Let's just get to why we came here? If Ya know what I mean... ;)
Rated: T ( Yeah I'm still a teen, and I'm sure having fun living with it )
Disclaimer: Don't own the Twilight series. Sucks I know. Though I might buy it when I'm older then make some remakes. Ha- Nah I'm not going to be that rich.
Summary: White Roses were the purest of them all. They symbolize love, peace and promise. Yet Bella just didn't understand how this white Rose had been tainted black.
Pairings: Bella/Rosalie, Little bit of Bella/Edward, Emmett/Casey, Jasper/Alice, Esme/Carlisle, those are just the main ones for now.
Heavy Hesitation For Space
Bella may not think so of herself but Rosalie couldn't stress enough on just how beautiful the human was. She tried her best to keep everyone around her content, and that brought out just how selfless she could be. Just the thought of moving milestones away from her own mother just to keep her happy made Rosalie think that the girl didn't give herself enough credit. Inside and out she was just breathtakingly stunning. When Rosalie had heard her ask Edward just what was so attractive about her, she had to fight the urge from running straight through his room door.
Every little detail that made up the girl, had an effective spell on the blonde. Her every move fascinated Rosalie to the point we're she had to force her eyes off of her. Yes she wasn't perfect, a bit clumsy, blushed far more than the healthy amount, stuttered more than necessary, a heavily socially challenged, and awkward; Yet her flaws only seemed to draw Rosalie in even more.
She found that she had came to think the flaws only seemed to work wonders on the girl, she was perfect in Rosalie's eyes.
Rosalie had actually came to a liking with her enhanced vampire senses. It had given her exactly what she needed when she stole small glances at the brunette. With Bella spending practically all her time with Edward, and Alice she hadn't really taken the time to blandly stare at her. That and she had previously tried to state a false dislike for the human. Though their time spent together was filled with plentiful awkward silence, and an unknown tension - One Rosalie knew the answer to - Rosalie could say she found that she enjoyed the other girls presence. They were still very far from obtaining even some sort of level of friendship. Bella could sense that Rosalie was holding back on trying and that was enough reason as to why Bella decided to kick up the amount of time spent together.
Her visits to the 'Cullen Manor' were now really just minutes spent trying to get closer to Rosalie, and even that mainly consisted of the two sitting on opposite sofas and watching Emmett play some game they didn't even know. Smetimes including Alice on occasions. Bella sighed, and her eyes flicked to the blonde reading some magazine across from her. She frowned. She had wanted to get to know the blonde better, but she was still nerve wrecking to be around. She could blame it on the intimidating aurora that surrounded Rosalie, but she knew it was also due to the girls slick tounge. Or maybe it was how perfect the vampire was. Bella knew it was some sort of mechanism to draw in humans that all vampires had, but she had known better the moment she passed over Rosalie's human picture Esme had shown her.
Even as a human the blonde still held the supernatural beauty factor. With just one glance any girl would feel their self confidence drop down drastically low, especially with the Rosalie's gift to cut everyone down to size. It only served to further anyone's inference on her personality, shallow, self absorbed, and held the typical 'queen bee' personal. The picture it's self brought out the outward beauty of Rosalie, but Bella had seen different. Rosalie wasn't happy. Yes she seemed content but she wasn't truly happy. Esme had told her the picture was taken just months prior to the girls change, and just that alone made Bella fill with a sudden spur of despair. The smile was obviously forced, and she could spot the sadness in the girls eyes a mile away. That stirred a small bit of guilt in the pit of Bella's stomach.
"Rosalie?" The girl in question looked up from her previous paragraph, and raised a perfectly arched eyebrow. Bella's blushed and cleared her throat, gesturing towards the front door.
"I'm here." She spoke softly.
Though she didn't know why, Bella relaxed at the statement.
"Can we talk,"
Her gaze turned to Emmett who was currently cursing under his breath while clicking multiple buttons; he seemed completely oblivious to the two, but Bella knew just how sensitive the ears of the family was. That and Emmett always seemed set on eavesdropping on just about everyone's business.
"Somewhere without prying ears?"
The bear of a man scoffed but mad no movement. Rosalie stood and wordlessly moved towards the exit, Bella blinked and scrambled after the blonde. Bella shut the door and turned to find the vampire nowhere in sight, though she could hear a small tune of hums. Her eyes scanned over the area and she sighed whispering the blonde's name lowly. Rosalie appeared in front of her with a smirk, eyes shinning with question.
"Never pegged you for hide and go seek." Without waiting for a response she continued on.
"Look Rosalie when I asked for us to try to befriend each other I didn't mean having someone else around. Yes it's nice to hang out with Emmett, Alice, and sometimes Jasper...wait- I, I want to hang out with you. Just you."
Bella frowned. That didn't really sound very appealing, it actually kinda sounded a bit clingy. Rosalie sighed, but nodded.
She was doing it on purpose; putting one of her siblings in the middle of them. It seemed like the most intelligent thing to do. It helped put a barrier up, one where she couldn't mess up due to her own faults. With that she didnt have to endure so much pain. She still sort of hung out with Bella while still holding the girl at an arms length...maybe even further. Of course she knew it wouldn't work for long, but she didn't think the issue would be brought up so soon. It's only been a month since the agreement, and she had thought she had at the very least a few more weeks until Bella had confronted her about it. Rosalie watched Bella carefully, as if trying to decipher something. Something even she couldn't recognize. Her gaze didn't waver if anything it intensified when Bella shifted uncomfortably. Her eyes flicked over the girls feature, and Bella politely waited for some sort of response.
"Your birthday is next week."
Bella tilted her head in confusion, and mild surprise at the sudden comment. Sure she tried to keep her birthday very low key, and even Alice had to find out from Charlie, but it shocked her that Rosalie knew when it was. A small smile played on her lips. Though Rosalie tried her hardest to express her dislike, she still managed to keep that small bit of information checked into her mind. That alone made Bella blush a little.
"Yeah...but I'm not really fond of the day, so could you maybe?" Rosalie frowned at the comment.
"I'm sure you have some sort of urge to celebrate."
Bella shook her head, and chuckled nervously. It's not that she wasn't grateful for the day; it was the day of her birth, but she didn't really see what the big deal was. It was just a day to celebrate coming of an even older age than the year before. She was never really one for a big celebration really, she had to practically beg Renee not to make such a big deal about it. She hated surprises, never liked receiving presents; though that was due to her inability to ever be sentimental when receiving them. Bella just didn't really like the idea of celebrating something she didn't want to. So what was the point in making such a big deal out of it.
"I really don't like celebrating is all." She muttered.
"That's very stupid you know." Bella bit her lip, and tried to swallow down the bit of offense.
"You don't celebrate yours." She blurted, and cringed when Rosalie scowled.
"It is meaningless when you don't actually age."
Bella sighed and she felt a bit of guilt. Being stuck in time wasn't something to be taken very lightly especially when the person you're speaking to is Rosalie Hale, but Bella still didn't really see the issue if you were as beautiful as Rosalie and could forever have that same beauty.
"Rosalie, can we just save the arguing for the future? We haven't even actually talked to each other alone in over a month, and I don't really think we should start with an argument, especially when we are supposed to be in the process of getting to know each other. Before anything eslse happends could you at least tell me why you've been avoiding any real interactions?"
"I haven't been avoiding anything." Bella sent her a disbelieving stare, but sighed for what she could guess as the sixth time today.
"I'm trying Rosalie." She breathed under her breath, but Rosalie heard loud and clear.
An odd sensation churned Rosalie's stomach, and she had a weird urge to fidget under the brunettes gaze. She wouldn't let her guard down though, no she was in control here, but as many times she repeated the small chant in her head she couldn't stop the way she tore her eyes away. She frowned and she was sure there was a look of shock that crossed over both of their features. Uncomfortable. The realization started clawing it's way into her movements. The Rosalie Hale was thought struck. She didn't know what to do, for the first time ever not knowing what exactly to say. She was completely out of her element. What was she supposed to say? How did she let someone in? The same someone that was hand made for her? The girl that was putting forth effort Rosalie wasn't comfortable with? Effort that wasn't really ever wasted on her. Not knowing what type of response Bella was waiting for Rosalie simply shifted, and avoided any eye contact.
"What do you want?" The question surprised the both of them, but they tried to mask it. Rosalie locking eyes to show control, and Bella clearing her throat.
"I want us to get along...I know you're seriously doubting this right now, and I don't hold it against you, but I've learned to sorta go with my instincts, and somethings telling me all the awkward, tense, and maybe even a bit of stress that will come along with this. It'll all be worth it."
Silence.
After spewing a little bit of your feelings any normal human would feel disappointed at the lack of response; but of course Bella was different. Instead she was hit with anticipation, she knew Rosalie would respond. Being in the presence of Rosalie meant you could never really be too sure if you'd ever get a simple word from the blonde. Yet Bella had some odd sense of faith in the stoic Vampire. For the first time since she could remember Bella felt a surge of confidence. She was confident Rosalie would generate a response, whether it was good or bad, and she proved to be right because she let out a relieved sigh when Rosalie sent her a taunting smirk.
"You know some would question if your so instincts. Don't go screaming out advice to anyone, you are in the presence of a cold predator that was made to kill your kind."
Bella blinked and before she could stop herself she started in a fit of laughter. It didn't help when she spotted Rosalie's baffled expression. She didn't even mean for that to come off as a joke, and yet here was Bella seemingly laughing at the unintended pun. When her llaughter subsided she bit the bottom of her lip to withhold and lingering amusement.
"Was that supposed to be funny?"
Bella shook her head no and blushed when she caught sight of the blonde's confused face. The look actually made Rosalie look a bit human.
Before she could even react to the sweet scent of apples and cinnamon, or the light fast approaching footsteps she was tackled from her protective stance. Her eyes widened and she quickly flung the pixie three feet away. She stood a glared at her sister who only seemed to barley try to land gracefully on her feet. Her glare only hardened when the girl flashed in front of her and slowly started dusting off her red blouse. Catching the girls hands, she growled in warning.
"I'm shocked you didn't hear me a mile away. "
Rosalie rolled her eyes and ignored the obvious attempt at getting her to show Alice her true abilities. Alice had been the only one to have known about her enhanced abilities. She hadn't particularly told anyone about them, and Alice had only found out due to her own gift, but she still wanted to keep them a secret. Just as soon as Carlisle let her venture for a hunt alone she had found she had a fair amount of gifts herself. Well she wouldn't call them gifts, but more of an upper hand over most of her family. She found she had a far more hearing range than everyone else, and her sight was a lot more acute than the rest, and the speed she could run at far surpassed Edwards.
When she figured she could run faster than him she had smirked every time he decided to show boat his own speed. Though she hadn't wanted to let anyone else know about anyone of those enhanced abilities, she had used them regularly on her hunts she did alone. She just thought that it was none of the business, so she let them believe that her exceptional beauty was her only enhanced trait. Since then Alice had been trying to persuade Rosalie to show her the full extent. She wanted to see in person what Rosalie was capable of.
"What are you doing here Alice."
She watched as the girls lips curled into a fine smile. Rosalie raised an eyebrow at this and nodded for the pixi to elaborate her appearance.
"It's Bella's birthday-" Rosalie raised her hand to cut her off, and sent the girl an icy glare.
"She doesn't want anything Alice, or whatever extravaganza you're planning and you should respect her wishes." Alice huffed at this.
"You really believe she wants us to treat it like any other normal day? Come on Rose we could at least have a party, it doesn't even have to be huge just the family and her. She deserves this..."
Rosalie noted the 'after all we've put her through' Alice threw in.
"She chooses to be, she knew what she was getting herself in when she chose Edward."
Rosalie didn't even try to hide the venom laced into her words. Alice doesn't flinch, she does the exact opposite she's staring at the blonde with a look of complete seriousness. The intense stare surprises Rosalie, and it takes her a moment to realize the meaning. She tightens her fist, and her jaw is set. She's practically seething.
"She didn't choose Edward Rose." Alice whispered.
Alice was cautious. She had seen the vision a while back, but she had also seen Rosalie having a conversation with Jasper on the matter. It amazed her that the blonde even kept the secret for so long, what shocked her even more was the pain. Alice had asked Jasper to show her how much pain Rosalie was actually in and it was even unbearable for her, not even a few seconds passed before she begged him to stop. It was a burning sensation that topped her hours of transformation. It thumped against her chest as if there was someone trying to claw their way to surface. She didn't get why Rosalie hadn't said anything. Why she had let her own brother steal her mate. It didn't make sense, and at the same time it did.
"When?"
It was such a cryptic question asked with hidden anger, but Alice understood.
"Your future went completely blank after," She cringed.
"After James, and Bella's was so murky I could hardly make out anything. It worried me, and I was going to speak with Carlisle about it, but then a few weeks passed and nothing happened so I just thought it was a fault on my end. So I kept the information to myself. I started to get sudden visions frequently, but they were all blank. Last month I sat down and really tried, it hurt, and was mentally exhausting but I finally got a clear vision. You were alone, in the forest, screaming, you sounded so broken and lost Rosalie, and-"
Alice paused the screams of her sister ringing in her ears. It pained her how heartbreaking the scene was, she wished she could help her sister but she just didn't know how. Not when Rosalie refused to fight for something she truly deserved.
"You were screaming Bella's name, and it clicked when you begged Edward to let her go...to let her be able to experience a humanity. Rosalie she's your mate, why are you doing this to her...to yourself? You know you won't be able to stand the pain forever. It's going to drive you to your own final death. Why aren't you fighting for her?"
Rosalie growled, and seethed at the pixie. She had been eluding her gift so well, what was her mistake? When had she let her guard down long enough for Alice to get a vision. She was angry at herself, and angry at Alice for even bringing up the issue. She knew once you've found your mate you'd have a instant instinct to be with them, but she had realized this too late. Edward had taken his claim, and she respected that. She knew she couldn't go on for long, the pain would consume her and drive her into insanity. She'd go to the Volturi, and expose herself, and they'd be forced to kill her. All the while she'd had already accepted her death.
"There's nothing to fight for Alice, she's with Edward, and she's happy. I dont want to complicate things for her. If I do then Edward would be so heartbroken and he would leave. Do you know how crushed she'd be? How much pain she'd in?" Alice grew angry at her words.
"And she'd get over it, She'd have you, and do you know how much danger you're putting her in? Do you Rosalie, do you know that she is his singer? How he has so much trouble controlling himself around her it's eating at him. It pains him when he has to leave her due to his own thirst, you're not only putting yourself in pain Rosalie! You're killing yourself, lying to Bella, and your hurting Edward! Why are you being so selfish!"
Rosalie stood body rigged. She had heard the entire anger filled rant, but she had trouble focusing after one particular word.
Singer.
Edward had never mentioned that to anyone. Yes she knew how much Bella's scent effected him, the girls scent had everyone tense in her presence even Carlisle; but she had thought it was just that. She hadn't known Bella's blood called to him in such a way. Anger. It was burning through her. Rosalie stood and fought to gain control she stepped more than a few feet away from Alice, and she tried to take deep breaths to calm herself. When growls left her throat she heaved heavily; desperately fighting the protective instincts. Once her feet fled their current position she knew she lost. She lost all control solely guided by her anger her need to protect Bella. Edward would never harm Bella she knew that, but that just wasn't enough.
She could smell the humans scent and it led her to the dirt path of their driveway. It eased her desperation a little, but she could still feel the adrenaline of panic still lingering. She halted instantly when she was nothing but a mere five feet away from the human, who froze midway in getting inside her truck. She didn't smell Edward anywhere, and that relived Rosalie. She didn't know what she'd have done to him if he was near, she couldn't handle that. She hadn't made a sound, but as if she could sense the blonde Bella turned her attention her. When her eyes locked on those deep brown eyes filled with confusion, all the anger in her washed away. She stood motionless at lost for words. Bella frowned and hopped out of the truck and shut the door.
"I was looking for you, Esme said you went out, and should be back by eight."
Bella squinted at her wrist watch. It was only five thirty.
"Yes, I needed to go somewhere to properly think without having to guard my personal thoughts."
Bella eyed Rosalie as if she knew what she had just been told was a lie. Rosalie didn't miss the quick scan over her body, before Bella sighed.
"Is everything okay?"
Rosalie was tempted to tell Bella the truth that no everything wasn't okay; that it was far from okay, but she held herself back, and internally frowned at that.
"Everything is fine...I've just been thinking about taking a quick leave for a few days is all."
She watched Bella intently and she frowned when the brunettes heart started pumping faster than it should have, but Bella looked fine from the exterior; so she shrugged it off.
"Uhh...yeah? How long will you be gone?"
Rosalie frowned. She didn't know how long. She had only just come up with the idea of leaving, but she knew it was a good idea. She wouldn't be able to control herself if she was to see Edward, and she didn't want to do something that she'd surely regret. Rosalie sighed, she couldn't stay away too long. She couldn't be away from Bella for long it'd drive her insane after five days of no contact with her mate.
"Nothing too long, I'll be back by next week."
They both knew that wasn't a proper time, but Bella decided not to push. Though she wanted to protest seeing as she had just had a conversation with the blonde less than a day ago regarding their process of getting to know one another. She bit her lip and nodded the towards blonde.
"I guess we'll have to put a pause on the entire friendship thing then."
She tried to shake off her disappointment with a nervous chuckle, but it came off as a weird coughing noise. Bella cringed, and blushed at making such sound. Rosalie felt a tad bit of guilt, but she knew this was for the best. She needed to get away before Edward returned.
Rosalie knew it was near impossible to leave your mate. The only exception being if it was for their safety. So she decided to simply vacate the area. To the house she had purchased herself just on the outskirts of forks. It was within a distance she could reach Bella in a matter of minutes if she reached her empirior speed. A distance she could still hear with the her enhanced hearing distance.
Dang what a messed up place to end it huh? But I have my reasons, I promise. How about we put Bella's birthday up in the next chap huh? Yeah what did ya think of the small changes in Rosalie's gift? I mean I thought they really gave her a really messed up gift. I mean she was already gorgeous than most women, and they say it beauty is enhanced by transformation, so she wouldn't look all that different. Just her aura would draw people in by the beauty...wait I'm not making any sense, so I'll just shut up. I also had to hurry to update, so I mistakes may have been made. Hope the chapter wasn't to confusing. Hopefully you enjoyed it.
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