Hey beautiful people, let me start off by saying I'm sorry this isn't the update you all wanted. No worries, I'm not quitting. I'm simply putting things on hold for a bit.
I mostly wanted to explain why I haven't written anything in a while and why I won't write for at least a month.
For starters I have been dealing with writers block. I of course know how the story will go but I have a hard time putting it into words. I am also writing a book (in my native language). I'm on a tight schedule and the text has to be ready in May so the graphic designer has time to finish his work before the book is sent out for printing. It's a whole thing and turns out that publishing a book is fucking complicated, all the details that goes into it... I'm just getting a headache thinking about it.
Lastly, I just lost a friend. She took her own life last monday and considering the theme of this story, I have no desire at the moment to write about suicidal characters. It never gets easier saying goodbye to someone who leaves in that fashion, and I need to take time to grieve and sort myself out.
Do not despair, I will see this story through but right now I need a bit of time. I thank you in advance for the understanding (since I already know you're all extremely cool people).
Take care everyone and please talk to someone if you feel as if leaving this earth is a solution. I know it sometimes might feel like there are no other options, but I beg you to talk to someone about it first. It doesn't have to be a professional - maybe a friend, family member, teacher, co-worker, coach, a stranger online etc. Loneliness is a horrible feeling and sometimes you might feel as if you are all alone in the world and no one could possibly understand you or relate, but one conversation with someone you trust can go a long way.
Forgive my ramblings - my mind is all over the place these days. I hope you are all safe and staying relatively sane in these fucked up times ❤️
Until next time.