Here's chapter 44, enjoy! vote and comment please. All comments mean everything to me and makes me want to carry on! :)

Edward's POV

Leaving Bella when I knew she was about to go through hell the next few hours made me feel terrible. I hated seeing her in pain and I wanted nothing more than to be there with her to comfort her. What gives me comfort is knowing how strong she is and knowing that she will get threw this. She has been through so much and yet she was still standing and willing to get help! I just hope that it goes okay, I know she is in good hands with Jasper through because I know that he loves her just as much as the rest of the family.

'She'll be fine Edward don't worry' alice said coming up behind me and hugging me from behind. I smiled at her knowing she was probably right. I really hope we were both right. I really hoped these next few hours went really fast and I could get back home to the love of my life. I was excited for tonight. I was going to take Bella to a very special place to me and propose to her. I just hope she says yes. It was going to be truly amazing and I think it just what both of us need after a hard couple of months. It had been a couple of months at the most since we met yet I loved her like I had known her my whole life. I couldn't understand where this strong feeling had come from but I knew that I loved it and most importantly I loved Bella more than life itself. For so long I had felt so alone in this world and this is what I had been waiting for. Someone to love me just as much as I love them and I had finally found the girl I wanted to spend the rest of my life with and I couldn't wait for a life together to begin. I wanted to give her everything that she should of been given and I want to show her how good life could be. I never wanted to see my angel as hurt as she had been when Charlie had attacked her. I wanted to take all of her pain away and see that beautiful smile on her face all the time. She really was the most beautiful woman I had ever met in my life.

We had been hunting for a good few hours now and I was growing more and more impatient to be back home with my love. I hated being away from her so much and every second that I was away from her hurt like someone stabbing me. I couldn't wait to have her in my arms and feel her warmth up against me. I really hope she is okay. The thought of her crying or in pain without me there to support her was horrible. I was really beginning to become impatient and I wanted nothing more than to run home and be with her. Just as I had that thought, my phone vibrated in my pocket. It was a message from jasper telling me that they were done and that we could all come home. He didn't say anything about whether Bella was okay which frustrated me but I couldn't help the relief that washed through me knowing that I could go home and have her in my arms. I figured Alice would of had a vision saying that it was okay to go home so I ran towards the house as fast as I could. With my speed I was home within five minutes. Jasper was on the couch reading a book and his emotions were of proudness and calm which I hoped was a good sign.

'Where's Bella is she okay?' I asked him.

'Don't worry Edward, she is fine. She is upstairs resting. She was knackered after we finished' he explained to me. I exhaled in relief knowing at least she was physically okay and was hopefully having some much needed rest.

'Thank you. How did it go?' I asked him knowing he couldn't tell me much but I wanted to know if it went okay anyway.

'Edward you know I can't tell you anything about it. I have to keep Bella's privacy but what I will say is she is the strongest girl I have ever met and it went very well so far. It's early days but I'm confident that with time she will be fine' he told me. I relaxed at his words knowing that it had went well. I had been worried for days that it would set her recovery back. Jasper didn't have to tell me that she was strong, I already knew that. Just look at what she had been through in her life. Nobody should of had to go through it.

'Thank you Jasper, I really appreciate you doing this' I told him honestly. It must be hard for him, I know he saw her like a sister and some of the things she has been through will be hard for him to hear about firsthand. I know that because it hurts just thinking about what she had been through never mind having to hear her retell it. I had heard enough of that to know that it wasn't a very nice experience at all.

'Your welcome. Bella's family now and I love her just like the rest of the family. You should probably go up and be there when she wakes up, I told her you would be.' He told me. I nodded and smiled before running off to mine and Bella's room so I could be there when she opens those beautiful brown eyes of hers. When I walked in she looked so beautiful and peaceful. She was smiling in her sleep which just enhanced her beauty. I would think after her first therapy session she would be having a nightmare but it seemed that whatever she was dreaming about was making her happy. I loved to see her smile and it filled my heart with happiness knowing that she was happy. It made me think about tonight and how much I couldn't wait to see her reaction when I asked her to be my wife. It would be one of the happiest moments of my life.

I laided with her for what felt like hours but in reality it was only about half an hour before she started to wake up and I saw her beautiful eyes open. She looked up and meet my eyes before a large smile spread across her lips. I smiled back at her automatically. God I loved her smile so much and I made a promise to myself that I would make sure I saw a lot more of it.

'Hello beautiful, how are you feeling?' I asked which caused her to blush like always. She still believed that she wasn't beautiful but she was more than beautiful she was the most perfect person to ever walk on this earth.

'Hi, I'm okay. How was hunting?' She asked me and sat up next to me and leaned against my chest. This had become one of my favourite positions to lay in with Bella. I could lace my fingers through her silky hair and I loved doing it. It always made her relax a little more as well.

'It was okay apart from missing you alot as usual. I hated not being close to you' I admitted to her.

'Me too. I hate when your not here' she told me. So I wasn't the only one, thank god. I didn't want to seem pathetic by saying that but I really did hate being away from her. If I had the choice I would spend every minute of the day with her.

'I know. I'll try not to leave u again for a good while love. I love you Bella' I told her kissing her forehead even though I wanted nothing more than to kiss her lips. I loved saying those words to her and if my heart could beat, it would be beating so fast right now. But nothing felt as good as hearing her say those words back to me.

'I love you too Edward' she said then reaches over and gives me a gentle kiss on my lips. No matter how many times we kiss, I still get the same fireworks exploding through my body just like the first time and nothing could ever compare to a feeling as strong as that. Bella made me feel things that I never thought were even possible. Life had changed so much since she came in my life and my view on the world had changed considerably. Before Bella I believed I was destined to be alone forever but I now know that life would never be the same again now that i've found her and I could never lose her, life wouldn't be worth living if I didn't have her in my life. I wanted to spend the rest of my existence with her and I would and the first step was to propose to her tonight, if she was up to having a dinner with me tonight. I wish I could take her somewhere special but with her health, I didn't want to risk taking her out of the house and I knew she didn't quite have the energy for that right now. Even though she can't leave the house doesnt mean tonight wasn't going to be anything but special.

'Bella love, Do you feel up to having dinner tonight? just us as the others are going out for the night and I figured we could spend some time together' I asked her hoping and praying she wouldn't mind. She looked up to me and smiled and by that smile I already knew the answer without even hearing her next spoken words.

'Of course Edward, that would be lovely' She replied snuggling into my chest. I breathed a sigh of relief and smiled bigger than i thought even possible at that moment. Bella always bring the best out of me and i have smiled more ever since I met her. She truly did make me happy and I never wanted it to end. I would do everything I could to ensure that we spent the rest of our lives together.

'Good well I think Alice is going to help you shower and get changed if that's okay with you love' I told her.

'Yeah that's fine' she replied. I smiled knowing Alice would be delighted that she gets to help her get ready for our dinner tonight. I know she just loves giving people makeovers not that Bella needed one but if I knew Alice she wouldn't take no for an answer and will most likely spend hours getting her ready. There really was no stopping Alice once she got going. I supposed it was good in way as it gives me time to get everything sorted and ready so that the night is as perfect as I can possibly make it. I couldn't wait to see how Bella will reaction when I ask her and I started feeling really nervous. What if she says no? I know one if she did say no, I would support her decision and let her know that if shes not ready yet then I would wait for her to be. I would wait forever if that's what it took.

'Love, I'm going to go and let Alice help you get ready whilst I get ready myself and take care of a couple of things, If that's okay with you darling?' I asked her sweetly. Even though it wouldnt be for very long I would still miss her.

'Yes, that's fine Edward' she told me smiling her beautiful smile. God I can't believe I have someone so perfect, every part of her is just so amazing. I'm the luckiest guy in the world.

'Okay love, Alice will be up in a minute and I'll see you in a few hours beautiful' I told her lifting her up and resting her gently on against the pillows before bending over her and placing a gentle kiss upon her rosy red lips. After telling her how much I love her once I leave the room and already feel her lost presence. As I walked out the door Alice went straight in after telling me not to worry about anything. I really had the best sister ever and I don't know what I'd do without her or any of my family. They had been such a big help lately and I loved them all for it. I know that no matter what happens, I could always count on them.

Walking towards my room, excitement filled me along with a lot of nerves. I already knew what I was going to say when I asked her to marry me and I hoped to god she doesn't think I'm being over the top but she really is everything to me and I need her to know just how much I actually love her. That was my main goal of tonight, to make her feel special and loved and to promise her that I would always be there for her through everything. Good and bad days included. I quickly got ready and ran down stairs to set everything up with the help of Esme. Within half an hour everything was prepared ready, now all I have to do is wait for my love to walk down those stairs to start what I hoped was going to be the best night of my life.

Bella's POV

Excitement was coursing through my body as Alice was preparing me for tonight. I had already showered and now she was doing my make up. I couldn't wait for tonight, to spend some time alone with Edward would be amazing. It was the first time since everything that has happened that we could enjoy ourselves and have our very first date. It was just what I needed after such a emotionally draining day. Talking to jasper went better than I thought it would but it had took alot out of me and had brought back very unwanted memories which I couldn't seem to get out of my head but I wasn't going to let it ruin tonight. I would deal with that later.

About half an hour after Alice had started to do my make up she finally announced she was finished. She still had my hair to do and refused to let me look in the mirror until I finished so I just closed my eyes and began to think things over. So much had changed in the space of a few months that it was quite hard to believe. If someone had told me 3 months ago that things were going to get better I would of laughed in their face. I had believed that I would spend the rest of my life being used as a punching bag and other things that I don't even want to think about. Life had gone from a living nightmare to the best I could ever wish for all due to these amazing people. The one person I have to thank most for this was Alice. If she hadn't found me that day and became friends nobody would of ever known. Opening my eyes, I asked her to stop for a minute which she did. I turned around to face her.

'Alice i just want to say how grateful i am to you for helping me that very first day. If it hadn't been for you finding me i don't think anyone would of been able to help me. You saved my life by being my friend and it means the world to me' i told her trying not to cry knowing my make up would get messed up which would mean more time away from Edward. Looking like she could cry herself if it was possible, she kneeled down before me and took my hands. I still couldn't believe that they cant cry and the powers they have. I was so shocked when Edward told me.

'Bella you don't need to thank me. I am so happy that i did find you that day because if i hadn't then this family wouldn't be as complete as it is now. Seeing how much everyone smiles so much more since you have joined us is amazing. I have never seen Edward so happy before and seeing him happy is what i want most of all. He's my brother and i love him and as far as I'm concerned your my sister and all i want is for you to be happy as well and i promise that will happen' she told before giving me a gentle hug. Her words brought tears to my eyes but i managed to keep them from falling. I've come to realise that not only did they save me but I've made them all happy too which I'm glad about.

'Thank you Alice that means alot to me. Its been such a long time since i felt like i was part of a family and you have all given that to me. And i know some days are bad for me but being here with you all and knowing i have someone as amazing as Edward by my side does make me happy' i told her and turned back around so she could finish my hair. 'I know' was all she replied loss for words which was unusual for Alice. It took Alice an hour before she finished my hair and i was so relieved when she was done. Sitting in that position for such a long time was really beginning to hurt my back.

Alice at first tried to get me to wear a dress but after telling her no and explaining that i really wouldn't feel comfortable in one because of my healing injuries she helped me to get dressed in what looked like designer black jeans which fit perfect but were slightly baggy at the back so that they wouldn't put any pressure on my back. She then handed me a light blue silk blouse that was apparently Edwards favourite colour and helped me to put it on. It looked really expensive and I was hesitant about wearing incase I ruined it. She then handed me some black flats which she said she would go perfectly with my outfit. Finally after hours of getting ready, we were finally done and I was about to look in the mirror to see what she had done.

When she turned it, I couldn't believe my eyes. I looked so different, I looked healthy and even pretty. Alice had truly done an amazing job. My make up covered the bruises I still had on my face perfectly and she left the make up subtle which I was glad about. My hair was curled and was pinned. Half up and half down. It looked amazing. The outfit she had picked out was gorgeous and made me look beautiful. It was a complete transformation than what I looked like a few months ago. I hardly even recognised myself.

'Thank you so much Alice' I told her standing up and giving her a hug.

'Your welcome. Now your man is waiting for you so you better get going and ill see you tomorrow, have a great night' she told me and kissed me on the cheek. Before I could blink she was gone. I took a deep breathe and headed towards the door. I got to the top of the stairs and started to make my way down more than ready to spend some quality time with the man that had stole my heart.

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