-Chapter-5-
-Rachel pov-
"Ok so I have so many things to get done here" I look over everything and let out a sigh "When did my life go to this?"
"When you gave up on life and trying" I glare at Jesse who walks up to me with his hands up "Look we did not work! I am fine with it but you are the one who is still stuck! Move on Rachel!"
"I would move on but I just keep seeing what I can do!" There is a loud thud and we rush out to see our Eliza under a ladder "Jess! What the hell happened to you?!"
"She was helping and I did not listen" I look up to see Kate looking guilty "It was not you love"
"I should have just stayed home" Kate looks close to tears "I completely ruined your show!"
"I do not have a understudy yet" Jess look at Kate "How well can you sing? I have a broken leg and if you feel guilty then how about you sing my part!"
"I happen to have a song right here!" I narrow my eyes at Jesse as his girlfriend moves slowly from under the ladder "Just try your best ok?"
-Kate singing-
I saved every letter you wrote me
From the moment I read them
I knew you were mine
You said you were mine
I thought you were mine
Do you know what Angelica said
When we saw your first letter arrive?
She said
"Be careful with that one, love
He will do what it takes to survive."
You and your words flooded my senses
Your sentences left me defenseless
You built me palaces out of paragraphs
You built cathedrals
I'm re-reading the letters you wrote me
I'm searching and scanning for answers
In every line
For some kind of sign
And when you were mine
The world seemed to
Burn
Burn
You published the letters she wrote you
You told the whole world how you brought
This girl into our bed
In clearing your name, you have ruined our lives
Do you know what Angelica said
When she read what you'd done?
She said
"You have married an Icarus
He has flown too close to the sun."
You and your words, obsessed with your legacy...
Your sentences border on senseless
And you are paranoid in every paragraph
How they perceive you
You, you, you...
I'm erasing myself from the narrative
Let future historians wonder how Eliza
Reacted when you broke her heart
You have torn it all apart
I am watching it
Burn
Watching it burn
The world has no right to my heart
The world has no place in our bed
They don't get to know what I said
I'm burning the memories
Burning the letters that might have redeemed you
You forfeit all rights to my heart
You forfeit the place in our bed
You sleep in your office instead
With only the memories
Of when you were mine
I hope that you burn
"That was wonderful!" Lin comes over with a huge smile "I think we found the understudy!"
"Oh wow!" Kate smiles and is soon being congratulated "All I did was come because I was asked!"
"Lucy" I point toward the sneaking away couple "You two! My room now!"
"I should really" I growl and Jesse gives a nod "Let's go"
I help him get Jess into my dressing room "Oh shit!" I leave Jess to Jessie and rush Lucy "Leave me be!"
"YOU MEDDLED IN MY LIFE!" I tackle her and pin her arms down "Why should I not hurt you right now?!"
"Oh Uh am I bothering you all?" I turn to see a blushing but also sad looking Kate "I Uh..I will see you all at rehearsal tomorrow"
"Kate!" She takes off before I can get up "Why did you bring her here?"
"Fuck you Rachel" I look at Lucy shocked "I made it seem like you wanted her and she came excited! The plan was for flowers from her, she gets the understudy for a month, and you get the girl! But no you had to just bloody ruin it all just like always!"
"Fuck you" I get up and grab my things "You have no right talking about my marriage Miss Married a Jailbird"
"Hey too far" I look at Jessie who sighs "Look maybe we meddled too much but this girl seems good for you!"
"She is a young girl who does not need tied to me" I scoff and shake my head "She is nothing more than a friends friend and will only ever be that"
"Well I hope that attitude changes by tomorrow night" I look at him confused now "Lin wants the crew for a 'family' dinner"
"I will be there and stay away" I shake my head and walk to the door "Never meddle again"
I walk out of the building and to my car. I sit in my driver seat and sigh. I had so many dreams when I came here. I had the dream of making it big and having a family.
I made it big with no one beside me. How pathetic has Rachel Berry become?