Abandoned Baby
Chapter 52
3 days later Bless was released from the hospital and was going to settle at Drew's parents house until they could fly back home after 2 weeks. Drew,Bless,and Catherine stayed at Drew's for 3 days then had to go back on the road since he had to work since they had to travel to the next few countries.
Bless tried her best to forget about the miscarriage but still didn't help. She wanted this baby more than anything and it still hurt since it was still fresh on her mind.
She had just put Catherine for a nap in her portable playpen and kissed her forehead before covering her up.
"I love you baby."Bless said to her baby girl sweetly stroking her dark hair.
She watched her sleep for a few minutes until she sat on the couch recovering after being so sore from the D&C. She didn't get to know the baby's sex at all since it was still to early to detect.
She was kinda glad she didn't get attached too much to the baby although she didn't realize she was pregnant at that time but she had that glimmer of hope to be a mom to her and Drew's first biological baby.
She put her hand on her flat stomach hoping she Drew could start having another baby but she wasn't so sure if wanted another baby yet since after the miscarriage. She wanted to be a mom but she was scared to lose another baby.
Being knocked out of her thoughts, she heard someone come in the room when she noticed Randy.
"Hey baby girl. I heard what happened. I'm so sorry honey."He apologized hugging her from behind as she had a small smile accepting his embrace.
"Thanks Viper."She said feeling a comfort in his embrace.
"You doing okay?"He asked making sure she was doing okay.
"Yeah...I'll be okay. Sore but okay I guess."She shrugged sadly.
"Don't worry baby girl. Things will get better. I promise."He told her softly kissing the top of her head.
"I know..."She started to sniffle a little.
"Oh baby, it's okay to cry. Don't hold it in. Just let it all out."He comforted her as he felt she bottled all her emotions in.
Bless finally let it all out as Randy held her in his tattooed arms. The pain she held in was too much too handle from her sister dying to now the baby's miscarriage. Everything around her felt as if it were crashing down on her.
"I know sweetie...I know...let it all go baby."Randy rubbed her back and held her tightly as a protective brother would take care of his little sister.
"I'm sorry Viper."Bless sniffled wishing she didn't have to deal with all this.
"Don't apologize hon. Do you feel better though?"He asked rubbing her back with comfort.
"A little bit..."She sniffled as she grabbed a tissue to wipe her remaining tears.
"I just wished I knew how I could've prevented the miscarriage and kept the baby alive..."She told him softly.
"Honey,look...It's not your fault okay...you couldn't have prevented it from happening. These things happens sometimes. I may not know what you're going through sweetheart but I know deep down that you're strong. It's going to take time baby. Once you feel like you're healed, talk to Drew and see what he says if he wants another baby. I'm pretty sure he would want to start a family. It's a start hon. This is just a bump in the road you're going through but once you pass it, it'll get better. I'm sure wherever that little baby is now she's with your sister in heaven and I'm sure your sis will look after him or her for you. You have many family and friends including that care for you and will be here whenever you need us. Remember honey, you are not alone in this fight." He let her know as he kneeled next to her and rubbed her knee in a comforting manner.
"Thanks Viper. I needed to hear that. I love you so much."Bless sat up and embraced him as he too wrapped his arms around her making her feel a little better. He felt her tears soak his shirt as he rubbed her back
"I love you too baby girl. Never forget that."Randy spoke to her softly as he kissed her cheek and wiped her tears with his thumbs.
"I won't."She half smiled as he squeezed her hands.
"Sammy sends her love and Alanna says she hopes Auntie Bless feels better soon."He let her know his family said that.
"Thanks Viper. Send my love to the girl's as well. Hopefully when Drew and I get time for vacation, I can visit you guys."Bless hoped for a mini vacation to see Randy,Sam who was like an older sister,and considered Alanna her niece. They were her closest family she's ever had.
"You know I will. Well...I better get going since I have a match in a few with Stu (Wade). If you need to talk later or just need you're big brother, don't forget to stop by okay?"He suggested with a smile.
"I won't. Good Luck."She told him kissing his cheek.
"Thanks baby girl. Love you."He blew her a kiss before he knew he had to get psyched for his match then worry about Bless later.
Bless sighed and wiped her tears with a tissue as she layed her head back on the couch trying to get her emotions in check but the more she tried, tears just kept coming. She hated feeling this way even when she remembered her sister invaded her mind. She missed her so much it was hurting her. She wasn't really over that yet as well.
While she sat there wiping her tears, she didn't hear the person come in the locker room to see her best friend and another brother from another mister Justin Gabriel (PJ Lloyd) who had just walked in the locker room usually the guys shared to wind down after his match when he noticed his favorite adopted "sister" was sitting on the couch with tissues by her side and she looked to still be grieving from the loss from her and Drew's child.
He heard the news from Stu who had told Heath too and when he heard she had miscarried, it broke his heart in half. How much he wanted to be there just to hold and hug her, to make the pain go away but he didn't know how.
He cried during the middle in the hotel room because he felt her hurt and it hurt him when she was hurting and wanted to take it all away. He sighed sadly looking at the sad girl not knowing what to say to her. All he knew was just to hold her and comfort her at this time. He didn't know the severity of losing a child and knew inside she had to be crushed but he had to be brave for her for her sake and just be the protective big brother to look out for his little sister.
"Hey Baba (baby)."He half smiled coming in to greet her.
"Hey..."She greeted with a half smile as she was wiping away her tears.
"Baba, do you mind if I hug you?"He asked her as she nodded loving her best friend didn't ask her if she was okay which she was kinda glad. She loved it when he didn't push the subject of the miscarriage but all she knew was she needed his special hugs that she loved so much.
He came in and sat beside her holding her close to him as she layed her head on his shoulder.
She looked up at him and saw dark circles under his green eyes. He looked like he hadn't slept too well and looked worn down.
"Peej, I'm worried about you. You okay?"She asked him softly wondering what was up. Usually he was so peppy and on the go but this time he looked so tired and down.
"I'm okay baba..."He reassured her with a small smile even though he was hiding the fact he was worried about her.
"Peej...I know when you're not okay."She said knowing he had to be worrying about something.
"Come on Peej, out with it wolf boy."She told him as he sighed sitting up to look into her eyes and saw his eyes were really red and swollen as if he had been crying.
"Peej, what's wrong?"Bless asked him in concern.
"I...I...was worried about you baba..."He admitted taking her hand and squeezing it.
"I thought I lost my favorite sister after you lost the baby. It hurt me to know I almost lost you. I wouldn't know what to do without you Bless...I thought something bad happened to you and I got scared."He let her know how he felt as she looked at him with a sad look.
"Oh Peej, I didn't realize you felt that way. Don't worry, I'm still here and kicking. I just lost the baby. It still hurts though it'll take a while for me to cope but you'll never lose me, ever. I love you PJ."Bless told him as he sniffled as tears filled his eyes to know she was okay but the vision of her in his dreams haunted him after Stu had told him and Heath after she lost the baby. He thought he was going to lose her when he told them how she lost the baby.
"Peej, please don't cry or you're going to make me start again."Bless comforted her favorite best friend rubbing his werewolf styled hair.
"I'm sorry baba, I guess I'm just very sensitive plus I hate when you're hurting, I hurt too. I'm sorry about the little one. I know you hate feeling pitied but hon, I don't want you to think that because I care so much about you like a sister. I love you so much. If I ever lost you, I feel like I lost a part of myself. You're the first ever girl to approach me with that warm beautiful smile and I knew the minute we started talking, I felt like I knew you forever. You're like a part of me like a long lost twin I've always wanted."He felt silly for crying but wanted her to know how much he cared for her and didn't want to ever lose her.
"Oh Peej. I love you too. You'll never lose me. As far the baby goes, I'm okay. I guess this is just a little bump in the road as Randy quoted to me a while ago but once I heal, I'll be good as new. I guess Drew and I will try and start a family of our own when the time comes. It still hurts I lost the baby but I guess it was just a test for now until I feel ready to know when I want to be a mom again. I'm just happy that I still have our little girl."She mentioned over to Catherine who was peacefully asleep snuggling with her teddy bear and sucking softly on her pacifier.
"You're a great mom honey, I'm sure you will be again when you and Drew are ready to have another little one. I guess it'll be okay for me to spoil this lil' one instead."He joked wiping away some tears as he nodded his head towards Catherine.
"Of course you can. After all you are her "Uncle". She smiled petting his dark crazy spikey hair.
"Are you and Drew planning to get her baptized any time soon?"He asked just out of curiosity.
"Drew and I haven't spoken about it yet but we'll see when the time comes."She told him sitting beside him glad to be talking with him and she felt comfortable having her best friend being there. She loved his goofy ass at times and that's what she loved about him. He was funny and spontaneous that he made her laugh or smile.
"I watched your match at Drew's with Heath. You two are incredible. I'm so proud of both of you that you two have come a long way."She told him about his match with Heath.
"Awwww thanks baba...that means a lot."He felt touched she would be watching his match with Heath.
"It just sucks creative and the officials are making you job every now and then especially to that Hunico guy. I hope you kick his ass."She giggled as she rested her head against his chest.
"Don't worry baba, you know I will especially for you."He said kissing her head.
"You better Rooroo."She called him by his little nickname for him. They usually had pet names for each other which was their only nickname code for each other no one knew about but them. PJ reminded her of the young kangaroo boy Rooroo since he was just so adorable and was so energetic in the ring. "Baba" (baby) was Bless' nickname for her from PJ. Only he was allowed to call her that and since she was only a few years younger than he was and she was the baby of the former NEXUS family.
While they were talking, she heard the little girl rustle around in the playpen as she went to go check on her but her stomach still felt sore.
"Peej, can you do me a favor and check on Catherine?"The raven haired beauty asked him.
"Sure."He smiled as he got up to check on Catherine who had just switched her position laying on her left side and had dropped her pacifier out of her mouth but was still sleeping peacefully.
"She's still asleep."He noticed letting Bless know.
"Guess she wasn't comfy and switched sides."He chuckled looking down at the beautiful infant girl.
"She's so cute when she does that."She said knowing sometimes Catherine didn't stay on one side too much and moved around in her sleep.
"Yeah she is. She gets bigger every time I see her. What are you feeding this kid?"He joked looking at his favorite little adopted sister.
"Just regular baby oatmeal, cereal, and milk formula."She told him what she gave Catherine.
"She grows like a weed that's for sure."He mentioned to her.
"That's my girl. Growing stronger and beautiful."She smiled watching PJ being so fascinated by the sleeping baby which she thought it was the most cutest thing ever. He sure loved babies.
Soon Bless' stomach growled and knew she was getting hungry since she hadn't eaten and wanted to watch Drew's match which was pretty soon that way she didn't miss it.
"Someone's hungry..."The South African heard her stomach growl as he went back to sitting beside her.
"PJ, can you get me a sandwich or snack that's at catering?"She asked him a favor.
"What kind of sandwich do you want hon plus I think I still have those peanut butter crackers I have in my bag that I reserved if you want them."He got up to look through his bag to find the crackers he had stored.
"You know usually I love cheese steak sandwiches and sure I would love to have crackers and we could share them."She told him with a smile.
"Ah' ha...here it is."He found the crackers that he needed and tossed them to her on and landed on her lap.
"Well thanks Rooroo...that wasn't very nice when you could've walked and gave it to me."Bless joked as she picked up the packet and opened it to snack on.
"Enjoy and I'll get you you're sandwich and juice."He told her laughing as he would get her something to eat and he would get a snack himself since he wasn't very hungry yet.
"Peej, I have some money in my purse that way you can pay."Bless grabbed her purse beside her to give it to him.
"Uh uh baba, not this time. Keep you're money, I'll pay for it. Dinner is on me kiddo."He said not wanting her money and not wanting her to spend when big brother was on the watch.
"I hate you sometimes..."She playfully pouted throwing a pillow at him which he caught.
"Love you too. Now let me pay this one time since it's on me."He threw the pillow back at her causing the cracker pack to fall on the couch from her hands.
"Hey..."She playfully whined as she tossed the pillow aside and grabbed her crackers that fell to snack on as he left to get her something to eat while she turned the tv on to wait until Drew was on.
Not even 10 minutes later, PJ returned with some grape juice and her cheese steak sandwich and he had some pretzels and bottled water when he saw she was still snacking on her crackers.
"Here you go baba."The South African man returned with his food and her's as well.
"Thank you Rooroo. I love you."She cooed playfully at him as she got the sandwich and juice from him.
"Love you too kiddo."He smiled kissing her cheek while sitting down beside her while they watched the rest of Drew's match while eating and sharing their snacks with one another.
"Knowing Drew...he's going to lose against Stephen."PJ knew it was obvious creative team was making him job to the Irishman which really sucked when he knew Drew was trying and he really wanted to impress officials and be back on the SD roster.
"I know. I wish creative would let him win at least once and put him back on SD."She sighed knowing the obvious Drew was going to lose but she had high hopes for him one day that the officials in the office would let him win one match in his life time and get demoted back to Smackdown where he belonged.
"I hear you baba. Drew is a great worker I have to admit but it sucks he has to lose all the time when the sad fact is they don't see the true talent he has."The South African high flyer knew that since he had wrestled against Drew and the Scot was tough he had to give him that as he shared his pretzels with her as she munched on them.
As usual, a few minutes later Drew had lost to Stephen when the bell rang but seemed pretty upset which she didn't blame him but she guessed he was okay with it despite he knew he was going to lose. She knew Ste was a good friend and they had great chemistry in the ring when wrestling against each other. They both had great sportsmanship against each other.
A few minutes later Heath had walked in the locker room after his match and finished showering and was dressed in a t-shirt and jeans with his hair tied back in a ponytail.
He saw his best friend and Bless were talking and laughing together while eating and smiled when he saw the smile on her face. That look she had was genuine and beautiful and looked as if she hadn't lost her baby. He guessed PJ had made everything better now that he was there and she seemed more happy he was making her smile which Heath thought it was a great thing.
His best friend had a big heart of gold being there for anyone when he needed too and was never bothered by it. That's what the redhead liked about him. His friendship was that genuine and had a kind nature to him.
The Southern one man rock band was glad to see Bless was doing better by the sound of her laughter as PJ was making her laugh about something and while sharing the crackers she had with him while they continued to have the tv on though they weren't really paying any attention to it.
"Hey you two. What are you two laughin' about?"The Southern one man rock band made his presence known as he walked in the room.
"hey red. Nothing much. Just us two being goofs."Bless giggled sticking her tongue out playfully at PJ before stealing a pretzel from him and munching on it.
"Ewww child...put that thing away."PJ laughed at her playfulness.
"Heath,you want any of my crackers?"Bless asked him sharing with him too.
"No thanks hon. You enjoy them."He reassured with a smile as she shrugged unlacing his boots.
"More for me then."She smiled snacking on them and then PJ grabbed one and snacked on it too.
"You two are like kids."The redhead retorted watching them.
"That's what you love about us."PJ commented back to the redhead.
"True. Gotta love you two."Heath shrugged with a smile knowing that fact. He indeed loved PJ like a big brother though Justin was two years older than he was and Bless like a sister. Bless was younger than he was by 2 years as well since she was only 26 and Drew was the same age she was but she was older than him by only 6 months.
Stu was like the older brother of their group since he was older than them by a few years.
"Are you sure you don't want any crackers because I'm gonna eat my sandwich?"Bless asked the redhead.
"Nah, you go on ahead and eat. You need it more than I do dollface but thanks."Heath thought she was generous she wanted to share her food with him but he wasn't really all that hungry yet.
"Okay. Feel free to grab one when you want it."She told him placing it on the table eating her cheese steak sandwhich as he sat down in front of them on the couch watching the tv just feeling the need to wind down after his match.
"Will do. Thanks sweet cheeks."He felt touched by her gesture as he put his boots he wore to the side and sat indian style on the floor.
"You're really focused on this match aren't you red?"Bless noticed him watching his match with Hornswoggle.
"I guess. I hate losing to that short shit, excuse my language sweetcheeks."He hoped she didn't mind him cursing as he sighed while hoping to better himself the next time to win.
"None taken red. You'll get little Hornswoggle next time I can guarantee it."She reassured him as she put her hand on his shoulder.
"Thanks. That means a lot and makes me feel better."He felt touched by Bless' kind words and it made him smile knowing she had confidence in him. She had such a kind heart to her and that's what he adored about the raven haired beauty.
"So after the show,what are you Drew planning to do?"PJ asked her.
"Probably head back to the hotel plus get the little one down for her nap after I change and feed her and then head to bed with Drew after a long night. What about you two?"She asked them.
"Probably the same depending if we go out and hang out or something and depends what they have in this town."The South African man shrugged now that they were in Milan for a regular house show and Smackdown tour.
"Sounds like a good plan."Bless thought since the boys could get out and hang together and have their manly bonding time.
After Drew's match, he got showered, dressed, and made his way back to the locker room hearing laughter and chattering when he saw his girlfriend was tackled by both PJ and Heath as they were mercilessly tickling her and saw two pillows were on the floor probably had one of their playfully pillow fights they usually had with one another and there was food scattered on the table which was half eaten sandwich and some juice on the table along with some pretzels and water bottle sitting there.
The Scot had to smile happily hearing his girlfriend laugh again. It was music to his ears just to see her have a good time with her friends who were brother's to her looking out for her.
He guessed they were trying to make her feel better after the miscarriage. He had to thank those two later for making her smile once again. He definitely missed seeing her beautiful smile and laughter.
"Hey you two. What are you doing corruptin' my woman?"Drew chuckled seeing Bless trying to catch her breath after laughing so hard as they stopped and turned their heads to see the Scot standing at the door frame with a smirk.
"Hey babe."Bless greeted her man as she slowly got up and greeted him with a kiss which he smiled into their kiss.
"Ewww...get a room you two."Heath joked watching them have a little PDA action.
Drew chuckled and flipped his fellow friend with the bird as Bless broke the kiss and rested her head against his chest.
"Nothin' Drewmeister, just trying to get our girl to smile again. I think our mission is accomplished."PJ smiled as he was picking up the two fallen pillows putting them back on the couch as he and Heath sat down behaving like good boys.
"Thanks guys for lookin' out for my girl. I appreciate it."The Scot told them both as he put his hands on her shoulders with a smile to them.
"It's no problem man. We love her like a little sister. We'd do anything to make her smile again."Heath said to the brunette.
As on cue Catherine awoke crying as she just woke up from her nap.
"I'll get her."The South African volunteered knowing Bless was sore so the good friend he was tended to her and picked up the infant
"Hey beautiful. What's wrong?"He asked kissing her cheek as she clutched onto his black sleeveless t-shirt.
"I guess she needs to be changed and fed tonight then put her down to bed and if she doesn't have her nap, she's usually cranky."Bless said since Catherine had about a two hour nap and needed more or she'd be one cranky girl in the morning.
"Here Peej, give me the kid."Drew chuckled as he walked over to him to get the crying infant.
"Shhhhh...there there darling. It's okay daddy and mommy are here."He hushed as he patted her back softly consoling her as she cried.
"I guess we better get to the hotel babe. She really needs to be changed and fed since she's cranky now and needs her sleep."Bless knew when Catherine would be cranky.
"Yeah I guess you're right."He agreed trying to calm Catherine down and bouncing her in his strong arms.
"We don't want to keep you guys any longer if you two need to get back to the hotel. Just in case any of you need us, our cellphones are on."Heath told them as he and PJ got up to hug them both and gave Catherine a kiss.
"Thanks again guys for being here for Bless and keeping her company. You guys are great friends."Drew knew the two men were really great friends to him and Bless and great uncles to their little girl.
"Any time Drew. We need to hang out more often man when you get the chance just let us know."The South African reminded him.
"Thanks for the invite. Maybe we can think of something if Bless is up to it and we can find a sitter for Cat that way we can hang."Drew patted the South African Werewolf's shoulder.
"Thanks guys for the company. I love you both."Bless spoke up hugging them and giving them a kiss on the cheek.
"Love ya baba."PJ leaned in closer to whisper his nickname for her and kissed her cheek.
"Love you too Rooroo. You and Red be safe tonight you hear me"She told them directly as they nodded giving her one last hug letting the couple get ready for the night to head back to the hotel.