AN: This chapter contains spoilers for the finale it spans the last 2 episodes and the time line is stretched farther than cannon for story purpose I own nothing but my characters and my sections of plot. Enjoy and please do review! This one's a doozy! -MM
"What are you doing and how did you do it?" Liv demanded as Kelly held the not crying Klairey. "Herrmann's bouncy trick." He stated with a wide proud grin.
"But I can't bounce and she has cried for hours." She whines.
"I think its just movement she likes try swaying. Also she farted like four bounces ago." He supplied.
He kisses Klaire's head and hands her to Liv. He kisses Liv. "See ya ladies, have a good day. Don't do anything I wouldn't do. I love you." He head for the door and grabs his squad jacket.
"That leaves the field wide open Kelly." Liv teased. "We love you too. Be careful please."
"Always baby. Bye!"
"Bye Daddy..." she fusses when Liv picks up her hand to wave. "Ok never mind the waving. Bye Kell." And he's out the door.
-/-/-/-
Erin and Liv have lunch at Lou Malnati's pizzeria.
"So, six days and the Klaire Bear is a Severide. You excited?" Erin asked as she tickles the bottom of Klaire's foot as she sat in her carrier on the table between them.
"She's already mine in every way that counts. Why did you really drag me and my baby out today? Liv gets straight to the point knowing Erin is hiding something.
"Because I know you and sitting a home drives you really crazy and Charlie showed up at the station." She said the last part in a rush.
Liv crossed her arms. "Do what?"
"He just showed up Livvy don't fucking look at me like that. It's not like I invited him."
"What does he want? There's always something with Charlie."
"I don't know."
"Well I hope you have no intention of finding out and inviting him back into your life. You've shed who you were don't let him drag you back. Hank will kill you both. I'll help him." She shakes her head but says no more.
"He's just rattling my cage. I'm not going to let him. What're you going to do today? "She said picking up her slice of peperoni.
"Take Kell lunch drop in for a consult with Holmby to get Klaire checked over and finish my never ending laundry." Liv rolled her eyes but smiled.
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When Liv tries to park a car that looks oddly familiar is in the handicapped spot. "Who the fuck do they think they are?" She mutters.
Her jaw drops when Devon exits the car. "Bitch please you do not get a do over." She resists the urge to flip her off and parks out in the boonies by Kelly's car. She gets out then transfers up into the seat next to Klaire and gets Klaire into the chest harness she'd worn all day. She transfers carefully back to her chair. She grabs Kelly's food and locks the car.
She rolls in a new black guy looks surprised to see her.
"My husband around?" She asked the guy as Herrmann walks over.
"Hey Livvy, who helped you get inside?"
"No one Herrmann, where's Kell… ghosts of girlfriend's past are outside." She nods back toward the door.
Kelly comes from his quarters. "I thought I heard you Baby, that's the new guy Newhouse."
"Hi I'm Olivia the wife. Kelly you remember that skeevy girl Shay was with when we first got together? She's out in the handicap spot looking all stoned out and sulky."
"What?" Gabi asked.
"I have no clue why she's here but she's out there." As Gabi went to get Shay Kelly went outside. "Kelly, come on babe…I brought you Malnati's Oookay fuck. We're going back outside then." She rolls out behind him.
Kelly stands and stares the woman down. "She's got some nerve showing up here."
"I agree let's go in and eat this is a monkey on Shay's back you can't make choices for her. Let's go in. Come on!" She takes his hand and pulls.
"I don't like her."
"No one does. I'm calling my sister this bitch better not be trying to ruin their relationship." She said as they go back in.
"I won't stop you. Hell I'll dial." He glares over his shoulder.
She dials Viv's number. "isSay ouyay eednay otay allcay emay ay'sShay ashytray exway ustjay owedshay upway atway iftyfay oneway." She says quickly.
"What was that?" Kelly said confused. He holds the door for her.
"Pig Latin." She points to Shay shooting her a nasty glare across the truck.
"You speak Pig Latin, I'm not sure if that's really nerdy or cute." He kissed the top of her head.
"And gibberish but only with Owen."
Her phone rings as they're sitting down to eat. She hands Klaire over to Mouch.
"Yo Vivi!" She shoots for happy.
"How hot is she? "She replied sourly.
She looks like a strung out Summer Glau. She's a 6 if you're feeling generous if not she's a straight up four. "She answered chin resting in her hand as she watched Kelly devour his pizza.
"What am I?" Kelly asks smirking. He thought the rating thing was just a guy thing.
"You broke the scale." She said even as he smirks at her mouth full. "Yup, really love you."
"What do you think she wants? Does Leslie still look attracted to her?"
"I don't know! I'm not a lesbian I can't read attractions." She scowls.
"A little but not like she wants to jump her bones right here." Kelly answers. "Then again I always want to jump somebody's bones so I might not be the best judge." Liv glares at him. "What? I wanna jump your bones constantly." He shrugs. "Just yours no one else's." He amends.
"What if she asks her out?" Vivi asked.
"Show up and stomp the bitch like an ant hill." Liv replied darkly.
"You're very angry today. It's sexy." He leans over and kisses her.
"Whore used the handicap spot."
"I'd be pissed to ma'am." Newhouse says from the other end of the table.
"I like this one. No need to call me ma'am Liv works. The only thing that makes me madder is transferring in the dark when Kelly leaves the seat up."
"I hate that Matt's the worst!" Gabi said coming into sit beside Liv.
"I've screamed at Kelly four in the morning but he still forgets."
"You there? Let's go stalk the bitch." Viv cut in.
"After Klaire's appointment."
"She okay? Vivi automatically became concerned.
"Fine it's just a heart checkup." She replied.
"That reminds me. Can you go with me?" She looked to Kelly.
"I gotta check with Chief but should be fine."
-/-/-
She goes to run errands and comes back to wait for Kelly who's on a call for the chief.
Her phone rings.
"Hello." She said warily having not recognized the number off hand.
"Hello is this Dr. Olivia Severide."
"Yes." She allows.
"I'm Althea Botwin with DCFS. I need to see the child today."
"I'm at firehouse fifty one. My husband he's a firefighter, Klaire has a doctor's appointment. If you wouldn't mind you could come here? I can assure you Klaire is in perfect health and thriving with us but I was a foster child I understand the need for wellness checks especially with the adoption signing being so close."
"I'll be by shortly."
=/=/=/=
The social worker pulls up and Liv can tell by the look on her face what's about to happen.
"Mrs. Severide is your husband nearby?" She asked gently.
"No. he's on a call." She adjusts Klaire higher in arms willing this woman to go the hell away.
"I need you to surrender the child Ma'am I'm so sorry."
"She's mine, I have six days left! Just six days please." Liv said tears in her eyes as she begged for her child.
"The mother invoked her rights. I'm sorry honey I have to take the child." She reaches for Klaire and Liv jerks away from the kind eyed woman's hands.
"Her name is Klaire!" She said angry. She had a name.
"I understand, I need you to say your goodbyes now."
"She has a heart condition, its potentially serious and needs monitoring." She points out. "My husband isn't here, he deserves a goodbye please wait."
"I'm aware. I'm sorry I can't, I still have to take her."
She holds Klaire close and kisses her head. "Klaire, I love you so much so does Daddy. You've made us so happy but your real mother needs you to make her happy now. I want you to be happy and healthy promise me? "She looked at Klaire looking up at her all innocence and smiles." Okay? Yeah. Bye Klairey." Her voice doesn't shake even as the tears pour .She hands the baby over and watches doubled over sobbing as the social worker took Klaire loads her in the car and drives away.
She sits alone in the empty truck bay until Shay pulls up in she must look shell shocked because Shay approaches carefully. "Liv? What's wrong where's Klaire?"
"Social services took her." She said woodenly voice hoarse from sobbing.
"What? How?"
"The mother invoked." She just looked up at Shay seemingly lost.
"Mills get Kelly here now." Shay asked.
"But they're-"
"Call him. Use the radio. I don't care. Just do it." She orders.
She can hear Mills talking to Kelly over the radio but doesn't listen. "I'm going to hug you Livvy."
"We don't hug and you barely like me."
"Just let me. I'll hold you tell he gets here to do it himself okay?" she nods as Shay embraces her.
"They just took her like it was nothing. Like she was the prize in a cereal box. Like it meant nothing. I don't understand Shay. They wouldn't even wait for Kelly. "She rested her head on Shay's shoulder.
"I'm sorry sweetie, really I am. Let's go back to Kelly's quarters alright. We'll call your Mom."
"I'm in the truck bay I'm not suppo-"
"It's okay babe." She lets go of her temporarily to push Liv inside.
-/-/-/-
"What's wrong? Where's Liv? Where's Klaire? Mills what's going on?" he said almost sprinting in.
"You need to talk to her man." Mills replied expression serious.
"You're scaring me Mills."
"She's in your quarters."
He walks in and sees Shay of all people holding Liv's hand and hugging her. "How do I tell him?"
"Tell me what?" He asked fearing the worst.
She looks up at him and the way the light in her eyes has dimmed he knows but refuses to believe. "While you were gone social services forced me to surrender Klaire her mother invoked her parental rights I had to give her up. I tried to wait for you but DCFS wouldn't wait." She said it fast but sounded broken and tired.
"How is that possible is it even legal? Can we get her back?" He asks. So this is what true heartbreak feels like. It's so much pain he almost goes numb. Almost…nope he can still feel it. It's odd and scarier than he'll ever admit.
"No. we can't she's a safe haven drop so there is no abandonment charges to work in our favor. It works like any adoption she invoked within the allotted time period it's all legal and above board. I had nothing to make our case babe. So they took her. We knew this could happen I just didn't think it would hurt this much. I don't know how my parents do it."
He turns and wordless walks in the opposite direction. "Kelly, wait." Shay tries and then Liv goes to follow.
"Kelly…Babe…" her voice shakes as she sniffs back another wave of tears.
"I'm fine baby…" his breath caught. "Need a minute to myself."
"I'm sorry you didn't get a goodbye. I tried to wait-"he turns to her. "I'm not mad at you Livvy it's not your fault. I just need a second okay." He kisses her forehead then walks into the in house gym.
"Okay." Seeing Kelly on the verge of tears makes Liv cry again. As she sits outside the gym she can hear the smack of him hitting the heavy bag and the occasional broken off sob.
"Hey where's your baby? Klaire right? How was the doctor's appointment?" Newhouse asked innocently.
It's more than she can take. "Tell Kelly I'm outside."
=/=/=/=
"Mom this is awful I'm outside and Kelly's in the gym crying alone because he doesn't want me there and I- I don't even know where to start. How do I go home now?" She tilted her head back on the brick wall and watched the bright blue sky. It doesn't match her mood.
"You give me your keys Princess. " Shay said standing next to her. "And callin' your sister was low but all things considered we're cool."
"Why?" She lowers the phone from her ear.
"You don't wanna go home to all her things trust me. Its salt on the wound, I'm doing this because, and listen close because I probably won't say it again ever. I love you. That shit its painful let me help. "She held out her hand.
"How do I help him? We're different Shay."
"Let him live with it for a bit." She takes the keys kissing Liv's cheek and then she's gone.
-/-/=/-/-
They go home to a house empty of their child and for the first time since they met they go to bed without a word. They barely touch.
Kelly waits until Liv is asleep to turn over and look at her. If her eyes are closed he can't see pain in them. He picks up her limp hand holding it. He presses his lips to her palm before getting up and walking into Klaire's room.
He opens the door knowing it will be like ripping off a band aid. Every picture, toy, diaper and baby appliance is stuffed into the room. As though if it's out of sight it's out of mind but that's not at all how it works. He picks up a tiny cloth doll. Klaire's first baby. Liv had said, he guessed every girl had one. Klaire mostly chewed on it. He collapses into the rocker. Tears flooding his eyes. The pain was consuming. He'd done this to them He was wrong. She wasn't their child. She belonged to a thoughtless girl like some devalued trinket.
_/-/-/
Five days later.-
They go back to work because they're a doctor and a firefighter and the world doesn't stop because theirs is crumbling.
Aside from a few words here and there they haven't and just flat out don't talk. "Kelly can you talk about it yet?" She asks quietly sititng by the sink eating cereal as he stares at her over the rim of his coffee cup.
"What's to talk about Olivia? She's gone." He said shortly. Coldly.
"How you feel?" She pushes.
"I'm fucking pissed. I gotta go to work." He slams down his cup sweeping past her.
"Be care-"She starts,
He turns back cutting her off. "How about we go one day without you saying that stupid fucking platitude. It doesn't work it's not some damn talisman that'll keep me from burning to death you get that right?" he walked out rushing down the stairs and slamming the door as Liv dissolved into tears.
-/-/-/-/-
"You're a damn idiot!" Shay slapped Kelly upside the head. "You told her the little ritual she does every day to do what she can to keep you safe is stupid? That was mean! You're not mean Kelly, you're an ass to end all asses but you aren't a mean prick." She smacked him again. "Quick question boys your wives and girlfriends all do little things to keep you safe and to keep them from going crazy right? Are you dumb enough to disrespect their demonstrations of faith and belief in your skill? If no please tell Kelly why the fuck not before I let my woman strangle him." Shay Sais glaring at Kelly and looking to the men gathered in the bay.
"Mostly it's mean." Casey said.
"And really bad luck." Herrmann added.
They have back to back calls that night. Herrmann wakes Kelly up from his twenty minute nap. "You're going to call her and fix this right now because you jinxed us all." He hands him a phone.
"You're really gonna stand there while I talk to my wife?" He clarified rubbing sleeping from his eyes.
"Yes I am. Should I dial for you too?"
He sighs as He dials putting her on speaker she answers on the first ring like she's terrified and he feels bad. "Olivia Severide speaking. Talk fast I'm a busy lady unless something is wrong with my husband then I want every detail and his vitals."
"Nothing's wrong Liv I'm fine."
"Then why're you calling from the firehouse and not your cell?" She asked confused.
"It's the one Herrmann handed me." He confesses.
"Hi Livvy!"
"Uh Hi Herrmann." She said a little discombobulated.
"Listen babe, I'm sorry for what I said this morning I was wrong and I didn't mean it." He said.
"Oh you mean the stupid fucking platitude I won't be saying anymore because it does nothing and means nothing to you? That? You're sorry for that? Good to know, it'd help if I thought you meant it and weren't being forced into doing the right thing like some first grader. All because Herrmann thinks he's jinxed. You wanna be mean for no reason other than I was the one in your eye line so can I kiss that stupid fucking platitude goodbye. I'm done for today. Goodnight I love you don't fucking die." She hung up.
Herrmann whistled low. "You're in the dog house brother I've been married twenty years and pissed Cin off a ton but she's never screamed don't fucking die at me. "
"I hurt her feelings..I just-never mind." He sputters.
"No What? Talk to me Kelly ya gotta talk to somebody and it can't be her now so out with It." Hermann pushes leaning on Kelly's desk.
Kelly sits up resting his elbows on his knees staring at his booted feet. "I don't hurt her feelings. I just don't. Liv has a hard life. Everything is hard, it takes sixteen extra steps to do anything but she does it." He looks up at Herrmann, "I mean hell she's a doctor. She wants to fix this but we're in too much pain. I did this, I said she was ours and I honestly thought… it sounds stupid." He said scrubbing a hand down his face.
"Say it anyway." Herrmann keeps pushing.
"You know when people say they heard God? Not like Joan of Arc crazy, hearing God, but like in your heart or whatever?"
"I'm a devout catholic so yeah." He smiled a little.
"I heard God, something tell me she was our child and now she's just gone."
"Maybe she still is. Not so sound hokey but pray about it."
"The last time I prayed I thought Livvy might be dead." He confesses.
"People don't pray near enough in praise but do it anyway,"
"For what?" Kelly asked.
"For Klaire, not that you get her back but that she's happy and healthy. That she has a good life. Tell her good bye because it's the only way the pain stops and you help Liv with hers rather than biting back at her." Hermann answers and Kelly nods.
"That's the thing about being a parent, you don't pray for your wants, your needs, you pray for them. It's the mark of a good father." Herrmann finished and walked out.
Kelly picks up the phone to redial Livvy to apologize properly. The alarm goes off. "Fuck."
-/-/-
Shay rolls in with a badly burned kid. "Jesus Leslie, "Liv swore. "Call burn unit, ninety percent…third and fourth degrees."
"Boarding school fire, Kelly missed him the first time. Found him doing secondary."
"Oh god." Her stomach drops.
-/-/-
Four Days later.
They're still not talking and Liv cries at work every day.
Liv's phone rings as she's in the supply closet for the singular crying jag she allows herself a day.
"Hello. "She said sucking back her tears.
"Olivia, hey sweet heart."
She exhales a breath. "Hey Benny."
"So I heard I was going to be a first time Grandpa until she got taken back. That's a really tough break."
She nods even though he can't see it. "You could say that."
"So how's Kelly he won't return mine or Katie's calls."
"I wished I could tell you Benny but he's shut me out and when we do talk we scream at one another. I scream he stands there. There was a fire and an unfortunate turn of events concerning a child. He blames me. I mean I did scream "Don't fucking die" then hung up. He was distracted and-"
"You are not responsible. Kelly has to compartmentalize on the job. He knows that. The fact that he couldn't is no one's fault. You check your shit at the door sometimes you can't." he advises as the veteran fireman he is.
"Shay said let him be I can't anymore, he's impatient and so damn stoic it's like talking to a wall. I need my guy back." She stares at the door.
"Shove it in his face and force him to deal. He's like me you have to push us when we're emotionally shut down. Do it and don't back down. You won't lose him he loves you but if he doesn't deal he will lose you and we both know it."
"What if it pushes him further away? "She said voice sounding small even to her own ears.
"Sweetie, you can't get much farther apart than taking my advice. Don't hold back, I promise he loves you enough to stop and listen."
"Thanks Benny."
-/-/-/-
Her mom brings her goulash for lunch and at the smell her stomach churns in a bad way. "Ok mom, I can't eat this. What's wrong with me I love your goulash but just looking at it makes me wanna puke." She shoves the bowl away.
"You go on up and have your blood drawn for a pregnancy test." Her mother orders.
"What? No I= I forgot to put in my birth control ring." She said cocking her head in speculation.
Her eyes fill with tears. "Livvy baby, its okay you can do this."
She shakes her head. "Kelly and I we're not good right now."
"Then you better get good babe."
"I'm trying. So what's Viv's deal?" She eats the garlic bread her mom had brought.
"She's staying with us because Shay invited her ex to temporarily move in."
"You have got to be kidding me?" Liv said in shock her eyes growing big.
"Nope."
Liv's phone rings. "Olivia Severide, okay yes, you want to confirm the delivery date of what?"
She hangs up. "Call Erin Mama you're going to need to bail me out of jail. Kelly bought a bike. I'm going beat his handsome head in."
-/-/-
She rolls right up into the middle of the bay and yells at him. "Were you going to tell me you did this? Or just hide it up here and hope I didn't notice the huge chunk of money missing from the joint account?"
"I was going to tell you once I got it running." He said tightly glancing up at her. He should probably say this is neither the time nor place but she's never had that look in her eye. He's not exactly sure he'd be heard.
"Oh ok, that makes doing it without consulting me perfectly okay because you were just going to casually mention over dinner. "Hey baby, I bought a death trap I hope that's okay!" Her eyebrows wing up and her hard expression is daring him to speak but he doesn't and she just steam rolls on. Any other time he'd find it sexy.
"Guess what it's not okay! You're supposed to talk to me about stuff like this. We're married and in case you've forgotten, you are supposed to tell me "This is how I'm dealing with losing Klaire and what happened at work. Then maybe I could get the death rates for these awful things out of my head if I knew it was helping you! I don't know what's going on with you because you don't talk about anything. You have said half a dozen words to me in a week. You're shut up tighter than a nun in an adult book store!"
Shay laughs. "That was funny."
"Why should I talk? That prick Holmby obviously has your bases covered if not more." By the time the statement leaves his mouth he regrets it. Tears swim in her eyes and a slap he wasn't expecting lands hard across his face. His cheek stings but he remains silent.
"You're an asshole Kelly! He caught me crying in the on call room and I went home early he texted to make sure I was okay. Which is more than you've done lately but if you read it then you know I didn't respond and I told him it was disrespectful and not to do it again because I was married." She answered.
"Why does he have your number?"
"Why does Renee Royce have your number? Two can play your game and I promise you'll be on the losing end. You have fucked most of Chicago but I trust you anyway! You really wanna start ripping skeletons outta that closet Kell? If we do my trust may no longer be a given. I know you miss Klaire so do I-"
"You didn't want her in the first place. "He shouts and the way she goes pale and makes a strangled sound tears into him but he doesn't show it.
"That's totally unfair I was scared. I wanted her how dare you. I am in just as much pain as you but you can't save everyone Kelly and we can't get her back. Lean on me or don't and see what happens. "She rolls away wiping at her tears.
"What's that supposed to mean? "He asks suddenly becoming very afraid he'd pushed her one step to far away.
"It means you're my husband if you'd like it to stay that way you better start acting like him because damned if I know who the fuck you are right now. "She shouts over her shoulder.
"Your wife she a natural redhead ain't she? Hot damn." Newhouse said.
He looks over at Shay. "Don't be stubborn quit hiding you love her more than I've seen you love anybody ever."
"Yeah."
"And Kelly? Delete her number. It hurts her feelings I promise you. You deserved that slap; don't let her apologize for it."
"Damn it! I accused her of cheating didn't I?"
"Yup, that's why she almost knocked your head off your shoulders." Chief butted in.
"It's not a promise but a fact." He murmured and scrubbed a hand down his face. "Goddamn it which way did she go?"
"Getting in her truck. If you hurry you can head off her calling the lynch mob we call family. I'm serious Owen hates you. Go!"Shay prompts.
"Baby wait!" He shouts trying to catch up to her.
"Leave me alone should be easy you've done it all week. "She spits out over her shoulder.
"Ok I get you're fired up still."
He blocks her in against the truck door one hand on either side of her head. "You're a regular Einstein Kelly. You called me a whore and said I didn't want my daughter you can shove it." She tries to shove him away he doesn't budge.
"I didn't call you a whore!" He said totally mystified.
"You backhandedly accused me of breaking my wedding vows it's the same thing!" her breath hitches to hold back tears and he feels like dirt.
She looked away from him off into the distance. "I thought about it, just talking to him because god knows crying alone in the supply closet every day is really lonely and I feel like someone died and you just sucked it up and went on."
"I'm sorry Baby," she turns away more when he tries to hug her. "No Livvy, come here. Look I'm sorry I mean that. I'm really sorry." He gathers her to him finally and holds on tight.
"She's everywhere and nowhere. She's stuffed into that room." She said muffled into the fabric of his jacket.
"We'll tear it all down. "He said softly swallowing back his own tears.
"Her name is on the wall." She said it so flatly if his heart wasn't already broken it'd have done so again.
"I know, I'll paint over it."
"I'll do it. You named her. I'm scared for you Kelly, I've never seen you this way I'm afraid of it all making you reckless." She backs away a bit to look at him. She wipes a tear trailing down his cheek.
He holds her face in his hands. "I am by nature slightly reckless but nothing will ever make me so reckless that my end goal isn't coming home to you okay? I'm sorry I stopped talking to you it's my default. I'm all Severide and we don't talk we grunt, and sulk and fight fires." He waits until she nods in understanding and laughs a little. "I've never met anyone who talks as much or as intelligently as you do. You were right and probably always will be. I shut you out and made choices without you I'm sorry. I know you wanted her and were afraid the worst would happen and it did." He took a breath and waited a beat in thought." I'm mad some little girl just dropped her in my arms and took her back like we were baby sitters, I'm mad at myself that my head wasn't clear because I missed her and I messed up big time here and missed that kid! I'm livid that I left you so alone that someone thought they could take advantage and almost did. "
He kissed her forehead. "I love you so much that if I think about it too long I get a little sick. Severide's don't love the way I love you we just don't. If you walked away from us because I can't admit I was wrong I'd never forgive myself.
I'm going to kiss you now mostly because you're really hot when you're mad at me."
"But you're all greasy."
"Deal with it."
"How'd you get-Mm" the kiss was bordering on indecent. It was the kind of kiss that reminded her they hadn't had sex all week. "Kelly we're in the firehouse parking lot." She reminds him her words falling on to his lips.
"Don't care. We can fit in the backseat or go to my quarters. Either way it's happening now-ish." He commands kissing her again.
"People will know!"
"I don't care. Sex is a form of communication. For instance if I bite you just a little there …" He nips at her neck. "Your brain tells your body it's turned on. Right?" he breathes near her ear. "And if I really want to? I can make you come without ever touching you…." Its half threat half promise and it does interesting things to her body…
"Kelly you aren't playing fair and we're out in the open." She whines but voices his thick.
"Unlock the truck." The command is lowly whispered in her ear and leaves no room for argument though she tries anyway.
"Kelly…" he takes the key fob from her. He presses the unlock button. "We can't…" he already has the door open.
"Oh… I'm gonna prove you so very wrong." He tosses her into the back seat as she laughs. He follows her in as she scoots down the seat on her hands. He leans into kiss her slamming the door behind him.
"Glad I paid extra for the really dark tinted windows." She said smirking.
-/-/-/-
There's a desperate hunger to it this time as Kelly rips at her clothes in the hurried need to touch. "Off…" she shoves at his jacket. Somehow he'd gotten her top and bra off but was still fully dressed himself. "Too many clothes."
He stops in pulling off her pants and sheds the jacket. She yanks his shirt over his head. "I'm still mad you bought the thing but you looked really hot trying to fix it." She kisses own his shoulder as he shoves down his pants and pushes aside her underwear to plant himself inside her body. She gives a startled little grunt but stays still as he settles in.
"I'll take it…" He pants over her. As he rocks forward into her, she hooks a finger into the chain of his St. Florian medal to pull him into her kiss. He puts his hands in her hair tugging lightly and playing with it.
"Hey your hands are dirty….uhhnn never mind…don't care…just keep…'
He rolled his hips a particular way. "Doing that?" he said laughing. "Your hair it's my thing…gotta touch…I'll wash it later I like doing it."
"You're… I can't think of a big word now."
"Note to self Liv's brain shuts up when properly turned on and fried by good sex."
"Well we haven't had sex in God knows how long."
"Seventy eight days..." Kelly responds.
"OW! Wait I'm on the seatbelt.
"Hang on to me."
"Why?"
"We're about to test how well your windows are tinted." He wraps her around turns and swings his legs down to sit up. She's sitting in his lap facing the back window.
"How'd you do that?"
"Had a few car quickies."
He thrust upward stopping her higher brain function.
Afterward they sit staring at one another. "I know I'm anti quickie but damn…"
"Changing your mind one roll in the hay at a time." He kissed her neck. "You liked that position…I'll remember."
She moved to lie back down taking him with her. "Yes, I have a rolodex in my head of things you like."
They lay there crammed on the seat together. She turns to look at him and almost falls off the seat. "Cars are not great for afterglow." He said reaching out to grab her. He pulls her into his chest.
"I was being petty about the be careful thing I'm sorry. I do realize it's just words. I just- I just love you that's all and I'm scared every time you leave. I really love you, so much more than anybody before and I didn't, I still don't know how to help you this stuff."
"Don't be sorry I took your thing and made it nothing because I was in a bad mood. I'm the one who's sorry baby."
"We've got to talk when life hits us in face Kelly we can't freeze each other out when things get rough."
"I know tell me about the boarding house boy." He asked.
"He's ten, it doesn't look good baby. Everything's burned even his lungs and airway."
"Jesus." He mutters tears stinging his eyes.
"Kell, if it were one of your guys what would you say to them?" her fingertip brushes his bottom lip and kisses it before answering.
"That the building was huge, too many rooms not enough time, the fire was smart advanced quick. That short of thermal imagers we'd never have found him on the first pass."
"Then tell yourself that for me please."
"Doesn't make it easier."
She shook her head and her hair tickles his chin. "No, my first month as a first year intern I had trouble with intubations. I was tubing this man with anaphylaxis, my instructor was a very by the book doctor. Believed in doing it until you mastered it. I tried normal intubating but I knew the guy was too swollen for visible cords I wanted to do a thoracotomy and trache the guy but my teacher insisted on scoping .I took too long even after the tracheotomy. He had permanent brain damage. He no longer speaks or walks and has the mental capacity of a ten month old. If I had defied my superior and followed my gut. Well He'd have a different life. You did you job baby, but it will always have its causalities no matter what you do."
"How do you do that Olivia?" He asked softly and kissed the top of her head.
"Do what?" She asked in confusion he only calls her Olivia if he's irked.
"Keep me going."
"My magic trick."
"Mom thinks I'm pregnant. I could be it fits. "She confesses.
"Really? Seriously? How we haven't since the explosion we were too wrapped up in Klaire."
"Kelly it only takes once baby. Do you want this Kelly? I mean we just lost Klaire and…"
He kissed her. "Of course I want anything you want Livvy." He kissed her again. "They can't take this one away."
"Kelly it's risky."
"Our lives are risky, baby just be happy and shut up and kiss."
"Kell! She said becoming miffed.
"Lovingly shut up. Lovingly.
"We need to fix Vivianne and Leslie."
"We need to go for round two." He mutters sucking on the soft flesh of her neck.
"Kelly I'm serious! Viv's at my parents because Devon is living with Shay." That stops him in his hickey trail making tracks.
"What the fuck?"He looks at her.
"I don't know. I just know what the Mama said." She shrugs.
"I thought they were solid. Like as solid as I've ever seen Shay."
"So did Vivi, just talk to her and see where her head's at. You should get dressed and get outta the truck before the boys start making weird and nasty bets."
"Oh they already are." He kissed her and sat up. "Just get out of the truck with your head high." He pulled on his shirt.
"Have you seen my bra?"
He stands up to pluck her bra off the parking brake. "There ya go."
"So I just act like I'm not a parking lot sex slut?" she said side eying him and shimmying into her purple bra.
He hands her scrub top. "Yep. Phil and Bill look good in that bra."
"You named my boobs?" He nods. "You're totally unrepentant."
"Never be sorry for good sex baby. Bad sex? Ill-advised sex? Yes but never for the good stuff." He buttoned his pants. He watched her meticulously dress and redo her hair. He leaned over and kissed the back of her neck. "I love you."
"Wait why do they have male names?"
"I was drunk when I named them."
"Well re name them!"
"Show em' to me!"
"Go away!"
He laughed. "I love you so much Liv. You make me happy."
She smiled he was incredibly lovey dovey after sex especially for a guy. "I love you too. Boob Names aside." He brushed a loose strand of hair behind her ear. "Wait for me to do the test?"
"It's just a blood draw Kelly but sure, I'll wait."
He gets out of the truck and helps her into her chair and loaded into the driver's seat. The alarm goes off. "Go! I'm fine. Be careful."
"Will do baby. Love you." He leans in the window to kiss her. "Drive safe and have a good day babe. By the way you get bonus points for the nun crack that shit was funny."
He kisses her and runs back toward the squad truck.
-/-/-/-
Sometime later she texts him. "You need to drop by for Boden's wedding gift. Boarding school fire kid is looking better."
"Be by in ten."
He shows up at the nurse's station with a sheepish grin.
"What did you do?"
"Nothing…really… "He takes the daisy he had hidden behind his back. "But I did still this from an old lady's window box for you." He tucked it behind her ear.
"You stole from an old lady for me. It really is true love." She said laughing. She kissed him then handed him the gift bag. "Wanna go upstairs and do the blood draw with me real fast?"
"Sure what'd we get Chief? "He peers into the bag.
"I don't know Viv shopped for me."
-/-/-/-
"Hold my hand I hate this part." Liv said as she awaited the stick.
"My wife the doctor afraid of needles."
"Hold my hand or I'll punch you." She threatens.
He smiles and kisses her. "Mama Mara may be right."
"Stop it with the I did that, I'm so proud of myself smirk. We don't know anything yet. Although it is nice to see you so ebullient."
"That means happy." She answered his blank look.
"Thanks for the clarification baby. You're like living with the hot chick from Dawson's Creek, so damned wordy.
"Severide… Hermann needs us back at the house." Cruz radioed over.
"Can it wait five seconds?"
The needle and tubing slide out. "I'll have the results to you at days end Mrs. Severide."
"I'm all good baby. You can go." He kissed her hand. "Have fun at the wedding. If Viv shows up dance with her. She's sad."
"Rather dance with you."He kissed her and got up. "See ya baby. No peeking."
"Nope. Bye Kell."
`-/-/-/-
Olivia is paged to ER reception and Althea Botwin stands with Klaire in a carrier.
"The mother couldn't do it, she's yours she's a ward of the state until your papers go through and the final home check but she's yours. Her mother asked I take her to her mother."
Liv lifts Klaire from the carrier trying not to completely lose it and bawl in the middle of her work place.
"Hiya baby girl…" she kisses her cheeks and hugs her close. "How you been?" she kissed her head and the girl fusses at being messed with. "I'll stop I'm sorry! I'm so happy to see you Klaire. Let's call Daddy."
The phone rings and rings but she gets no answer. Her text message dings. "You alright on a call. I will call when I'm done. Gotta go!"
She drops the baby off in the daycare and goes back to work until she is pulled aside by her intern for that day Keeling. "What's MAYDAY?"
"Emergency, Police, or Fire?"
"Why? What is it?"
"If you want me to teach you anything ever again you'll answer my question. Which department fire or cop?"
"Fire, the chief for house 51 called one in for his entire company, rescue, truck, and EMT. Everyone's acting crazy… I don't-"
"How long ago Keeling?"
"Why?"
"Mayday means my husband is trapped. How long ago?"
"Three minutes maybe?"
"How far was engine behind them? It halls water to the fire. How long?"
"Five minutes."
She goes to the radio. "Who was last in chief? Who had the farthest to go to get to safety Boden?"
"Olivia…"
"Don't screw with me Wallace, not now." She demands.
"I'm his boss I can't divulge-"
"The fuck you can't if Benny asked you'd answer? I'm his wife! I know my husband, he goes last to keep track of his guys. Or he leads them in which was it?"
"He was last in of my firemen. Gabi and Shay were last before the explosion."
"Explosion!"
"I had last radio contact with Kelly. He was headed to clear the third floor."
"I'll be right there to help."
"They won't let you. You are Severide's wife its conflict of interest. I need you stay there, just stay there. Do that for me okay?"
"Okay. I didn't mean to be rude." Her apologies
"You can't be married to that man without some backbone its fine. Keep the radio. I'll let you know as soon we get him out."
"Affirmative sir."
She goes to Arata to help with the emergency response coordination of the hospital but when she rolls in to the kids waiting area the sand table in the corner by the door stops her in her tracks as she remembers making sand bottles when he'd asked her out. They had been inseparable ever since, she had gotten everything she ever had the guts to hope for in Kelly She refused to give that up. She feels nauseated and faint.
"You tried to prepare me for this but I wasn't ready. I'm not ready Kelly, please. "She prayed to the bright walls of the empty room.
She sits perfectly still and waits.
AN: Please don't hate me but this is it until next season! I can do one shots of things you didn't see or would like to but story wise I'm trapped until season three thank you so much for the overwhelming response to this I have enjoyed every minute of writing it! Thanks!-mm