Daddy's Little Girl
NetflixPerson01: She already said she won't run :( even though I have to say that I have annoyed the Obama/Biden memes a lot (I love Joe, like an unhealthy amount anyway). But this chapter won't be really happy either, because he will move on, like she has told him. I think It'll be Addek eventually, but right now I'm not even sure…
LoveLastsForever: I think this election is foreshadowing horrible election outcomes all over the place, ugh! Anyway! I'm so sorry I cannot fix your heart soon, in my other stories I can, but this one needs some more heartbreak because he has to move on at some point. Poor Addie :(
Guest: They might make up some time in the future but for now I'm not sure that's where I want to take this story (at least not just yet)
Addison-fan: I think she already knows but admitting that to herself will be a little harder, especially when his life will go on, even without her… I'm sorry it's still so sad, but all my other stories are happy right now, there needs to be a change :/
Guest: I still cannot believe that anyone would have voted for someone like that and I do wonder how any of those electoral idiots could ever justify voting for someone who has said such despicable things! BUT I'm glad that in my little Addek dreamland (that also really sin't happy right now) the current president elect has never existed.
Lena-Prince08: I think Addek needs a little time apart to realize what they both want, replying to your guys' reviews is very cathartic actually :D I hope you'll still be reading after this, but I just thought they needed some time… No matter if he uses it to date other women.
Thanks to everyone who is still reading this! I always appreciate the reviews, you guys are simply amazing! And thanks for calling attention to my error! This is the right chapter! Sorry, this happens when you let sick people access a computer...
I Guess It's Really Over
Two weeks later Derek still felt completely heartbroken and he knew that a certain redhead was the cause of that particular condition. He had snapped at his interns whenever they asked stupid questions, or just questions at all. He had been in the lousiest mood he had ever been in and somehow he didn't want to change it.
"Okay, this is it, you're going out with me tonight." Mark sighed rather annoyed when he watched the look on his best friend's face. He had been happy that Derek had been so over the moon with Addison but what they all hadn't expected was the abrupt end of the relationship.
"Nope." Derek simply said and didn't even look up from his post OP notes. He didn't feel like going out, especially not with Mark because that always meant picking up women and that was the last thing Derek wanted. There was only one woman he wanted and he couldn't have her so he'd rather be miserable than to just date someone meaningless.
"Derek, really, you're my best friend and you've been in this mood where you've scared most interns and nurses out of wanting to work with you." Mark watched his best friend look up slowly. "I know you didn't think it was that bad but it's worse and you can't keep feeling like this. So, come on, just you and me and some drinks."
Derek sighed, he knew that Mark made a good point but going out really wasn't something he wanted to do. "Fine."
"Great!" Mark turned to leave after padding his best friend on the back. "And then we'll get you a girl." He grinned and Derek turned around as well to give him annoyed look but saw Addison standing there instead. She just stared at him like a deer caught in the headlights of a car. It broke his heart when he saw the hurt on her face and he just wanted to follow her when she quickly walked down the hall again.
"Great, thank you, Mark." Derek was beyond annoyed because the last thing he wanted was to ever make her look this hurt. Of course, she had broken up with him but he just wanted her back so badly and even if he could never have her back he couldn't stand to see her looking at him like this.
"You have to move on and you will, so she'll have to live with it." But Derek was already not listening to that anymore because he only could think about Addison.
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"What's going on?" Miranda Bailey sat down next to Addison on a bench just outside of the hospital. Both women were already dressed in their regular clothes, ready to leave the hospital after a long day.
"Hi, Miranda." Addison looked up and gave her colleague a weak smile. "I just don't feel like going home just yet. You?" Grace was already in bed and then there was nothing she wanted to rush home to.
"Same." Miranda sighed and saw Addison raise her eyebrows as to ask why she didn't want to go home either. "My in laws are coming to town and my mother in law hates me. So the less time I spend with them, the better…"
"Oh, Miranda, I didn't even know you were married. I'm so sorry about being this preoccupied with myself…" She really did feel terrible. All those times they had talked she hadn't even thought of asking if Miranda was married.
"Don't be sorry." Miranda shook her head in dismissal. "We've been married four years and my mother in law still hasn't exactly warmed up to me. But I guess you never had that problem."
"Uhm… No… But she probably doesn't hate you."
"Oh, no, she does, she told Tucker that he was making the biggest mistake and if it wasn't for my father in law she would have showed up to the wedding dressed in black because she said she was in mourning."
"Geez, she sounds awful. I'm really sorry."
"Don't be, he married me any way and we're happy. When they're here to visit I just avoid going home. So, what's going on with you?"
"It's nothing, I just like sitting here." Addison shrugged her shoulders and stared into the night.
"Come on, only Sloan would have believed that. It has something to do with Shepherd, doesn't it?"
"Yeah… Mark was saying that he was going to, and I quote, 'find him another girl' so…"
"So you're sitting here…"
"So I'm sitting here. I don't get to be jealous, I don't get to feel like this because I want him to move on and to be happy…" She really wanted to see him happy but she had felt like someone had put a knife right through her heart when she had overheard the conversation Derek had had with Mark.
"You can just tell him how you feel about him and then let him make his own decision of whether he thinks you're what he wants or not. He's a big boy." Miranda glanced down at her cell phone that had kept ringing ever since she had turned it on after getting it out of her locker.
"You should go home, Miranda, I think your husband is no longer able to hold down the fort by himself." This made Miranda laugh and she nodded and got up.
"Talk to Shepherd, you don't deserve to be unhappy either."
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"Can we go on the Ferris wheel?" Grace asked her mother after they had gotten some cotton candy at the fair she had been dying to go to.
"Yeah, we can do that." Addison smiled at her daughter and picked her up so she could see a little better. "So, does this beat a day at the hospital, or what?" Her days away from work were much too rare but she had promised Grace to take her to the fair before it closed the next week.
"Definitely!" Grace giggled and was now sitting on her mother's shoulders. Her excitement began to grow even further when she spotted Derek not too far from them. Addison had seen him too and had frozen in place when she saw that he wasn't alone. There was a tall and very gorgeous and very blond woman next to him and she kept smiling, touching his arm and offering some of her cotton candy. Great, Addison thought and just wanted to bolt but Grace had already waved and now Derek and his date were making their way over to them.
"Hi." Derek smiled at Grace and suddenly Addison couldn't talk anymore. He no longer looked hurt and upset but comfortable and even happy. "Hey." He greeted her as well and she forced a smile.
"Hi." She gave him an uneasy smile. "I'm Addison." She introduced herself to the blonde who was standing so very close to Derek that Addison felt like she was going to be sick.
"Kate, hi."
"And I'm Grace!" The little girl jumped in, not catching up on the awkwardness. "Are you going on the Ferris wheel with us?"
"Oh, no, I'm afraid of heights, I can't even climb a ladder." The woman next to Derek smiled at Grace.
"That sucks."
"I know, it really does." She gave the little girl a smile as Derek and Addison simply stared at each other.
"We should go, it was nice to meet you." Addison said quickly and walked towards the big wheel without even waiting for a reply from either Derek or his date.
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Addison had been miserable and had been moping around the house the rest of Sunday after seeing Derek and his date. His date. She couldn't help the tears once she had brought Grace to bed. Of course she had said that she wanted him to be happy but she hadn't expected it to be so soon and she hadn't expected to feel quite this miserable after seeing him with someone else, on top of all with someone who looked like that. And he had looked happy and carefree like he had always looked around her. Addison sighed and buried her face in her pillow. All she wanted was to just call him and tell him how much she cared about him but she couldn't. He was moving on and that was what she had told him to do so she should just be the bigger person and be happy for him. But easier said than done.
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"Dr. Montgomery, I'm your intern for today." Izzie Stevens had approached Addison in front of the cafeteria.
"Great, but I'll just get some coffee, I'll be right there. You can already go familiarize yourself with our first patient." She handed the young intern a file and saw her nod as she made her way upstairs. Today was promising to be a really lousy day. She hadn't been able to get any sleep the night before because she had been to preoccupied with the gorgeous blonde Derek had taken to the fair the day before and on top of everything coffee didn't seem to do the trick anymore. And just when Addison thought that this day couldn't get any worse she was proven wrong when she Derek getting up from a table where he had been sitting with the exact same woman from the day before. Great, just great, Addison sighed and got her coffee, all the while she avoided looking at Derek who walked past her. Coffee, she just needed some coffee. When she was on the elevator she closed her eyes for a moment before a voice interrupted her thoughts.
"Hold the doors, please!" And she did only to have Derek's date join her just before the doors closed.
"Hi!" She greeted with a smile. "I'm sorry I didn't get to properly introduce myself yesterday." She extended her hand to Addison. "Kate Kelly."
"Addison Montgomery." Addison shook the other woman's hand and gave her a slight smile.
"Nice to meet you." There was a moment of silence before she began to talk again. "God, don't you hate hospital coffee?" She made a face when she sipped some of her coffee.
"Oh, it's much better than the coffee in the doctor's lounge…" Addison cleared her throat awkwardly and just hoped that those damn doors would open soon.
"Wow, the perks of being a doctor…"
"Or of dating one…" And with this Addison finally stepped off the elevator and quickly walked down the hall, leaving the blonde behind without even giving her another glance.
"Dr. Montgomery, are you alright?" Izzie looked at her attending, who looked just like she had seen a ghost.
"Yeah, I'm fine." She said quickly and blinked her tears back. Derek deserved to be happy, she kept telling herself and tried to push all those thoughts away. She had work to do.
Two weeks passed and she is still heartbroken. I feel so bad for putting you guys through this but after a lot of soul searching I am still not entirely sure how this will all work out, so I need your thoughts on that more than ever!
And, yeah, he's already seeing someone else, but a guy can't wait for all of eternity when the situation just feels hopeless, can he?
Reviews please, I'd like your thoughts on this ;-)
