Promises Promises

Sam stood thinking about the promises he'd made to or about Mercy from all that time way back, he shouldn't have, they were much too young to tie themselves down like that but love has a way of making you do stupid shit like that. He smiled as he remembered seeing her dancing away on those steps at his then new school thinking "Wow" actually there were a lot of girls jumping around that afternoon, maybe it was the way their eyes caught each other in that song "Inspire you" he remembered her belting out and he felt for sure she said that to him, he grabbed it any way and owned it, she was singing to him. You did it then didn't you promised yourself she was going to belong to you with that damn mesmerising ass of hers, strike one Evans.

"Damn" he said when his next memory came of the next selfish promise he made to himself about Miss Jones "Snap that ass" he smiled she did it again he thought as he pictured that pink top shaking around as Satan and her shook their boobs and asses selling that song, that he knew had stole the show, but for some freak of a reason Quinn and he won it, they were good but not that good. "Oh how I love you baby, Baby Baby Baby..." he sang "At ti tude" he said with a smile and attitude himself, she'd made him cry a few times and he'd watched as she'd cried for him. They were literally having eye sex with every look and all under wraps

"Are you painting a picture" he heard as he looked to the side of him to find nobody there, he smiled as a mirage of Mercy came to him in that black, grey and white dress, she actually acknowledged that she was feeling the stares, looks, smiles everything and to be honest the rest of that damn show. Clapping as she started singing 'Take me for what I am, who I was meant to be' as he sat back getting more and more excited at her singing, she wasn't singing to him, he was sitting with Quinn, but something made him believe she was singing to him and yep he was going to 'Take her baby' he smiled as he remembered rocking in his chair at the challenge "I'm going to take you baby that's a promise, that ass belongs to me" his lips curled to the right as he thought it "Strike two Evans"

He hadn't done much to make her think he was even remotely interested in her, dating, in a fashion Quinn, the falling into the Santana thing and God the homeless thing sent it orbital. He remembered that day he'd sort of let her know he was a tiny bit interested she'd caught him looking while they were getting ready to sing 'Blame it on the alcohol' and she'd come back at him with that Hell to the No telling him 'she's the one that calls the shots' shit flashing it off in Satan's face "She knew" he laughed when he remembered Santana's face during that song, but somewhere in there Mercy saw him and bang it was lift off, the beginning of the end for him. He'd wanted this girl so bad he refused to let anything get in the way so yeah when he got her to Prom it was amazing, yeah by default and shit but did he really care, they were there together

"Get off her" he shouted at himself as he focused on the here and now for a short while

"You alright bud?" Mike asked

"Yeah I'm fine" he smiled back at him, they'd been best buddy's since forever, Mike sort of understood

"We'll do this, get over Christmas, and we'll be straight bud trust me" Puck said tapping his back

"Yeah sure" Sam smiled as Christmas came to mind and all he could see was Mercy wrapping that tinsel round his neck telling him All I want for Christmas is You 'Talk about mixed messages she'd just got on stage in front of God and everybody telling me she was a Survivor and she could damn well do without me "Joke" he smiled to wrapping tinsel round my neck like it was her legs with that infectious smile on telling me to take it if I dare "Stop!" he shouted internally flinching as he said it

"Bro you alright?" Blaine asked as he held his back steadying him

"Yeah I'm fine, just stopping my brain from going somewhere it has no business being" he smiled as Blaine smiled with him seeming to be the only one to understand that sentence

"Go there bro if you need to, you need to" Blaine said holding his shoulder firmly "I've got you"

"Summer night" he said with a big breath of air God those days were good, we had some fun at the fair that tilt and ride shook us the fuck up, I was scared. It was alright going round but when it stated to tilt Mercy went crazy, she could be heard screaming for miles, that look on her face, seriously she thought she was going to die I know it, he smiled, I knew it I had to kiss her to stop her screaming, shock when she drew me back in and even had another go so we could do it all again but for longer. Telling her we had something special, and that we belonged and I promised I'd make that happen, strike three Evans.

"Oh my God" he said making Puck and Mike look round

"He's alight" Blaine assured them, with his hand still on Sam's shoulder

"You sure?" Mike asked

"Positive" Blaine replied

'Auditorium Now' flashed in front of him, bringing a smile to his face 'she actually listened to me he remembered that was a tense moment for me, she could have said no right there right then but I guess she meant what we'd promised, I wasn't phased she told me in so many ways she was mine so her singing 'Human Nature' with me came as no real surprise. We were destined to do that and the weeks that followed where amazing. Yeah she felt like a cheat for seeing me behind his back but I know she understood we were end-game, we could only see each other in glee club and that was mega awkward because of eyes and past girlfriends and shit. It was never going to be the right environment to start a real relationship the only love real in that room then was the love for music everyone had, there was no code at all, and yes after that kiss, that told me undoubtedly that she belonged to me, I made her a promise to respect her, strike four Evans.

We'd been to see Emma because I'd just given her the we won't be together, if you don't want this, you need to tell him talk and she'd told us not to talk that was so hard for me because I wanted to rag her about that guy she was seeing. She'd walked away as if she didn't care, almost pleased that she didn't have to listen to my truth for a week, I was well pissed with myself mainly for giving her that opportunity by agreeing to that, when she came at me with 'Don't wanna lose you' I even remember how buzzed I was for her doing that, it was a huge thing for her, she was usually so private and, he smiled to himself, I came right back with 'Bamboleo-Hero' she couldn't even tell me she didn't love that show of affection I know she did. I was so in the air on that one I was still buzzing from her response a week later

"Dude" Artie rolled up saying looking at Sam "Dude" he said a bit louder when he was the only one not reacting

"Sam" Blaine shook his shoulder

"What?" he asked

"Artie's talking to you" Blaine informed him as all the other guys stood shaking their heads

"You up for this?" Artie asked

"Sure" he said giving a false smile "I was just about to hold hands" he said smiling

"What the fuc..." Puck started to say as Blaine butted in, and Mike showed him the congregation

"He needs to do what he needs to do guys, just let him have this" Blaine asked again as everyone shrugged and carried on

"Holding hands you say" Blaine asked him

"Yeah" Sam said drifting off into his memories 'Another promise' he smiled we were sitting at the back of the class just holding hands playing doing love things when Finn and Rachael announced their pending marriage "Wow" Mercy said looking at me, I was like please; which made him chuckle, I asked her to promise me she's let me be the one to love her and she promised I would be in fact she said I was and I promised that would always be the case as she'd already agreed she belonged to me, strike five Evans

Yep 'I will always love you' was a slap in the face, I deserved it making her into a cheat, but although we cried on that one, just like we said we would in Hero, I was sort of relieved because well, now she was free and I could go full throttle on this end-game thing we knew we were. Yeah she was singing me a fuck off song, in a way, the best love song ever actually, but I was standing there with the promise in my head that I was still fighting to get her back, strike six Evans

I wished I could have honestly say I was all for leaving her be just then, but that was just to spite her for rejecting me. Truth was I felt something, there was still something there when we sung 'Cherish Cherish' to Britt and Satan and everything she did was telling me this thing wasn't over. When 'Love Shack' came on the easiest thing to have done just then was to come on to Quinn, but I decided against it even more so when I saw Quinn grab Joe and then suddenly Mercy's eyes were on me like she could tell what I was thinking, she was daring me to get jiggy with someone her eyes followed me around the room so I thought it best to keep my promises and respect her, those three weeks of silence were the worst

Shaking boobs, rocking voice, Booty giving it some, she was doing her thing and her thing was doing something for me, I was ready to go watching her do her rendition of 'Disco inferno' in that hot red dress doing spirit fingers and all, shaking that ass, sassing and being Mercy I loved that; he smiled thinking, then that conversation in the classroom when we kissed again "Cream rising to the top" he said closing his eyes at the feel of her lips on his, touching his lips for the realness of it, with his eyes still closed for fear of what he was actually going to see when he opened them. I promised you were going to be a big star and I was going to be the first to buy your album, strike seven Evans

"Our Prom" he said making everyone look at him, he didn't know his eyes were closed

"Blaine do something about this"Kurt said tight lipped

"He's fine" Blaine said looking at Sam "He'll be fine"

Sam was standing in the hall for Prom black suit and tie, on stage singing his heart out, he'd finally brought the girl of his dreams to prom and he was on cloud nine singing 'That's what makes you Beautiful' like his life depended on it. She stood there bobbing along to his singing in her Purple dress, the detail for only him to remember, loving it. He'd promised himself that he was always going to make her that happy, Strike eight Evans

So they won Nationals, Mercy got up and helped them save the day, he was happy on the one hand but on the other, she was ill and they should have let her rest "Keep close" he'd told her when she came out to dance, they all did well and came home with the trophy, he smiled. "Then the goodbyes" he said opening his eyes "You alright guys?" he asked as everyone looked round

"For seeing you back yeah, keep with us Dude" Jessie said smiling at him

"I don't know if I'll ever be back as you call it, but I'm seriously doing my best" he informed them

"Well at least your making sense right now" Mike informed him

"Child this is happening" he mimicked Unique saying bringing a smile to his face as everyone looked on

"He's half way" Blaine told them as they looked on puzzled

Sam smiled, frowned and clicked his fingers as he stood obviously reliving the whole 'Highest Ground' experience. Remembering he couldn't even think about anything to do with Mercy just then as technically he was still with Brittany until she came back and turned lady fabulous on him again. He knew there was still something there when she touched Mr Schue and his brain went into full on Avatar sphere and again when she danced with Mike but the real confirmation came when they did 'For Once in My Life' and Mercy touched him that electricity surged through him like a bolt of lightening, that was on top of his clothes, and he know whatever this was between them was nowhere near finished, "I'm going to get her back, she still belongs to me" he promised himself, strike nine Evans he thought rolling his eyes

Strange after that because her love you but not now message, sort of came across really strong after that, I saw her when she came back for Blaine and Kurt's engagement thing and she was all love you eyes, and I was all up for that watching her on the stairs as we sung 'All you need is Love' and I feel in love all over again but I played her game and did as she asked "Why did I do that?" he asked himself opening his eyes for a second to find the answer

"Finn" he said there were so many times I needed to just hold her and tell her it was going to be fine but I didn't I just let her cry and sing and cry I did nothing, and you call that love? he thought letting the whole of 'Seasons of Love' play out in his head. The worst 'I'll stand by you' killed me but what could I do we were thinking about Finn, she would have gone mad if I'd have even tried to make that all about her, held her? He asked himself, seriously I couldn't I was a blubbering wreak myself

Then we went and lost Nationals and then blam she was back celebrating Glee and sad about its closing down. We shared some good times then got back on real talking terms and even went out for a meal once, she called me her friend and yeah there were others with us but hey I sat next to her and for me that was as good as a date. Kurt and her sung 'I am changing' to Satan and Rachael playing silly beggers, I was sitting with Britt and Satan at the time and maybe I should have been more mindful of how things looked but shit my girl was on stage and she was bringing it with her fierce self and I was up front in her grill, and I was up at the last note, yep you guessed it I made her another promise, she was going to belong to me, she obviously didn't actually know that just then, and I didn't have a clue how this was going to work but it was going to happen, strike ten Evans

"New York" he smiled as he heard Mercy saying 'Guess who's taking over New York' smiling at that conversation they had in her apartment when she admitted she'd missed him, he heard that. Unable to believe his luck when she actually asked him to move in and suddenly he knew she wasn't joking about this but she was still playing hard to get for some reason. Then all that on off on off stuff lucky for us we ended in on and had the best 6 months ever. It was great coming home to someone who couldn't wait for you to get there and wanting to be there for that someone, we were happy. That kiss after all that time brought me back home I needed to be there and she was all about secrets again.

We agreed to finally be out and proud after she sung 'Colour Blind' to me and apologised to me, for thinking about the fact that we were different nationalities mattered, when it came to love, and that's it I thought, we were forever from that moment I saw nothing else but our future, we belonged. We promised each other so much up in that bedroom, no way was our feeling for each other going to change, this was real and we both knew that "We won't let anything break our Love Sam" she'd told him and he knew that to be true. This was an unexplainable love that had grown out of nowhere but everywhere it had truly been 4 years in the making and they felt it. So when they stood in front of their friends and announced their togetherness they were serious; firstly Mercy would never do something like that for fun and secondly, he really felt different to how he'd ever felt before this was serious he was in this one hundred percent.

How could they say they'd never seen any chemistry between them all those songs, looks, kisses obviously they weren't watching as much as we'd thought they were, all that negativity was brushed off when I looked beside me and saw Mercy standing there, she was that comfortable place I liked to be in, as long as she was around I was fine. "I'm going to love you forever" I told her

"You promise" she asked

"I promise" I looked right into her eyes and told her, strike eleven Evans

"You alright buddy" Blaine asked squeezing his shoulder

"Fine" Sam said a bit frustrated for being jerked out of his thoughts

"Virgin" he closed his eyes to hear, told her she could call the shots, didn't want to mess things up, she was the virgin Mary standing in church singing 'I want to know what love is' there was me sitting there having just got rid of the biggest boner and a clean spotless bill of health in my damn pocket thinking, I could show you what love is if you'd let me, and begging god to give her the holy spirit so I could get to the parts of her body I seriously needed to be in right now. Never mind 'Lets wait a while' and then she hit me with that marriage thing, and honestly, I was down with that, but not right then I knew she was it, but I don't know, it was just all going too fast for me just then. All I know is when I left that house that night I panicked for what I was leaving behind, and all I wanted was her and sex wasn't important in that decision, I felt guilty for walking out and maybe I went over the top with the comeback but, I'd broken one of my promises to her, that I was going to love her forever I belonged to her, so I did the candle thing, thank God it worked

The proudest day of my life was watching her walk up on stage, in that mall, for the first time taking all that in as she pounced about singing 'Shaking my Head' she was born for that stage and again I told her as much when I went up to get her after her performance. Then all that crap happened and she set me free because I'd already told her to pursue her career so I wasn't about to ask her to give it all up to be with me back in Lima.

That was the day we had that conversation, when I made the promise of all promises to her and I meant it with all my heart, I still do

"Hey my sexy working man, look, got a bunch of binge foods to celebrate" she'd said smiling as she held up the tray "babe what's wrong" she asked when she saw my face, I knew right then I couldn't lie to her

"I'm so sorry" I said putting my head in her lap "I cheated on you" I said looking at the pain in her eyes I'd caused "I was at my shoot and this photographer was all over me and it was so intense it was like that scene in fame and she just kissed me"

"Aaa and then what happened?" she said all the life had left her body, her face about to burst into a thousand shattered pieces

"I got so upset I just started crying, and she took some photos of me crying in my underwear and then I just left"

"Sam you didn't cheat on me, its not like you kissed her back" she'd said even in this she'd seen the true me any other girl would have not listened to any explanation they would have heard the kiss bit and flew, she's phenomenal I remember thinking

"I kind of sort of did, but it was one of those reflex reactions that you have when someone kisses you, like kind of you know... see like that" he remembered, as he went forward drinking in that peck she'd given him as if she were sitting there in front of him right now

"I can't do this to you any more, Sam I, I love you so much, but I'm looking at my life and I don't think I'm going to be ready until I'm like 30 and asking you to wait that long is like asking a cheetah not to run" he heard her saying, was she promising him they were eventually going to be together or was she letting him go, he remembered his mind went into panic mode as he thought what to say to react to her suggestion

"Its okay, I'm okay with it, I.. yeah its hard, but I just have this feeling that we're meant to be together" he smiled at his response and how quick she was at coming back at him she was thinking much faster than him then, she knew what she was doing and why but he was determined to fight on

"Yeah, who's to say were not"

"Wait do you think I'm going to cheat on you?" he'd thrown back, but she came back so sweet, making sure he knew they belonged together he couldn't disagree with her any more

"No actually I think you won't, and I think you'll resent me for it, and I think that we're holding on way too tight, and were not believing in our love and we're going to break it. Its going to burn me to see you with other girls but I know this is the right thing "

"Just know that whoever I'm with or whatever I'm doing, I'd rather be doing it with you" he said grabbing hold of her "Hey I'm sorry"

"lets make a deal if I do decide to change my mind and not wait I'll give you a call

"Deal" Strike twelve Evans

And that was it I'd promised her everything I ever did in my life I was going to wish it was being done with her. I lived on that for well over a year, that kiss she gave me when I told her that. I sung 'They long to be close to you' in a bid to get her to do the long distance thing but she wasn't having it and I guess it must have been the news that Rachael had gone off to be whatever she was going to be, that finally got her talking to me again on any level but she did and after just a day of talking we were back in promise town

"I'm going to settle with you Sam, you have my heart" she said as she took my promise ring. A few days later she sung 'Someday we'll be Together' to me and a bunch of other people actually but I knew what she meant she only answered my questions in the auditorium that day. She'd dropped the bombshell about the tour and the record deal for afterwards and we'd talked some more and agreed that we had a five year plan I was going to visit and she would make it back as regularly as she could and things were fine.

There was that important ceremony for Finn, four and a half years into our 5 year plan when we all met up to sing 'I Lived' and all had lunch directly after. I'd taken Mercy to the airport after our weekend together, we'd already had the ready call and done the deed several times by then our parents had met and I popped the question when I went to visit her in France the previous year. She'd said yes and we planned on jumping the broom exactly a year after we finished our five year plan

So yes it was hell and the devils work, when on finishing her five years of touring and record making that the flight she was on making her way back to Lima to start her new life with me, should get lost in the fucking Bermuda Triangle. Story is, nothing ever comes back out of that place, it had been 6 years tonight since that day.

They were at Kurt's celebrating and waiting for Mercy, Britt, Satan and Tina to get back that night due in at 4.25 am, the door knocked and Kurt thought it was the Pizza and went out with change to walk back into the den with Sam and Artie's parents

"Sit down guys" his dad had said

"I'm fine, actually I know already she told me" Sam said his eyes misty

"What did who tell you?" his Dad asked him

"Mercy, she's coming back to me so I'm not to worry" he said as he sat down and cried for a few seconds hysterically before jumping back up and walking out

"Sam" his Dad shouted after him but he was gone "The plane went missing at 03:21" he said

Artie cried from the second he saw his Mom's face and didn't stop crying for about a week just after Sugar turned up at the request of some of the Glee Family and helped him get himself back together. Artie fell onto Sugar she'd always been waiting in the wings for him after Rory left for Ireland, she wasn't Tina and she knew that at first but they finally got past that and were doing fine but Sam, well the jury was still out on Sam, nobody had seen him cry since that day. He didn't want any of the Glee guys round him for a while and the rest of the girls just didn't exist for him any more, Quinn thought she'd be able to break through his hard shell but he plain told her to step off and even asked her why she wasn't on the plane. Just before the official announcement he perked up said sorry to everyone and started hanging sometimes mainly with Mike and Blaine

A year later the day the plane went missing they'd had an official ceremony for the four girls and laid something to rest, that had been 5 years ago, and Sam was still going through something, he functioned, but then he had times like today when he drifted off into nothingness and no one questioned where he thought he was or anything just let him drift. Blaine was his biggest advocate, he claimed to understand him but when asked questions the response was that he was just being Sam.

"Have you got there yet Bro we've got like five minutes before they get here?" Blaine asked him squeezing his shoulder again

"It's not fair on her, I'm not doing this" Sam said filling up "I still …."

"Don't" Puck said holding his hand up in front of Sam "Trust me Bro you'll learn to feel again, just go with the flow"

The guys had been trying to get Sam's life turned around since Mercy went, and although listening to him, you'd think he'd accepted that she'd gone he somehow couldn't get past her leaving him. For a while he claimed she'd be back to take him with her wherever she'd gone, but 6 years on and his fantasy was becoming their nightmare. It was hard to get through to him that she wasn't coming back and his flashbacks were becoming more frequent. He stood at the alter waiting for Tracy to walk down wondering who he was actually doing this for, yes at a serious push he could pass this off as being for Mercy, she'd want him to be happy, but having to constantly keep his eyes shut to have sex with his wife wasn't something he wanted to do for the rest of his natural.

"Guys I can't do this" he said looking at Blaine "Seriously I can't do this I'm breaking a promise I made to Mercy"

"Dude" Puck came in front of him from the bottom of the steps again "Stop it, she's gone she's never coming back deal with it" he said angry at the time and effort they'd put into this thing for him to say he wasn't doing it "We all lost them not just you"

"I can't have that woman and Mercy in my bed Dude I can't do it" Sam shouted for the whole congregation to hear, before walking down the steps jumping into the waiting car and telling the driver to go

"I thought you said he usually understands that she's gone after one of his episodes?" Mike asked Blaine

"He usually does" Blaine said watching the car go off in the distance "You guys just don't understand what they had"

"He just said he couldn't have Tracy in his bed with Mercy in it he believes she's still around" Jessie said puzzled

"Maybe for him she is" Blaine replied

"Who's going to tell Tracy?" Kurt asked unable to grasp the conversation

"I'll tell her" Blaine volunteered

"Hurry up so we can go find this Dude" Mike encouraged him

"Wish me luck" Blaine said walking off in the direction of the cottage, where the woman were probably about to make their way to the small church "Tracy" he said knocking the door

"You don't need to tell me" she shouted obviously crying "I've just come off phone to him" she said throwing something as she spoke "Tell him he's got 30 minutes to get back here or we've finished for good this time" she shouted again

"Could you tell her if he's called her he's not coming back" Blaine asked the person standing with the door open "Thanks" he said walking away and back to the guys

"I've told those in the church" Kurt said as Blaine walked back towards them "Lets go find our man"

Blaine, Puck, Kurt, Jessie, Mike and Artie jumped in the wedding car asked the driver to find out where the other guy took Sam and deliver them there, 40 minutes later they were standing outside his house looking at closed curtains and listening to rather loud music "If I hear 'I lived' again today I'm going to break that fucking man's hand off" Puck said

"Good luck with that" Mike said laughing as he knocked the door "Sam" he shouted a few times before the door sprang open

"What can I do for you guys?" he asked as if nothing had happened and he hadn't just left Tracy at the alter for the second time "Look guys I'm not ready, and that's it" he said holding his hand up "And when I am, I doubt Tracy will be it"

"Sam seriously" Puck said stepping forward "Can we turn the volume down a bit Dude" he said as everyone smiled for Puck's brave going down the drain "I can't hear myself think"

"Yeah" he said going to the stereo and turning the volume down a pitch

"As I was saying" he said looking at the others "its been a while now 6 years to be exact and you really need to get on with your life, you can't tell me you just spent nearly an hour in that church thinking about Mercy and claim now that she's got nothing to do with your decision to dump Tracy"

"What's the big deal about Tracy?" he asked

"What do you mean she's your girl, or she was your girl" Puck stated

"Wrong Dude, she's a girl, I'm not that into her, never have been, she just keeps bouncing back, and I guess if she's there knowing what she knows then she's agreeing to being treated this way"

"What she knows?" Jessie asked quizzically

"Yeah, she knows" he smirked 'Sam had been seeing Tracy for nearly two years now, they'd met at some BBQ thing Rachael had put on, she reckoned it was by chance but Sam knew it was all set up and he played along because, he wasn't at home and he needed some ass and he didn't want to work for it. He'd taken her out that second evening and ended up at her place, for drinks or something, she'd thrown herself at him, literally, walking out in next to nothing and all that, and he'd taken the bait, well what he needed really. As he was in the throws of, what she might have thought was passion, he called Mercy's name

"I'll be anyone you need me to be" she came back with instead of being mad about it, Sam took her up on that and every time they'd slept together since he'd called her Mercy, he didn't intimately touch her or even go the extra mile to make sure she enjoyed anything just got off calling on Mercy and rolling off her, he'd never taken her home or to his pad, he'd sometimes off maybe a kiss or something afterwards, on his come down, but that soon fizzled out when the lips didn't match up.

What they didn't know was that Mercy wasn't a figment he needed to erase from his imagination, she was real, so seriously he didn't need Tracy any more, actually he never did he was just away from home sometimes

"So when are you going to move on Bro" Mike said as they all stood looking around his living room , pictures of Mercy all around the walls from school, childhood, college, Mall tour and other places she'd been to around the world on her first tour

"Look guys I get it honestly I do you're all worried about me being a lonely old man or something but truth, I'm fine, yeah I get into Mercy mode every now and again but that's just her guiding me through life, my guardian angel so to speak, I'm fine seriously, I really am not into Tracy"

"Bro we're just worried that it's been 6 years and your still going on about Mercy as if she was contacting you every now and again and well, you can see how that looks" Mike said walking up to him and grabbing his shoulders "Shake yourself off Sam for us"

"I will" he said as he went and flicked through some tracks landing on Mercy's version of 'Still Here' a Natasha Bedingfield song covered by Jennifer Hudson "this was the very last song Mercy sung to me before, she left never to be seen again, tell me you've ever heard a voice like this since hers" he announced as everyone sat around listening to it by the second line everyone was in tears as Mercy's voice brought back memories of all four girls they'd lost "why wouldn't I want to remember that?" he asked when the song finished "I'm focused guys, she keeps me focused there's nothing to worry about"

"Her voice was epic" Kurt finally got out wiping his eyes and clinging to Blaine as he spoke

"Yeah epic that's the word" Puck said as Mike just shook his head in agreement

"So was Miss T's and Satan's for that matter and Britt gave it some when she got the chance too" Sam smiled as he remembered "At least their happy up there"

"Who?" Jessie asked

"Satan and Britt" he replied "If they actually got up there" he laughed "With a name like Satan I don't know and Britt ain't going without her" Sam said as they all laughed

"Mercy's keeping them all in order no fear" Kurt told them and they all agreed

"See, it's not so bad remembering is it?" Sam asked

"No" Puck said wiping his eyes

"She's my end game" he smiled "I've been up all night with that decision about Tracy I need some sleep" Sam announced at the end of a lengthy conversation a while later, as everyone took their leave to let him get some rest

He sat on the couch watching a blank space for a while reflecting on the day and how stupid he nearly was "You nearly got me babe" he said looking up as he spoke "I told you not to do that shit any more you don't listen" he said jumping up and putting Mercy's record back on, on repeat singing along with it as he went "Food" he said going over to the kitchen to make himself something before chillaxing in front of the gaming screen. The day pretty much went past with him sleeping or playing games with a few snacks in between, he stretched, went in the shower and fell onto his bed, it was nearly time "03:15 am" he said smiling at his bedside clock as he got his guitar and played his nightly song 'Secret' by Seal, while he waited

"Hi Babe" he heard at precisely 03:21 making him smile

"I was waiting for you" he smiled

"I know I wasn't going to come I'm not happy Sam"

"Why, because I didn't marry Tracy?"

"Yeah you promised me" she said

"I didn't promise you babe I just said I'd try and I did"

"How long do you plan on keeping me here Sam?" she asked

"Until either your body turns up or I go to be with you why?" he laughed

"Sam" she said sitting on the bed beside him "Be serious"

"I am being serious, kiss me?" he asked and she did "What's not real in that?" he asked when he finally let her up

"Babe I know you know where I need to be" she said almost telling him things had to change

"And you know I promised to love you forever, and keep you happy, that was obviously for my lifetime as well, you're on a very long holiday" he laughed "Anyway we got married remember and if I remember rightly even death couldn't part us" he smiled "5 years tonight 03:21, we'll celebrate yeah" he said pulling her in "I love you Mrs Evans"

"And I love you Mr Evans but Sam this ….."

"No buts Mercy , I said I'll tell you when I'm ready"

"So when are you going to tell everyone else, they're our friends Sam you can't keep secrets from them"

"I'm not keeping secrets, I'm just not telling them the whole truth"

"Which is?"

"That Mercy Evans, my wife of the past 5 years sleeps in our marital bed every night, regardless of the occasional bitch you make me sleep with, because I need my wife to find release"

"So the fact that I'm a figment of your imagination doesn't phase you?"

"I'm at the point where my imagination needs to run wild" he said grabbing for her and as usual she gave in she always did, it was his fantasy after all.

Afterwards Mercy sat looking at Sam trapped in this world they'd made for themselves unsure whether she needed to laugh or cry for the situation. That fateful night, they; Tina, Mercy, Santana and Brittany sat on the plane excited they were going back to Lima, Mercy had just told them about the pending wedding she'd kept secret all the tour and everyone was ecstatic about the event. They sat like four school girls on the front row so they could get the first class leg space for regular class prices and the drinks where flowing they were having fun and excited to see all the Glee family for the first time in 7 months. Turbulence started pretty early on in the flight and occasionally they grabbed hands and Mercy did a prayer, Satan was the first to alert everyone to the sudden shift from normal turbulence to out of control plane and everyone got on her alert. "I need to call Artie" Tina said before she started crying

"I'll try Sam" Mercy said as Satan and Brittany held onto each other "Sam!" Mercy shouted as he answered the phone and the plane did something unfamiliar "This ride isn't too good babe I'm really scared"

"Don't be scared babe I've got you, you'll be home soon it's 03.20 now just an hour babe" he said frightened but he wasn't going to let her hear that

"Sam" she said "Listen to me babe" she cried "Whatever happens I'm coming back for you I promise, so wait for me promise you'll wait"

"I promise I'll wait babe, hey I belong to you" he laughed

"And I belong to you babe forever" she said "I love you with all my heart"

"I love you too ba..." he said looking at the phone to see it was dead, just 03.21 on the face "Babe" he said and put the phone down. So it was no shock to him when his parents came, because he already knew what they were telling him she'd told him, but he felt safe in the knowledge that she had promised him she'd find him, they never made idol promises.

Mercy had watched him go all the way home, he cried uncontrollably, begged her to come back to him, threatened to hurt himself refused to eat, sleep, think even of a life without her in it, cursed the day she started singing, cussed the airline, smashed some stuff, hung every picture he ever had of her on his living room wall and then cried continuously for nearly 22 hours. "Mercy you promised me you'd come back to me, you promised" he screamed to the heavens and she knew she had, she hadn't made that promise lightly and she knew he'd hate her for not keeping it so 24 hours after the plane went missing she made herself known to him in his dream. It was fun at first jumping in and out of his life, but he started to get possessive with it and more and more she'd conform to his wishes feeling guilty for asking him to wait for her, they actually got married in his dream but that night they made love and it felt real. Mercy sat in the kitchen just watching him potter around it was a year exactly to the day of the crash and he was silently waiting for the exact minute he heard the news to come, he surprised her at 04.25 by asking her why she was sitting there without talking to him

"You can see me?" she'd asked shocked

"Of course I can see you, did you think I was speaking to a ghost all this time?" he laughed

"How long have you been able to see me while you're awake?" she asked concerned

"Since yesterday when we said we do" he said going over to her and kissing her on the lips and she felt it

"This is impossible" she said jumping off the table top

"Not impossible I closed my eyes and when I opened them it was 03.21 you were still there I touched you and you moved and just then I knew our love had reached another level.

Since that day she'd found it hard to leave him and he made it hard for her to leave, getting her to promise stuff he knew she'd have to deliver, reminding her of her promises and his, the wedding thing didn't make things any easier neither, she was locked in trying to find him a wife to take her place. It had become a bit of a cry wolf situation because she'd passed him off to girls before so he was weary of her games and didn't play them very often, he'd slept with a couple of girls and cried for long lengths of time afterwards for having to do that. Mercy would disappear for days angry that he'd done that and then the depression, crying, promises and love making would all start again. At nearly 5 years they'd settled into their lot, she wasn't angry any more she was regretful, she wanted him to be happy, he claimed to be and life went on

"Stop watching me sleep babe" he said his eyes closed and a smile on his face "Come here" he said pulling her in as she smiled for him taking her to their place "I'm coming back for some more of this" he said eyes still shut as he squeezed her "And Mercy no more girls please" her silence telling him she understood

Less than an hour later and he had, had his way and as per his ritual he sung 'Secret' by Seal, to her and they both cried before closing their eyes and finding sleep "Happy Anniversary and Goodnight my love tomorrow yeah?" he'd ask as he fell into his sleep

"Happy Anniversary my love, yes tomorrow, sweet dreams" Mercy replied with a kiss on the forehead before turning round to let him pull her in

They both knew the truth she didn't want him to be with anyone else but her and he couldn't live without her by his side so this limbo they'd found themselves in had to work it was their only option and that was their final promise to each other

"We'll make this work, however we need to, promise" he'd asked her with tear filled eyes, after Mercy had just committed to him, following his popping the question, they were going to tell everyone on her return, but of course that never happened

"I promise on my heart" she ugly cried as he wiped her tears and released her to take her flight back to her stage

"I promise too, I belong to you" he reminded her still in sleep, he could hear her thoughts

"And I belong to you" she smiled as they held onto each other

The End

I cried so many times writing this, I hope you get out of it what I put in

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