A/N The first 3 chapters are going up really quick

AJ x

Strauss closed the door when both the United States Marshals had walked in.

"Agent Jareau, please take a seat." Strauss signalled to the couch in Hotch's office.

"I'm fine standing Thankyou ma'am." JJ said looking at the old white haired man in front of her.

"Fine then." Strauss almost snapped but kept her voice level as she knew that what JJ was about to be told would open many closed wounds "Agent Jareau, Do you remember Marshal Willis?"

"Yes ma'am. How are you sir?" JJ would have reached out to shake his hand but her hands were shaking so much she thought better of it.

"I'm Ok Thankyou Jennifer. Although I cant say time has been as kind to me as it has to you." Willis said with a smile. JJ forced a chuckle.

The room stayed silent for a minute and JJ looked at the older people in the room. Strauss had her cold hard look like always, but if you looked in her eyes hard enough you could see the worry. Marshal Willis looked pale and like he hadn't slept the night before and then last Marshal Jenkins didn't seem to be showing any emption at all.

"Ma'am I don't need to be rude but what's going on?" JJ asked finally having enough of the fear inside her and the silent's of the room.

Strauss opened her mouth to say something but closed it again so Marshal Willis decided he was going to tell the woman the news.

"Jennifer I had a call from a friend of mind the other day." He took a deep breath knowing he was about to break her heart. He had watched her go through hell and back, she didn't need this. Not now she seemed to be doing so well. He took the file Jenkins was holding and pulled something out of his pocket.

"Jess was found dead a few nights ago." He handed her the file and placed the other object in her hand as well "I'm so sorry Jen."

At his words JJ felt her heart drop to the floor and tears fill her eyes. She didn't want to believe them, she couldn't. She did what she did for Jess; she did it to keep her safe.

""No! You're wrong. It's not Jess. She safe, she's with the others. You're wrong." JJ shook her head.

"Jennifer look in your hand." He pointed to the object but JJ shook her head refusing to look and believe "Look Jen" JJ opened her hand slowly "That's Jess's locket. You remember? That's the one you gave her."

JJ looked and sure enough there it was. The silver locked she had given Jess just days before she had left the safest place she had ever been.

"How?" JJ whispered as realization set in.

"We believe she was murdered by a client." Marshal Jenkins piped up from his spot on the other side of the room earning himself glares from both Willis and Strauss.

"Oh god. She's dead." JJ collapsed onto the floor in a heap and sobbed into her hands. Seconds after she hit the floor she was scooped up by a pair of hands and was held tight.

"She's dead and its all my fault. I shouldn't have gone. I should have done something to protect her." JJ kept sobbing into her hands.

"It's not your fault Jenny you thought she was safe." Willis whispered to her as he hugged her.

The room was filled with loud knocking but neither Willis or JJ moved from the floor. In the back of JJ's mind she could hear the mumbling of people talking but just ignored it. For the first time in years all the old feelings were coming back. The feeling of betrayal, hurt and pain. She had spent so long pushing those feelings away into a box in the back of her mind and building up a wall to keep the person she used to be away, JJ refused to let that wall break. The lost girl she grew up to be could not take her life.

The office door slammed closed and Strauss bent down to JJ and Willis on the floor.

"Agent Jareau." JJ took a deep breath untangled herself form the mans arms, wiped away her tears and tried her best to pull her self together till she was alone "You need to tell the team." Strauss said in a soft voice.

"No I can't tell them" JJ looked at Strauss in shock "They'll hate me."

"I'm sure that's not true." Strauss said.

"Yes it is, you don't know half the things I did to get by and there is no need to tell them because that person doesn't exist. I am Jennifer Jareau and I work for the FBI. I refuse to be that person again."

Marshal Jenkins's phone rang in his pocket. He answered it and started to talk in whispers.

"Jennifer, you need to tell them." Strauss now used her stern voice but the look in her eyes still said the she was deeply worried about the woman in front of her "You cant do this on you own. Everything is going to come back to the surface now." JJ looked at her with stubborn eyes "I hate to say this and if you ever tell anyone I have I will deny it, but your team is a family you are all extremely close they know something is going on and we both know that some of them are not going to let it slide"

"Im sorry to interrupt Sir, Ma'am" Marshal Jenkins snapped his phone closed "But we need to leave."

"Ok" Willis put his arm round JJ's waist and helped her over to the sofa "I have to go now Jen, but if you need to just call ok?" JJ nodded as tears started to well in her eyes again "I would like to come to the funeral if that's ok?"

"Yeah" JJ whispered "I'll call you"

Willis kissed JJ's forehead and walked out with both Strauss and Marshal Jenkins.

"She's gone and I let her down." JJ put the file on her lap and opened the heart shaper locked and inside sat a picture of her and Jess. They were sat on some grass surrounded by colorful balloons that said 'Happy birthday". It was the Birthday that JJ was destroyed beyond repair. "I'm sorry. It was all my fault" She whispered.

There was a knock at the door and at the same time JJ could feel her stomach turning and she was going to be sick. She ran to the door and flew past almost knocking Hotch over in the process and into the toilets.

The team watched JJ run into the toilets; Garcia went to follow but was held back by Rossi.

"I think she needs a few minutes"

"Does anyone know what that was about?" Hotch asked still trying to process what he just saw.

The team all shook their heads and went to sit at the desks in the Bullpen. They wanted to give JJ some space.

"I think someone should go and find her." Reid said from his chair where his glance hadn't left the bathroom door.

"I'll go." Emily got up from her seat but before she could take a step the bathroom door opened to show JJ. She was as pale as a ghost with puffy red eyes from where she had been crying. She was also clutching a folder tightly to her chest. When JJ walked out she didn't look up at the team, she didn't even look up from the floor, she just walked off to her office and closed the door behind her.

"We need to find out what's going on." Morgan took the first step and the rest of them followed towards JJ's office.

Morgan reached the door and gently knocked. When they got no reply they listened closer and could hear JJ's sobs.

A/N so how was that?i thought it was ok but thats only my opponion

Please Review for me and tell me if there is anything wrong or if you just liked it.

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