Chapter 8: Memories Broken

Jerry, Justin and Alex all go down to the lair where Jerry takes Alex's fuse for her magic along with her wand. I'm going to need your wand Alex- Yeah OK 'Alex hands her wand over to Jerry' look hopefully this is temporary but until I know that you can be OK with magic I'm turning it off. 'Jerry leaves the lair with Alex's magic and goes back to running the Sub Station. You going to be OK? 'Justin asks Alex' yeah 'Alex sits down on the bench in the lair' maybe Dad's right, maybe I shouldn't have magic until I'm better.

I'm sorry Alex I wasn't trying to get you in trouble nor was I trying to get your magic taken. I just wanted you to stop being so stupid I mean- wait I'm the one being stupid? How dare you.

You have no idea what I've been through; you have no idea what's going on inside my head, that night replaying over and over again every single day, not being able to sleep, my body in agonizing pain; but no, I just have to smile and put on an act and say I'm just fine, do you have any idea what it's like to be looked at like some broken thing that can't be fixed.

Or the things that people say behind your back, "Oh that poor girl" or "Oh I wonder what happened to her" I'm so tired of it! I... just want it to end; I want the pain to be gone; I just want everything to go away, I want to not feel anymore, I'm... I'm broken... I'm so broken; and I don't think I can ever be fixed, it's just easier to give up.

So, I gave up; but even that failed. 'Alex sits down and continues Sobbing' Justin reaches his hand out to comfort his sister but retracts his hand back, Justin doesn't know what to do he can't even describe how he feels seeing his sister like this, for once he truly feels lost. There... uh there is one more thing that we could try; a memory wipe spell. 'Alex lifts up her head and looks at Justin' what? Well, when I got home from school, I came to the lair and found something come look.

This is great! Do it! Whoa hold on we don't even know what this spell does? It could cause permanent damage to your mind. Yeah kind of already there! All right instructions, yeah, uh huh, yep, OK so the only negative side effect I read is that when the spell starts to were off your memories will start to rush back, causing the person under the spell agonizing pain; that could eventually lead to brain damage, ah you already have that one covered! Sorry reflex, and loss of further memory.

Alex this spell is not a good idea, is it really worth all of the risks. Yes, normally I would say no but I can't handle this anymore I need a break, I need to be normal again. Are you absolutely sure this is what you want? I... I don't know; it will give me some peace though, do it.

'Justin lifts his wand ready to cast the spell, Alex, I'm sorry for before; I have no idea how you feel, or what's going on inside your head. Its OK I'm sorry too! Alex you have nothing to be sorry about; you're my little sister I should be there for you more. Hey can I tell you the truth? Of course, I'm really scared, but I'm glad you're here; and no matter how hard things get I promise that I will never try to kill myself again.'

You promise? Yes 'Alex hugs Justin' are you ready? 'Alex nods her head' "All These Things Awful and Dark Take These Memories and Make a Fresh Start" Alex?!

Justin what happened? Alex? Justin? Do you remember anything? Yeah, It didn't work- No, no, it... it should have worked?! Well thanks for trying I guess 'Alex is about to walk out of the Lair' Alex wait! I don't get it the spell should have worked. Justin its OK really, look I have to deal with this, it's not like there's a spell that can make this all go away. I know but I'm saying that you don't have to deal with this alone- that's nice but I have to, don't worry I won't break my promise; I'll see you upstairs.

Later That Day...

It's a little later in the day now. Nothing too interesting happened today, I mostly just hung out at home and went down to the Sub Station to hang out like usual though its late and there's no costumers, but there is some new place in town called the Late Night Bite I might go check that place out tomorrow. I went to go talk to Dad about getting my magic back. Dad was in the living room alone watching tv I knew this talk was not going to be fun.

Daddy! Alex hey- hi um listen I wanted to say sorry for earlier. I'm dealing with so much, but that's not an excuse to try to end it, I should have come and talked to you and Mom even I didn't want to. What I'm trying to say is that I will never ever try to kill myself ever again, and I'm so sorry for making you and Mom worry about me so much. Alex I love you, your mother loves you and your brothers too.

Alex if you ever need alone time just let us know OK, just communicate with us. I will Dad and I will try as hard as I can to be better I promise. Oh, Alex you're perfect as you are 'Alex hugs her dad while trying not to cry anymore' you know you are turning into a beautiful and responsible young woman. Soooo, does that mean I can have my magic back?! If you are responsible and you make sure that what happened today never happens again then yes. Thank you! And I promise that It won't happen again.

Hey Max come on let's go check on Alex. 'The boys go upstairs to find Alex sitting on the couch watching tv, Alex you were right I'm sorry, it's just that I feel responsible for what's happening and I just want to do what I can to help. Justin look you do help but there are just some things I need to figure out alone okay. Yeah, that's fair. 'The next 2 weeks passed quickly not much interesting happened besides me very slowly starting get used to my life now.