"Being a woman is hard, especially during war. You have to always be careful," Kurenai said on a low voice while looking at the young women gathered in the classroom. "Never let anyone take you as prisoners and if they do, find a way to either escape or kill yourselves because if not," she made a short pause looking at the scared faced, children of 15, 16 barely aware of what sex is are staring at her with big eyes and small hearts, "there is nothing they cannot do to you." Kurenai put further on the desk the white bottle which she brought to show to the girls for the lesson. "Rape is guaranteed." It took her a while to gather courage to say this to kids who cannot even imagine what sex is like. Among all the kunoichi, it appears that Kurenai seemed most fit to tell children about rape and unwanted pregnancies. As Yondaime said, she has kind eyes and a pleasant voice and children will find reassurance in that. "Rape can happen even on the fighting field so never let your guards down!" The class remained in silence, nobody even daring to move, each of them imagining horrific scenes of rape. "To prevent unwanted pregnancies each of you will receive every 2 weeks a drink made out of special herbs." Sakura looked at the white bottle, fully aware of what plants were used and how strong the drink was. She made it herself after Yondaime ordered her only a week ago, without explaining her why. But yesterday she heard the news about the war after an urgent gathering at the Hokage Tower. The next day the boys and girls were separated, each of them receiving special trainings. Sakura bit her lower lip, scared of what the world had became.
"Sensei," a girl called raising her hand up. Kurenai looked at her patiently waiting for her to continue. "Why would they want to rape us?" she asked on a trembling voice, scared of having to leave the safety of the village.
"Why do you think?" a bold girl answered before Kurenai could. Everyone looked at the Inuzuka girl who snorted at the stupid question. "This is what men do."
Now that she thinks back to those hours in the Academy with Kurenai she cannot help but wonder how could she be so blind when he ordered her to make it. It didn't even come from Tsunade or from a hospital representative. The girl who was scared of rape died in the first month of war; she stepped on an explosive tag. Sakura watched her break apart before her eyes, a bloody rain putting out the fire. She was beyond horrified, she froze in place with her mouth and eyes wide open as parts of body landed on the ground. They were not close, she didn't even know the girl's name, but it was the first person to die like that before her eyes and that had a great impact on her. She got scared and for the rest of the fight he hid like a rat under dead bodies, scanning the ground before each step. She was not ready to die or witness such deaths so why was she there? Even now she sometimes has nightmare with the girl and her final moments.
A few weeks later she was already a different person, no scene could move her heart again. She learned from the mistakes other people did and managed to survive until now. But she cried a lot in her tent until that happened.
Sakura snorted finishing the content from the white bottle. The drink has a bad taste and in the first hours after administration most women feel nauseous and dizzy, her included. Sakura closed her eyes, feeling her stomach getting sick already. She was so excited when she made the drink, ignoring the Kage's grave voice and cold eyes when he ordered her. She used to be so stupid. That day with Kurenai in the classroom was a terrifying wake up call. She believed Yondaime chose her for her great abilities to make something good but she was chosen because she wouldn't ask many questions and finish her task without mistake.
Unlike most women, she knew what sex was about, she couldn't have been a medic without knowing how the body works but she was terrified when Kurenai started speaking about rape and unwanted pregnancies. She was haunted by the thought that she might have made a mistake and that the drink was useless even if Tsunade approved of it. Now, after her night with Shisui, she is certain it works. Sakura covered her mouth feeling sick. So many months later she still cannot get accustomed to the drink. She might have exaggerated a little with the ingredients but at least it works perfectly. What she doesn't know is the effect of the drink after long administrations. It shouldn't put the health in danger but god knows if Tsunade left the recipe like that or added other ingredients. On top of that an empty stomach is also more sensitive so the reactions are worse. She just cannot understand how there cannot be enough food for all of them.
"The taste is bad," Tenten said reaching the girl who was sitting on her own away from the tents. She also knows that Sakura made the drink and that feels reassuring. Among all the doctors, Sakura seems most trustworthy. These past months she saw Sakura go badass on the fighting field, saving lives when it seemed impossible and performing procedures with the few things she could grab then. She always knew that Sakura was bright but she had no idea Sakura was also that flexible. Tenten watched Sakura trying her best to keep the drink inside. Sakura started breathing through her mouth, eyes teary at the sudden sensation of nausea. She cannot throw it up no matter what. "You did a good work though," Tenten continued looking in the direction she came from. Men are outnumbering women and she knows that sometimes they tend to force women for a fast one. Such rumors are quite common nowadays. What Kurenai didn't tell them was that rape could come from within the camp and it is an often occurrence.
Sakura sighed starting to feel better. "Did anyone touch you?" Sakura asked feeling protective of Tenten.
"No," the brunette shook her head in denial. She will keep to herself the fact that she does spend her nights with Neji. Maybe Sakura does it too, probably with Sasuke, but she doesn't share such info so she won't either.
The medic nodded trusting Tenten's words. It is good to know that men do have some shame and do not go for everything that moves. Although a hypocrite, she cannot help but appreciate that her friends are safe and that men go for those a little bit weaker. What happens to people she does not know is not her business. Only Shisui didn't think too much before having her. She was a woman, happening to be there with him that night and it seemed good enough for him. Hopefully he does not do it very often with all her colleagues.
"Are you a virgin?" Sakura asked before even realizing what she was saying. She tried to remain emotionless afterwards, pretending it is just a normal question.
"Yes. You?" Tenten lied without hesitation.
"Me too," Sakura lied also. Somehow, they both know the other lied.
Sakura wishes she was still a virgin, part of her resenting Shisui for everything he did. Everyone talks about sex as being amazing but as far as she is concerned, sex is nothing but pain and humiliation. She tried to hide the pain she was feeling but when his thrusts started feeling like knives cutting her inside, she could not keep her moans inside anymore. She didn't know she will experience such a painful first time; her body still shivers remembering that night. He knew she was suffering but he still went on, proving her just how much of an asshole he is. Even Sasuke would've stopped but not Shisui. Sakura licked her lips feeling grateful to have such good brains and be able to create such a good drink. At least she won't get pregnant.
If Obito were alive he would be disappointed to see Kakashi looking with lust at younger women. Obito would give him a good beating and humiliate him for even thinking that his student grew up, her breasts becoming noticeable. As any woman, Sakura changed a lot in the past years, her features maturing and her body changing to one of a woman's. Her hips are preeminent, her legs are long and slim and her chest is more generous but she still has to grow there before she can be more to his liking. Not that his preferences matter because he will keep his hands to himself.
"Careful there teacher," Asuma said catching a glimpse of Kakashi's stare. "Despite the context, it would still be wrong of us to molest our students." The words hit Kakashi right where it hurts. He nodded and sighed, ashamed he dared to stare at his student with such lustful eyes. Yes, Sakura grew up a lot and she could be a nice party but she is still his precious student. "Though I do get it," Asuma continued seeing Ino walking to the medical tent. Among all the girls her age, she and Hinata are the most gifted ones. These girls have everything a man can wish for these days: round asses and big breasts. Heh, of course he also noticed, not just Kakashi. He had time to carefully study all the young girls and although Sakura might have a nicer face, the body counts more. Thank god he has Kurenai there for a good fuck.
"I'd like to pretend I didn't hear any of that," Shisui said approaching the two lustful men. Asuma aside, he does not really like the way Kakashi was looking at Sakura. There are certain things he takes pride in and having Sakura's virginity is one of them. He knows Kakashi wouldn't dare touch Sakura but it still bothers him that the man looks at her in that way.
The two cleared their throats and looked at the black haired captain stopping next to them with his hands in his pockets. "No mission?" Asuma asked feeling ashamed that someone like Shisui heard him. He knows the boy likes everything to be fair and moral; he just doesn't know that even Shisui breaks his principles if it is worth it. For example, a pink haired kunoichi with a big mouth could be enough to lure him and make him do what he hates other men doing. But it was not rape, Shisui kept on telling himself remembering she kissed him back and touched him just as much as he touched her. The regret appeared only after learning she was a virgin but at that point he was already deep inside her, the feeling shaking off his reasoning. Shisui looked towards the two women, noticing how Sakura was resting on the ground as if not feeling well but after his eyes fell on the white bottle lying next to her, he knew there was no need for medical help but just some time for her body to get over all the secondary reactions to the drink. How can anyone remain a virgin in all that mess? Anyway, she didn't push him back and didn't tell him to stop and neither did he feel the need to leave her warmth, fully aware of the pain he was causing her because…because she sucked it up and swallowed her words. That was enough for him to keep on going and feel no pity as he caused her pain. He cannot react or pity people for the pain they feel, especially if he is the cause. This is why he is a shinobi: to cause pain and break others. Her glassy eyes were holding in the tears, staring at him, trying to transmit him the pain and wish for him to stop but he pretended he could not read it. It was dark. The shame and regret came when she moaned in pain and he closed his eyes so she could not see how bad he started feeling. But even with all those feelings he still didn't stop until he finished. Shame hurried his release so he could dress and get the hell out of there faster. He knew she was watching him waiting for him to say something but all he wanted was to leave. He will never again ask random girls for sex. He learned his lesson. The only good thing about that night is how he managed to fuck Tsunade's pupil when others wouldn't even dare to approach her. Her virginity is a patch over his shame.
"Tonight," Shisui finally replied remembering the two men still waiting for his answer. Seeing Sakura finally getting up from the ground, he knew she was feeling better, so he averted his eyes to the cloudy sky. For a man with no skills in sex he sure acts tough now. That night after he left her he couldn't even sleep, regretting every thrust and wave of pain he caused her. Even to this day he cannot understand what had gotten into him that he even dared to ask for sex, leave alone the act itself. Why had be been he so insensitive with her? He is not like that with colleagues. "Might be a tough one," he added. He might be a sharp weapon with no feelings but he is still human and what he did shouldn't have happened. Maybe she asked for it and that is how he found her so attractive. Who knows? He is a total mess.
Sakura patiently waited in the medical tent for squads 6 and 2 to return so she could finish for the night. She was told by Tsunade that two squads were sent as back up on the battlefield and that they would be back by midnight so she and several other doctors are to wait for the wounded. She patiently waited in the tent, sitting on a chair with no arms and playing with a bandage. Nights like this are tiresome and boring and she still feels a little bit sick from the medicine she drank earlier that day. Sakura sighed, feeling her eyelashes heavy. She looked up, eyes noticing a man staring at her but suddenly shifting his gaze away, pretending he was not noticing her. She shrugged her shoulders and looked back at her bandage, pretending she didn't see him either. She doesn't even know his name.
Today's meal was an improvement compared to yesterday's but because she was still not feeling good, she didn't eat everything. They served miso, boiled baby carrots and a chicken wing. She could only eat the miso, taking the rest of the food to her tent for later. Again, if was far from enough food but at least it was more than nothing. She can guess that the Kage has no intentions of keeping them hungry and that there is not enough money to buy food for them.
Around 1 in the morning, the squads arrived and to everyone's surprise, there were very few wounded. It was as if they didn't come back from hell. Sakura placed a few bones back and stopped a hemorrhage, finishing her work in two hours. She wrote down the medicine recommended for each of her patients and left the note to a nurse, leaving the warmth of the tent. As she walked to her tent, she noticed Shisui sitting on his own next to the fire, legs crossed and hands rested over his knees as if meditating. Sakura stood there for a while, considering her next move. She has not seen him lately and something tells her he is kind of avoiding her. She cannot help but wonder if they can work together. If he will be her captain on her next mission, will she be able to follow his orders? She intended to turn around but stopped, the medic inside her screaming for her to do her work properly. He does not deserve it, not after the pain he caused her. As far as she is concerned, someone can poke his eyes out.
"Senpai?" Sakura called before realizing. She nearly covered her mouth, regretting she could not leave him be. The man remained motionless as she approached him, staring carefully at the fire with his dark eyes. The urge to turn around and leave was strong but Sakura fought it and stopped in line with him, carefully scanning his arms and legs, checking for injuries. His shirt is almost clean, no trace of dirt or blood. He really is shameless. People die around him and he doesn't even have the decency to get a wound.
"I'm fine," he finally said relaxing his back and tilting his head to look at her tired, pale face. "Should sleep," he advised getting up. Shisui took a step closer to her, eyes locked with hers. Her green eyes look pretty in the light of the fire, anger making them darker. It is only normal for her to be angry with him. Such a pity, he thought noticing her pink lips and feeling the urge to lean for a kiss.
"Are you fine?" she asked keeping his stare. He looks tired, dark lines prominent under his eyes.
He could not help but notice the lack of concern in her voice. It is a professional question and his answer is not necessary. From what he can see, she could even leave him bleed to death. "Yes," he replied knowing that was what she wanted to hear so she could leave. Seeing a wild strand of hair waving over her nose, he reached it and tamed it behind her ear.
Her heart skipped a beat at the sudden closeness but kept her poker face. He is again intimate with her and she minds it. The most surprising part is that she cannot react and tell him just how annoying he is. All she wanted was to make sure he was fine and now he makes moves on her again. "Don't even dream about a second time," she said when he brushed her jaw and neck before his hand rested over his thigh.
He smiled amused by her sudden boldness. "One can only dream nowadays," he joked but she remained unimpressed not realizing he was making fun of her. He knows he should stop and not fall in sin again but she is like a magnet, attracting him and making him unable to restrain himself.
Shisui gave her a smile before walking past her. Sakura swallowed harshly when the spell of his eyes broke and she could properly think again. She would like an apology from him.
