Set in Hogwarts, 1977/1978-ish. The reason why this is worded simply is because of Sirius' nature. Is also slightly out of character for Sirius.
Dear Remus,
I can't believe I'm doing this. I can't believe Lily talked me into doing this. Ever since she started dating James, she's made it her mission to play matchmaker. She's got in her head that you and I are meant to be together. Or that we fancy each other. Or something.
...Okay, maybe she's not too far from the truth. Maybe I do fancy you. Just a wee bit.
It's hard to explain. And I think I must be mad, but in truth...this whole letter idea isn't so bad. I don't have to ever show you this, right? So I can be as disgustingly lovesick as I like and you'll never know. I win either way and maybe I can get these feelings out of my system. Maybe I can get you out of my head.
Lately, you're the only thing that's been on my mind, and I loathe you for it. I hate how you've got such an overpowering effect on me. I hate walking around with hearts in my eyes. I hate that every time you talk, I feel butterflies in my stomach. And most of all, I hate how you know me better than anyone. Even better than James, and he and I have been friends for longer.
You and I have been friends for almost seven years, but to be honest, you stopped being my friend a long time ago. Since I realized that I felt differently about you compared to everyone else we know. You're...you're special.
And I can be absolutely sure when I say this.
I've never felt this way about anyone. I've never wanted anyone as much as I want you. Hell, I've never wanted anything more.
It's not quite love, but it's something. And I can't just ignore this and make it go away, despite my best intentions. Honestly? I don't think I can ever forget about this, because it's consumed my thoughts for so long and taken over my life to the extent where I can't even go a minute without thinking of you. Even though I started writing this letter in hopes of getting you out of my head, I don't think that is a possibility whatsoever.
You've ruined me, Lupin. I hope you realize that you have an advantage over me. It's as simple as you turning your eyes on me, those unfairly pretty eyes, and I can't resist you at all. I would serenade the Giant Squid if you asked me to. It's not fair.
But I can't ever deny you anything. And that might come and bite me in the arse someday, but I won't regret anything.
...And I think that's enough for one night. I swear I can feel my teeth rotting from the sheer sappiness dripping off of the words I've written. This is the most I've written — willingly — in a while. But dare I say it, Lily was right. This was...what did she call it? A highly beneficial method of expressing my emotions? My brain stopped functioning after she said those words.
But I feel so much better after putting my thoughts on paper. But I'm not making this a regular thing, make no mistake. This is just one time. And this is different. It's about you. You're the exception, the only exception I'd make.
And there I go again. Why do you make this so difficult? I bet this is the reason for your existence. To make my life difficult, and for that, I dislike you. But I also can't, and it's extremely irritating.
Damn you. I'm very glad that you'll never see this.
Love,
Sirius
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Assignment 6, Hagiology Task 8 - Write a letter!fic.
