For those who are waiting,
Hello! Hope Corona hasn't got your nose! Not for me yet. Aside from that, hope everything is alright wherever you guys live, here in Hawaii, we've opened our borders so tourists can.. y'know tour because Oahu thrives on tourism, don't know if thats a mistake that Hawaii is making or if that's a good idea. And as for restaurants, they are closing including this restaurant, Anna Millers! they had great pies! Including their banana pie! lets hope Dole Plantation and their Pineapple deserts don't get shut down, I still have yet to taste their Pineapple soft-served the crazy part is that they use the pineapple as a bowl!
Tasty food stuff aside, I am very burnt out. Bet everyone is when doing online education. I honestly don't like online schooling but it is what it is, heh. Time management and responsibility is higher than ever for me and the pressure is sure intense. Signed up for two AP classes and fuck it is hard. I want to publish my chapters but I have my education on one side and catching up on destiny and other games like Apex and its ranked (my goal is to get to Platinum, Gold three currently) Genshin Impact (not whaling or using money with the exception of the BP and the daily 90 primogems, but damn RNG's a bitch to every game I play) and the Lore and content from Destiny. I'll even stay late at night to either catch up on those games or study and complete work for my school. I feel the fatigue already, my head hurts, my body aches, I am lacking exercise, I'm losing motivation. Is this the feeling of depression? or something else? But all I know that I am not giving up. Not my story, not my education, not my games, and certainly not my life.
I don't want to burden my family if they lose me. Sometimes before I go to bed, I just imagine what would happen if I did. I'd let down my family and showered them with guilt and with the thought, "what more could we have done to prevent our son doing the thing that he did." I'd let my friends down, my teachers, myself and you guys who want to see another chapter. The thought is painful but it is the last line of defense I have. This also gives me drive, the motivation, to be a better son and person for my family, friends, teachers and you guys as well.
I have taken a long break from writing and I am not sure if I am ready to return. I need to be more organized, better time management, and a better sleep schedule cause two to five hours aint going to cut it.
For my Online friends who still reads this story, I know we haven't talked in a while but I really do hope that you guys are alright I really do, hope you guys are doing better than me whose suffering quite a bit. I am online but I am mostly doing my own thing, getting a bit lonely honestly. I hope you guys are doing alright.
But that's all I will say for now, next chapter will be published before the end of this week. I've kept you all waiting for a bit too long, but I am not sure when the next chapter will be released after the next chapter I publish. I'm just feeling weak and burnt out. if you guys have any advice for relieving stress and better time management, it will really help a lot. I hope you all understand, if not, I apologize for letting you all down and being a bad writer and author to you all.
