Daddy's Little Girl

They are gonna make up, so it's all good again ;)

Uma FicWriter: I'm sorry! It really makes me sad to write things like that too but I guess she should have moments like that...

Guest: This will be even cuter :)

LoveLastsForever: I love Derek too! It's so sad, isn't it :D But he can be so unbelievably McDreamy… And I have to admit that I really have no idea how to have him react to everything but there will be more to come, for now it'll blow over and I'll figure his reaction out...

Addison-fan: Ugh, tell me about it! Your best friend sleeps with your wife and there's nothing you do about it. Yep. Of course. It didn't make sense and it annoyed me! Addek would have been such a wonderful couple but when I started to post this story again I got reviews like "liked this better when it was MerDer" and even though I can imagine that people would think that, MerDer is disgusting...

geller516: I'm so glad that there are still Addek lovers too :D it's good not to be alone! Addison and Derek will get over this but it won't just be done like that,even though it makes me sad… But I love those two too much to break them up :)

MsMiuMiu: Thank you :) I'm glad people are still reading it because writing it is fun! And I'm really not sure how Derek will react to all of this in the future because I think that'll be difficult...

lorenalims: You're welcome :D and there probably will be more drama to come

Guest: I always feel so bad for her too… :(

And to the rest: There will be a little more drama ahead because losing the one you love is hard and I'll have to deal with her past a little more…But for now: FLUFF!


Chapter Ten - The One Where Carl Needs a Herd

The next day at work all Addison wanted to do was apologize to Derek for the way she had acted the day before. He had done absolutely nothing wrong and she felt that she owed him an explanation for her sudden mood swing. When her little daughter had told her that she was looking at Derek the way she had been looking at Christopher Addison had felt like he had died all over again, like she couldn't breathe anymore. She had known that this would happen at some point but everything with Derek had been so simple and wonderful. He made her feel alive in the best way possible and like she didn't have a care in the world. And on top of everything Grace absolutely adored him and had already asked her mother to ask Derek if he could fit heaters in his backyard so that maybe they could possiblyyy (she had stressed this) have some zebras there and she could come to visit them.

"Derek, can I talk to you for a minute?" She had come up behind him when he was busy looking at the OR board and she had felt so nervous, thinking that he might not want to talk to her But then he had turned around and immediately given her a smile.

"Are you okay?" He asked softly and ran his hand up her arm soothingly but remained at an arm's length. Addison only nodded her head and pulled him towards the stairwell with her so they could talk in private.

"I'm so sorry about yesterday." She had tears in her eyes again but quickly blinked them back. "It's just that Grace told me that I looked at you like I used to look at Chris…" She didn't look at him, the tears she had blinked back only moments before now falling freely. "And I just felt like my heart was breaking because… Because I can't help it and I also can't help but freak out. You don't deserve this, I'm so sorry," she whispered and turned to open the door again but then he caught her arm in his hand and pulled her against him carefully so that he could wrap his arms around her in a hug.

"I'm sorry, Addie," he whispered and just held her until she stopped crying.

"I'm not normally some crazy lady who just starts crying…" She cleared her throat when she had pulled back and wiped the tears away from her face. "And I feel terrible about doing this to you."

"You don't have to feel bad. I know what it's like to lose a loved one so you don't have to justify anything to me, okay?" He ran his fingers along her cheeks and wiped away the last traces of her tears. When his father had died his mother was broken but had tried her best not to show it and it had killed him to see her like this so he could only imagine what Addison must be going through.

"Thank you for being so perfect." She leaned in to softly peck his lips. "How about I buy you some lunch up on the roof?"

"As much as I'd love to I'm already having lunch with someone…"

"Really, you're already replacing me?" She raised her eyebrows and smiled to let him know she was just teasing him.

"Yeah, with your daughter, who has officially become obsessed with the purchase of zebras," he laughed and wrapped his arms around her again. By now she was laughing as well and relaxed in his embrace. It felt so good to be close to him. "But you could always join us."

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"Mommy! Derek said that he has a really big backyard!" Of course Grace was more than just excited about that because now she actually had a place for her zebras to live! She knew exactly how she wanted them to live and had already picked out names for all of them. "Then Carl doesn't have to be lonely anymore because I read that zebras live in herds." She held up her stuffed zebra as her mother sat down at the table across from Derek.

"Honey, you can be Carl's herd…" Addison tried as she took a bite out of her sandwich; her daughter still hadn't touched hers because she was very busy explaining to Derek how pretty the fences should be so the zebras would like living there.

"But I'm not a zebra." Grace gave her mother a 'come on' look. How could she possibly be Carl's herd when Carl was a zebra?

"Gracie, I'm not sure that zebras would really like my backyard. I mean, it's still Seattle and it rains a lot and it's kind of cold in the winter. Your mommy and I checked and they really don't make heaters big enough for all of Carl's herd," Derek explained and saw the little girl pout. "But we can pick up a friend for Carl on our next trip to the zoo?"

"I suppose," Grace sighed and slumped back in her chair and hugged Carl before whispering, "we'll find you a really cool friend, Carl. And until then I'll be your friend."

Under the table Derek had taken Addison's hand in his and was smiling at her. Partially because Grace was more than just adorable and partially because he was glad that Addison seemed to be doing better than she had been this morning.

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"Your daughter is beyond adorable," Miranda Bailey told Addison when the two of them were sitting in the doctor's lounge, drinking coffee.

"Thank you, she's just like my husband," Addison said without realizing what she had said because she had always been saying that, mainly because Grace really was just like Christopher.

"Oh, I didn't know you were married…" Miranda was caught off guard just a little, after all she had heard the rumors about Addison and Derek and she had seen them having lunch on numerous occasions. But maybe those interns just didn't have enough to do so they had decided to make up rumors about their attendings.

"My husband passed away almost two years ago," Addison said quietly. Her well-rehearsed explanation seemed to be getting easier with each time that she said it.

"I'm so sorry, I really didn't mean to intrude…" Miranda was absolutely mortified by now and wished to just take back what she had said. Even though she normally was rather blunt she really hadn't meant to make her colleague uncomfortable or to make her think that she was prying.

"It's fine that you asked. I mean, no one here knows. Except for Richard and well, Derek." She had to smile slightly at the mention of Derek's name because even thinking of him made her just a little happier.

"So you and Shepherd…" Miranda began after a few minutes of silence.

"Kind of…" Now Addison was blushing and couldn't help but feel completely silly because she was a grown woman, for god's sake…

"He really is the best choice here. But don't tell him I said that."

"My lips are sealed." Addison chuckled and gave Miranda a smile. She really liked her even though everyone was afraid of her.

"I appreciate that. It would only make that man's ego bigger. If that is even a possibility."

"Oh, he's sweet. And so are you, I don't know why they call you the Nazi." Miranda only laughed at that and shrugged her shoulders. She didn't mind the nickname but was glad that at least one of her colleagues didn't think of her as the Nazi.

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"Dude, you want to watch the game with Burke and me?" Mark leaned against the wall next to Derek and yawned. He had always thought that plastics would be the coolest of all specializations and he had been right but he hadn't thought that he too would have to face those grueling shifts as well…

"Can't, I have plans. But I hope you and Preston have fun on your man date," he chuckled at the pissed off look his best friend gave him.

"What plans could be more important than playoffs?"

"Uhm… I'm taking Addison sightseeing again." Derek tried his best to sound nonchalant but of course Mark had been teasing about taking Addison sightseeing and about always spending all his time with a woman who had turned him down in the beginning.

"Again? I swear, if you're not boning her –"

"Don't," Derek stopped him quickly, "talk about her like that and it's not like that at all."

"But you're dating?"

"I think so…"

"How can you not know?"

"Mark, not knowing with her is better than knowing with anyone else in this world." And with this Derek walked off and left his best friend shaking his head. Mark was glad that Derek seemed to be happy because he really deserved it.

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Later that night Derek had taken Addison for another walk along the pier because she had been begging him the entire ride. Now they were standing close to the water and he had his arms wrapped around from behind her. The entire night he hadn't been able to stop looking at her because she was absolutely enchanting.

"So, have you ever missed the city?" She asked quietly, completely relaxed in his embrace. He had told her that he had been born in New York City and that his family had then moved up state to be closer to his mother's family when he was growing up and his father had passed away.

"I still live in the city, you know," he teased because he knew that she meant New York. "But since I know what you mean, not really. It just feels like it's haunted, especially our old neighborhood…"

"Yeah… I get that…" She felt his hold on her tightening and was so happy to have him there with her. Dealing with everything that had happened in the past by herself had become unbearable and she was even more grateful to have Derek. He had become her rock, her confidant and one of her best friends in this short amount of time.

"It gets easier with time but the pain will never go away completely. But don't let anyone tell you that you have to move on, everyone needs to take their time. I think my mom has never moved on," he said sadly because he had always hoped his mom would someday find happiness again but even though she always tried to hide it, he knew that deep down she had never been able to move past the loss of her soul mate.

"I'm so sorry, Derek," she whispered and turned around in his arms to hug him.

"Don't be, it happened a long time ago and not thinking about it all the time really helps."

"How about we do that then? Because it's really gorgeous here and you're not the worst of company," Addison teased him and smiled when she saw the look in his eyes change from hurt to amuse.

"I think my knowledge of Seattle is the only way you keep me around," he sighed dramatically and pulled her towards the intended 'sight' of the night. "But before you confirm that I'll save myself the heartache," he smiled when he saw her laugh, "you really have to try the salted caramel here." He ushered her into Molly Moon's and watched her face light up when she was inside. "Even my spoiled sisters like this."

"I really think that you should quit your job and become a Seattle tour guide," Addison told him seriously when they were standing on the deck of the ferry. The last time they had missed almost the entire ferry ride because they had been too busy kissing. Not that that wasn't going to happen this time, but they could always try.

"You think so?" He chuckled and turned his head to the side to look at her.

"Mhmmm, because I'm really going to miss those little sightseeing trips."

"Why miss them? There's so much to see here I'll still be showing you around in a year."

"I'm glad," she whispered before she closed the small distance between them and covered his lips with her own. When her arms came up to wrap around his neck Derek pulled back slightly with that boyish grin she liked so much on his face.

"You'll miss the ferry ride again," he teased.

"This is much better." And with this she kissed him again, a little more passionate this time to make sure he wouldn't pull back again. Derek pressed her up against the railing softly and she could feel his body against hers when his tongue slipped into her mouth and she couldn't hold back a breathy moan anymore. Her body was reacting to his and she just wished that they could just be alone somewhere instead of on a ferry. Cool midnight was surrounding them as their lips moved against each other and his fingers that had been lost in her hair moved down her neck and then pulled her against him a little more. Derek couldn't focus on anything but Addison and he wouldn't have wanted it any other way.


Yay! Things between them are better :) There will be more past to come but not just yet.

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