BPOV
"I agree," he said, "I guess it's better to end this."
Did he agree just like that?
Of course he was going to agree to end this. Why was I so surprised?
Why did I have stupid expectations in my mind that something dramatic was going to happen after I confessed my feelings?
I wasn't sure why I was so heartbroken all over again? Hadn't I already prepared myself for this?
But wait, maybe I tried to push him too much and maybe too soon?
Should I apologize to him? Should I say that I made a mistake by saying that I wanted to end things?
I thought I was ready to end this, but suddenly this was so real, and I didn't know what to do without him.
No, I wasn't ready for this.
"Yeah, it's already been a year... Time just flies." he said, "You should have told me this earlier. I didn't realize I've been wasting your time. I'm sorry."
Wasting my time?
Why was he like this?
Was it because of his wife? He never talked about her, but maybe it could be because of her.
He might be ready to move on someday, but maybe not so soon. I shouldn't have pushed him.
What was I going to do without him?
"I want to say something before I leave," he said, "I wasn't even sure if I was actually ready to start dating when I first talked to you. But so much changed after we started dating. You brought so much positivity and optimism in my life, and I'll forever be grateful. You'll always have a special place in my heart, Bella. I'm sorry... I can't give you what you expect, from this relationship and from me. I'm really sorry!"
And that's it! I couldn't hold back my tears anymore.
"What if I wait?" I said like a pathetic loser, but I didn't care. I really, really thought I was ready for this breakup, but I wasn't.
"No, not even then." he said, "I don't want to waste your time because I'll never be able to give you what you expect, and what you deserve. I'm really sorry."
"I'll miss you," I managed to say.
"I'll miss you, too," he said.
But I knew he said that just to make me feel better!