A/N i got home sooner than i thought i would so here is the next chapter. Smeone askede in a feview if Shelbys/JJ's mother nd Walt make another apperance and yes they do and its good!

SHE TELLS THEM WHO SHE REALLY IS!

AJ x

"When I was 8 my mother married a man. His name is Walt" JJ visibly winced at the use of the monsters name "We seemed like the Perfect little family. It was me, Mum, Jess and him. They both used to drop me and Jess of at ballet and pick us up together. I remember our dance teacher talking to them saying how we all looked like a perfect little family. I was happy, we all were." She looked down at the coffee table remembering her childhood.

"I had never really had a father figure so when he would come into my bedroom at night and watch me sleep or lay next to me calling me kitten," she could see some understanding in Garcia's eyes "telling me how much he loved me, I didn't think anything of it, I thought that's what all dads did. I really was the happiest little girl in the world" JJ stopped to steady her shaking hands; this is where it got hard.

"That was until my 10th birthday. We had a massive party with all of my friends. Balloons, clowns, bouncy castled you name it I had it there. It was an amazing day but it is still one of the worst of my life." JJ knew by the look on her team member's faces, Morgan's clenched fists and Garcia's and Emily's tears that she didn't have to keep explaining but if she was going to tell the whole story she had to.

"When it came time to go to bed, everything seemed normal. Mum tucked me in and I fell asleep." The first tear fell from JJ's face and Sophie walked over with a box of tissues, she handed one to JJ and put the rest on the coffee table "I woke up hours later with a hand over my mouth….Wa…W…" JJ gritted her teeth; she didn't want to be afraid of a name "Walt was on top of me. He whispered in my ear how pretty I was and how special I was. Th…then he r…ra…raped me. I was so scared and it hurt so much, all I could do was beg him to stop but he didn't."

Morgan, Hotch and Rossi looked angry, Reid looked sad and Emily and Garcia didn't even bother to hide the tears that were falling for their friend. JJ tried to compose her self and stop the tears. For a few moments it worked but over all it was no use. The story hurt too much to tell and to keep calm at the same time.

"After the first few times I got over the shock and started to fight him but he said if he didn't do it with me…He would go and find Jess."

"JJ, baby, I'm so sorry." Garcia sniffed. All she wanted to do was hold her best friend and let her cry in her arms.

"Please, I need to finish. You all deserve to know everything." JJ received a nod from Garcia "He said he would find Jess, so I kept quite. When he would come in, I just let him get on with it, do what he wanted to do, no matter how much it hurt or how disgusting it was. I had no choice, I had to protect her. When I was 13, I couldn't stand it anymore. So I ran away from home." Peter handed JJ the glass of water from his desk. She took it and said "Thankyou."

He took the glass from her hand and whispered in her "Your doing really well, your almost there." JJ nodded and continued.

"I ran away but mum found me and took me back. About a year later I ran again and mum found me. So I learnt from my mistakes, I saved more money and bided my time." JJ was about to reveal her dirtiest secret.

"Just after my 15th birthday, I don't know what happened but he changed. He got more vicious; he liked hurting me more, and leaving me with bigger bruises and cuts." JJ could feel her heart trying to beat its way out of her chest.

"After one of his brutal attacks I ran again, but this time I got further. For the first few weeks I did ok on the streets. I was sleeping under a bridge one night and I stumbled across Heroin and Barbiturates." JJ took a glance at Reid. She knew how much he had struggled with his drug addiction and at one point she had come so close to telling him but as she was about to tell he had fallen asleep and she promptly changed her mind.

"I became addicted to both and that's what I ended up spend most of my money on. After another week or so I had ran out, I didn't even have anything to buy food. So I started begging and routing threw dumpsters for something, anything but it wasn't enough. After a few days the lack of food and the withdrawal of the drugs started making me weaker and weaker."

'Here goes nothing' JJ said to herself.

"That was when I mat Patty. She showed me how to survive…" JJ looked down at the coffee table she could deal with them all knowing about Walt but knowing what she had done, JJ didn't think she could deal with that. She didn't want to see the disappointment and disguise in their eyes.

"I started turning tricks." She paused waiting for one to them to either walk out or tell her how much of a whore she was. When nothing happened JJ didn't look up from the table but continued.

"It was the only way I could get food and the fix I needed. Me and Patty we stuck together, we watched each others backs. Made sure the other was safe." JJ took another sip of water and wiped the flood of tears away "I had been doing it for about two months, when I got home from a trick…Patty was lying on the couch. She was dead. She had OD." JJ found the courage to look up at the team and all of them Hotch and Morgan included either had tears in their eyes or were crying.

"I grabbed as much of my stuff from the place we were staying and I walked out leaving her body to be buried as a 'Jane Doe'." JJ just wanted it all to be over now.

"No more than a week later this car pulled up in front of me and who should roll down the window but my biological father, the man I hadn't seen since I was a baby. As soon as I saw him, I kicked of my heals and legged it, but he caught me, he dragged me into the car kicking and screaming. I thought he was taking me back, that he was sanding me back to him but he didn't. We drove for hours and I found out that mum had called him asking for his help in finding me" She felt Peters hand on her shoulder and she looked up at him. JJ could see how proud of her he was. Her story was starting to get a little better.

"Anyway, eventually we stopped and out of the car I climbed to be faced with Peter. My Father had brought me here, to Horizon." JJ Smiled a smile that for the first time in days finally reached her eyes.

"I got clean and I spent the next 3 months in counseling sessions and group therapy with Peter and Sophie, while they chipped away at me trying to get me to open up to them."

"Which you did….eventually" Sophie gave JJ a light hearted smile although she knew her story was far from over.

"Yeah, I just spent the first 3 months being a complete bitch to everyone."

"Why?" For the first time since JJ began to talk Hotch thought it was the correct time to ask a question.

"Why?….because treating everyone badly pushed them all away. I was always scared that if someone got to close they would figure it all out and then Jess wouldn't be safe anymore. As well as the fact I didn't trust anyone and I thought I didn't deserve them all to care…" Hotch nodded in understanding.

"Keep going JJ." As JJ's best friend, Emily knew her well enough to know that she wasn't finished yet.

"I had been here for a while and I got a phone call from my mother saying that Walt" It now wasn't just JJ that shivered at the name but Emily and Garcia also did "Had a heart attack. I prayed so hard that he would die. That I would never have to be scared of him again but he didn't and mum said I had to go back to look after him while she worked and Jess was in school." Garcia raised her hand over her mouth as fresh tears fell and Morgan was looking mad again "So that's what happened. Mum pulled me out of one place I felt safe and took me back to my very own hell…." She didn't want to do it anymore; she didn't want to tell the rest "That's enough Peter, please no more."

"I can't make you do anything Shel, but you are doing so well. You're almost done." Before Peter could say anything else Emily rose from her seat and knelt down next to JJ and took the blonde's hands in her own.

"Keep going Jayje. Were still here aren't we?"

"When I got back he looked so weak and pathetic. It would have been so easy to kill him right then." She felt Emily's hand tighten round hers "But I didn't. I did everything for the man that abused me. I cooked for him and took care of him, but he still couldn't leave me alone. When ever I got close enough he would touch me and tell ne how much he missed out special little sessions." Taking a deep breath JJ continued "That was when I found out…he…erm…" JJ was shaking "He did it to Jess too." JJ put her head to her chest and low sobs left her mouth as Emily held her tight.

She took a shaky deep breath and continued "I should have never have believed him when he said he wouldn't touch her. It was my fault, if I hadn't have ran he would never have touched her. If I had stayed and let him have me, she wouldn't be dead today. I came so close to killing myself that night, I couldn't deal with the guilt I was feeling a guess. As I held the knife to my wrist I realized there was nothing from stopping me reporting what he had done to us, so I did, I called the police" JJ could feel Emily's hand tighten round hers again "They came and took him away. When Jess denied it the officers said that they would have to take us away as well but mum didn't want that. So that's when she came out and admitted…She knew what he was doing to us. My mother knew that monster left her bed every night and came into my room, into Jess's room and raped us and she didn't stop him. Our own mother." Emily grabbed a tissue for herself and JJ.

"I was sent back to Horizon till the court case. That was when I started to open up properly. I started really talking to Peter and Sophie. The court case came 6 months later and he was released on a technicality. The officer that arrested him didn't read him his rights." You could hear Hotch and Rossi give a loud sigh.

"I came back to Horizon for a few weeks after but I couldn't deal with everything. The guilt and anger, I could feel myself slipping back to my old ways, I couldn't be that person again. I knew Jess was in a safe place so I called my Father. I said I needed his help with something and he came and picked me up in the middle of the night. I thought it would be better for everyone if I just vanished." JJ looked up at Sophie "Someone once told me it was called spoiling. That every time I hade something good I would ruin it before I ever had a chance to get hurt." Sophie let out a little laugh and a nod of her head.

"Anyway my Father had a lot of money and contacts in high places for example Strauss." Hotch and Rossi rolled their eyes, 'they should have known' both men thought to them self's.

"He pulled some strings and got me into witness protection. That's where I met Agent Willis and well the rest you know. I became Jennifer Jareau and eventually joined the academy." JJ looked up and glanced at her family. They looked at her with the pity and sympathy that the Cliffhangers once did but there was something else in their eyes and JJ couldn't tell what it was, all she could do was guess and she jumped to the conclusion that it was the emotion she feared the most, disgust.

Emily went to reach for JJ's hand but JJ pulled away. She pushed the hurt away that she was feeling because she needed to focus on her best friend at the moment.

"Jayje its…" She went to reach for JJ again but she jumped out of her seat and ran to the door. Sophie beat her too it and wouldn't let JJ threw.

"Shelby, don't do this, please."

"Move Sophie." It wasn't JJ talking anymore it was Shelby. JJ let her take over because she couldn't deal with the rejection from her family and Shelby knew how to handle it.

"Shel…" Peter came up behind her "It's going to be ok." He put a hand on her shoulder but she swung round and almost hit him in the face.

"Don't touch me!" JJ screamed and turned back to Sophie "Move! Get out of my way!"

"No, I wont let you run away from something good again Shel." Sophie didn't move from the door. The others were all on their feet watching JJ loosing control. Hotch took a step towards JJ to try and calm her.

"JJ, you need to calm down, we can talk about what ever it is that has scared you. Please come and sit back down."

"Stay away from me!" Tears were streaming down her cheeks and she was shaking with fear and anger "Sophie, MOVE!"

"Shelby, please let us help you." Peter didn't touch her this time.

"NO! You can't help me, none of you can. I don't need your help I just need to get out of here." Blood started to run from JJ nose and was seen by the whole team and Peter and Sophie. JJ wiped her nose with the back of her hand a saw the blood, she looked back at the woman in front of the door "please."

"Sophie its ok, you can move." Morgan saw how desperate JJ was and the blood worried him even more "your just going to clear your head, aren't you JJ?" She didn't look at him but nodded. When the team had found out what happened to him as a child all he wanted to do was get away from then and clear his head.

When Sophie did eventually get out of the way, it didn't talk a second for the door to fly open and JJ to run out.

A/N i wrote this a few times to get it right and i think i got there in the end. Let me know if it was done right or not.

AJ x