take your pants off? Did you get laid?"
"No, I can't remember where I put them and Kelly and I have not had sex yet."
Erin sighed. "Have sex with the man its good sex you called and told me."
"I have a doctors appointment with Carver to I don't fucking know? Check my progress and Kelly wants to go, and I don't know how I feel about it."
"You're freaked out you only throw down F-bombs if you are freaked so Why?"
"Because it's awkward!"
"Do you love him? Not past you who may never come back but current you. Is current Liv in love with Kelly?"
"I- yeah and it really scares me because he loves me so much and I can't remember why." She groans. "What am I doing E? I just- it's Carver."
"Take him with you."
"I just don't want him to know I was the girl sleeping with her attending."
"That was your neuro rotation and it was forever ago." Erin points out.
"You're right."
"Always am."
"Don't get your head chopped off Detective Lindsay; it's being a waste off a whole lotta pretty."
"I love you Olivia more than just about anything." She can hear Erin's smile.
"I know, let's not get mushy crying makes my brains hurt. Love you too."
"I gotta go but beer and dish day?"
"I'll be there Molly's Bar is apparently the smoke eaters hang out and I get half price beer because I'm Kelly's latest flame. Never mind that I can't drink."
"Ooh ouch."
"Hermann wasn't being mean just himself apparently Kelly's a bit of a skirt chaser. Kinda glad I forgot that."
"Do not let your boyfriend kill your work husband."
"Don't kill Officer Hot Stuff Halsted!" she retorted.
"You remembered that!"
"I did Bye your bitchness."
"Bye Severide's Floozy Flame."
"Seriously Severide have you seen my pants? The high wasted tuxedo pants?" she turns to find him smiling at her from around a toothbrush and he holds out the pants.
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"I was never unnerved by this room until just now." She said drumming her fingers on the padded exam table.
"Really? " He plays with a plastic model of a brain.
"Yes, Sweetheart? Put the occipital lobe back Carve is finicky."
"Carve huh?" his eyebrows rise as he puts the plastic brain back in its little skull cavity home.
"Don't do that. It's not even like that."
"The guy has Classical shit playing in his exam room." He points up to the ceiling speaker. "He screams snotty douche and I haven't met him yet."
"It's Bach and classical music is good for brain function."
"Well it makes me want to shoot myself. In the face." He leans on the table beside her.
"Please don't I like the face." She kisses his cheek and smiles at him.
"How do you know it's Bach?" he asks curiously.
"Because I like Bach. Its cello suite one in G I think." She squints in thought.
"G Major. Hey Olivia, how's the grey matter?" a guy with longish brown and an almost effeminately pretty sharp angled face says without looking up from her file. Wire rim classes hang in the collar of his wrinkled shirt.
He lanky and thin. He's a nerd. What did Liv see in him?
"Still there so I got that going for me. Carver this is Kelly my boyfriend."
"Hello." He said barely sparing Kelly a glance as he puts her file down and takes her face in his hands and delicately with obvious care touches the bones below her eye sockets. "Any tenderness."
"No."
"Good look down for me, now as you know you cracked your occipital bone. I'm going to check the drill and incision sites." When he puts his hands in her hair Kelly's blood pressure shoots up. "Hmm feels normal. I'm going to check your x-rays to make sure the bone is reknitting."
"What were you attracted too? He's a nerd and you're hot! Really hot!" Kelly said when he left.
"Mostly his brain he's the smartest person I know. It was a turn on but he's also a conceited ass." She whispers back.
"He looks twenty,
"He graduated Harvard at fourteen and he's 26."
He returns shortly. "Your bones look fine, the CT looks fairly fantastic. Here look." He puts them up on the light board. "What do you see Livvy, think like the doctor not the patient."
"I've spent the past month trying to get her to just be the patient and you-"Kelly complains.
"Nah, once a doctor always a doctor. What do you see?" he dismisses Kelly and forges on with Liv.
"Damage is light, not as severe as I'd of thought. So why can't I remember things I need to remember?" she cocked her head in thought.
"It's a mental block not a physical one Grayne." Carver nods knowingly he stuffs his hands in his pockets.
"I need my job back."
"I know." Kelly and Carver say at the same time.
-/-/-/-
"Okay Kelly I can't take the silent treatment one more second. What's wrong?" She stares straight ahead as they sit in the parked car outside Kelly's place.
"He had his hands all over you." He glares at her and her head whips around and she pins him with an icy look.
"He's my doctor its bad form to not examine me." She said all sarcasm and anger.
"Why does it have to be him?"
"Look I'm sorry I slept with my neurologist two years before I met you!" She sighed. "God Kelly it was two years ago cut me a break baby."
"What if the reason you can't remember anything is because you don't want too! What if you don't want to remember being with me. It wasn't important enough to stick it obviously means nothing."
"Kelly…" his attitude almost stings more than the words themselves. "You don't mean that."
"What? Like it hasn't crossed your mind."
"No, it hasn't actually, the brain doesn't work just one way Kelly, and it's been two months."
"It's been three." He sighs and stares at her for a long beat. Liv can't breathe the defeat that flits though his gaze scares her.
"Kelly please don't do what I think you're about too. I love you and any resistance you feel from me is because for the life of me I can't remember why you have one single reason to love me." She said being perfectly honest.
He blinks of all the things he thought might have held her back he'd never considered that. He reaches over brushing a lock of her hair behind her ear. "I love you because you're smart. I love you because you're strong, you're funny, you intimidate me, you make me work for your attention, I love you because of the way you love your family, You put me in my place if I need it. I love you because you kiss your hospital kiddos. I love you because you sing rap music in the shower. I love that when you are really, really tired you sleep on your belly and your butt sticks up in the air."
"It doesn't stick up really it sort of pokes out." She defends.
"It's cute." He leans across the seat to kiss her.
"It might not ever come back."
"I know so… we met on the fourth floor east window fire escape of the Porter Street Clinic."
-/-/-/-
"Are you sure you're ready? Because-"He stumbles through the door carrying her. She's kissing the breath out of him and he can barely think.
"Kelly you took my top off on the front stoop and now the neighbor boy knows I have my Kmart Bra on. So yes, I'm ready." She answers kissing down his chin.
When her tongue swipes over his Adam's apple his knees nearly buckle.
"Bedroom?" he asks undoing her bra and hitching her higher in his arms to kiss down her chest.
"Bedroom, floor, random wall, whatever…" She said breathing sharply as his mouth finds her breast. She leans back on the bannister.
"You are seriously the love of my life Livvy. Bedroom what I'm gonna do to you-"He mumbles into her skin/
She pulls his face back to hers. "Don't talk about it just do it." She kisses him.
"Right." He heads toward the bedroom.
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"Viv is your sister the type to have sex in the middle of the day?" Shay asks picking up a woman's button down in the potted plant by the door buttons scattered across the stoop.
"I don't track my sister's sexual habits that's creepy."
"Well I just found her shirt by the front door." She unlocks the door grabbing the mail.
"Go Livvy, go Livvy, go ga-"
"There's something very wrong with you. "Shay comments stepping into the apartment.
"And her bra is on the bannister… and Kelly's shirt is on the-"moans and the bed creaking cuts off her statement.
There's a very loud satisfied moan followed by rhythmic thudding of the headboard. . "Okay, how much and your sister feel because that sounded like it felt damn good."
"Get out of there! That's disgusting I can't answer that!" Vivi cried out exasperated.
There's another thud and a breathy moan.
"Jesus Kelly don't fuck her clean through the wall! I brought in the mail bye!" She turns and leaves.
_/-/-/-
"So there's something I'm curious about." She said as they lay in bed. She lies on her stomach peering up at him.
"Okay," he draws imaginary designs down her back settling his hand on her rear end.
"If something happens to you will I be told?"
"Of course." He leans up to kiss her shoulder
"How? I want to know what to look for so… so I can prepare myself."
"It depends, if I'm injured Shay will come tell you. We've talked about it. If I'm dead, the Chaplain, Chief, and Shay will come to you and explain what happened and what your options are as far as benefits and funeral plans will go." He answers plainly like it's a rote answer.
"Just thinking about it makes me nauseous Kelly. I guess I have already accepted the dangers of your job we've been together eight months now, I just it's not any easier the second time 'round."
She scoots up in the bed and lays her head on his chest.
"Nine months …" He kisses her on the top of the head." But this much I can promise you, I'm careful I think about you every time I get on my truck and the people who say they aren't friends with their fear? They're lying. It goes against everything in human nature to do what I do but it saves lives and it saved yours and for that I'm beyond grateful."
"Damn now I know how you got to me Severide." He plays with her hair and she can feel herself drifting off.
"I love how take the E out of my name and call me Sevride." He smiles and looks down to see her sleeping.
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Kelly walks in from returning Katie's dishes to find Liv standing at the island in her chair Enter Sandman blares through the speakers of the surround sound and his heart stops.
"Who'd you lose Livvy?"
"No one yet. Sadie Helton is losing her battle they don't expect her to last the week." She answers without looking at him.
"Sadie? The four year old flirt? That Sadie? Your Sadie?" He walks over.
She puts down the chopping knife carefully. She sniffed back the tears she'd been holding in all day. "The one and only." When his arms wrap around her middle it all unravels. The tears fall until she's sure the only thing holding her in one piece is him.
He buries his face in the hair on top of her head; it smells like coconuts and summer. He just waits until she's done. Waits and holds on.
Once she's cried out she goes to wipe her eyes he catches her hands. "You're chopping' jalapeños that's gonna hurt Babe."
"Oops, nice save."
"That's the job. Just not at 51 anymore."
"Do what? Say that again." She twists too look back at him and he moves to stand beside her leaned on the sink.
She crosses his arms and she waits for his answer as he chews the inside of his cheek irritably. "Dragon Lady got us on a technicality, we damaged a city dumpster to save a man from being crushed it was all the bureaucratic leverage she needed to shut us down and she did."
"That Bitch!"
"If I wasn't so pissed myself you getting so indignantly miffed would be precious." He smiles." Though I agree she is a bitch next shift is my last one at 51."
"Are you okay?"
"I have to be." He kissed her. What are we having' for dinner Boo?"
"Fajitas, and no memory or not I still hate being called Boo!"
"Schnookims?" He suggests grinning.
Did you inhale an extraordinary amount of smoke today?"
"Nah, I just like making your face do the thing."
"What thing?"
"It scrunches when you are displeased."
"Don't know what to do with you or without you Kelly." She said shaking her head.
"You could always just kiss me until you work it out." He said getting a beer.
When he returned to her side she turned her head and kissed him. "Love you."
"Love you too, after dinner I'm meeting Clarke for a beer."
"Drink one for the injured girl please."
-/-/-/-
Kelly's phone chimes. "How's the wife Severide?" Clarke asks as he looks down and reads his text.
Liv: you wanna know what happens when you leave me with 2 drunken lesbians and Erin? We make lipstick out of Crayons and lip-sync to Melissa Etheridge! Help me you sorry fucker!"
Kelly laughed. "Right now my Girlfriend is mad because she's the only sober person in a room of drunk people!"
They drink awhile and swap stories.
His phone rings. "What's up Baby?"
"Make Shay stop eye fucking my sister in front of me its gross."
"Are you gonna take me home tonight?" Kelly hears the uproarious opening line to Queen's Fat Bottomed Girls.
Olivia laughs and it makes him smile. "You are gonna be sorry you missed this Kell!"
"No, I'm not! Lindsay! Fine, fuck it! See you in a while Kelly no driving!" he can picture Liv being drug into the craziness.
After Kelly saves Clarke from killing his wife's ex he gets a picture mail.
Grayne & Lindsay Cosmetics present Smurf Jizz lipstick. Below the Text both girls smile at him wearing crayon blue lipstick.
"I have to go home before they turn my woman into Rainbow Brite Limited Hooker Edition." Kelly tells Hermann and Clarke.
-/-/-/-
"Hey Baby…" he calls out.
"Couch."
"Hey you," he picks up her feet and sits down dropping her feet in his lap.
"Hey."
"This song's pretty." I like to be with me when I'm with you by Drew Holcomb & the Neighbors.
"It reminds me of you because no matter who I am or who I was I like me when I'm with you. Even if I had nothing, I have everything with you."
"Look at you all philosophical and shit."
"Nope, I'm happy in spite of everything. You still sad?"
"A little but what ya gonna do right?" he trails his fingers up the bottom of her foot despite that she won't feel it.
"I say fight Ultimo Bitch Dragon but that's just me." She shrugs.
"Ultimo bitch Dragon are you drunk?" He laughs.
"Ultimo Dragon is a pro wrestler. Don't look at me like that, I have brothers!"
He moved down the couch and laid over her. "You could always distract me." He kissed her. "Ooh. The crayon lipstick taste good."
"It's coconut oil."
"I'll carry you to bed right after I leave a monster hickey on your neck."
"About that Erin's drunk asleep in our bed."
He whined. "But Baby…"
"We can have sex on the couch for old time sake and Yes, I remember."
He looked down at her. "There's still a drunk girl who isn't you in my bed."
"I'm not wearing any panties. "She said in consolation.
"You know how to get a man on track."
-/-/-/-
"Hey, Liv I just wanted to let you know we're fighting back. There's a kid outside with a petition the kid I saved a few months back, a few of us are gonna see what kind of pull we got so… call me back me back cause Ultimo Bitch Dragon is going down. Bye love you Boo!" He leaves her a message and goes to check out one of his angles.
Kelly leaves and comes back to find Nathan with a blanket and hot cocoa. 'Hey how's it coming?"
"I have three signatures me my mom and a pretty red head. She brought me cocoa and the blanket. She said your pumpkin latte was inside she'd be back."
He reads her name in scrawling script. Olivia B. Grayne MD. And then P.S. I'm the rescue girlfriend who makes Kelly look bad we had sex in the firehouse and really enjoyed it. #notsorry
"Damn I love her." He whispers to himself.
"I like the hash tag myself." Nathan states.
Kelly's drinking his latte when he hears a commotion. "Save 51 Save 51" the neighborhood is protesting.
Liv rolls up and Vivi pulled a bundled up Sadie behind them in a wagon. Kelly gets choked up. Liv mouths "No tears." She rolls up to him and pulls her chair to stand.
"Hey don't be sad. She wanted to see your firehouse before the closed it. Fresh air and sunshine's good for her. Smile because she is ok? This is the one thing she wants besides Pizza and her Mom. Both which are on the way."
He kissed her. "I don't know how you do it."
"One patient at a time."
He kissed her cheek. "Sadie wanna see my truck."
"James is on his way too!" Sadie tells him smiling bright.
-/-/-/-
"What are you doing here?" aren't you on some kind of medical leave?" Rainey's voice rings out from behind her.
Liv looks out the window at the April rain falling. "I am, one of my patients is dying I'm staying until her parents arrive." She hands her sister a Ritz cracker as she walks over on crutches. "You're up! Whose ring do I need to kiss for that little miracle?"
"Kelly."
"What?" Liv glances over as Rainey nibbles the cracker.
"He didn't over step Sis; he just gave me a wakeup call."
"He loves me huh?"
"I'd say he does. Sorry your patient is dying."
"So am I she's four. Still has her baby teeth."
"We are lucky." Rainey reaches over and holds Liv's hand.
"Yup,"
"You mad at me Liv?"
"Nope. I'm tired." As if the words bring it on she yawns.
"Come on I'll wait with you."
-/-/-/-
They play Uno while Sadie sleeps.
Crider comes running in. "Fifty One just called a Mayday! I caught it coming over dispatch in the ER sounds like Kelly."
"What's a Mayday?" Rainey asks.
"He's trapped and they have to go in after him." Liv answers her eyes grow large and fill with fear and tears.
"Go! I've got her you go."
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She rolls as fast as her arms will allow only to be stopped at admittance where the radio system is stationed.
"I swear to God if you don't give the fucking radio right now I will go right through you!" She threatens a muscled up orderly they have holding her back from the radio and the door. "I have five brothers and I bite! Try me!" She shoots him a dirty look.
A horde of fire fighters rush in and she does a quick scan and can't find Kelly or Matt.
"Kelly!" she makes her chair go to standing position. "Kelly!" she catches sight of Bowden and her heart drops. This is bad.
"Come on baby please…" she begs quietly.
Shay rushes by her with a baby. "Do a full work up Crider!" she orders her intern.
"I know."
"Leslie, where's Kelly?" She asks Shay.
"Behind me!"
Dawson flies by her with Casey on a gurney and for a sickening moment she's relived. Kelly trails behind looking shell shocked.
"I thought it was you," he hugs her and she smells smoke and sweat and dirt. "I thought it was you I couldn't breathe. I thought..."
"Shh, I'm fine Liv."
"I'm going to watch Crider treat the baby. "
"Paging Dr. Carver Collins."
"Hey Liv," he calls and she turns back.
"Yeah?"
"I'm gonna be with you even if your memory never comes back. We'll make new ones."
"Sounds like a plan. I love you." She leaves catching up to Crider and the baby.