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I know I am a tease, therefore without any further nonsense… here you go… Enjoy!
"Arizona… I want to give us another chance."
The longest silence you will ever experience is after asking a risky question. Your mind goes to overdrive and starts to imagine all the horrible scenario. Callie Torres was now experiencing one of the longest, most terrifying silence of her life. She had just asked or rather told Arizona that she wants to give their relationship another try and now, she was waiting for her response. To her what felt like forever was probably 2 seconds, but Callie's heart was pounding against her chest so hard that she felt like it was going to burst out.
Arizona was looking at Callie with the dumb expression "Callie? I didn't understand a word you just said… can you repeat it …slowly this time" Arizona said with a smile.
Apparently, the line Callie thought she said so clearly, to Arizona is sounded like "iwannagiveusanotherchance".
"Fuck! It took all my power to say it and she didn't even understand it… "Callie thought "Oh, Dio! Por Que Esto es tan dificil?" she mumbled out.
"Huh? Callie? what's going on?" Arizona asked puzzled.
"Come on Torres, you can do it… Say it... just say it…" Now visibly winded Callie thought.
Seeing Callie panicking like this, Arizona got a little concern. Placing her hand on Callie's thighs she asked "Callie? Are you okay?"
"Huh? Yeah… um… Arizona… I … I … I want to give this… I mean us… umm … another chance" Finally Callie managed to blurt out.
Again, a deafening silence surrounded them. Callie was looking Arizona with wide eyes and fast-beating heart and Arizona was looking at Callie dumbstruck.
"Oh!... um…" After few seconds Arizona broke her reticence "Callie" Arizona said almost in a whisper, looking sadly towards Callie.
"Arizona… please… I… I want to be with you" Callie said desperately.
Arizona was in a weird state, these were the words she always wanted to hear. Ever since Callie left the therapist office saying that she does not feel free in their relationship all Arizona hoped to hear from Callie was that she wants her. But now when Callie was sitting right in front of her asking, for them to give their relationship, their love, another chance and Arizona is not sure what to do.
"Please say something… anything" Callie begged.
"Callie…. I don't… I don't know what to say" Arizona said "Why Callie, after all these years… after all that… how"
"How? We would start again… a fresh start… with… with clean slate… no more grudges…no more hurt… A… A new beginning… That's how" Callie explained desperately.
Arizona didn't reply, instead, she kept looking down at her hands and Callie waited patiently for her reply but When Callie couldn't wait any longer for Arizona to respond she said in a firm voice "Arizona, you have to give us another chance… you can't just say no… you have to"
The firmness of Callie's voice at this moment irked Arizona "Excuse me! I have to. Why? Whenever you decide to leave, you will leave and whenever you felt like coming back, you will come back and I need to oblige that? … it's my life Callie, you can't just walk in and out of it as you like… Okay?"
"No, it's Not Okay… you can take time …as much as you want but… you have to give us another chance," Callie said stubbornly.
By this time Arizona was huffing with vexation "STOP SAYING THAT…. STOP SAYING, I HAVE TO DO ANYTHING" Arizona shouted.
"BUT YOU DO" Callie replied with matching pitch.
"WHY? Huh? Why do I HAVE to?
"because you OWE me!" Callie yelled back.
"What?! I OWE YOU? What does that even mean? What do I own you for?" Arizona asked perplexed.
"For everything…for breaking my relationship… for haunting all other dates or decision I ever made… you owe me"
"You are not making any sense Callie. What are you talking about? I was not even here" exclaimed Arizona
BUT YOU WERE AND YOU ARE! DON'T YOU GET IT? Callie shouted
Arizona looked at Callie, baffled.
"You are everywhere… you are in my... in our daughter's smile… you are there when she says "I am awesome" or "you are amazing"... you are there when she goes to the market and pick up the pinkest dress available. You are there in my head when I try to talk to my date, and all I can think is Arizona would have laughed on her, or Arizona used to do this and that…" Callie spoke rapidly
"I chose Penny because she was nothing like you... she wasn't perky or bubbly or had blonde hairs... she was everything you were not and I choose her just for that … but ultimately I started searching you in her too… I would get pissed off because she won't wake up in the morning with a smile like you do… she would have a rough day at the hospital and would bring that tension at home and all I could think was, Arizona never brought work-stress at home. I started resenting her for something which made me choose her ... her …non-Arizona-ness. I broke up with penny because she was not you… no one is…so yeah you owe me." Callie concluded with a deep breath, tears flowing freely on her face now.
There was a long silence in which nobody either moved or said anything.
Arizona was stunned after hearing all this, her own face drenched with tears "I think I should leave" Arizona finally whispered.
"No! please don't leave… talk to me... say something Arizona ... hell scream at me if you want but please don't go" Callie pleaded.
"Calli...ope" Arizona said meekly, Callie breath hitched on hearing her name from Arizona mouth.
"I... I don't know what to say, you left Callie, you left me 2 years ago and never looked back…. Why now? why after all this time? It's too much for me to handle… I can't do this right now... please just let me go" Arizona requested.
"Seriously Arizona? You can't do this? What can't you do? You… you can't give us a chance again?" Callie asked, "Can you look into my eyes and say that you don't feel anything for me?"
Arizona didn't look up for a while. An internal struggle was going on between her mind and heart.
"Do I have feelings for her… of course, when did I ever not have feelings for her …? She is the love of my life... my wife... well ex-wife… but who am I kidding… I never stopped loving her, not even for a single day... not for a moment. I yearn to hear these words from her mouth but now when the love of her life is in front of me saying all these things which should make my heart flutter. Why can't I say anything? It should have been the easiest decision; I have been dreaming of this moment for a very long time but now when the moment is here and all I can think about the night she left me."
She might have freed herself from me, but I am still stuck in that moment, sitting on that grey couch in the therapist office, watching my wife walking away from me and all I could do was sit there helpless while my whole world crashing around me. There I was, saying that I can't imagine my world without her and planning our future together while she was planning to leave me at that very moment. I can't let that happen again… I can't give my heart just to watch it get stomped on again…"
As her internal struggle came to an end after whole 2 minutes, Arizona looked into Callie's eyes with utmost pain and said "Callie... I can't… go through that again".
"Arizona, talk to me… tell me what you are thinking… but please don't disregard this idea… Please" Callie pleaded.
"Please Callie, don't do this… I can't… I just…" Arizona said fidgeting, desperate to leave.
"Look at me Arizona," Callie said stepping into Arizona personal space "Look at me" she whispered again and as soon as Arizona's tearful eyes met Callie determined ones, Callie captured her lips with her own.
When their lips met for the first time in 4 years, all the memories of their relationship came rushing down to them. A montage of their time together played in their minds. Their first kiss in Joe's dirty bathroom, stolen glances at Seattle grace, little pecks on lips in hospital stairways, the first I love you' s, the proposals, the weddings, Sofia…
The best, as well as the worst thing about memories, are, they come attached to a string, one following the other; once started, it's hard to stop the flow. So, just like that, the bubble of sweet memories they have been floating in, popped as soon Callie's voice filled Arizona's memories.
"Constantly trying to fix us is the thing that's been killing me slowly …and I don't wanna do it anymore… I don't wanna fix it or fix us anymore"
With that thought Arizona pushed Callie Back, panting heavily. she held her hand up towards Callie to stop her.
"Arizona… I am sorry… I shouldn't have just kissed you like that" Callie Said coming out her trance.
"No, Callie… that… I just need to leave" Arizona said.
"But where will you go, all of your stuff is here, and you don't have booking till tomorrow…" Callie tried to reason her out.
"I just need to get out of here… I need some air Callie… please" Arizona said, and before Callie could say anything else, Arizona went out, leaving the door Ajar.
Callie kept staring at the spot which was occupied by Arizona a moment ago for few seconds before closing her eyes and hanging her head in defeat.
"Shit!" Callie spat
I know, I know, it was a very small chapter. It has been a crazy week, and I didn't get time to write much. But I didn't want to leave you lovely people hanging, so I posted a short update. Don't hate me for another cliff hanger 😜😜. Next time, hopefully, I will give you a good length chapter. I hope you all liked it anyway.
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