A/N i got a really good responce from the lat chapter so thankyo everyone that read it and is still reading. i love you guys

AJ x

"Oh my poor girl." Garcia collapsed back onto the couch and sobbed. Morgan sat next to her and held her close to his chest; the tears were freely falling from his eyes too.

"How did we not see this?" Reid sat on the couch "we've been working with her for years and we never knew."

"We didn't see it because she didn't want us too." Hotch sighed, he was feeling slightly guilty for letting them gang up on her like they did just before she ran out "From what I gather JJ has spend almost all of her life keeping secrets so when she joined the BAU she wasn't going to change the habit of a life time."

"I thought we weren't supposed profile each other Aaron." Rossi gave his friend a look that only Hotch knew, it was telling him to stop.

"I think we've all been profiling her since Strauss spoke to her." Morgan wiped away his tears.

"I don't understand why she didn't tell me." Garcia untangled her self from Morgan's arms.

"She didn't want you to see her the way she saw herself" Peter interjected himself in the conversation from the other side of the room holding a sobbing Sophie in his arms "and she ran off because she saw something in you that she didn't like."

"What do you mean didn't like? Like what?" Garcia's voice raised two octaves.

"Think about it. She didn't want to tell you because she didn't want you too see her as weak, dirty and for lack of a better word….a whore." Peter sat on the chair that JJ was sat moments before "Shelby must have seen it in one of you and freaked out, She was always good at that."

"We would never see her like that." Emily looked shocked and hurt that her best friend would even think that "She's one of us, we love her and what happened to her was not her fault."

"But she didn't have to sleep with men for money." A quite voice broke in.

"Reid?" Morgan almost yelled.

"What? She turned to drugs out of choice and when she didn't have enough cash left she whore'd her self out to pay for them. Are you seriously telling me that's not her fault?"

"Reid I cant believe your saying this?" Garcia whispered barely able to keep from leaping at the man next to her.

"Do you have any idea what's it like to be abused by someone you trust?" Morgan was getting med at the youngest member of the team "to be forced to do something you don't want to do?"

"Yes as a matter a fact I do. Don't you remember Hankle?" Reid stood and came face to face with Morgan.

"Well you of all of us should understand why she turned to drugs. She wanted to forget she that bustard did to her and wanted to forget what she had to do as a result of that! I'm proud of her. She managed to turn her life round, yeah ok she went about it the wrong way but she did it. I'm proud of her because she told us what happened even though it was obviously hurting her and then you go and make it worse by saying she could have found some other way of doing things!" Garcia stood up and put her hands on Morgan's chest

"Honey pie, I think you need to calm down."

"No!" He didn't even look at Garcia. Reid's eyes were filling with tears "Do you think she wanted to become a prostitute, or a drug addict or homeless?"

"No but…" Reid's tears finally fell and he realized that Morgan was right.

"But nothing she did what she did to survive. To save herself and her sister from that monster!"

Reid didn't say anything more; he sat back down and cried silent tears.

"Pen have you got your laptop on you?" Emily sat on one of the free seats. Garcia pulled Morgan back down to the seat next to her and pulled out her laptop without a word.

"What are you looking for?" Rossi asked.

"I just want to have a look." Emily started tapping away at the computer. She stopped a few minutes later and read what the screen said "Its all here."

"What is?" Morgan asked this time.

"Everything. The abuse and rape allegations, The arrests reports for pros prostitution and drugs."

"I still have her file and medical reports if you want to read threw them." Peter walked over to his desk and pulled out a thick A4 folder and placed it on the coffee table.

"Medical reports?" Rossi looked slightly worried.

"Yeah when her father brought her here the first time, Shel was pretty banged up." He frowned looking down at the file on the table "C'mon Soph." Peter pulled his wife up from the couch by her hands "We're gonna go and see if we can find her." Hotch nodded as the others just stared at the file.

One the door closed No one said anything for a while. They were all going over the past hours events in their heads. They were all struggling to deal with what had happened to JJ as a child and to accept the face that they didn't really know her at all.

"Should we read it?" Garcia asked.

"No. I don't want to know what she was like as Shelby. I just want our old JJ back."

"Emily's right. Leave it. We need to make her understand that what she told us doesn't effect how we feel of think about her. She is still the same JJ we used to know, she just has a few more skeletons in her closet than the rest of us. It doesn't change the fact that we love her and we would all be a little lost without how." Rossi said and stood up taking the file and putting it back on Peter's desk.

"I didn't mean what I said. I was just struggling to put things together." Reid piped up wiping his face.

"Its ok kid" Morgan reached over Garcia and patted Reid on the back "We know you didn't mean it and neither did I. I just wanted somewhere to vent my anger and you were there."

"I know thanks" Reid gave him a small smile.

"Why was she bleeding, just before she ran out, she started bleeding." Garcia wondered looking at Hotch.

"I think it was from stress. The past few days have been immensely hard on her. And when we refused to let it out her body couldn't take the strain anymore and…well…It relieved some of the tension, is one way to put it."

"But surly that can't be a good thing?" Garcia looked scared.

"No" Reid was about to throw in some facts but something told him now wasn't the time "It's not good. If she keeps this up she could do some permanent damage."

"If I ever set my eyes on that bastard that did this to her again, I'm gonna kill him." Morgan clenched his fists as his eyes flashed with anger.

"Your gonna have to get in line." Rossi pushed himself of Peter's desk "Lets go and find our girl and let her know nothing has changed."

Emily and Garcia grabbed a handful of tissues each and followed the men out of the door in search for their lost friend.

Peter and Sophie walked out of the administration building hand in hand and over to the old Cliffhangers who were sat talking at the benches.

"Hey guys, have you seen Shelby?" Peter asked.

"Yeah she ran out towards the wood house a few minutes ago." Scott pointed behind him "We called her but she just kept running."

"She's good at that." Daisy scowled.

"What happened? Is she ok?" Scott gave Daisy a dirty look.

"She told them." Sophie sighed.

There was a resounding 'O' from the old students.

"How well did they take it?" Juliette rubbed her belly.

"They were still processing it when we left."

"We had better go and make sure she's ok." Peter pulled Sophie with him before turning to Daisy "And dais, lay of her will you. She's having a hard time. She was there for you when you mother passed. We all know she did the wrong thing by running and she knows it too but you can't change the past, I think we all know that more than anyone. If you can't be there for her just keep the comments to yourself please."

They didn't wait for a comment or dark statement from Daisy they just kept walking to the wood house. When they got there they saw no sight of the broken blonde they were after.

"Peter, where is she?" Sophie was starting to get worried.

"Hey, don't worry. If she's going to run she won't before the funeral and hopefully by then we can persuade her to stay." Peter pulled her into a hug. He kissed the top of Sophie's head and saw out of the corner of his eye a small figure sitting at the end of the dock.

"I've found her Soph."

They both walked over to JJ. Her eyes were red and puffy, her skin was pail and she had a freshly lit cigarette in her mouth.

"Can we sit down" Sophie asked.

"Id rather you not." JJ blew the smoke out as she spoke.

"Well id rather we did." Peter and Sophie sat either side of JJ with their legs dangling just above the water.

That sat in silence waiting for JJ to say something. In that time she had lit another cigarette.

"Where'd you get them from Shel?" Peter asked grabbing the box that sat in between them and putting it in his shirt pocket.

"I made most of the hiding places round here Peter. They were in the first place I checked; there was a packet of condoms in there too." A Cold looking smile crossed her face "I think I'll keep them, you never know they could come in handy." Even when Shelby first arrived at Horizon she didn't seem this beyond repair. Peter looked over at Sophie and her face was filled with pure worry and fear. Shelby had always been like a daughter to them and when she ran it broke both their hearts.

"Talk to us Shel" Sophie put her hand on JJ's shoulder but it was pushed off. She didn't say anything in reply just took another drag of her cigarette.

"C'mon Shelby, we can't help you unless you talk to us." Peter pushed his fears away, he could break down later but now he needed to try and save the young woman.

"You couldn't help me even if I wanted you too. Did you know I had sex with the delivery guys here just to get a carton of fags?" She saw the looks of horror on their faces "See you couldn't even help me back then." JJ sniggered.

Both Peter and Sophie spent the next 10 minutes getting over the shock of what they were just told and practically begging the lost girl to talk. When they heard the old wood creak behind them, they stood and saw JJ's family. They thought that maybe they could help her.

Sophie walked over to them but Peter knelt down next to JJ and whispered in her ear "I know your in there somewhere. I'm not giving up on you Lost Girl." He stood and went to walk to the others

"Peter" JJ turned to look at him. He knelt down to her side again.

"Yeah?"

When he got close enough JJ reached into his shirt pocket and pulled out the cigarettes before he could stop her "Thanks" She stated in a dark cold voice, much like the girl that climbed out of her fathers car many years ago. He went to grab them out of her hands but with her fast reflexes she grabbed his wrist "Oh I wouldn't do that if I were you." And she gave his a stare that sent shivers down his spine. He stood up and walked over to the team a few meters up the dock.

"How is she?" Reid asked.

"Honestly?" Peter pulled Sophie into his arms, she looked like she was about to burst into tears "I hate to say it but…" He looked at the blonde still staring off over the lake now with a lit cigarette in her hand "I think she's finally snapped. That's not the girl I used to know and it's most defiantly not the woman you know."

"We've lost her haven't we?" Asked Sophie from Peter's arms.

"Yeah. I think we have." No more was said as Peter and Sophie walked off the dock and to the cabins.

The team looked at the couple walking away and then turned to stare at each other.

"We're not giving up on her." Hotch took the lead and joined JJ at the end of the dock. The others joined him. He took the side Peter was sitting and Emily took the other side, Morgan sat on his knees right behind JJ with Garcia and Reid either side of him while Rossi stayed standing at the back.

"Oh for crying out loud what is this some bloody kind of intervention? Cant a girl have a fag in peace round here." JJ finished the one in her hand and lit another one.

"My Mother used to call them coffin nails." Emily said with a smile remembering the lecture she got from her mother when she got caught smoking.

"Well Ambassador Prentiss dose know how to suck the life out of things." JJ took a deep puff.

"For every cigarette you smoke it takes 6 minutes off your life also…" Reid was about go into full blown statists when JJ pulled out another one.

"Really…well lets have another one shall I or better yet I could slit my wrists maybe this time I wall actually succeed."

Garcia gasped and put her hand over her mouth in shock. It hurt the others to hear their friend talk this way but the trained profilers knew that she was only using the shock factor to keep them all away. She didn't mean to hurt them or scare them but it was the only way she could deal with everything without getting herself hurt more in the process.

"JJ give the me cigarettes." Hotch held out his hand.

"No…" a laugh escaped her lips one they only ever heard from an Unsub "What you gonna do…sack me? Well guess what…I quit. You can find your self some other skivvy to do your dirty work." JJ pulled out her badge from her pocket and threw it on Hotch's lap. While she was doing this she left the packed of smoked resting on her leg and Emily grabbed them and passed them over her shoulder to Morgan "Give them back." JJ turned and Gave Emily a dirty look before turning to Morgan and going to grab them but she wasn't fast enough. Morgan threw them over her head and into the lake.

"Oh that's just pathetic, how old are you 5?" JJ rolled her eyes and finished the last one in her hand. Emily and Hotch were looking at JJ's face when a smirk crossed her lips. She turned to look at Morgan.

"Do you want to finish what we started this morning?" The tears were falling from Garcia again and Morgan just looked at her in shock "I guess not." She stood and climbed over him and Reid "Well I'm sure I can find someone round here that will."

JJ got half way up the dock when Hotch called out.

"Jennifer stop!" JJ stopped in her tracks. He had never called her by her first name before. She stopped but didn't turn round "Enough ok, please. Stop trying to push us away. You can make all the dark comments and hurtful remarks you want but were still going to be right there beside you because we love you."

They couldn't see it but she face was no longer cold and hard. It had softened.

"We love you because you're JJ and we wouldn't change you for the world. You're what holds this team together." Hotch didn't know what else to say to help so Emily tried.

"Jayje you're like a sister to me, both you and Pen. You both accepted me right from the beginning when I was new to all this, we've had brilliant nights out and evenings in eating buckets full of ice-cream and watching movies." JJ turned round with tears streaking down her face, they were finally getting threw to her, maybe she wasn't completely shattered after all "I know what it must have seemed like in there but we weren't angry or disgusted at you." Emily started taking steps towards JJ "We were mad and disgusted at the monster that did those things to you, that made you do those things." Emily reached JJ and took her face in her hands, she wiped the tears away with her thumbs as the others gathered round JJ as well "You did what you had to survive Jayje and for that we are so proud of you. You went threw worse things than most people could images and you have come out the other side."

Morgan wrapped his arms round her waist "You don't have to run from us baby girl, were right here for you, were not leaving you none of us. If you need some one to talk to, scream at or you just need someone to hold you all you have to is come and find one of us."

Garcia took JJ's hand "Were all here and were all going to protect you gumdrop and that is a promise we can all keep."

JJ looked round at each member of their family and there wasn't the anger of hate in their eyes that was there back in Peter's office. There was love and concern and in that moment JJ finally believed that they weren't going to abandon her for anything and it made her feel awful for the way she had just treated all of them.

"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." JJ let the dam break and the floods poured. Morgan held tightly round her waist and Emily wrapped her arms round JJ shoulders.

"Shhhh sweetheart you have nothing to be sorry for. You were hurting and that's ok. Everything's going to be ok now. Your safe now, we've got you."

After a few minutes of sobbing, JJ's tears subsided and Morgan unwrapped his arms from JJ only to wrap them round Garcia.

"JJ you need to get some sleep. It's been a long day and I bet you didn't get much last night either." Hotch rubbed JJ's arms was she nodded her head which was resting on Emily's shoulder "Here, this belongs to you." Hotch handed JJ her badge.

"Thankyou." She whispered.

They all walked up to their cabin.

A/N I know this is really long but if i split it up this chapter would be really small nd i didnt want that so i gave you an extra long one. i love the bit where JJ is all cold and pushing everyone away. Please let me know what you think and it was god or not.

AJ x