Winds of Change

by Blossomangel85

It has been a month since Joe White's death and since Steve McGarrett has been back to his Island. The only person he has let in has been Catherine Rollins. She was his first call only hours after Joe White's death. This is their month in Montana. A lot of it was formulating a plan.. The rest was falling in love again.

6. Chapter 6

The Winds of Change

Fandom: Hawaii Five-O

Ship: McRoll

Characters: Steve McGarrett, Catherine Rollins

Chapter 6: ʻO kēia mau lima oʻu

(These arms of mine)

Taking her hand, he smiled softly and let her help him stand up, wrapping his arms around her once he was on two feet and just held her for a moment, feeling perfectly happy and content to just stand there where they were and forget about the world for a while. It was nice, no one to interrupt them, no cases to attend, nowhere to be except right here where they were. Once he pulled away slightly, he gazed into her eyes, "Thank you Catherine", his voice was low, almost a whisper but she heard him none the less.

"Thank you for what Steve?", she questioned, her facial expression changing to someone confusion and amusement. In her mind, she didn't need to be thanked for anything, it was always going to be a given that she would be there for him. "Thank you for being here with me Cath, for being you, for loving me all this time, for having my back every time, for everything you have given me". Leaning in to him, she kissed him softly and chuckled, "You don't have to thank me because I'd do it all again in a heart beat but you are welcome".

Having gotten that off his shoulders, he had felt so much better, She had to know it was her, and hopefully know that cemented it in her mind that he wasn't going anywhere. He would wait for her and go anywhere for her, there was nothing else he wanted more in his life then to be with her. There was still something going on though that she wasn't telling him about, he wasn't sure what it was, but he knew this time that he needed to wait till she was ready to tell him about it.

It was the way she left after Kono's wedding, He was really starting to believe that she was going to stay and settle down there, maybe come back to five-o, have all their family around them when they finally got married, there had been something she had been holding back that day, and he wasn't entirely sure that he believed what she said about leaving. He could get it and understand it, but he didn't feel like that was the entirety of the story. There had to be more and he hoped one day she might share that with him.

While he had been heartbroken at the way she left just before he was about to propose to her, he had found that though he hadn't moved on with a new woman, he had moved on from that situation. He had been angry and upset for the longest time, but she always came when she needed him, always was there for him and even made him aware of a situation where his mother needed rescuing, and he had gotten to the point where he had no longer wanted to be angry over it. Angry wasn't an emotion he dealt well with at all.

Even when he was with Lynn, he had constantly thought about Catherine, it was just the little things he missed, the smell of her perfume, the way she had that smile that was reserved just for him, how she always watched him work on his Dad's car, and how even though he always would worry, he knew she could take care of herself, it was the first big difference he noticed with Lynn right off the bat on their first date and though he knew most women were like Lynn was that day, he missed having a strong woman like that around him. A woman that knew her way around weapons and wasn't afraid to use one.

Following her into the bathroom, he felt a little more confident and a little more himself. Danny was right, he was the best version of himself whenever she was around him, Thinking of Danny, once he had showered and eaten, he knew he needed to call him and let him know that he was fine. The man had been trying to call and text the last few days but Steve had just not been in the right frame of mind to answer him, but now he was feeling a bit better so he decided he would let the guys know what was going on, but not to come out yet because he didn't feel it was safe yet for all of five-o to be there, plus he needed Danny and Lou to run five-o while he was gone.

As he walked into the bathroom, she had just turned on the water, and had her hand under the tap waiting for it to warm up, he stood behind her and kissed her neck, reaching down to lift her shirt up over her head before resuming his kisses along her neck and shoulder blade. For some people, it might seem strange to go from not seeing someone in a long time to being more intimate with each other, but that is how Steve and Cath always ran, they always were going months without seeing each other only to be back in each other's arms and not wanting to let go of the other. "How's the water?", whispering against her neck, his hands now moving along to her back to unclasp her bra, letting it fall to the floor unnoticed by the two of them.

Closing her eyes, and letting him undress her, she smiled softly, her skin tingling with delight at his lips on her neck and shoulder blade, taking in a breath to control her shaky voice, "It's perfect Sailor", her voice was huskier then usual, her chest rising and falling much quicker when his hands moved down to her jeans, unbuttoning and then his fingers tracing along her stomach before unzipping the zipper, hands moving to either side of her hips, fingers splayed out to push her jeans down her hips and then let them slide to the floor of the bathroom, pooling at her feet. "I know what you are doing there Sailor", she giggled, turning her self around to face him, his eyebrows raised in question, "Mmm and is it working Cat?", fully away that she was standing here in front of him with nothing but her underwear.

Not able to tear his eyes away from the beautiful figure in front of him, he let her do the same with his clothes, sighing softly at the way her fingers danced around at the hem of his t-shirt, her eyes looking into his when she began to lift the shirt up, his arms automatically going up beside his head to allow the shirt to be pulled over his arms and head, tossing the t-shirt to the floor, and then making quick work of his pants, unbuckling his belt, then unbuttoning the button and pulling the zipper down on his pants, his heart racing when she pressed her body close to his and kissed him, her hands then pushing his pants and briefs off in one go, "Well, I'd say about as good as it is working for you handsome", smirking when she took a look down, then back up at him.

Letting out a soft laugh, he shook his head in amusement, letting his fingers slip into the sides of her underwear and tugged on them, pulling them down in one quick movement, then without saying another thing, guiding her backwards into the shower, following her and then closing the shower door once they were both inside, "Well played Rollins, very well played", he answered her, pressing her back into the wall of the shower, his lips on hers once more, the spray of the hot water on his back slightly beginning to ease any aches and pains he had felt, moaning softly, feeling the most relaxed he had in days. Her hands snaking around his neck, she let out a soft giggle, "Well, I know all your moves Commander, so don't you forget it".

How was it that this woman could make him laugh and smile as though nothing was wrong even though his heart was still very much in a thousand broken pieces. There was a part of him that did feel the guilt at feeling relatively normal so soon after it all happened, but he had to stop that part of his brain from working because the more it did, the more he knew Joe and even his father John would be chastising him for even thinking that way at all. Life did go on despite that you might not want it too and though it felt wrong and there was guilt eating away at you, you still had to go on being normal like you normally were, doing anything less was not a way to pay tribute to those that were gone that you valued.

Watching him carefully, she gently tapped his cheek with her hand, seeing that expression on his face that told her he had gone off somewhere else. It was a habit that she had always know about him, he only did that when he was either really focused on a case or when he was hurting and stewing about something that he really shouldn't be worried about at all. "Penny for your thoughts?", she asked softly, the water still as hot as it was when they first got in. Thank god for Joe and his ever never ending hot water system. "Huh?", he asked, creasing his brow, not aware he had been focused somewhere else. " I said, what you thinking about there Sailor?" If she could read minds, she knew what he was thinking. It was exactly how she felt when Billy died, she wasn't sure if she could ever do normal again, she wasn't sure how even though she had wanted to.

Sighing softly, he shook his head to clear his mind and try to focus on the fact that he had Catherine all alone in this shower, "It's nothing Cath, I'm good". He didn't want to ruin the mood by talking about this now, maybe one day when he was ready to he would, but for now, he just wanted to spend this time with Catherine. She was about to question him when all of a sudden she felt herself being gently tugged her forward, he let her stand under the direct spray of the water, and then he got the shampoo out, and put some on the palm of his hand, then applying it over her hair, slowly washing her hair, massaging the shampoo in and then letting her rinse it off, doing the same with his own short hair as well.

Once their hair was washed, they then took turns washing each other, Catherine shuddering at his touch every time his fingers danced over her naked wet skin, both of them taking their time, feeling in no rush at all, neither of them really had anywhere else to be and no one else to answer to right now, so they had all the time in the world for each other, then finally Steve picked her tiny frame up, lining her body up with his, looking into her eyes for any sign that she didn't want this and when he got nothing but reassurance and love in her eyes, he gently pushed her back up against the wall again, both of their eyes fluttering to a close, arms wrapped around each other as they slowly began to make love.

No matter how long it had been since they had been intimate with each other, no matter how many years had passed, it always felt right, and it always felt like coming back home, the way their bodies slotted perfectly against each other like they were tailor made for each other, no words needed to be spoken, both of them clinging to the other, needing each other, Steve especially needing to relieve the tension he had been feeling since his attacker had made an attempt on his life back on Oahu. For the first time since then, he felt relaxed, and at ease.. Most importantly, he felt safe and loved here with Catherine in his arms, and that was all he needed right now.

Author's Notes:

I am so excited to share this chapter with you all, I was thinking of you all as I wrote it knowing it would all get your hearts racing and feels going. I want to once again thank you all for your ongoing support and encouragement. It is because of you all that I have continued to find the motivation to keep this story going and your wonderful reviews that keep pushing me to get out a new chapter as quickly as I can.

I know many people might think a scene like this is too soon, and if it was a new love interest, the yes, I would agree, but this is Steve and Cath, and I felt like to them it would feel similar to how they used to be when they only saw each other sporadically.

Shout outs:

Isabellaelisa:

Yes, I didn't want the fact that Cath still thought he was dating Lynn to stop things moving forward and yes, I am happy at least in my version, he has said what he needed to say. Thanks for the support, I appreciate it so much :)

Guest:

Thank you, I am glad you are enjoying the story.

SteveMcGarrettLover:

I got a response from someone over at another fan fiction site, not sure if it can be named here so I won't mention it, but they told me his name was Tim Cole so I was using his first name in this chapter. I might re-watch it though myself just to double check. :)

Navymcroll:

Awe, I am so glad you loved chapter 5, I hope you really enjoyed this one as well. That makes me feel so validated in my version of events if the majority of the McRoll community agree that she never wanted to leave and that it was something that was forced on her. It didn't make sense to me that she would answer Steve's question of 'How long are you staying', with 'How long do you want me here?', then telling Danny she had no intention of leaving Steve, then just leaving abruptly like that.

Pilarmnavas:

Awe thank you so much. I really hope you enjoyed this one as well. I'm happy to see so many people agreeing with me on how Cath was recruited into the CIA and not being her choice. When you look back on that episode and the ones just before it, it doesn't add up that she would have been planning to leave the whole time and leading Steve on like that. It is adding up to be a long term fic I think, one that will last for a while or at least spill over into a squeal perhaps. I hope I don't disappoint with this chapter then, enjoy your reading while on your way to work :)

Guest:

I am going to go back and double check but a follower from another fan fiction site did mention his name was Tim Cole. I get part of why she was crying was because Steve told her he couldn't wait anymore, but I do think she was mainly crying that much because she was genuinely looking forward to being on the Island with Steve and setting down roots and the way she talked on the phone to I am guessing her handler for the CIA sounded forced and not at all like she was looking forward to working for them.

Blindspot-overwatch:

Thank you so much, they are my fave OTP as well, I just adore everything Steve and Cath. I wish we had a love story much like Adam and Kono's was with Steve and Catherine. They both deserve to be happy and I am hoping the latest information, it is not over yet for them in the show.