A/N: Hey guys I'm finally back! Thank you all SO much for all your thoughts and kind words while I was struggling through my Depression. It helped me so much. I'm doing much better now. I found a new job that I'm excited about and am not as stressed out as I was before. Anyway, I have a nice long chapter for you. I hope it was worth the wait. I'll try to get Part V out in the next week or two, but can't make any promises. It depends on my work load. Anyway stay safe and please review. Love, Ellivia22
Disclaimer: if I owned Teen Titans, Starfire would've had her own season. It's a shame we didn't get to see more of her backstory
Trust Me
Part IV
Raven
When I wake up the next morning I feel happier than I have in days. Beast Boy held me late into the night until I was out of tears. Even though he still doesn't remember our relationship I've realized that it's so much easier to control my emotions when he's around. Because of this I've decided to abandoned my original plan of avoiding him and instead act as normally as I can until he regains his memory.
At 7AM sharp I arrive at the training course outside of Titan's Tower. Surprisingly Beast Boy is already there chatting energetically with Cyborg. Usually he's the last person to show up. I gaze at him from underneath my hood. My emotions are calmed and relaxed not only from seeing him but also from the events from last night. My love for him is stronger than ever. I just hope that last night meant as much to him as it did to me.
"So I finally remembered something," Beast Boy is saying as I get closer. I freeze in my tracks.
Cyborg glances at his best friend cautiously. "Really? That's great!" Cyborg attempts to say enthusiastically, but I catch the uneasiness in his tone for obvious reasons. "What do you remember?"
"I remember spending time in the hospital because of Slade-though I don't remember what happened that put me there." A blush appears on his face, making him look like a tomato. "I also remember that...that I have a girlfriend."
My mouth drops open in surprise. He remembers me? He remembers our relationship? Why didn't he say anything last night? "That's great that you remember something," Cyborg says. I hold my breath, waiting to hear more.
"Yeah. The only problem is I don't have any idea who she is. The only clue I have is this." Beast Boy holds up the anonymous note Love insisted that I put with the gift I left in his room last night.
Even though we are apart, my love for you continues to grow Love sighs in my head.
"So out with it Cy," Beast Boy says impatiently. "Who is she? Why hasn't she come to see me? Does she know that I got injured?"
Cyborg glances at me cautiously. "Well..."
"Beast Boy, you're up," Robin calls from his position in front of the panel that controls the course.
I float beside Cyborg once Beast Boy is on the battle course. "It's good that he's finally starting to remember," Cyborg says, though his tone tells me that he's less than enthusiastic.
"Yeah," I respond monotonously.
"So what should I tell him?"
"Nothing. You're not going to tell him it's me, or how we got together. Got it?!"
Usually Cyborg backs down when he sees the sharp look I'm giving him at this moment, but this time he stands his ground. "I have to tell him something!"
I sigh. He's right. "Tell him...tell him that her name is Rachel and he met her during a mission. Tell him...tell him that she is away and that she'll be in contact soon."
The half robot sighs in annoyance. "This is just stupid. Why don't you just tell him the truth?! You know that he loves you!"
"Great job Beast Boy," Robin says. "Raven, you're next!"
I start walking towards the beginning of the course. "Because if I do, it would make everything even more complicated."
Once I reach the starting line I force myself to focus. If I mess up, Beast Boy will start asking more questions, and that's the last thing I need right now.
A couple hours later I'm sitting on the couch in the living room attempting to read the large book that's sitting in my lap. Ironically it's the same book I was attempting to read the night Beast Boy attempted suicide. Because of everything going on the past few months I still haven't been able to get very far.
Try as I might I find that I'm still too distracted to read-not from worrying about Beast Boy, but because I'm sitting next to him. He and Cyborg have been watching Clash of the Planets since battle practice ended. Normally I can tune out my surroundings easily when engrossed in a great book, but this time I'm keeping an eye on the boys just to make sure that Cyborg doesn't tell Beast Boy too much.
When the end credits for the third episode roll on the large TV screen, Beast Boy turns to Cyborg. "So tell me about my girlfriend. What's her name? How did I meet her? Tell me everything."
"Well, her name is Rachel," Cyborg stutters awkwardly. "You two met while we were on a mission with strange aliens that came to Earth. She keeps to herself most of the time, but she cares about people-when she's not being bossy." I grit my teeth, resisting the urge to beat the half robot with a random object. "And she's totally crazy about you."
"She sounds a lot like Raven, except much nicer," Beast Boy says. I look up from my book and glare at the green changeling. He's so lucky that I'm in love with him, otherwise I'd beat him with a random object too. Beast Boy closes his eyes, a blissful expression on his face. "Rachel. What a beautiful name. I remember how she made me feel when she visited me in the hospital. She made me forget any pain I was feeling. She's so kind and sweet, and always made me feel so...loved. I know that she stopped by my room last night. Why didn't she come to see me? Where is she?"
"I don't know man," Cyborg answers. "Maybe she had an emergency and had to leave quickly. I'm sure she'll be back soon. Just focus on getting your memories back. That way things will be a lot less confusing when she comes back."
Cyborg's answer seems to satisfy Beast Boy, which is a great relief. "Good idea," Beast Boy says, turning his attention back on the TV as the next episode begins.
What are we waiting for? Love asks in my mind. This is the perfect time to tell Beast Boy the truth. Tell him that Rachel is our real name.
No! You know why we can't do that! I argue back silently. He'll hate us once he realized that we lied to him!
This is Beast Boy we're talking about. He's not capable of hating anybody. Stop being so stubborn and let me tell him the truth. If he reacts negatively I'll take full responsibility.
It hasn't occurred to me until just now how powerful my Love emotion is. I know that I love Beast Boy with all my heart, but I never thought I'd see the day where my Love emotion would be the strongest of them all. Reluctantly I give in. I close my book. "Beast Boy?" my voice quivers in nervousness.
The green boy tears his eyes away from the huge TV screen to look at me. "Yeah Raven?"
"I have to tell you something." I take a deep breath. "I'm-."
Suddenly red flashes in the room. Titan's alarm. Seriously?! I sigh in frustration. Why is it that every time I build up the courage to tell Beast Boy the truth fate intervenes?
"Time to go," Cyborg says, shutting off the TV with a click of a button. "You coming, BB?"
"You bet I am," Beast Boy replies energetically. His green eyes are still watching me closely. It takes all that I am to keep the blush from appearing on my face. I feel as though he's trying to read my soul. "I've missed kicking bad guy butt!"
Silently I follow the other two out of the living room. Another time I say to Love. I will tell him. I promise. However as doubts cross my mind once more, I wonder if I'll be able to keep that promise.
Beast Boy
When I arrive at the destination of the mission I'm pumped and ready to go. Being cooped up in the tower for two days was starting to get to me. I need some action. A big grin is on my face. Once we defeat this bad guy I'm going to learn everything I can about my girlfriend, Rachel. Rachel, such a beautiful name. I wonder what she looks like. I bet she's absolutely gorgeous. I hope she won't be out of town for long.
I am put to even more ease when I realize that it is just Cinderblock we're facing. The whole journey here I was afraid it was Slade coming after me-though I still have no idea how he captured me or why he did so in the first place.
The huge slab of concrete is roaming the streets of Jump City, smashing buildings as he goes. I have no idea what he hopes to gain from doing so, but hey, this is Cinderblock we're talking about. He's not exactly the brightest crayon in the box.
"Stop. Right. There." Robin commands loudly once we get close enough. Cinderblock smashes the window of the local gym, then with a grunt he turns to face us. "We don't know what you're up to, Cinderblock, but this stops NOW!"
Cinderblock lets out a furious roar and begins charging fast towards us. "Titan's Go!" Robin commands as usual.
My teammates spread out in various directions and begin attacking the villain as he comes closer. I stay where I am, my green eyes focused hard. I bare my teeth and focus, turning into the first animal that comes to mind: a lion.
Like I have been all day, I struggle to transform. A stinging sensation spreads across my chest. I feel as though several rubber bands are being slapped hard against my skin. It's the same pain I felt during the mission against the robot suited man, and when I went to battle practice this morning. I ignored it earlier, but this time the pain to seems to be more excruciating. How strange. I don't have a single mark on me. I turn back into myself.
"BB, man, are you okay?" Cyborg asks from beside me, shooting his cannon at Cinderblock's side, doing his best to avoid hitting Robin, who is performing his usual martial arts, kicking and punching him at a rapid speed.
"I'm fine." I transform into something smaller, a hummingbird. My chest doesn't hurt so bad if I transform into something smaller. I fly up high, preparing to transform into something bigger once I get closer.
Without warning, Cinderblock grabs me roughly around the middle. I struggle with all my might to get out of his grasp, but he holds on firm. The only thing I'm able to do is turn back into human form. The pain in my chest flares even more the harder he squeezes. No longer do I feel like rubber bands are being slapped against my skin. Instead it's like something extremely hot is being placed against my chest. It's agonizing. Breathing is becoming difficult and I feel nauseous at the same time. I might pass out soon.
"BEAST BOY!" The frightened voice seems so far away, and yet so familiar.
"Please Slade," I whisper, my vision going in and out of focus. "D-don't hurt her."
"YO! Let go of my friend now you dumb pile of rocks!" Cyborg yells from below. I vaguely hear the sound of a sonic blast, then feel Cinderblock's grip on me lessening. He lets go. Once I regain all of my senses I land easily on the ground, clutching onto my chest. Something doesn't feel right. It's as if I've felt this kind of pain before, but that's impossible. I struggle to get my breathing under control. I'm not sure how much time passes, but the next thing I know I'm surrounded by the rest of the team.
"Friend Beast Boy, are you all right?" Starfire asks in a higher pitched voice than normal.
When I finally calm down I realize to my great disappointment that because the team was more focused on my well being, Cinderblock was able to disappear. There is no sign of the rock villain anywhere, which is impressive for someone so large. My chest squeeze painfully once more, but not for physical reasons this time. We failed the mission and it's all my fault.
I lower my head. "I-I'm sorry guys," I whisper. "I-I don't know what's wrong with me, but it's my fault we failed our mission." I struggle to keep the tears back. "I guess I really am useless."
Starfire puts a reassuring hand on my shoulder. "I promise you, Friend Beast Boy, you are not less of use. You are a very valuable member to this team."
My head snaps up and I stare at Starfire hard. Her words don't make me feel any better. If anything, I feel worse. For some reason I can't help but think that I've heard her say less of use before, but not in such a positive tone.
"Yeah, don't worry about it BB," Cyborg adds, giving me a reassuring smile when I look at him. "Your health is more important than that stupid hunk of rocks!"
How could you be so stupid?! I clutch my head in attempt to get rid of those words. Words that my teammates have thrown at me several times-mostly Raven. Most of the time they'd say it out of mild disappointment, but the words ringing in my head this time are full of hate. I think I'm going to be sick. I can feel Robin's eyes on me. I refuse to look at him-or anyone for that matter. "I-I'm sorry Robin. I'm sorry that I screwed up. It's my fault we failed the mission."
It's your entire fault Beast Boy! Robin's angry voice rings in my head. It's not the first time he's said these words to me. I close my eyes and wait for him to say them to me again. "It's not your fault, Beast Boy. I should've made you rest another day," Robin says gently. His tone catches me off guard. Instead of being angry about losing, he sounds more concerned. "I know you don't have much faith in yourself, but let me be the first to say that you are not worthless. You are a valuable member of this team. Like Cyborg said, your health is more important than some stupid mission."
My head is spinning. I feel as though I'm going through de ja voux. Did I mess up on a mission during the time that I've lost? Is that why my friends' words of encouragement sounds so familiar? I want to believe that, but deep down it feels like what really happened was the total opposite. I'm so confused. Nothing seems to make sense anymore.
I pull away from my friends and attempt to walk away. I need to be alone. I don't make it too far. My head is buzzing and all my consuming emotions becomes too much. My knees give out and I hit the ground hard. My hands rest on the road. I struggle once again to breathe properly.
I feel a hand on my back. "I'm fine," I mutter, my eyes focused on my gloved hands. "I-I just need to be alone."
"You don't look so good," Raven's monotone voice says from beside me. "Come on. I'm taking you back to the tower." The next thing I know her arms are around me and I'm engulfed in black aura as she takes me away. I can't take this anymore. I need answers and I need them now.
A few minutes later I'm lying in the medical ward, an ice pack on my sweating forehead. Finally I have the ability to calm down from what Raven says was a panic attack. It's so weird. I've never had a panic attack before, unless you count the sudden fear of seeing Cyborg yesterday. Even more confusing, I don't understand what could have caused it. I've messed up lots of time and the reactions of my teammates never phased me. Why is today so different?
I observe Raven quietly as she sits next to me in a chair and checks all my vitals with her magic. Even though I have a girlfriend I can't control the blush that spreads across my face with Raven being so close. It brings me back to the events that occurred last night. Holding Raven in my arms felt so good-so familiar. I can't help but feel like I've done this before. But that's impossible-there's no way I'd forget something like that. Unless...
"Well, besides an elevated heart rate, all your vitals look normal," Raven says in her usual monotone. Her expression is serious-like always. "What happened back there? You've never messed up like that before."
"I'm not sure," I answer honestly. "Lately it seems I've been having a hard time transforming. Every time I try it's like a sharp pain across my chest, and not in just one spot either, but all over. I have no idea where it's coming from. And after Cinderblock ran off I kept getting de ja voux, but not actual memories-."
"Your body became overwhelmed," Raven finishes for me. She pulls up her hood, hiding her face. "What did you see?"
"Uh..." Even though I love Raven, I find that I'm not comfortable telling her about the negative words that kept repeating in my head. The fact that she hasn't told me about anything that I've forgotten makes me realize that despite wanting her to trust me, I'm having a hard time trusting her right now. "I don't want to talk about it."
"Beast Boy..."
I turn my head so that I don't have to look at her. "Even if I did tell you, I know that you won't tell me what happened to make me experience such flashbacks, or why my chest hurts every time I try to transform. You and the others have been keeping me in the dark and I don't understand why! All I want is the truth! Why won't you guys tell me anything?!"
"We're just trying to protect you," Raven says, her voice quivering me.
I turn my head to glare at her. "Protect me from what?! Tell me Raven! What happened to me?!"
I can see a mental battle in Raven's violet eyes. Then she lets out a soft sigh. "You're right. We haven't been fair to you."
Rrrrrrrrip
My eyes widen in surprise. Using her magic Raven rips the top of my black and purple uniform from my collar to just above my silver belt. Then she moves the torn pieces to the side, exposing my green chest. Heat rushes in my body and my heart pounds. Raven has never done something like this before. I can't help but feel scared and confused all at the same time-not to mention exposed. "R-Raven what was that for?!"
Her eyes stay focused on my chest. She lays a hand over my heart. "Azarath Metrion Zinthos," she chants.
I feel as though water is running down my chest, but when I look down I see nothing unusual at first. Then red marks in the shape of a chain appear across my chest. There are also several large bruises scattered across my chest in the final stages of healing. The imprint of the chain is red and crosses my body. Gingerly I touch it with my finger. It has a slight indention, like the wound on my side, yet when I touch it it's slightly warm. Another scar. From the looks of it I've acquired it very recently. Once I overcome the shock I meet Raven's gaze, understanding dawning on me.
"Slade." I stutter.
"Yes. He captured you and tortured you in an attempt to get you to become his apprentice. Those scars are from chains that he used to burn you with. I hid this from you because I didn't want you to relive everything he did to you. I-I wanted to protect you."
"But I don't understand. Why did Slade think I would be willing to join him? After everything he did to Terra, he has to know that my hatred for him runs pretty deep. I'd rather die than join him."
"Because he sees the potential in you-potential we all see. He thought you'd be a powerful ally. You resisted him and did almost die, but thankfully we were able to rescue you in time."
It warms my heart hearing Raven compliment me like that. It's very rare from her. Still, none of this makes sense. Slade had other Titans that are more worthy to be his apprentice, like Robin, Cyborg, or Starfire. Even Raven would be better. Why would he choose me? Even though her hood is up I still can tell that she's holding things back.
"What else have I forgotten, Raven? Please I HAVE to know!"
Knock Knock
We look to the door of the medical ward to see the rest of the team. Raven stands up. "Come by my room this evening around eight and I promise I'll tell you everything." Then without another word she floats past the others and out of the room.
"So Raven revealed to you all your injuries," Robin says as everyone enters the room.
"Yeah." My eyes stay transfixed on the burns. I'm tempted to cover myself, but figure that the others have already seen them. "But I still don't remember being captured by Slade or what he did to me."
"That is a good thing," Starfire says. "There is no need for you to remember such things. The important thing is you were able to survive."
"Yeah. We're sorry that we kept this from you, buddy," Cyborg says apologetically. "We just want you to be happy."
I smile. It feels good knowing how much they care. Starfire is right, there is no point dwelling on the past if I survived. "Thanks guys. So besides my encounter with Slade what else have I missed?"
"Oh not much," Cyborg says casually. "Just kicking bad guy butt as usual."
"Hey guys, could you give us a minute alone," Robin says before I can ask more questions. Cyborg and Starfire immediately leave the room without question. Robin sits at the chair where Raven was a few minutes ago.
I avoid looking at my leader. I know Robin and I know that he's about to lecture me about my poor performance during the mission. "Listen Robin, about the battle," I begin. "I-."
"Don't worry about it," Robin interrupts. "I know that you didn't mean to screw up."
I raise my eyebrow. For someone who is obsessed with fighting crime Robin is being really cool about this. "Wow. You're being really cool about this. It's so...unexpected."
"Well we almost lost you thanks to Slade and that made me realize that I've been too hard on you. I'm sorry, Beast Boy. I promise to be more encouraging from now on."
I smile, my insides easing up. I immediately feel better. It would seem that Robin is finally taking the time to get to know me. In a sense my capture and torture is a good thing. Finally my friends are appreciating me and giving me more respect than they ever have before. It's unfamiliar, but something I welcome.
"Can I ask you for advice?" Robin asks, pulling my mind back to Earth.
His question catches me off guard. He has never asked me for advice before. "Uh, sure."
Robin glances at the doorway as if he's looking for someone. "I've made some poor decisions the past few months and Starfire is really angry with me, even though I've apologized numerous times. How can I get her to forgive me?"
Starfire angry at Robin? I didn't think that was remotely possible. It has been obvious from the very beginning that the two really like each other. He must've done something really bad to make her mad. Now that I think about it I've noticed that Robin and Starfire don't seem as close as they used to be. In fact they don't sit together anymore or flirt with each other. "What did you do?" I ask in curiosity.
"That's not important. What is important is that she is my friend." Robin swallows hard. "I-I love her and can't stand being without her."
His confession takes me by surprise. After years of denial he's finally admitted what we've all known. It's about time. Since he's my friend I'll gladly help him out. "Why don't you get her some flowers and a present. Then you could take her to the mall. Girls like that." I think about Raven. "Well...most girls."
Robin ponders for a moment, then slaps me gently on the back. "That's a great idea! Thanks BB! I knew I could count on you!"
Without another word, Robin gets up from the chair and runs out of the room. I lay back on the bed, not ready to get up yet. I close my eyes thinking about everything that has happened today so far. I still have no memories, but after everything I've experienced today I know that there is still more that I've forgotten. I've decided to go visit Raven tonight-not only so I can learn more, but also to spend time with a girl I still have strong feelings for.
Raven
"This is ridiculous!" I growl. My hand shakes as I struggle to apply the mascara onto my eyelashes. Once again I poke myself in the eye and at the same time manage to leave a black dot on my nose. "Why is this so difficult?!"
I've never put on make up in my life. I never had need for such a high maintenance activity. However due to Love's insistence I went to the mall and bought some cosmetics and a bottle of lavender perfume. Maybe I should've asked Starfire for help, but I know if I do she'll ask lots of questions. I glance in my hand mirror. My short hair is brushed nicely and I found a green clip to pull it out of my face. I have on light purple eye shadow and a little bit of light pink lip gloss. I hope I look alright and that I don't freak out Beast Boy too much. If he shows up at all.
He'll show up Reassurance says in my mind. Then we can tell him everything.
Knock Knock
My heart races against my chest in nerves. I can do this. I glide over to the door and let it slide open. Beast Boy's eyes bulge so much they look like they're about to pop out. "Wow Rae...ven...you look...beautiful."
I blush, moving aside to allow him entry. I notice that he's changed into a new uniform. I make a mental not to myself to repair the one I tore up hours before. "Take a seat," I instruct. He moves easily through my room and does so.
"Your room looks much better than the last time I was here," Beast Boy says with a slight chuckle.
"Yeah, well, I had to clean up. I can't exactly have you trip and kill yourself. I'd die of guilt." Beast Boy lets out a light chuckle because of my comment. I sit next to him on the bed. I can tell he's uncomfortable about being here. Not surprising since I usually don't allow anyone in my room. "I promised I would tell you the truth, so here it is." I let out a deep breath. "Do you remember that man in the robot suit that we fought the day you lost your memories?" Beast Boy nods. "Well, his name is Adonis and we've fought him before."
Beast Boy remains silent, allowing me to continue. "The first time we fought him it was in a chemical lab outside of town. Despite not being able to beat him, the mission went on like normal until Adonis said something that REALLY pissed you off. You went completely ballistic-it was a side of you we've never seen before. You beat the crap out of Adonis and as a result the both of you got doused with a green chemical that was being kept at the lab."
That night the chemicals did something to the both of you. It was almost like...like a negative reaction to your DNA or something. You were so different from the Beast Boy we all knew. You were so angry, irritated by every little thing, and lashed out at each one of us for the smallest things. And when you got too angry, you lost control of your powers and turned into a beast."
I pause, my eyes focused on my green teammate, looking for any signs that I should stop. His green eyes are huge. "You mean I turned into a werewolf?"
"Not exactly, but that's the general idea. When you turned into the Beast you attacked everyone and everything that you thought was a threat to me...including our teammates."
Beast Boy's green face loses a shade of color. "I-I attacked our friends?!" I nod mutely. "T-they know that I whatever I did I didn't mean to, right? I mean, they have to. They haven't treated me differently, except nicer."
"Yes. It took them a while, but they've realized that you weren't in your right mind." I answer. I resist the urge to pull my hood up. "After you saved me from Adonis, who tried to attack while also in Beast form, I told the others that you protected me the whole time. And most importantly, that you aren't dangerous."
Beast Boy looks immediately relieved, his face back to it's original green color. "I can't believe I forgot all of this. Why haven't I been transforming into a beast lately? How did you guys get it to stop from happening."
"After you recovered from your final battle against Adonis, Cyborg made you an antidote. After you took it you were back to normal a day later."
The green Titan stay silent for a few minutes, his mind grasping everything I've told him. "Wow I now understand why you guys have neglected to tell me this. It's a lot to swallow. I feel much better now that you've told me this. Is there anything else major that I've forgotten?"
Oh so many things I think to myself. I know I need to tell him about everything that Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg did to him, and about his suicide attempt, but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to force the words out. Instead I feel Brave and Love take over me at the same time. I scoot closer to the point where our legs are touching. "This," I lean in, closing my eyes.
I stop when I feel a gloved hand over my mouth. I open my eyes. Beast Boy pulls back, a regretful and very conflicted look on his face. "Rae, I'm so sorry...I can't."
"W-what do you mean?" I ask. I can feel Timid quickly taking over.
Beast Boy gets up from the bed and takes several steps back towards the door. "Raven, I've liked you for so long, and you have no idea how long I've wanted to kiss you, but I can't. I have a girlfriend,. Her name is Rachel and I won't betray her. I love her."
I get up quickly too, trying with all my might to keep the hurt feelings from showing. "But Beast Boy, you don't understand. I'm-." Before I can finish the sentence Beast Boy bolts out the door, the door slamming shut. "...Rachel."
Everything crashes around me all at once. I feel as though my heart has literally been ripped to pieces. I should go after him, tell him that I'm his girlfriend, but I find that I don't have the strength to move. My chest hurts so bad and I can't stop the tears from falling free from my eyes. This is the worst thing that has happened to me. Beast Boy rejected me...and yet in a twisted fate is staying loyal. Oh why did everything have to be so complicated?! I hug myself and continue to sob, not caring if I'm destroying my room all over again.
Beast Boy
The first thing I do once I exit Raven's room is fly straight out of Titan's Tower in the form of a large eagle. The cool air whips through my wings, making me feel cold all over, but I ignore it. My brain is throbbing from all the information I just learned and my recent encounter with Raven. I know that I didn't learn everything that I've forgotten, but I couldn't stay in her room any longer. I need to be alone so that I can think. I don't stop flying until I reach the park in Jump City. I haven't been here in a while. The longer I walk down the path next to the soccer field I remember the last time I was here. It was with Rachel on our first date. I can't believe that I almost cheated on her.
My throat tightens when I think about what happened with Raven just minutes ago. I feel as though I've been cursed. I've wanted to be with Raven for so long and now that she's finally returning my feelings it's when I'm with someone else. Oh why did my life have to get so complicated? For the millionth time since I got injured I curse myself for losing my memories.
I force myself to not dwell on what happened with Raven, but instead on all the things she told me. I had no idea that I've lost so many important memories. How could I forget turning into a Beast against my will and attacking my friends? I'm so glad that I didn't hurt anyone and that Robin, Starfire, and Cyborg have forgiven me for what I've done, even though I don't remember it. Otherwise I wouldn't be able to live with myself. Still, I wish I could remember everything that happened the past six months, the good and bad. I want to truly feel like myself again. The longer I go without my memories, the more I fear that I will never get them back. And that is a very depressing thought.
SNAP!
A twig snaps, startling me out of my troubling thoughts. I thought I was alone. My eyes widen in horror and utter fear when a familiar figure steps in front of me, blocking my path. I want to tell myself that I'm dreaming, but there's no mistaking the familiar mask. "Hello my Apprentice."
Slade.
To Be continued...