Abandoned Baby

Chapter 53

After 2 weeks of the international tour, the guys including Bless and Catherine were back home in Tampa. They had gotten a lot of phone calls from loved one's and friends to check up on her after her miscarriage. Drew's parents even called and checked on her.

Theresa told Bless if she needed anyone to call her that way they could do some mother and daughter bonding whenever they came back overseas. She was glad to accept that invitation. She even got calls from Noelle and Lee which she thought it was so sweet.

"Home sweet home..."Stu bellowed as he was getting out his luggage from the car and was glad to be home after that long tour.

"Home..."PJ sighed happily looking at their apartment complex.

The rest were all so happy as Stu got to open the door while Heath got the mail to see what they had gotten while they were away.

"Sweetcheeks, you have a package from Drew's parents and some bills and a letter."Heath said giving Bless her stuff while he gathered the rest of their mail.

"Thanks. Can you bring it inside red, I sorta got my hands full."The young woman told him as she was handling her bags and diaper bag while Drew had the baby in his arms.

"Sure."Heath didn't mind as he brought in his bags as well and put all the letters neatly stacked on the table.

As soon as everyone was situated, Stu was gonna take a shower and head for a nap since he was really tired and drove all the way home from the airport, PJ was gonna get something to eat since he was really starving then probably catch a nap later, Heath was off doing his own thing and probably watch a movie in the guest bedroom after he unpacked meanwhile Drew and Bless had their room to themselves to relax.

Bless had just finished unpacking some stuff and looked through the mail that she had gotten.

She looked through the package first that Drew's parents had gotten her to find a beautiful angel necklace. She thought it was the most thoughtful thing they had gotten her.

The young girl found a letter that had dropped out of the box and read it.

Dear Bless,

David and I were so happy to have you around and hope you stop by again when you and Drew have some time. By the way, don't worry about anything honey, if you ever need us, don't be hesitant to call us. I hope you like the necklace David and I had gotten you. I hope you got it in one piece. We thought of you and thought of getting you a little something for an early holiday present. It's yours to keep because we love you. I hope one day we can do some mother and daughter bonding when you come here again overseas. David and I miss you already. :-) Take care of yourself always and remember we're here for you if you absolutely need anything. I know things are tough after losing the baby but you'll be back up on your feet in no time. I'll send a prayer your way and hoping for the best.

Love,

Theresa and David

P.S. Hugs and Kisses

Bless smiled at the letter and Drew wondered what she was smiling at as he walked over and gave her a kiss.

"What are you smiling about beautiful?"The Scot asked his girlfriend as she held the letter close to her heart including the small boxed necklace.

"You're parents are so loving. They gave me a necklace."She showed him the necklace his parents sent and he thought it was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. His parents had wonderful taste in jewelry. He knew they were going to spoil her eventually which he didn't mind after all she was like family already to them. She even showed him the letter they had sent her.

After opening up the package, she put the necklace in a safe place knowing where she put it and rooted through the other bills she would pay and saw a letter which had her sister's name marked on it and wondered why it would come in this late but she would read it any way.

Shakily grabbing it, The PA looked through it to find that her friend Lynn that was her room mate had sent Evelyn's letter had been accepted to UCLA for premed to be transferred there from New York where she went to school for a while. Evelyn had always wanted to go to UCLA for college to study there. Now that she was gone, she didn't have her chance.

Bless always hoped that her sister would be accepted into the University of her choice and make something of herself.

Tears gathered in her eyes, as she looked at some photos that they took together before the last few days of Evelyn's accident. They looked so happy and care free.

"Hon..."Drew noticed she was crying and shaking as he held her in his arms and looked down at what she had. It was pictures of her sister and maybe a close friend of her's as she dropped the photos and gathered herself in Drew's arms and sobbed.

"I miss her so much..."She sniffled cuddling him.

"I know baby...it's okay."Drew softly said stroking her hair and kissing the top of her head.

"Ev got accepted into UCLA...She never got her dream to go..."Bless said as tears fell from her eyes.

"Oh hon...I'm sorry..."Drew consoled his girlfriend just holding her wishing he could take away her pain.

"Why now...?"She asked softly mumbling into his chest.

"I don't know sweetheart but you know at least we know that you're sister had gotten accepted had she still been here which you would've been very proud of her. Maybe her friend couldn't look at the photos any more and wanted you to have them that way you'll have something of your sister."Drew hoped that was his best guess on the photos and acceptance letter that maybe her friend had sent.

Bless looked down all of a sudden and something had fallen with the brochure of UCLA and saw a letter was hidden in the packet.

She bent down and Drew wondered what what she was doing when he saw her pick up something that looked like a decorated stationary.

Dear Ms. Bless Mendoza,

My name is Lynn. I'm your sister's room mate and I got this letter in the mail just a few days ago and thought of sending this to you as soon as it arrived when I got home from class and didn't want to keep it here long and thought of sending it to you along with some pictures of us here that you may want. Don't worry, I have copies as souvenirs to remember her by. I'm so sorry about Evelyn's accident...I wished I could've done something to protect her and make her stay here at the apartment but I couldn't...I'm sorry Bless. If I could change the hands of time back just to have her back safe and sound.

When I found out she was killed in an accident, I was devastated and crushed. She and I were pretty close friends when we met each other and bonded right away. She always talked about you nonstop and how she loved going to UCLA which was her dream for premed. She must really look up to you which I really admire.

I wished we could've been more close as time went on but I'm glad to call her my friend and got to know more of her since she seems really sweet and down to earth. I was really excited for her when she was going to be accepted into one of the best universities in the state that were were going to celebrate about her acceptance but it was too late when the accident happened since she wanted to find the perfect dress that she was going to buy and she never came back which worried me and that's when I found out she had been killed and I'm still not over it and somehow wished I could've said something or kept her safe from harms way.

I miss her so much and wished she were still here. I send my condolences and hope you are doing well with the coping process. By the way, she still has some things here at the apartment that she kept maybe that you would want to do away with them or keep it whichever you would like and have the address attached to this letter that way any time you find some time to stop by.

Feel free to keep in touch and again condolences to you and your family at this time. I will keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Sincerely,

Lynn

Bless sobbed when she read the letter as Drew held her tightly.

"It's okay baby. Cry it all out."He whispered stroking her hair as he cried along with her feeling the pain she was going through. He wanted to let her know she was not alone.

"Why did she have to leave me?"She sobbed as she pounded her fists against his chest.

"Honey, I wished I had all the answers for you but I don't..."Drew sniffled as he held her tight.

"I hate this...Why her of all people did my sister have to die...she didn't deserve this..."She cried as more tears fell.

"Baby, I know it hurts but at least she's not in pain anymore. She's free now."Drew told her above a whisper as he held her.

"I wished I could have her back at least once just to let her know how much I love her."She sniffled back her tears.

"I know you do baby. I'm sure she knows."He let her know.

"I...I can't deal with this...I need to go downstairs and work some steam off."She said breaking away from their embrace as angry tears rolled down her eyes.

"Baby, that's not a good idea. You're still recuperating from the baby. You need to heal."Drew told her she was still healing from her ordeal and didn't want her to get hurt any further.

"I need this Drew...I need to get all my frustrations out...This is just too much to bear."She cried out feeling so stressed right now that she couldn't handle all this stress that was crashing down on her from her broken family,her sister's loss,and the loss of her baby. The emotions she kept inside was too much and she needed to hit something just to let all the pain out she bottled up.

"Baby, let yourself heal first. It's not good for you."Drew loved her and didn't want her ending back up in the hospital again.

"I just need time just to blow off some steam somehow. It's too much babe...I can't handle all this."She said weakly as tears pooled in her stinging eyes from the tears leaving the room.

She then left the room storming out as Drew sighed sadly watching his girlfriend leave the room and let her be for now. He knew she needed this as he knew she was going down to the downstairs basement gym that the guys made for themselves to work out whenever they didn't want to go out to take out her frustrations before it came too much which he didn't blame her but hoped she took it easy on herself.

The raven haired beauty made her way to the punching bag as tears pooled at her swollen and stinging eyes hitting it hard and fast taking her frustrations out on the bag. She felt as if she were going to have a total meltdown.

Every hit she made cause her knuckles to hurt but she didn't care at the moment. She was angry at herself for everything and wanted nothing more than to hit something and was happy the boys had their own state of the art gym where they had plenty of equipment around and including the punching bag.

After a few hard hits, Bless' breaths were fast and labored as she took her anger out more and sweat poured down her face from the adrenaline. She took off her shirt tossing it on the ground and had her wife beater on underneath and kept going at the bag until weakness took over and collapsed on the floor sobbing with her hands on the ground in defeat and her wild curls covering her swollen doll like face from her tears.

Mean while Drew was just putting Catherine for her nap, when he started feeling worried for his girlfriend that she hadn't come up yet. He knew had had to go check on her.

He brought the baby monitor with him just in case he heard Cat crying. He made his way through the quiet downstairs area, and saw the gym door had been opened knowing she was down there.

"Babe..."He called climbing down the stairs looking for her. Descending down more, he could hear sobbing which alerted him to where she was and saw at the corner of the room next to the punching bag was Bless sitting on the floor with her face to her knees sobbing which really concerned him.

She looked to be really mad at herself as she cried out in frustration which he didn't blame her one bit. He would've felt the same way if he were her.

He sat beside her and rubbed her back quietly not to scare her but in comfort letting her know he was there and she wasn't alone. He dropped the baby monitor on the floor and just sat there with her.

He scooted close to her and just cradled his crying girlfriend who now had her head laying on his toned chest crying her broken heart out.

"It's okay lass...I got you."Drew whispered as he squeezed her hand gently as she hissed out in pain when he touched it. He wondered why she did that and saw her right knuckles were swollen and partially had cuts in them from the hard hits on the punching bag. He knew he had to clean her up before the cuts got infected.

"Lass, I've got to help you up and get you cleaned up."He said softly looking at her knuckles.

"No..."She cried in a small voice.

"Baby, I don't know how to help you if you don't let me in."Drew felt helpless himself seeing her in this state of a total meltdown.

"I can take care of myself..."She claimed as she punched the floor which really made things worse and made her hand hurt.

"I don't want help. I...I...I... just want all the pain to go away..."She said in strangled sob frustrated wanting to stand up but Drew kept her close from hurting herself.

"Honey stop..."He told her strictly as she breathed hard still wanting to take her frustrations on the punching bag again but knew she was still weak after she lost the baby and was worried for her.

"Let me go Drew...I need this..."She said almost snapping in a cold tone getting out of his grasp as he could see the angry tears and the flames in her eyes. He'd never seen her this torn before.

"I just want to be alone..."She told him getting up pushing back her wild curls ready to just hit without any warning.

"Baby, please...I don't want to see you get hurt."He sighed in frustration too. She wasn't the only one suffering. He was too and didn't want to see her this way.

He wondered what happened to his beautiful and happy girlfriend. One minute she was happy the next she was snapping like it was nobody's business like her own.

He could hear her strangled sobs as he watched her hit hard on the punching bag and shriek out an angry yell as she hit the bag one last time before letting it all go. All the frustrations and stress she had bottled up had finally been released as Drew could only walk slowly to her and cradle her in his strong arms not leaving her side like he promised as she let go off all the emotions on him as he cried kissing her head and stroking her hair whispering comforting words to his girlfriend till she cried herself to sleep in his arms due to exhaustion.

"Hey,what's with all the yelling I hear?"Stu's voice bellowed when he had heard shouting from downstairs in the gym.

"Nothing Stu, everything's fine."Drew's weak and tired voice said as the Brit wondered what was going on when he made his way downstairs to see Drew carrying an exhausted Bless in his arms and she looked so pale and limp and her face swollen and puffy with tear marks. He wondered if she was the one he heard crying and taking her frustrations out on the punching bag previously.

"What happened man?"The Brit was concerned as Drew handed him the baby monitor while he was carrying Bless.

"Total meltdown."Drew answered sighing.

"Man...poor girl...She must of hid all that emotions too well inside for too long and it finally got out."Stu said feeling bad for his best friend and his gal pal.

"She did and she snapped a few times. I'm worried about her."Drew said looking down at his beautiful girlfriend.

"Don't take any of her anger seriously Andrew. This is just her way to cope and deal with everything since she lost her family,sister, and now the baby. Let her take time to cope. You can only be there for her when she needs you. Just don't let her push you away or don't push her away when she'll need someone to support her."His best friend gave him some advice.

"You know I won't ever think that. I love her too much to let her walk out of my life."Drew sadly said to his best friend since he loved his girlfriend so much.

Stu hated to see the hurt in his best friend's eyes and hoped that everything would be okay between them.

"I'm going upstairs to take care of her and put her to bed."The brunette told him as he carried Bless upstairs.

"Good idea. She'll need lots of rest to recuperate."Stu knew she needed time to heal after this whole ordeal and knew Drew was suffering too and wished he could do something to make them feel better.

"Thanks for the help man."Drew said as the Brit gave him the baby monitor placing it on the table after he layed Bless on their bed.

"No problem. Good night Andrew."The big man patted the young man's back.

Drew undressed Bless leaving her in her bra and underwear. He walked over to the master bathroom to grab a basin and washcloth to clean her up.

Sitting at her bedside, he gently dabbed her body and face with some warm water to let her cool off and finally rested the rag on her forehead and brushed some hair that fell watching her sleep.

She had gone through so much these past few days he didn't realize all the emotions she had would be bottled up so quickly she finally let it out which he was kind of relieved that she did. He hoped the tension would soon be gone and see her happy again. He hated to see her so weak and hurt that it hurt him too.

After cleaning her up, he took the basin and wash cloth back to the bathroom and walked back out undressing himself leaving his boxers on as he slipped into bed with his girlfriend holding her close to him feeling her move next to him resting her head on his chest and her right hand on his abs.

He smiled a small smile kissing her head before turning to turn off the lights and letting sleep consume them both.