I need to address something.
Yes I said I would be updating this once a month. However I do have a life outside of this and it has been throwing me through a rollercoaster.
To start, I was dealing with a toxic and abusive relationship. It drained me and made my depression worse and life a living hell.
Next, major writers block. Due to the relationship and family problems and my depression sinking deeper and deeper, I had no interest to write nor energy nor any idea what to write.
Next, my self worth. I hate myself and doubt myself and feel like I am not worthy of anything. And doing work and writing and everything I do gives me doubts and fears that strike me down.
There's a bunch more, but I'll finish it up with this.
I have corona.
It has been mentally draining and exhausting and painful.
Again, I know I said I would be doing monthly updates, but I made no promises. I also have a life outside of this and am not paid to write this nor obligated to update it. Heck I could just abandon it. But I'm not. So please bare with me and understand.
I'm sorry that this sounds mean, but it just needed to be addressed.
Hope you understand and know I love you, and if you are in a relationship that when you part you feel drained, down, want to scream, cry, be angry, have to rub your skin raw, or anything else, take a step back and take a break. Best thing though is to break up with them if they are not willing to listen.
Just be glad I updated.
Future chapters may be short as well, but it is better than nothing.
If this arrangement bothers you, you can move on from this story and onto something else.
Again, I love you all and hope you are doing well during this time.