Hello,

Everything in bold italic it'll be the character's narrative, like an internal dialogue, and thank you for your reviews, so this chapter will start the morning after last chapter, so, like you can see, I'm shipping Spencer with Blair, I'm really bad to make a name for them so, please if you've any idea of what could be the name of the ship, please let me know… thanks!

NOTE: Remember that Alison helped Hanna to build a brand of clothes (chapter: My Boys)


Chapter 71 – Now or Never

*** Spencer's narrative ***

If you want to take care of tomorrow, you need to take better care of today. We spend a lot of time focused on the future, planning it, working toward it. But at some point, you need to realize we always live now. Not after high school, not after college, right now. This is it. It's here. All we have to do is entrust ourselves to the life we now live because this it… there's no next time… no time-outs, no second chances… it's now or never… and I choose now…

(Spencer's barn)

*** Music background: Come to think by Gabrielle Current ***

Memories of last night repeat over and over in Spencer's mind and a big smile appears in her face as she can still feel all the pleasure she felt last night. Her smile gets bigger when she feels someone kissing her back…

Spencer mumbles without open her eyes. – "Uhmm… I'm sleeping…"

Blair has Spencer into her arms, she's the big spoon and she couldn't be happier; the young doctor has woken up with a lot of girls in the past, but this is the 1st time she wishes to always wake up like this… with her at her side…

Blair says as she maps Spencer's back with kisses. – "Keep sleeping…"

Spencer. – "You're distracting my sleep…"

Blair's lips climb towards Spencer's neck and Spencer's body vibes when she feels the young doctor sucking her neck. Both naked in bed; Blair presses her body against Spencer and the other brunette bites her lips when she feels the hard nipples of Blair rubbing against her back…

Spencer moans. – "Blair… I…."

Blair whispers in Spencer's ear. – "Tell me what you want…"

Spencer doesn't say a word, she just guides Blair's hand to the South of her body… between her legs. The young doctor smiles and she keeps attacking Spencer's neck as her fingers makes friction with the hot pool that Spencer has between her legs…

Spencer moans. – "Fuck!"

Blair keeps roaming her fingers around the clit of the other girl; teasing the area and she just groans when she hears the moisty noises that Spencer's low spot is doing…

Blair smirks. – "You're already so wet… is it because of me?"

Spencer catches Blair's butt with one hand and squeezes it hard as her hips starts rocking against Blair's hand.

Spencer. – "Don't get cocky and just fuck me!"

Blair kisses Spencer's ear and whispers. – "You're so hot when you give me orders…"

Spencer smiles and moans hard when she feels the long fingers of the other girl getting inside her moisty walls. Spencer start moaning Blair's name louder and louder as Blair slide her fingers in and out without stop and the doctor moans too as Spencer keeps squeezing her butt and provoking friction between their bodies. Feeling Spencer's butt rubbing against her was all Blair needed to build her orgasm…

Blair groans. – "Fuck, you're so hot… so beautiful… so perfect…."

Spencer turns her head, just enough to catch Blair's lips; their lips touch, their tongues melt together, and they explore once again their mouth as they keep building up their orgasm.

Spencer moans. – "I'm… I'm… I'm…"

Blair says with erratic breathing. – "Me too… Come… come for me…"

Spencer's body tenses, she holds her breath as a massive electrical rush of pleasure runs inside her body and Blair just sighs hard as she releases too a big pool of fluids between her legs. It's after a long sigh, that Spencer can come back to earth after that huge climax. She doesn't remember when she closed her eyes but when she opens them, she smiles with happiness as she loves what she sees…

Spencer smirks. – "You're glowing…"

Blair chuckles and kisses Spencer's shoulder, she hugs her tight and she keeps her like that… into her arms…

Blair smiles. – "I'm glowing because you make me happy…"

Spencer smiles, she just rubs her nose against Blair's face and she rolls on bed just to be face to face with the girl…

Spencer says as she caresses Blair's cheek. – "You make me happy too…"

They smile, and their smiles get bigger as they can see the sparkle of happiness in their eyes…

Blair. – "I love you… I love you so much…"

Spencer teases. – "Are you gonna keep telling me that, just like a broken record….?"

Blair. – "Yeah, I'll keep telling you every minute, every second how much I love you because I think it's important to take the time to tell the people you love how much you love them while they can hear you…"

Spencer. – "Are you saying that because of Ali?"

Blair sighs. – "I can't imagine how Emily is feeling right now…"

Spencer has an idea of how Emily is feeling right now, losing her 1st love Toby was hard, and she has a clear idea of how broken Emily should be right now…

Spencer sits on bed and says. – "I'm hungry, let's eat breakfast with Emily… I think that she will appreciate the company…"

Blair sits in bed and says. – "So… do you want us, to go together or…"

Spencer. – "In separate ways… I'll walk in first and then you come by some minutes later…"

Blair nods, she would love to be able to walk hand by hand with the other girl, but she doesn't want to push hard anything of what is happening between them, so she just nods and gets out of bed; she finds her clothes in the floor and she collects each piece of clothes; Spencer stares at her motions, she can't stop looking at the other girl…

Blair teases. – "Do you like what you see?"

Spencer doesn't reply, she's lost on her internal struggle, she doesn't regret it, but she's scared of what the future will bring; AD has forbidden her to be close to Blair and now that she broke the rules, what could be the consequences? She's afraid to imagine what could happen and Blair notices that fear in Spencer's face…

Blair says as she sits on bed and caresses Spencer's cheek. – "Hey… what is wrong?"

The young doctor is afraid too, she's afraid that Spencer was regretting what they did last night…

Blair says with a shaky voice. – "Do you… do you regrets what we did?"

Spencer says without hesitation. – "No…"

Blair smiles, feeling happy that Spencer doesn't regret it…

Spencer. – "But… we need to keep it between us…. At least for now…"

Blair smirks. – "Are you keeping me in the closet?"

Spencer rolls her eyes. – "It's not that…"

Blair kisses Spencer's cheek and says. – "It's ok, really, I can be your closet girlfriend all the time you need, just don't push me away… deal?"

Spencer. – "You can't tell anyone about us… and no one can see us together… it's not safe…"

Blair raises an eye brow. – "Not safe…? What do you mean?"

Spencer says as she gets out of the bed and starts walking towards the bathroom. – "Don't argue with me, just do what I say…"

Blair. – "Always giving me orders… are you trying to turn me on?"

Spencer laughs and gets inside the bathroom. She waves her hand, inviting the girl to follow her and with a big smile, Blair follows her. They leave the shower running as they once again gets consumed by their passion. Moisty noises, louder moans are what is heard from Spencer's bathroom.

(In the Dilaurentis-Fields house)

Emily was making coffee when she heard someone knocking the door; she opens the door and she raises an eye brow when she sees an extremely happy Spencer in front of her…

Emily. – "Are you in drugs?"

Spencer. – "What?!"

Emily. – "Well… you don't look like you… you look really happy…"

Spencer rolls her eyes and she gets inside the house. They were setting the table for breakfast when Blair arrives; Emily doesn't say anything, but she notices how Spencer blushes and smiles when the doctor arrives. They were having breakfast together and Emily is just staring at the girls…

Emily says as she looks at Spencer. – "You look extremely happy?" (She stares at Blair and says) "You too…"

Spencer says as she fills her cup with coffee. – "I don't know what you're talking about…"

Blair says as she puts a napkin in Spencer's lap. – "I'm always looking happy…"

Emily. – "Hmmm…."

Blair tries to change the subject. – "And the boys?"

Emily. – "With my parents in the park…"

Spencer. – "How are you doing? If you need to talk, I…"

Emily. – "I'm okay, thanks…"

Spencer. – "You don't need to act strong Em, we're here for you…"

Blair. – "Yeah, she's right, I can't imagine what are you feeling right now but you're not alone…"

Emily sighs heavy, she knows she need to act like a widow in pain in front of the entire world, but Emily wishes she could say Alison was alive, but she can't, it was too risky and the last thing she wants to do is to put her wife in risk. She needs to pretend that everything is bad even if there's a sparkle of hope in her eyes…

Emily. – "I'm not alone… you're right, I'm not okay but I'll be… my family will be okay… I just know that…"

Spencer nods, she just pats Emily's arm and the girls shares gazes of comfort as Blair was eating some cookies…

Blair. – "These are delicious, where did you buy them?"

Emily. – "I didn't buy them, Sabrina brought them… she came by after the funeral to bring us food… I've ton of food from a lot of people… I don't know why, people keeps bringing me food…"

Blair. – "I guess, they just try to comfort you with food…"

Emily. – "I guess…"

They were having breakfast and Spencer doesn't look happy as she notices how Blair keeps eating the cookies her EX brought…

Spencer says with a bitter voice. – "You're really enjoying those cookies too much…"

Blair nods. – "Yeah… they're very yummy… do you want one?"

Spencer narrows her eyes and Blair gulps hard, she eyes the girl trying to figurate out what she's doing wrong…

Blair. – "What's wrong?"

Spencer. – "Nothing…"

The couple was gazing at each other when Emily's phone rings. Emily takes the call and Spencer notices how Emily's face shows concern…

Spencer. – "Em…?"

Emily. – "We need to go with Hanna… like now…."

Spencer. – "Why…?"

Emily remembers Spencer doesn't want to involve Blair with AD's new game, so she tries to don't overshare information…

Emily. – "Do you remember the game we started… the board game that's in Hanna's place…"

Spencer. – "Don't say more… let's go…"

Blair. – "You're leaving to play a game? Can I play too?"

Spencer. – "NO!"

Blair pouts. – "But…"

Spencer. – "Stay here… if the Fields get back, tell them we're with Hanna's…"

Blair nods and she was going to try to eat another cookie, but Spencer takes them away from her…

Spencer. – "And stop eating those cookies!"

Blair whispers to Spencer. – "Hmmm… you're so hot when you're jealous…"

Spencer just rolls her eyes and leaves with Emily.

(In Erza's apartment)

Erza walks towards his sofa, towards a little brunette who's there… with the look settled far away. Aria gets out of her trance when she notices Erza offering her a cup of coffee…

Aria says as she takes the cup of coffee. – "Thanks…"

Erza doesn't say anything, he just nods and sits at her side; they stay like that till someone breaks the silence…

Aria. – "I bet you're wondering what I'm doing up so early… truth is, I never went to bed…"

Erza. – "Why?"

Aria snaps. – "Why?! Emily is a widow, Toby died and I…"

Erza. – "And you're not guilty of anything…"

Aria. – "What?!"

Erza. – "You didn't push Alison… you didn't shoot Toby…"

Aria. – "But I worked for him… for them…"

Erza. – "It doesn't matter to me, I know why you did it… really… It really doesn't matter…"

Aria. – "But it matters to me…"

The brunette leaves the apartment without saying another word, she can't believe how Erza can say it doesn't matter. Aria drove for the town without a real destination; she has been a complete mess since Alison's funeral; she recalls the look of Emily, how the boys looked sad and she grips on the steering wheel as tears fall from her eyes. She was wiping the tears of her eyes when her phone rang...

(On the phone)

Aria. – "Hello?"

AD. – "Hello Aria…"

Aria gulps hard and it was a dead silence for several seconds till AD started talking…

AD. – "I need you deliver a gift for me to…"

Aria cuts him off. – "NO!"

AD. – "No?"

Aria. – "I'm done with you! You got me to turn against almost every single person that I love… I lost my friends because of you! We lost Alison & Toby because of you! I've done everything you asked me to do and you've given me nothing besides pain and sorrow!"

AD. – "I gave you the file…"

Aria. – "The file is done and so, I'm!"

Aria was going to end the call, but she hesitates when AD says…

AD. – "It's not over till I say so…"

Aria gets angry, she tries to throw her phone through the window of the car, but she stops when she hears…

AD. – "Don't!"

Aria. – "Why not?!"

AD. – "Because today, the day has just started and its playtime…"

Aria. – "What do you mean?"

AD smirks. – "You'll see…"

The call ends, leaving an uneasy little brunette.

(In Hanna's loft)

The three girls were staring at the game with confused, scared looks.

Spencer. – "So… Did Caleb got inside the game?"

Hanna. – "No… we were trying to figure out how it works when that happened…"

Spencer has a piece of paper in her hands that says:

"What would Fashion week be without a fashion victim? Shoeless and clueless, it's time to play Hanna…"

Spencer. – "So… this note really did come out of this thing…?"

Hanna nods. – "Yeah…"

Emily. – "I thought we decided to don't play this game…"

Spencer. – "We did… but it looks it's too late now…"

Hanna. – "I said that I was sorry, okay! I turned it on by accident! Anyway, I say we get a crowbar and see what else is in there"

The blonde takes a knife and rushes towards the board game with blood lust in her eyes and Emily stops her…

Emily. – "Whoa, whoa, calm down tiger…"

Hanna. – "Why are you stopping me?!"

Spencer. – "Because attacking the fucking board game with a steak knife will help no one, Hann…"

Hanna rolls her eyes. – "This is ridiculous… we can't give to this game so much power over us! I'm not gonna let this sadistic freak who has watched 'Jumanji' too many times turn me into a tenth-grade victim again…"

Emily. – "And do you think we want this?! No one asked for this Hann, but we can't just get to walk out from this…"

Hanna snaps. – "Emily! Look at the note! It's directed to my life! If this fucking game is threatening me, then I want some confirmation…"

Spencer. – "Hann… I don't think it takes questions… it's not a Ouija board…"

Hanna huffs and rolls her eyes, Emily takes the knife from Hanna; they calm down and sits in the sofa…

Emily. – "So… what now?"

Spencer. – "If we roll the dice, we're basically inviting the devil in…"

Hanna. – "Yeah… and a horde of little seeds will start to sprout…"

They keep looking at the game in silence till…

Hanna. – "This fucking bastard wants me to blow up my brand… I refuse to do it…"

Spencer. – "Hanna!"

Hanna. – "How ruining my business can help anyone?! Em, I have this brand thanks to Ali… she helped to build it! I can't just throw away her hard work, I don't think Ali would like that…"

Emily sighs, hard, she knows Hanna was right, Alison would never agree to follow blindly AD's commands but…

Emily. – "I know this is like 'Simon says' just meaner, and it's insane to follow orders of this fucking bastard but…"

Hanna. – "But…?"

Emily. – "But we need to play this and win it! And for that…"

Hanna sighs. – "I need to play my part…."

Emily nods and Hanna just shakes her head. They were still talking when the phone of the board rings and the girls stand up to look at it…

Spencer reads. – "Open the door…"

(Knock, knock)

They stare at the door and Emily is the one opening it…

Hanna. – "No, Em! Wait, it can be dangerous…"

Emily doesn't care, she opens the door and they gasps with shock as they see a big doll which looks a lot like Hanna…

Hanna. – "What the hell?!"

Spencer looks at the doll and pushes a button, the doll talks and indicates them that for more information, they need to see the appendix…

Hanna. – "What does it mean?!"

Emily. – "I don't know… Spence…?"

Spencer is thinking and her face light up when an idea comes to her mind…

Spencer. – "Do you remember the game 'operation'?"

Emily. – "Yeah… the one where the guy has a big red light-up to his nose…"

Spencer nods and flips up the t-shirt of the doll, they notice a dotted line bordering the area of the appendix…

Spencer. – "I think I just figure it out what we need to do… AD wants us to cut this thing open…"

Lordy, lordy, look who gonna be a doctor today. Or at least they will practice with a doll… careful girls, the game doesn't end with just cutting the doll…

(Some hours later…)

Caleb was with Hanna in their sofa, talking about AD game and Hanna's turn…

Caleb says as he looks at the dress that Hanna has got from the doll. – "It's short…"

Hanna. – "I know…"

Caleb. – "But really short! Like everyone's gonna see your spicy tuna-roll…"

Hanna. – "That's not the worse part! The big part is this was supposed to be our chance to get in Japan market! I wear this during my fashion show and the Japanese investors that Ali convinced to come to see my brand, they're gonna be completely offended!"

Caleb. – "So… this is the game? The dress pisses off the investors, you lose the business…"

Hanna. – "And money… Ali's money since she's my only investor till now…" (Sighs) "I guess now, it's Emily's money since… God! This is so wrong! Does AD want to leave Em without nothing?! Without Ali… without money and all will be my fault!"

Caleb tries to calm her down. – "It will not be your fault, Hann, it will be AD's fault…"

Hanna walks in circle, she's so pissed, she was running her hand through her hair when a picture catches her attention, she looks at the picture and a nostalgic smile appears in her face… it was picture of her and Alison, celebrating with margaritas…

Hanna chuckles with sadness. – "I perfectly remember this day… I was so depressed because it was the 1st month of our brand and it was going to end without any sales, I was so sad, I thought no one could ever want my clothes, that I was losing my time, that I had no talent to be in this business… and do you remember what she did… what Alison did?"

Caleb. – "No…"

Hanna. – "She opened her laptop and order one dress…" (Chuckles) "She just bought a dress to cheer me up!" (A tear) "She dragged me to celebrate our 1st purchase order… her order…." (Sad chuckle) "We got so drunk that night…"

Caleb chuckles. – "Well, that part, of you being very drunk, that part I remember…"

They chuckle till Hanna starts to sob, and tears fall from her eyes; Caleb clears her tears with his thumb…

Hanna sobs. – "I'm impressive, creative but not confident… I have never believed in me, but she did… Ali believed in me, in my talent… she taught me how to breeze in this business and be the boss… I can't destroy what we built together! This brand it's all I've from her…"

Caleb. – "What happens if you just say screw it and you refuse to play? You flip the board over and you storm out?"

Hanna. – "I don't know… but I'm too scared to find it out…"

There is an awkward silence till one of them break the silence…

Hanna. – "We're out of our league… all of us… we can't win this game…"

Caleb. – "Hanna! Don't say that! We…"

Hanna cuts him off. – "No! We can't win this alone…"

Caleb. – "What do you mean?"

Hanna doesn't reply, she just drags him out the loft.

Looks like our dear Hanna banana might got an idea. Wondering in which horse is she going to bet…

(In Spencer's barn at night)

Spencer jumps of surprise when she finds someone inside…

Spencer. – "Jesus! What are you doing here?!"

Blair. – "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, but you didn't pick up your phone and I was worried…"

Spencer walks towards her sofa and says. – "I was with the girls… you knew that…"

Blair stares at the girl, and she says…

Blair. – "Did you win the game…?"

Spencer sighs hard. – "No one has won yet…"

Blair. – "Hmmm…"

Spencer looks at Blair and notices something…

Spencer. – "What is in your mind?"

Blair. – "This game… does it have something to do with AD?"

Spencer snaps. – "What?!"

Blair approaches and shows her a text she received from AD…

AD's text: Sorry Blair. Don't say we didn't try to warn you. But if I would throw the Queen Bee from a cliff… are any of you safe? Bow down or bow out… AD

Spencer gasps with shock, this kind of threats is what she has been trying to avoid…

Blair wraps her arms around her and says. – "Hey… hey… it will be okay…"

Spencer. – "How can you say that?! It's far to be okay! God!" (She runs a hand through her hair and says) "You should have gone to London…. You…"

Blair cuts her off. – "I'm where I need to be… at your side…"

Spencer says with watery-eyes. – "Blair, no, you… nothing can happen to you, too… I wouldn't bear it… I…."

Blair cuts her off again, but this time without words; the young doctor collapses her lips against Spencer's lips, it was a kiss filled with despair, hunger and love. Their head move in synchrony, and they deepen the kiss as much they can; when Blair notices they need air to breath, she breaks the kiss, leaning their front-head together…

Blair. – "Nothing bad will happen to me… I promise…"

Spencer. – "You don't know that… you can't promise me that… you…"

Blair caresses Spencer's face and they stare at each other as they keep talking…

Blair. – "I'm completely, completely in love with you…"

Spencer smiles

Blair. – "I can't wait until we're free of this AD, to be with you…"

Spencer pleads. – "Blair…"

Blair. – "It's my life Spence… and it's now or never, because if not now, when? Sometimes, 'later becomes 'never' and I don't want that for us…"

Spencer sighs hard, she tries to look down, but Blair doesn't let her as she put her hands on her chin, Spencer stares at Blair's eyes and she smiles as she notices how the young doctor looks at her with a lot of love…

Blair. – "Don't ask me to walk away from you, I can't… All I know is I belong to you… I mean, I have always been able to talk to you, to make you laugh, and all I want is to take care of you…"

Spencer says as she rubs her belly. – "To both of us?"

Blair chuckles and nods, she softly puts her hands over Spencer's and they softly rubs Spencer's belly with their hands interlaced…

Blair. – "Yeah… both of you…"

They stay in silence, staring at each other and then Spencer leans and kisses her in the lips, it was a soft kiss in the lips that melt their hearts. They hug and Spencer hugs her tight…

Spencer. – "Can you stay tonight?"

Blair smiles and nods. – "I would love that…"

Spencer breaks the hug, she grabs Blair hand and interlace their fingers, both girl smile with the gesture; they look at each other and Spencer just guide them to her bed. They lean in bed, they tangled their bodies together and moan their names over and over as they make love.

Spotted: Spencer and Blair in a massive display of PDA. And that's exactly what AD is. Pretty. Damn. Angry.

(In Weltby at night)

*** Music background: Fight 'Til the End by Jack Savoretti ***

Mona was in her room, playing with a snow ball, she hears some noises, she turns her head and her eyes get bigger of shock as she sees something in the shadows of the night; she throws the snow ball to the floor and says…

Mona. – "Are you here to kill me?"

From the shadows, two persons emerge…

Caleb. – "No, Mona… we aren't here to kill you…"

Hanna. – "I need to show you something… I need your help…"

*** Hanna's narrative ***

We swim around in this fishbowl like we're in control… but we're not… there's always someone watching… manipulating… We're out of our league… all of us… I don't know what to say or what to do… I can't vanquish this monster alone… but I know who can…

Next: Chapter 72 – Who gonna stop me?