BPOV
Even though we never really discussed anything in detail, Edward knew that I had a relationship with a married man unknowingly and it was so bad that I had lost my ability to trust anyone, and have any faith in love. But neither of us know that it was his sister!
He was going to end our situationship, and it was for the best if he did that, but I wasn't ready for it.
Well, shouldn't I be the one to end this after knowing that Jasper was his sister's husband?
Why didn't I have any self-respect?
Why was I such a doormat?
I mean, his sister just called me whore in front of everyone and why hadn't I just left? But technically, she wasn't completely wrong. I mean, I did fuck her husband!
Why was this such a mess?
I mean, I had begun to be happy with Edward in whatever the stupid arrangement we had!
What was the need for this complexity then?
Why?
Why did it have to be such a small world?
"So what do you want to do now?" he asked, "Do you want to leave? I can totally understand if you want to leave because I don't think Alice is going to stop. I don't even understand why she married that douchebag again, but that's a separate question," he said, "Tell me. What do you want to do?"
Why was he like this?
Didn't he care about me at all?
But wasn't he always clear about that?
He didn't want any attachment or any kind of feelings in our relationship. That's the reason we had both entered into this knowingly.
But why didn't I like it then?
"I want to leave," I said.
"Alright, I'll check the flights," he said.
Why did I want him to care?
"I would have come with you, but it's Rosalie's wedding, so I can't really come," he said.
Okay, what exactly did it really mean?
He wasn't ending whatever the fuck we had, even if he knew I was the reason behind his sister's divorce?
Did he really not give a damn to anything or anybody?
Had I fallen for the wrong person, again?