Jasper's PoV
Eventually as the afternoon passed, we hopped out, got dressed and headed home with me staring at my feet while Bella made her way out of the pond. Once home Jacob and I killed a few chickens to make into chicken tenders while Bella read a book. It was actually her idea to invite the pup which was a good sign that she was ready to see other people again. Perfect timing for the gang arriving tomorrow afternoon, although that had to be planned by Peter knowing how long Bella would need.
Once the tenders were ready to be deep fried, we washed up after putting them in the fridge and I went to find dinner to bring home and feed an edible to. Bella came out of our room when she heard me drop a two hundred pound Cougar onto the deck with a smirk on her face. I passed her an edible then zoomed off to find Jacob changing the horses water to give him his and told them both to eat up then started a timer. I wasn't sure if it would work for Jacob as I knew his body temperature burned crazy hot. Just standing next to him killing chickens had felt insane. But I told him that regardless I tend to project when I relax so he would feel what me and Bella felt. I then quickly zoomed off the property to call Emmett in private.
"Hey Em, can you get out of ear shot of everyone please then call me back?" I asked.
"Um yeah sure, give me a min" he said before disconnecting the call.
He called me back a minute later.
"What's up Jas?" he asked
"Um this is awkward so don't laugh, how did you know Rose was your true mate?" I asked.
"Well there's a pull that I felt and when I was far from her, it hurt. You didn't feel that with Alice?" he asked.
"Nah"
"Then why ask now? Wait, is Bella?"
"Shh don't even mouth it, I don't know, I don't think so?" I mumbled.
"The fastest way would be if you try to run away from her right now, it will hurt in your chest. Hunting doesn't count because you have the intention of returning shortly, run far as you can and you will know" he said as I had already started running south to the water. Sure enough, my chest started hurting.
"Fuck" I mumbled.
"Then she is.. Yours" he said.
"Yeah but she thinks Edward was her true mate, all the pain she felt was because I left her side as far as she knew for the past four months but she thought it was because Edward had left her. She knows now he isn't her mate but she has no clue that we are. I don't know if I trust this, I don't know if she would trust this, how can we after what we have been through? It goes deeper too, Alice and Edward knew the whole time, down to when we were deciding where to live. They never wanted to come to forks so they decided every step of the way to make decisions that would cause Bella the maximum amount of pain in hopes she would end her life leaving me with Alice" I said as I started making my way back to the farm.
"That's fucked, well I don't know what I would do but Rose has found me and well its time to do what we do in the forest, by man, good luck!" he said.
I quickly hung up knowing exactly what they were going to be doing having occasionally ran across them. I don't know why they didn't like to use beds like a normal couple.
Forty five minutes later we were all sitting in the hot tub in swimsuits that Peter had called to tell us about. The cougar was delicious and already disposed of a fair distance away in the forest. Thankfully I got better at navigating at high speed while high and managed to only break one fence that Jacob helped me fix quickly. We also had set up a bonfire with chairs but hadn't lit it yet, we were going to wait till dark before that. We were currently all feeling buzzy while leaning back in the hot tub watching the sun set. Jacob's temperature had burned off the effects of the drug within minutes of it starting so I projected to him instead what Bella and I were feeling. Bella had decided to put on some waterproof makeup to make herself feel better. I had rushed into the room when I felt her emotions drift into sadness for a split second and found her looking in the mirror with a pissed off look. But she shrugged it off, pulled out her makeup bag and started covering it up. I had come up behind her resting my hands on her shoulders and said she looked beautiful regardless because it's not the outside anyone looks at, it's the inside. She smiled softly and shooed me out of the bathroom.
"Dam this is insane, how do we function" Jacob breathed while rubbing his face with water. Bella just giggled and leaned her head against her arm as she watched the sunset from beside me.
"I want chicken tenders now" she giggled.
"I can start the deep fryer then if you can stop projecting otherwise someone is going to get hurt" Jacob said. I nodded at him and focused really hard on not projecting while Jacob started frying them up and I helped set out plates and passed him the raw product while he loaded the cooked stuff on the other side.
Once food was done, I carried Bella's plate and a glass of ice cold water for her to drink to the outside table. She climbed out when she saw me coming out and I nearly dropped her food but forced myself to keep walking to the table. I knew she was in a swim outfit but I had never looked at her before, always choosing to avert my eyes in our numerous times that she had been in her underwear or naked. She was wearing a black bikini with blood red swirls that matched her red lipstick. Watching her climb out of the hot tub with water cascading down her body had made me immediately horny which I had to focus on calming down or I would start projecting then not only would Bella know, Jacob would also and would never leave me alone with her again. I passed her a long towel and draped it over her shoulders where she pulled it under her arms to tuck around her body. Once she was wrapped up it was easier to concentrate.
The chicken tenders were amazing according to their grunts of pleasure and their emotions. After they had finished eating, we went back to the hot tub and began to relax again. I had closed my eyes drifting off into a peaceful state when I suddenly heard every animal on the farm complain in some way.
"Oh shit" I mumbled, making myself sit up and pay attention.
"What?" mumbled Bella who had been resting her head on my arm but was now staring at me.
"I just projected what we feel to every animal on this farm" I mumbled while rubbing my face with my hands.
"Oh shit" she giggled.
"Lets get moving then, I'll go start up the bonfire" Jacob said as he climbed out of the hot tub.
I let Bella get out first to change into clothes then when she was in the bathroom I zoomed into clothes of my own pulling on jeans and a dark green tank top and met Jacob who had gotten dressed also. Bella came out in a dark blue hoodie with gray jeans and sneakers with Mia hot on her heels excited for pats. Once Bella had sat down and Mia stopped trying to lick her face, she started roasting marshmallows setting sparks of light in all directions in my mind from their emotions. "Mmmm soo good" Bella mumbled.
"Are you sure you don't want to try one?" Jacob teased.
"I mean I'm tempted to but I don't think it will sit well in my stomach" I joked.
I went to go get my guitar but made sure I didn't zoom. If I broke a hole into Char and Peter's house, they would skin me alive. I came back out and started strumming away at a few country songs.
"If you're so strong, how long did it take to control your strength with something as delicate as a guitar?" asked Jacob, leaning forward to watch.
"I'm not sure, when I was turned, I didn't have access to a guitar for the first hundred or so years as I was busy in a war. It wasn't till Alice found me that I was able to purchase such items and by that point I had already managed to figure out how to not tear my clothes so playing the guitar wasn't too hard. Maybe the first few years? How come?" I asked.
"I got mad and punched my car before leaving town and didn't realize the damage it would do" he mumbled.
"Ah, well don't be angry?" I said.
"Easier for you to say" he joked.
"Rose loves cars, she can probably help you fix it if we go back up there or transport all our vehicles down here, whichever comes first" I said.
The night wore on and Jacob eventually called it a night to go to sleep after a few games of card monopoli with me and Bella. We had moved out a table next to the bonfire and started playing with Mia fast asleep in Bella's lap. Now we had to take her back to her mother before going to bed but the floof was all floppy having been deep in sleep when I picked her up. She quickly snuggled into my neck as I took her back to the barn at human speed so I didn't scare her. She was only a few months old and soon would be adopted out. Once she was settled in with her mother I carefully zoomed back only just missing a fence and found Bella back in the hot tub again flying in her own numbness from the edible. I quickly stripped, pulled on my swim trunks that had been drying on a chair and climbed in. Bella looked glorious in her swim outfit and I finally could look without Jacob seeing. I wasn't sure what we had but it was ours and none of his business.
Bella was facing the rising moon, watching it rise as she rested her face on her arm while the rest of her body floated in the hot tub. I sat next to her and copied, resting my head on my arm. Only I wasn't staring at the moon, I was stealing glances at her from under my wavy hair. It had been a few hours since we got high but the effects were still in place, I felt foggy, happy, and wanted to kiss Bella. I wanted to hold her and tell her that she was my mate. Eventually I couldn't resist any longer and lifted a hand gently to stroke her bare shoulder with my finger tips, down her back to her waist line before stroking back up to the back of her swimsuit and tugging gently at the strings holding her swim suit on but not hard enough to undo the strings. She turned to look at me with one eyebrow raised in question. I lifted a hand to cup her cheek while staring intently. I badly wanted to kiss her but I couldn't, I couldn't unsee what Edward had done to her, what I had unknowingly done to her, this poor girl was once happy, whole, and we had ruined her life.
"I'm sorry Bella, I need to clear my head. I'll see you in the morning, don't wait up" I whispered before kissing her gently on her forehead and vanishing.
