A/N i do quite lie this chapter. it really shows the difference between JJ and Shelby an the fight she is having to seprate the two.

AJ x

The sun peeked threw the blinds warming Morgan's face, waking him up. He climbed out of bed and looked round. Every one was asleep in their beds except for JJ. Her bed had been slept in as her covers were on the floor but she was nowhere to be seen. That was when for the first time Morgan noticed the steam coming from the shower room again.

"I'm surprised there's any hot water left in this place" he muttered to himself reaching the shower room door. He gently and quietly tapped not wanting to wake the others. When he didn't get an answer he gently pushed the door open and saw in the corner sat JJ, a fluffy white town wrapped round her small body and her knees tucked under her chin.

"Oh Jayje…What are you doing to your self baby girl?" Morgan could hear her quietly sobbing as he sat on the floor next to her "Come here" He wrapped his arms round her shoulders and held her to his chest.

The sat there for a while in silence. Morgan just held JJ and she held him listening to his steady heart beat. JJ almost jumped out of her skin where there was a nock at the door.

"Is everything ok in there?" Hotch's voice moved threw the closed door.

"Yeah, we'll be out in a bit." Morgan let go of JJ as she shifted away.

"Ok." The Hotch was no longer on the other side of the door.

"How you doing?" Morgan's deep voice asked looking at JJ.

She looked up to meet his gaze "I'm sorry." She whispered and looked back down at the floor. When he looked into her bright blue eyes and could tell she was fighting a battle in her head. It hurt him to see one of his closest friends hurting so much, he whished he could make all her pain go away.

"You have nothing to be sorry for Jayje." He tipped her head up to look at him again but this time when he met her eyes, they weren't the bright blue they were a second ago, they were dark blue and seemed slightly cloudy. She had a look in her eyes that Morgan didn't recognize and it made him rather uncomfortable.

Before he knew what was happening, JJ moved in. She soft moist lips pressed against his, he froze in shock. JJ moved and straddled his lap pushing more forcefully onto his lips. Her hand trailed up and down his neck causing him to shiver. Her other hand trailed down his firm abs and along the top of his shorts, her fingers tucked under the elastic and started to pull them away. This snapped Morgan out of his trance and he grabbed both of JJ's hands.

"JJ what the hell are you doing!" He yelled.

"C'mon Derek. You know you want it. All of you do." JJ whispered and her lips pressed against his again. JJ never called him Derek; it was her way of taking her self out of the situation. Morgan pushed her back breaking them apart again.

"Stop Jayje, this isn't you." But JJ didn't stop she pushed forward again.

"Its what all men want. Don't fight it Derek."

"NO! JJ STOP!" Morgan yelled.

He looked at her and he could visibly see the change in JJ. Her eyes went from being dark and back to the bright blue ones he knew as JJ's. She realized what she was doing and crawled back off him hitting the wall behind her with a thud.

"GET OUT!" JJ screamed Morgan stood and made his way closer to JJ "NO! GET OUT! GO!" Morgan raised his hands.

"Ok, ok, I'm going." JJ was rocking back and forward with her hands over her ears. It looked like she was having a mental breakdown. JJ was hurting and in pain and there was nothing he could do. He walked out of the shower room as a tear slid down his face.

JJ sat there rocking back and forward for a good 10 minutes, muttering 'I can't be her again. I won't let her win.' To herself over and over again till she got up and changed quickly into the running gear she had in the other corner of the room. JJ slipped on her trainers and ran out of the room past the scared and worried faces. She ran out of the cabin, threw the camp and into the woods as fast as she could.

She had to get away. Run from the pain and the hurt and run she did. JJ ran until she lungs burnt and her legs shook. When she finally stopped after an hour of running none stop, she collapsed and dry heaved from the exestuation she was feeling. She lay in her back looking up at the clear blue sky remembering every feeling she had felt. It was in that moment JJ realized she had had enough of hiding and hurting the people she cared about. JJ decided that she was going to tell the team who Shelby was because secrets just got people hurt.

The others were woken from their light sleep by whispered words and the shower room door closing.

"Morning beautiful crime fighters." Garcia yawned standing up and sitting on Emily's bed next to her.

"Where are Morgan and JJ?" Reid asked making his bed.

"I think their both in there." Rossi answered pointing to the closed door.

"Knock, Knock" The main door creaked open and Juliette popped her head in "I thought you all might like some coffee on this bright morning." She walked in holding a tray full of mugs in front of her large pregnant belly.

"Here" Hotch stood up and walked over to Juliette "Let me take that." Hotch took the tray and handed out the coffee.

"Oh you're a goddess." Garcia sipped her hot drink.

"I have been called many things before but that is not one of them." Juliette giggled sitting on one of the vacant chars and running a hand over her bump "So where's Shelby and Morgan?"

"They are in there, talking." Hotch walked over to the closed door and knocked "Is everything ok in there?" He got a muffled reply that know one else heard "ok" Hotch sat back down in his bed "He said they will be out in a bit." He answered before anyone could ask what Morgan had said.

"Juliette…" Reid looked at the pregnant woman, who looked up from her bump "Why were you sent here?"

"Sorry about him" Emily rolled her eyes and got out of the bed "He's our walking talking Wikipedia but he's people skills aren't up to much." Reid turned a bright shade of red.

"Its ok I don't mind. Most people just tip toe round it and it drives me mad. I don't mind talking about it; I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for who I used to be." Hotch gave her a rare smile "I used to be Horizons binge-purge queen as well as the Cliffhangers resident self-harmer." They all sat and listened to Juliette's story "by the time I was sent here by my biological father, my mother was onto her 5th marriage. She wanted me to be perfect for every new man she met and when I wasn't I cut myself." Juliette sighed and rubbed her stomach.

"How did you stop?" Garcia asked finishing her coffee.

"While I was here I was taught there are other ways to deal with my frustrations and hurt other than by cutting myself. The Eating Disorder was a lot harder to change. It wasn't till I fell pregnant that I finally realized that I was willing to look after myself to protect my baby but I wasn't to protect myself. It's been hard but with Auggie's help I've hade control over it since I fell pregnant." A proud smile crossed her face.

"That's brilliant…" Garcia squeaked she would have kept going but stopped when yelling started to come from the shower room.

"NO! GET OUT! GO!" JJ's voice echoed threw the bedroom, seconds later Morgan walked out. He looked like he had just been slapped round the face.

"Morgan what's wrong?" Hotch asked. Morgan didn't reply he perched himself on the end of his bed and ran a hand over his face.

"Chocolate thunder, what's wrong?" Garcia sat on Morgan's bed and rubbed his shoulders. Still Morgan was silent.

"DEREK!" Emily yelled and got his attention "What happened?"

"I…She…" He looked at the closed door and back at Emily "Sh…sh..i..i..she." Morgan never stumbled over his words.

The team broke their stare when they could hear Juliette sigh.

"She got you didn't she?" Juliette asked. Morgan looked at her and nodded the shock still present on his face.

"What are you talking about?" Rossi asked her.

"She tried to have sex with him." Juliette let the sadness linger in her eyes. If JJ had done something like that Juliette knew she was hurting big style.

"WHAT?" Emily and Garcia yelled together.

"She did." Morgan finally spoke "Who was that?" He looked at Juliette as she stood and he pointed at the door he came out.

"You were just introduced to Shelby Merrick." Juliette walked out of the room with the empty tray leaving the others staring.

"Morgan tell us what happened in there?" Hotch asked.

"We were talking one minute and the next she changed. She didn't even look like JJ. She kissed me, I tried to push her back but she said that I like it. She said 'it's what all men want'. I yelled at her to stop and then she was JJ again. She started crying, I went to comfort her but she pushed me away and told me to leave."

They were all still trying to process what just happened when JJ came pelting out of the shower room and out of the door.

A/N if i dont get another one up today it wont be till wednesday as im out all of tomorrow. and in the next chapter JJ tells the team who she really is! I cant wait for you to read it!

Review for cyber hugs and good Karma!

AJ x