BPOV
Should I go or should I not?
I mean, why should I not go just because Edward would be there? She had invited me, and that should be it!
"I know you guys have broken up, but I'd still love to see you there." That's what Victoria had said.
Victoria and James were Edward's good friends, and they had become my good friends too. It was their daughter's second birthday, and they had invited me.
Ideally, I should pass it, but like the loser that I was, I wanted to see him.
It had been three weeks since Edward and I broke up, and I was pretty sure I was the most pathetic person in the world. This had never happened to me before. Usually whenever I broke up, I'd find plenty of reasons to hate that person, but not this time.
Instead of trying to move on, I'd been having regrets everyday that maybe I had made a hasty decision. I should have taken it slowly. I guess I had scared him by telling him that I had begun to develop feelings for him.
I wondered if he'd be having any of the regrets right now.
Probably not! I mean, why would he?
I was pretty sure Alice must have been very happy when she got to know that Edward and I had broken up!
Never mind.
I should stop being a loser, I told myself one more time!
"Hi there..." I smiled at him when I saw him at the party.
"Hey..." he smiled.
Why the hell did my heartbeats increase seeing him smiling like that?
"So... How are things?" he asked.
"Oh, it's good," I said, "I've been very busy with work." And yeah, very busy with regretting everything!
"Good to know," he said.
"How are things with you?" I asked, "Busy with work?"
"Oh, just the usual routine," he said, "Also, I've been trying to help Tanya's parents with some of the charity work they're trying to do in her memory. I also wanted to do the same for a long time, but got busy with work. I want to put my focus there now."
"I see," I said, "That's nice."
See!
I should have known that the breakup was not going to affect him at all!
I was
Ugh!
Why did it still hurt so much?