Liv sits shaking and rocking back and forth in her seat in a corner of the waiting room. She dials Erin.
"You've reached Detective Erin Lindsay please leave a message I will get back to you as soon as possible. If this is Livvy Severide leave it at the beep bitch!"
"If Hank hears that it's your ass girl, change it. I need you to call me back a building exploded today Kelly was inside…" her voice breaks. "I'm scared, so please call me back."
She grips the radio but it's nothing but static and the occasional garbled command. "Don't be dead Kelly, Don't be dead, don't be dead, don't be dead…I…please baby don't be dead. I can't be by myself… I can't breathe…I can't…"
"Livvy." Says a voice she knows too well.
She looks over and there's Carver. "I really can't breathe help me." She said fighting off hysteria.
"You're panicking honey…"
She shook her head, "my husband might be dead… I deserve a good panic attack…"
"I'm going to touch you Olivia."
"Kelly will punch you."
"He's welcome to do it…"
He held her face in his hands. "Breathe and tell me what you need."
"My husband. A beer, my mom. "She took a hitching breath.
"Carver? You're smart what're the odds he'll survive?"
He smiled at her genuinely and for the first in ages she remembered why she'd once loved him. "You survived didn't you baby, there's gotta be a reason."
"Don't be nice Carve."
"Why?"
"Because you didn't value her heart enough to suit me the first time she gave it to you. Leave my child alone, she's in a fragile place now you don't get to nudge and flirt your way back into her graces." Her father answered from behind them.
"Daddy." She jerked her head to look at him and Carver dropped his hands and left her.
"Ollie girl."
"He was just trying to help Dad. I loved Carver, I'm in love with Kelly and I always will be. What're you doing here?"
"Bought a scanner after the hospital explosion. I heard the call go out."
"How'd he sound?" She sniffled and glanced sideways at him.
"It was garbled, hard to follow but he was calm. He wasn't afraid."
"Good that's good, I always thought I'd know if he was dead? Like some martial mind link. It's not that way. I don't know. "
"Tell me things you do know." He reached over and held her shaking hand.
"I know I love him and he loves me, I know that he's going to fight for me because he said he'd never be so reckless that his end goal wasn't coming home to me. I know Kelly is smart and strong and knows what he's doing. I know that if he dies it's because his body gave him no choice. I know we got Klaire back today and that I might be pregnant, I know I don't want to do it on my own. I know that I want Kelly alive at all costs."
He kissed her temple. "Keep all the good stuff in your head and shove out the bad. Let's go get my sweet Klaire from day care."
"Where's everyone else?" She asked as the rolled toward Employee Childcare
"On their way."
"Viv?" She looked up as Cole pushed.
"Mom's getting her."
When she rolled into the daycare the hush that falls over the place let her know that news is traveling the hospital. She's literally the only doctor married to a fire fighter in the whole hospital at least to her knowledge.
"He's fine." She whispered to herself avoiding their eyes as she picked up Klaire. "Hey little love."
She turned wheeling directly into her father who lit up at the sight of Klaire for a second it all lifts.
"Kelly's going to be so happy when he sees her." He said
Liv chokes back a sob. "I tried to tell him, but he was busy. He doesn't know we have her, that he was right. He has to know he wasn't wrong, that his heart was right." She wipes at the tears dripping down her face.
"He'll know." He takes the baby from her. "Mom texted, Viv needs us."
-/-/-/-
When Vivi sets her eyes on her sister and her puffy tear stained face she assumes the worst and crumples in herself like old newspaper. "Oh God!"
"No, ViviAnne, No! I don't know anything yet." Liv rushes over and folds her in an embrace. "We don't know yet, Hang on okay."
"How we will know?" Viv asked with a shaky voice.
"The Chaplin and Chief will tell us, but don't go there okay? Kelly says never go there unless it's there in my face." She answered while rubbing Viv's back.
"I love her you know? We were fighting but I love her."
"I know, Viv I know you do." She kissed Vivi's the top of Viv's bent head.
"I don't want the last things we said to be hateful Livvy. I- I will never forgive myself."
"People fight Viv; life doesn't stop because her job is dangerous. You can't live in what if's and maybe's. You need to have a little faith; you'll make up and be fine… I promise. Shay's to stubborn to die." She advised and Vivi began pulling it back together.
"Easy for you to say you Kelly made up. I heard major car nookie." She said and Liv can't help but laugh as her father looks sick.
"Only because we stopped fighting against each other and fought for each other. You want her? Fight! Don't roll over and let that Devon bitch have what's yours. Stand up and take her back."
Vivi looked over Liv's shoulder. "OH my God Klaire!"
"Yup!" Liv grinned widely.
"Gimmie Daddy!" Vivi demanded snatching the girl from him.
Liv smiles glad Klaire can provide even temporary distraction. Mother sits down next to her. "I want Kelly Mom, this is torture."
"When you were first injured you got really severe pneumonia they put you in the ICU, I could only stay for fifteen minute in intervals every hour. I'd sit outside your room pray those other 45 minutes would pass faster just so I could touch you again."
"What'd you do?" She looked to her mother.
"I waited. You'll get to touch him again."
-/-/-/-/-
All of Liv's family having arrived, they're sitting around talking.
"Well obviously this Devon chick missed the lezzy memo, just because you licked it once don't mean it's yours. That just means you licked it and she maybe liked it. You lick it and gives you house keys then it's yours. Bitch is lettin' you sleep on her couch she didn't give you no key move the fuck on." Owen said as they all stare at him. "I may have binge watched orange is new black." He explained
"What is the heterosexual equivalent of "I licked it therefore its mine "Is it like, doggy style or letting them come on face level of commitment?" Sarah Anne asked. They all turn slowly and stare.
"What kinda freaky shit do you let Lang do to you?" Liv asked in slight shock.
"It's the quiet ones, y'all I'd pick a mouse over a lion any day." Lang said.
"But to be fair I think the straight people's lick rule is called marriage. At least I hope it is, because if it's anal I'm out." Liv said shivering slightly.
"Why though it's not like you have full sensation. We all know you let Kelly do whatever he pleases. "Rain adds.
"Yeah we heard about your parking lot sexcapade." Liam said standing up and doing a little dance "Getcha some…go on get it…."
"Pull enough weird objects from people's rectums and you'd be anti-anal too."
"What kind of weird stuff?" Owen leaned forward.
"Would you all please stop? I did not raise low brow conversationalists." Cole said.
"Was it rectum or anal that got you Daddy?" Liv teased.
"No, Wait Livvy I know, Dad's been watching sex sent me to ER again. Let me guess? Close call old man?" Owen teased.
"Besides sex is universal not low brow." Vivi defended.
"Is having sex in the ER better or worse than sex sending you to the ER?"Liv asked.
"Have you had sex here? Like in a supply closet like something on Grey's anatomy? Like the time Izzy tells Alex to take his pants off all bossy like." Rainey asked
"Stop it before your Daddy dies of embarrassment." Mara said.
"And you said you'd never stifle our self-expression." Vivi pointed out.
"Shame on you Mommy." Liv adds. "Seriously let's stop before I have track down some Nitro pills for Dad."
The radio crackles in Liv's hand. "Olivia Severide Report!"
"Yes sir,"
"We've started digging out debris I haven't reached anyone yet. But we're digging."
"Thank for the update."
"Not a problem after all, I've seen you pissed at your man. Updates are easier on me."
-/-/-/-
"I was told to rush these results to you Ma'am." An orderly hands Liv an envelope and her stomach drops with too many things to name.
"What's wrong? "Lang asked catching a look at her face.
"Are you dying?" Grady's head pops up behind her, "Because if you die? No more Kelly and no Kelly means no car. I like the car and I love you but I really like his car."
"Bronwyn Grady Grayne!" Mara admonished.
"What it's a totally valid question a building fell on her, she was in a fire and her hospital exploded!"
"I'm not dying, though Kelly would appreciate your value of his car."
"Then what's the paper?"
"Pregnancy test results."
"Eww you had sex. That's just gross and wrong." He slumps in his chair dejected.
"Well look!" Rainey interrupts.
"I can't."
"Why not, afraid it's negative? It couldn't hurt I mean Kelly could use some good news."
"I can't because I promised Kelly we would look together."
"I think there are extenuating circumstances."
"It's the last thing he said to me Rain, no peeking, it's the last thing he said! I will honor it now, just shut up!" She yells and then feels bad when Rainey blanches palely. "I'm so sorry Rain I just..."
"It's okay; you're scared I'm sorry I pushed." Rainey walks over as Vivi pulls Liv into a hug.
The tears Liv had pulled back and sucked in break free in harsh sobs. "Shhh. Its okay, Livvy." Lang leaned over kissing the crown of her head. "Breathe Sis, just breathe."
"It's not okay Langston! A building exploded with him in it! He was last in and on the third floor! He had no time to get to safety! None of them did! It's not okay! If he's dead and I have to raise two kids less than a year a part by myself? I'll lose my mind. And Erin's not here! She bailed on me for Annie because Charlie is back!" She shouted.
"She what? Because of who?" Owen asked eyes going dark.
"Shit O! I wasn't supposed to say anything."
"Well you did! So fucking explain it to me. He's not meant to be here and we both know it. What he has on her Livvy its bad. She didn't want to tell you because if she told you as medical professional you'd have to tell or risk losing your cortication."
"He's back and has Annie over a barrel about the kid and Hank doesn't know. At least last we talked he didn't. Sometimes I wish she'd never met that bitch Annie."
"I'm going to find her." He started stomping off.
"Owen I don't think it's your place too-"Lindsey Owen's wife interrupts.
"Yes it is, she obligated to more than just Annie. Sometimes she forgets. I will remind her."
-/-/-/
There is loud banging at her door. "Erin open up!"
"Are you drunk?" She said exasperated.
"No!"
"I'm not having sex with you!"
"For God's Sake Erin open the fucking door. It's about Liv!" He growled out.
The door swung open so fast the door hit the wall with a smack that reverberated through the room.
"What is it Owen using your Sister as an in is old and tacky." She crossed her arms over chest and waited impatiently.
"The fact you think so very little of me makes me wonder if you ever loved me at all, or Livvy for that matter." He shot back.
"Whatever is wrong? I hope it is worthy of that last remark. You know I love your sister."
"She's tried getting ahold of you. She's holding vigil in the hospital room, she's waiting to see if Kelly's dead. She's earning her fire wife stripes in a lot of ways today."
"What happened?" She said grabbing her jacket.
"Another explosion, I'm really tired of shit blowing up her life."
"I'll-" Erin starts.
"Bring her, don't bring her, I don't care like I said Liv has earned your love and attention too."
"Owen!"
"She yelled at Lang. She never yells at Lang, you know how intertwined they get. She's hanging on by a thread, Viv is in fucking pieces and Livvy got Klaire back today and can't be happy about it,"
-/-/-/-
I can feel you Corley. What is it?" Liv said turning to look at the second year resident.
"Arata said…." He started only to be cut off.
"He said to not bother me you did the opposite. For good reason I hope?"
"School bus versus semi."
"Good reason I'll be right there." He took off her wedding rings. "Repin me Dad?"
Her dad does so quickly and she rolls off but not before jamming her hands underneath an automatic hand sanitizer. "Push me and run it down for me." She demands of the youngest doctor twisting her hair into a bun.
"At least 10 critical, sixteen with major injuries, four minor … Driver had a heart attack."
"Never an easy day, never… let's do it." She muttered,
"Yes Ma'am."
"Who's on grunt duty?"
"New interns why?"
"Alert all major medical specialties in peds. Cardio, blood bank. Neuro, Ortho. Then find smartest of the intern's park them at the emergency entrances and tell lakeside to notify me if anyone from fifty one shows up there. First one to see my husband and to come get me gets to help on the next general Peds surgery."
"Can you do that? Bribe them?"
"I just did it Corley. Go."
For a while she gets wrapped in her work and she can breathe. Once that chaos dies down she finds herself in the chapel.
"Where God meets Doctor?"
"Hey Erin." She said tiredly glancing at the cross on the chapel wall.
"Hey beautifully brave bestie." Erin sat next to her in a pew.
"I don't feel brave I feel scared."
"Whatcha doin?"
"Praying and waiting and watching…" She held her phone up. "Liam posted our wedding video to his YouTube."
"Well play it then bitchy mcslut nuts." Erin said and Liv gave a startled laugh.
"You cursed creatively, in a church."
"This isn't…shit it's a church. Just hit play."
She hit play. "So you married into all this, what do you most look forward to Grayne hijinks aside?" Liam asked off camera and zoomed in on Kelly's lively smiling face.
"I look forward to all things Liv, I look forward to fixing the leaky sink and forgetting to take the trash out. I look forward to being the one to wake up beside you every morning. I look forward to fighting over baby names. I don't care what you say Cinder is a good name…" He paused tearing up. "I look forward to my life with you Olivia. I will never deserve you but I will keep trying, you've changed me in so many ways, I am gentler, kinder, I listen better because you always hear what I can't say. You are beyond beautiful to me. You are the smartest person I know. I trust you. You are my very best friend. Without you I'd be useless. I love you Boo! Ha got it in! We're gonna be happy Livvy." Kelly pauses to squat down and pick something up. "Josh wants to say hi. Say hi to your sister."
"Hi Blister."
"No, sister." Kelly corrected him and kissed his cheek.
Josh nodded. "Blister!"
Liv hits pause and looks at Erin. "We've…Erin why're you crying?"
"He loves you as you should be loved."
"Erin honey…."
Erin shook her head and wiped her eyes quickly. "'You shouldn't lose that is all."
"And if I do?" Liv looks up to the scriptures carved into the lectern.
"You won't."
"If I do?" She pushed.
"It's not happening."
They say the first year of marriage is hardest, look at all we've faced and we haven't hit the six month mark. If the worst happens don't let me drown promise me." She said staring Erin down.
"Yo! Seester!" Lang shouts. "Whoa church." He interrupted them.
"It says chapel what is wrong with you two! " Liv asked
"First waves headed in." He said
She rolled as fast as she could to the ER doors.
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AN: I had to break this up I hope you guys liked it. 51 crew appears next chapter. If you liked it review! I own nada but the Grayne's. -MM