Chapter 6: Broken and Alone
'It was nice to be home, it was, but home is supposed to be a place where you feel, safe and secure; I didn't feel either of those. I thought that being back home would make me feel better, that I would feel something but I don't, I don't feel anything, there's a void where my heart should be, a dark shadow where my soul is, I feel empty; hollow inside.
I feel... Alone; like I'm the only person that exists in the world, but there was one thing in the moment that cheered me up. The thought of a Shower! Oh, My God Yes! I haven't showered in a week; well I showered once in the hospital.
Mom I uh... I'm gonna go take a shower! Oh, alright well did you need help? Mom I'm 15-years-old, I can take a shower, I'm OK. I know honey but you're still hurt and you might need help- Mom! I said I'm fine I don't need help, 'Alex Winces in Pain' I'm gonna go shower.
Alex... 'Theresa Sighs' Justin and Jerry get back from putting the car away. Hey where's Alex? 'Justin asks' she went to go take a shower- Ah! Makes sense she hasn't been able to shower in a week. I know but my poor baby! I don't think she will go back to her normal self again; I don't think she will ever be OK again. We all just have to make sure that we help her feel safe again; to help her feel like she's at home with people who love her.
'Justin's phone starts to ring; excuse me I have to take this; hey Harper how are you? Processing, I called to let you know I'm back in town, once I'm settled, I should be over in about an hour- That's good! So, how's Alex? I don't know? But I don't think that she is in a good place right now; then again who can blame her. But you might help her! Me what do you mean? I mean you're her best friend, seeing you should make her feel better even just a little bit- I hope you're right Justin- Me too Harper, me too.
'Ah, Ow, these stupid pants are so hard to take off! "Oh, do you need help?" 'Alex says Mockingly' 'Sighing' I know mom means well but, she just doesn't understand; I don't need her help, or maybe I do, I don't know? 'Water Running' Ahh, crap that hurts! 'The water was hotter than I remember, maybe it's because of how weak my body is right now; but it also feels really good.
'I get in the shower and sit down and just start crying. I'm not trying to it just comes out; luckily my cast is water proof so that's good
I don't know exactly how long I was in the shower but I washed a bit, and then just sat down for a while' I dried my hair and went into my room to put something on, I figured I'd just put on a hoody over my pajamas. After that I took a nap for a little while; it was still pretty early in the day only around 12 or so, I woke up to the sound of knocking on my door. Hey Alex it's Justin, I just came up to check on you- Go away.
Look Alex Mom is worried about you, and so am I. I said go away! Come on Alex don't do that don't shut us out, don't shut me out, look I know you probably don't want to talk right now but... 'Door Unlocks' Hey, you don't have to say anything, I just needed to see that you were OK.
Okay you saw, you can go now! Alex please at least come get some food! Not hungry, bye! 'Alex's stomach growls loudly' ugh if I get some food will you leave me alone. I really don't think you should be alone right now, But! If you come eat, I promise to leave you alone- Ugh fine! Thank you. 'Alex follows Justin downstairs to get food 'Knocking on the front door'
'Jerry gets up from the couch to get the door' Harper? What are you...? Oh, Alex? 'Harper rushes over and hugs Alex' Ow! 'Harper starts crying' Oh Alex, I'm so sorry. Whoa Harper what are you doing here? Justin called me. What? When- back at the hospital after I left your room. You mean after I told you not to call her, Alex I'm sorry but... you're sorry, how could you Justin? You swore you wouldn't call Harper.
Why are you getting mad at Justin? He was right to call me, why didn't you want me to know? I didn't want to ruin your vacation with your parents; and I figured you needed time to prosses that we're wizards. Alex I'm your best friend I should always be the first person you call.
But no you always want to be the tough girl that doesn't depend on anyone; the person that never considers other people, the girl that people try so hard to help and end up worse off. Harper I'm sorry OK- No you can't just "I'm Sorry" your way out of this one. What do you want from me? What do you mean "What do I want from you?" What is wrong with you?
What isn't wrong with me Harper? Oh, Alex that's not what I meant, I'm sorry I- Whatever I don't care anymore. Alex you're being unfair to Harper- Whatever, you two deserve each other.
'Alex Flashes Out' Oh, what did I do; I Just made my best friend hate me. Come here it's not your fault- What are we going to do Justin? I don't know. Alex falls onto her bed crying. After a couple of minutes, Alex gets up and peeks downstairs to see if anyone is there. The living room is empty Alex walks over to the Kitchen and grabs a knife off of the counter.
Alex makes it back upstairs and locks her room door. Alex sits down on her bed and looks at the knife and starts having second thoughts; but Alex decides to do it. Mom, Dad, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I couldn't be more like Justin, I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused over the years, I'm sorry for everything, you too, Max, Justin, I love you guys... goodbye.
'Alex cuts her wrist deep a lot deeper than she wanted to; she doesn't have the best control in her right arm. The cut hurts a lot but Alex tries to ignore the pain. Alex closes her eyes and cries while she waits for the end. Hey Jerry have you seen my good knife? I was going to make dinner early but I can't find it- No I haven't seen it. I wanted to go check on Alex, I haven't seen her all day and I wanted to make sure that she is OK.
"Theresa and Jerry go up to Alex's room to check on her but they are not prepared for what they are about to find." Hmm Alex's door is locked that's not like her; do you hear that? 'Theresa asks her husband' no I don't hear anything? 'Theresa puts her ear up to Alex's door and hears crying and strange breathing' Jerry I think something is wrong I can just feel it; Alex! Alex! Baby open the door please. Mom, Dad, what's going on? Max run downstairs and get you brother I think something is happening with your sister. 'Max runs down to the Sub Station as fast as he can, Justin! Max what's wrong? Mom and Dad need you upstairs Its Alex. I'm coming, come on Harper.