A/N Im glad i changed it all round. i have had more hits in the past 12 hours than i did in a week, so THANKYOU!

AJ x

JJ walked out of her office and into the Bullpen towards her group of friends who were sat round their desks.

"Hey Jayje." Morgan stood from his desk "How you doing?"

"I'm not sure." She wasn't going to lie to them anymore, she had spent years doing it and plus in all honesty she was giving up caring if they thought she was weak. Soon they were going to find out how broken and disgusting she was anyway "Erm Hotch" JJ turned to her boss but didn't look at him "I was wondering if I could get some time off?"

"Strauss has given us all a few weeks off." JJ looked up at him for the first time since she walked into the room with a confused stare "Strauss said you might need our support." Hotch put a reassuring hand on JJ shoulder. He could see in JJ's eyes that she wasn't the same woman he was talking to that morning. Her eyes seemed to dull a little.

"Oh right ok…" JJ looked at the rest of the team. She just wanted to get this whole week over with as fast as possible "Listen guys I…" JJ was stopped by Rossi's hand on her shoulder and Hotch's look.

"You don't have to tell us anything till your ready JJ." Hotch said then Rossi continued "And we will all be right here when you are."

JJ looked at the others and they all nodded in agreement. Garcia walked over to JJ with tears in her eyes and pulled JJ into a hug. Tears filled her eyes again but she pushed them back. She couldn't break down again there was too much to do.

"What's happening next JJ?" Emily asked as she appeared by JJ side.

"Erm, I called some friends and they said it was ok to burry Jess there at Horizon but there something I have to do first."

"What's Horizon JJ" Reid asked it was an unsaid rule between the team not to profile each other but under the circumstances all of the profilers were..

"It's the school Jess and I went to as teenagers" JJ wasn't going to go into detail about the school and what they did there "She loved it there."

"Ok when do we leave?" Morgan asked pulling out his Go bag from under his desk "And before you say anything baby girl we are ALL coming with you. No arguments"

JJ let out a small laugh but it quickly turned to a frown when she realized that once they all found out what she was they were never going to want to be round her let alone make her laugh.

"Erm…Yeah." JJ pushed those thoughts to the back of her mind. She had the Next 24 hours to deal with first "We'll leave this evening. It's a long drive up there and I need to make a stop on the way if that's ok with you all?"

They all nodded and Garcia and Emily hugged her again.

JJ woke the next morning after no more that two hours sleep in a gritty motel room. She knew the next few hours were going to be some of the hardest she would face, but she had no choice.

JJ had sat in bed for a few hours when her phone rang.

"Jareau." She yawned.

"Hey Jayje its Em, did I wake you?"

"No. What's up?" JJ shifter in the bed a little.

"I just wanted to make sure you were doing ok and let you know we have to be out of the rooms in 30 minutes."

"I'm fine and I'll meet you at the cars soon." With out another word she snapped her phone closed.

JJ Took a shower scrubbing her body raw, changed quickly and then went out to the 7 seat SUV.

Morgan and Rossi were leaning against the car wearing casual jeans and button up shirts. Emily and Reid stood to their right, Reid looked like Reid in his normal cardigan and Emily was wearing a red buttoned up blouse with tight fitting jeans. Garcia was stood to their left wearing her normal birghtly coloured dress with a flower in her hair. JJ was about to walk over to them when a hand touched her shoulder making her jump out of her skin.

"Sorry JJ. Are we all set?" Hotch apologized for making her jump and took JJ's bag and placed it in the back of the car. He was wearing one of his many suits but to seem less formal he wasn't wearing a tie. JJ gave a tired smile and everyone started to climb in.

"Right where we heading?" Hotch put the key in the ignition and the car rumbled.

JJ ruffled round in her jean pocket and pulled out a slip of paper with an address scribbled on it.

"To my Mother's" The only emotion heard in JJ voice was the slight hint of fear. The team looked at JJ with shock and worry as she sighed and looked out the window when the full SUV pulled out the parking lot.

3 hours later The SUV pulled up outside an average sized white two floor house on the outskirts of a town. They all sat in silence waiting for JJ to do or say something and could see her trembling from the front seat as she looked up at the house with pure fear in her eyes. Emily who was sat in the seat behind JJ lent forward and put a hand on her shoulder making her jump and pull away from Emily's touch. Emily pulled her hand away quickly.

"I'm sorry." JJ whispered as she saw a hint of hurt in her eyes.

"It's ok Jayje. Do you want one of us to come in with you?" Emily asked with a reassuring smile.

"No its ok, I need to do this by myself." JJ undid her seatbelt and opened the door.

"Ok we'll be right her when your finished." JJ climbed out of the car and handed another slip of paper.

"That's the address of Horizon, Can you have it ready for when I come back?" JJ asked her voice was shaking a little as well as her body.

"Sure" Hotch took the paper "And take your time, we're not going anywhere." JJ gave him a reassuring smile and slammed the door closed.

JJ took a slow walk up to the house, her house, the one that held her nightmares. She reached the steps and almost turned round back to the car, she almost ran away again. But she stopped, she had to this for Jess, she didn't want to face the woman that knew everything but she had no choice. Jess and their mother got along really well; they had the relationship that JJ always wanted with their mother. What ever happened to her and Jess their mother had every right to say her last good bye.

JJ reached the top of the steps and knocked on the door. The few seconds that it took for the door to be answered seemed like hours. JJ could feel the butterfly's in her stomach. She was scared to see her mother again but most of all she was scared to step foot in that house again. The old rusty door handle turned and the door opened to show a woman in Jeans and a house coat. She had short, curly blonde hair and Brown eyes completely opposite to JJ's.

"Shelby?" The woman also known as Alice Blaine to her friends stood in the door way her face covered with shock.

"Hey." JJ looked up at her mother. Her hands crossed over her chest trying to protect her self from the memories slipping back into her mind. Alice pulled JJ threw the door and in to a big bear hug.

"I'm so glad your alive, we thought you were dead." Alice pulled back and examined her daughter "Look at you. You look so good, so healthy. How have you been?" Alice guided JJ into the living room.

"I've been ok thanks, mum we need to talk."

"What have you been up to?" Alice asked completely ignoring what JJ said.

"I work for the FBI now."

"FBI! That's brilliant! Wait till Jess hears." JJ felt her heart miss a beat at the mention of her sister.

"Mum listen there some news I have to tell you." JJ sat on the couch and pulled her mother down with her.

"Ok" Alice looked at her daughter waiting for her to speak. JJ opened her mouth for the words to come out but was interrupted.

"Honey, There are FBI outside saying you have company, who…." A man walked into the living room. He looked to be about 60 with grey hair. He was wearing a checkered shirt and faded blue Jeans. When JJ saw her man she thought her heart was going to burst out of her chest. It was him, the man that hurt her and Jess for years. That man that stood in front of JJ was the reason that Jess was dead.

"Shelby" The man whispered looking over the shaking and frightened blonde "Kitten is that you."

At the use of the nickname she hated so much JJ snapped out of her trance.

"Don't you dare call me that." She turned to Alice "How could you!" JJ almost yelled.

"You don't understand. Walt was sick; He didn't mean to do those things to either of you." Alice looked at her husband, the step father to her girls and took a step towards JJ who stepped back.

"I don't understand?" JJ was fuming at her mother and petrified of the man that stood feet away from her "NO! The only thing I don't understand is how you could take him back after what he did to us."

"Kitten, listen to me." JJ visibly shuddered at the use of that name again. Walt took a few steps towards JJ. She put her hand on her gun and said "If you take another step towards me I will shoot you."

He put his hands up in surrender and didn't move further "I can't even look at you right now, you disgust me!" She looked at her mother.

"Don't talk to me like that Shelby!" Her mother was getting angry "He's not the reason you're such a screw up; he took care of you."

"NO!" She couldn't believe her mother was saying these things to her "He didn't take care of me, I took care of my self the best way I could. He IS they reason I'm a screw up and he's also the reason Jess is dead." JJ saw her mother visibly pail.

"What…no she can't be…" Walt went over to Alice and supported her.

JJ cringed slightly she could feel Shelby start coming to the surface and forced her back down. That wasn't the way she wanted to tell her mother.

"That's why I came; to tell you she's gone." JJ's refused to make eye contact with her monster "I wanted to let you know that I'm burying her at Horizon this weekend. It's the one place she felt safe."

Alice looked up at her remaining daughter with anger in her eyes.

"How do you know where Jess felt safe? You haven't been round for the last 10 years." Walt's let go of Alice and she took a step towards JJ "It's not Walt's fault she dead, it's yours!" Alice spat.

JJ wasn't going to sit round and be told what she already knew so she took one last look at her furious mother and walked towards the door. When she reached the bottom step and glanced at the SUV loud voices came from behind her. Alice came flying out the door. JJ turned to look at her.

"If you hadn't have left, Jess wouldn't have been the way she was. If you had stuck it out she would be alive right now. Its you're FAULT!" Alice screamed with Wilt standing behind her. He was looking at JJ. It was a look she remembered from her childhood. He was wearing the same look every night when he would come into her bedroom.

Tears trickled down JJ's cheeks for the first time that day and she turned without a word towards her friends who were stood outside of the car listening to the shouting.

"YEAH! GO ON SHELBY RUN! RUN AWAY LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO! AS FAR AS IM CONCERENED YOU KILLED HER" Alice was pulled into the house by Walt and the door closed behind them.

JJ reached the SUV with tears staining her face.

"Buttercup are you ok?" Garcia asked her best friend.

JJ didn't say a word, she didn't even register someone was talking to her; she was zoned out unable to control her tears and fear. JJ walked round to the other side of the car, got in, put her seat belt on and just stared at the road not making any contact with the team. A few seconds they joined her in the car without a word and drove off to their next destination.

A/N There it and the next chapter shoul be up on wednesday or thursday. i hope you are liking it and theill beat the school in thnext chapter.

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AJ x