Prompt: "First times are a lot..."

Beca couldn't think; she could hardly breathe. She was both soaring and soaked in pleasure she'd never quite felt before from her own hand. Her fingers were grasping convulsively into the sheets below her; her toes were curling; her body was shuddering. She was vaguely aware of someone crying out; someone crying Chloe's name... and then gentle fingers easing out of her.

"Holy fucking Christ," she finally muttered as she lay weakly on her mattress with Chloe hovering over her on one forearm.

The redhead caressed Beca's cheeks, dropping little kisses on them. "I've got you," she said softly. "Just relax, Baby."

A bare whisper. "Am I dead, Chlo? Was that a glimpse of heaven?"

An amused chuckle. "No, I don't think so... though you're pretty limp for someone whose spine was a foot off the bed a moment ago."

"Fuck..."

"Are you ok?" the older woman was a little concerned at the lack of verbalization from her girlfriend.

"Yeah... I..." Beca's mouth closed, teeth clicking together as she raised both eyebrows.

"Did it hurt?"

"No, I've used toys before. I'm just..." Beca blew out a long breath. "Woah."

"I know," her redheaded bedmate smiled. "First times are a lot, huh? Just take a minute."

Something inside of Beca's chest made her wriggle closer to her lover and snuggle against her. "I didn't expect it to be like that," she whispered. "I mean... it's not my first orgasm, you know? But it was... different than I expected... having sex with someone else."

"In what way?" Chloe asked, holding Beca close and caressing her back.

"I read some stuff... about how first times don't always go great... but that was amazing... Jesus, Chlo. Where did you learn all that?"

"Just experience, I guess." Chloe replied. "I think it's a little different with guys. My first time wasn't... great." Her face sobered a little then. "You don't have any regrets, do you, Becs?"

"Losing my virginity to you?" Beca asked, just to clarify. A nod made her go on. "Dude, of course not," she smiled as she reached up to pull Chloe closer and kiss her gently. "Honestly, I wanted it to be you. Before we were even dating."

"Really? Wow." Chloe thought about that for a moment. "Can I ask you a personal question?" she began tentatively.

Beca looked a little sheepish. "I think I know what you're going to ask. Why not with Jesse, right?"

Chloe nodded. "You guys dated a couple of months. I kinda figured you would have slept together." And the thought was killing me.

Beca looked away, biting her bottom lip a little. "I figured something out after Jesse and I got together."

"Oh yeah?" the older woman asked. "And what was that?"

"He's not you." The brunette swallowed as she looked into her lover's blue eyes. "He's a good guy but he didn't move me, Chloe. Not like you do." Chloe sucked in a deep breath, loving how Beca was opening up to her. "I thought it was me, you know? That there was something wrong with me. But then I realized something after your hand brushed against mine during rehearsal one day. My body reacted more strongly to that than to his deliberately trying to turn me on. I realized it was all you, Chlo. You made me feel so much and he..." She shrugged. "Just didn't."

The redhead smiled. "Hmmm... since we're being so honest, I wonder if you can guess why I stopped dating a while back."

Beca grinned as she rolled them over and let her lips explore Chloe's neck. "Couldn't think about anyone but me, huh?" she teased, but the silence from below her made her lift her head and meet Chloe's eyes again. They were full of tears. "Chlo, is that actually true? God, please don't cry, Honey."

The redhead nodded, taking a calming breath. "Sorry," she said, very softly. "I've been... waiting, I guess." She swallowed hard. "Realizing I had feelings for you was kinda huge, you know? I was confused and... I didn't know what to do about it. It was scary."

Beca chuckled. "For me too. I didn't want to make things weird between us."

"I guess Stacie just got tired of hearing us whine about each other and decided to give us the push we needed," Chloe chuckled. "She told me she knew you had feeling for me and to get my head out of my ass and open my eyes."

"She told me the same thing," Beca laughed. Then she kissed Chloe again. "I might suck at this but... can I... um... I want to..."

The redhead nodded and she shifted a little to entwine her legs with the brunette's. "Are you sure?" she asked seriously. "There's no rush, Baby."

But Beca's mouth was already on her breast, and she sighed softly as she let her younger lover take her time, soft moans and gasps spurring Beca on until Chloe's loud cry released the intensity in the room.

As Beca held her tightly and told her she loved her, Chloe felt a quiet peace steal over her that she hadn't felt in a long time, and she wasn't scared to tell Beca she loved her too.

"So much."